thewinds

Monday is go day 6am. Right now I am happy and excited and conifdent I can do this but I know at night in the dark while I lay in bed he will snore and my head will go in over drive I am not liking night time right now

I tried to clean and prep but I haven't had a free minute I wanted to get. Ahead on cleaning but have been just keeping up the last week I so don't want to come home to a mess..... I plan on making a big lasagne and chilli and maybe buying some frozen pizzas for the family before I go in. I have no pre diet I am 5"11 342 going to get the sleeve on Monday i do have to clean out Sunday night. My goal is 150-160. Don't stress. I am hoping to be drugged after surgery as much as possible so I don't notice smells..... That and I am a wuss

Wondering if losing weight will make my wrinkles more noticeable Will my skin still be dry How can I maximize my weight loss and minamize the squishy ness (extra skin) Why the heck did my period come two weeks early and four days before surgery? Grrrrrr......

I can't sleep it is three am April 23 is my date but every minute between now and then is booked. I am nervous about stupid stuff like pain and squishy body after I wish I could sleep but all i can do is lay here listening to him snore and wonder if the last year of work I was crazy and now I am sane this is stupid I told my self last month if I made it this far I wouldn't let nervous get the best of me I have spent a year jumping for my insurance company I know it's last minute jitters but if I can't sleep Thursday what will I do on Sunday night