shelleyrn22

I can hardly believe it's here! I started this journey I wls in March and here I am... Getting ready to leave for the hospital. I'm scared and excited all at the same time.

Omg... Mag citrate is the devil - just saying! I'm soooo sick!!! It's made my stomach cramp, I can't get 2ft from the bathroom, I'm nauseated and I just wanna go to bed!!!!

It's a laxative... Bowel prep... And it's killing me.

Sooo much to do today... And I'm still laying in bed in disbelief that this time tomorrow I'll be at the hospital getting prepped. This is by far the craziest, most expensive, selfish thing I've ever done. I am beside myself with excitement at the thought of my new life! I've told myself a million different things to justify it, but the truth is I'm fat, depressed, unhealthy and I've worked my fingers to the bone to provide for my son, made sure he had all he needed & wanted, put my everything in my job and ya know what?? It's my turn. Yes, it's about getting healthy, but who am I kidding??? I wanna be a hot mami!!! I'm 40yrs old and I wanna turn heads again - and not the other way! I want people to see me with my boyfriend and think "wow... What a lucky, one eyed guy". I wanna wear pants without feeling like I need CPR! I wanna not hear that internal "beep beep beep" when I need to step back out of someone's way. I wanna never be the heaviest person in the room again. In fact, I wanna not even think about that anymore. I wanna live longer than my daddy did, grandparents did and even aunts & uncles. I wanna not lay on the couch all weekend because I'm too tired to move. I wanna not get pissed when I miss a weekend nap. I want, I want, I want!!! Okay, that's my rant... I trust the Lord and know He'll work all this out for my good. He has a plan & a hope for my future! Jeremiah 29:11- read it! Much love & prayers to those being sleeved today and the rest of the week! Shelley

Wow... I'm completely exhausted! I just finished dinner (a bottle of mag citrate), I've had a pedi, got my son packed for his trip and I'm about to wind down and relax - until the mag kicks in. :/

Funny you said that! I was thinking this morning what a great investment I'm making!

I meant Pre op diet! Sorry! Surgery tomorrow :/

I'm 5'2, 210 when I started this craziness; 10 days post op diet and 36hrs til surgery and I'm at 200lbs. My dr set my goal weight at 125. I can't even imagine! I'm self pay as well, but Having surgery locally. So excited... And scared!

I did a refi on my home and got 1.5 pts lower interest rate, took the cash out on equity. Figured it was cheaper than a funeral.

Thoughts & prayers!!!!

Valerie!!!!!!!! Do you have any idea how bloated surgery makes you??? The IV fluids alone are enough to put on 10lbs! CHILL OUT!!! Oh - and by the way.... about this time next week, I'll expect this same reply from you... Glad you are doing well!

My surgery is on Thursday and I am about jump out of my skin... I have so many fears! Then when I tell someone I'm having it, their first response is "you aren't big enough, are you?". I'm right at 100lbs overweight, my labs & risk factors are off the chart... my bmi is 38. My dilemma was: do it now while I can or put it off another few years and risk my health... I don't know about anyone else, but this almost feels like this surgery is going to save my life. I did discuss my fears with my Doctor today and his reply was "Well, if you put average effort into your sleeve, you'll get average results. If you eat right, exercise and use your tool, you'll get better than average results". It clicked... for the first time... it clicked! Thoughts & prayers!!

God Bless all those having surgery today.... keep us updated!

South Mississippi - $14k

What's your countdown?? Mine is 5 days (including today) and a wake up!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEK!!! Still so much to do to get ready! First on the list: PEDICURE!!!!!!

I'm not, nor have I ever been, a huge fan of Protein shakes. However, I've been doing quite well on my pre-op diet and have actually found a few I like. The other day (prior to pre-op) I found a recipe on pinterest for a copycat version for Wendy's Frosty. This morning I adapted it to my Protein shake. I used my normal shake powder (I'm using up a bag of Visalus I already had), about 1/4 cup of ice, 1/2 - 1 Cup of Milk (depending how thick or how much shake you want to make), 2 tablespoons of sugar free,fat free chocolate pudding mix, 2 tablespoons of cool whip (Sugar free), a dash of vanilla flavoring (about a tsp). Just chunk it all in the blender and oila! It is FABULOUS!!!!!! Oh... after a few delicious sips, I noticed a lone, small, banana on the bar that I knew would soon ruin, so I chopped it up and put it in the shake and blended again. Yummo McYummerson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've cheated twice Pre-op diet... But no more (I hope!). I'm right where he wanted me to be on the day of surgery as far as weight. I am scared and continually think about the "what if's", but that's normal.... I guess :/

What is breezer? I haven't bought a bunch of anything. My boyfriend had gastric bypass a few yrs ago so he drinks protein shakes as well. Where do you find the breezer stuff?

Dina! You'll get a date on Mon! Did you do psych eval? Omg whoever didn't do your labs was wrong! I haven't done the support group yet. Maybe we can go together to the next one! I have my Pre op appt with dr on tues, then surgery on thurs. I almost cracked up on first few days of Pre op diet, but it's not so bad anymore. I'm ready to do this!

So excited for you! You're going to be fine!

Today was day 4 for my Pre op. I had a crisis and didnt think I was going to be able to stick to my date, but it's working out! So I did eat today... Back on the wagon tomorrow.

Some of you may have seen my posts but I'm self pay and refinancing my home to have this done. I'm about to freak out! Been on Pre-op diet 3 days now, surgery in 7 days and the loan for my refi is still in underwriting! If we don't close by Friday I'll have to reschedule surgery and start this Pre-op mess all over again! I'm so frustrated, discouraged & hungry! Hoping & praying for good news tomorrow. I've actually even thought about canceling it altogether and stopping the loan and just forget I ever had hopes of someday being thin & healthy.

All I can tell you folks is God is good! Ty for your prayers! Looks like this may happen after all! Oops... Ok- back on the Pre-op diet wagon!