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I have struggled with my weight my whole life I guess. I look back at pictures and I don't see the overly obese child that my family made me out to be. I was very active in school and very athletic. I would; if I saw me today, say I was healthy. I would work out for 1 hour on the stair climber at the gym, and lift weight so I was "thick" and solid.

I gained weight after high school, but not a lot at one time. It seemed to creep up on me. At the point I hit 210 lbs. and slipped into a deeper depression than I had ever seen, I decided to lose the weight. I slowly worked myself up to running 3 miles a day and lifting weights again every day of the week. I soon lost 75 lbs. and was smaller and healthier than I had ever been in my life. I stayed in this shape for about 5 years and was very proud of myself.

I then met my husband on a blind date and we fell in love. We have been together for 12 years now and have a 10 year old daughter. Complacency set in and I thought I was happy. After I gave birth to my daughter I started out with the baby blues and fell into a deep deep depression and the weight has just packed on and packed on. At my highest I was 289 and I was so sadden and sicken by myself I contemplated suicide. I at that point sought medical help for the depression and the medication has helped so much. I am still disgusted with myself for allowing all this weight to pile on. I have quit drinking all together (although I never had a "drinking problem", I have quit smoking (which I had done since I was 16. I quit 5 years before my daughter was born and started again when she was about 2-3 years old.) I feel if I can quit these things I can kick this food addiction I seem to have.

I don't feel I eat a lot, it is just the wrong things, eating out a lot, eating tator tots and pizzas a lot. I am finding a new me again. I am searching thru this forest for the woman I know is in here. I found her once before and I want to find her again. I have tried a lot of different things to lose weight but it seems to take so much more to get the weight off and keep it off. I am praying that with the band and the help of the nutritionist I will be able to get back on track and become healthy again. Not to lose myself in the forest of depression.

Well this is me. Feel free to friend me and send me messages. I love meeting new people that are going thru the same thing as I am.

Much Love and prayers to all