Rycherchick

I am pre-op and when I first read this post it scared the crap out of me but not so much that I would reconsider the surgery. I was skeptical of the post also only when she said no one should have this surgery. If it is true I can understand her feelings toward this surgery but the outcome her sister had is rare and will not happen to everyone. I am very nervous about surgery only because I hate not being in control of things ( like I am in control of my food intake right? lol) I hate being put under and am terrified I will not wake up. I saw the documentary on the Fitness channel called the 1000 pound mom or some similar title. The woman was young, in her early 30's and she was prob 900 lbs and underwent the GB and passed away 2 weeks later. Her poor heart was just so taxed from being at that weight she survived the surgery only to die of complications a few weeks later and she left 2 daughters. My heart broke for that woman and her family. None of us are guaranteed tomorrow and I just hope and pray that God sees it fit to keep me in this world with my family and I have a 13 yr old who needs me but I put it like this, all of us on this Earth are here on a mission and when we have done what we are to do we will go home. I don't think my mission will be up on January 30 I hope my mission will be just beggining and I hope to be able to post a few hrs out of surgery to let you all know I made it to the other side and it can only get better from here on out. Blessing and peace, Janice

Jessica Ann, My husband is the same way, he is very supportive. He worries about something happening but I am relativly healthy with no co-morbidities. I am sure I will be fine with no complications.

Your story is very similar to mine except I grew up in the 70's. I was thin until prob 10 and then I was maybe 8 lbs overweight. My mom was a stick ( still is at 71) but she rode me my whole life aboutw eight and EVERYTHING else. We were very restricted in what we could eat and there were never snacks around. We ocasionally had cookies and cake and i cream were for Birthdays only. Compared to now I am unsure how I even gained weight. I did have a serious sweet tooth and I remember learning to make Icing from confectioners sugar when my mom was not home. I sneaked any sweet thing I found in the house. I was Chubby all throughout adolesence and teen years. I never lacked for dates or boyfriends. I was 124 in 1983 right before I gotpreg with my son that summer. I was considered overweight for my height prob about 5 pounds. I am in therapy now because my mom abused me and I think that I eat because I could defy her if that makes any sense. I also have been married 19 yrs and started cheating on him 3 years into the marriage because I didnt feel attractive with 50 extra pounds and if any man looked t me or whoohooed at me there I was at his feet ( yuck I know) Hubby forgave and we had a baby in 99 and as punishment for my sins I gained an extra 2 0 to keep the men away and so I wouldnt cheat. It worked but I know he is repulsed as well. He loves me and I am doing this for me. I am sorry Iwent off on a tangent but I totally saw parts of my life in your blog post.

Congrats Beth, I can'tanswer your question as I am still pre-op ( Jan 30th) but I just wanted to say Congrats on the weight loss. In 11 days I hope to be on the same side. Were you crazy nervous pre-op?

I wouldnt bash you because I know what its like to have an addiction. I too have something I must give up a few days prior to surgery its a med and I am scared cuz I will get sick if I don't take it. Good luck to you.

I just woke up in a panic. What if I do not make it and die on the table? I have this extreme fear and I do not know where it comes from because I use to take gobs of painkillers just for fun and couldve died thousands of times. I think that is just the problem, I have always had anxiety but I covered it up while using and its just been there at times pretty raw in the last 7 years but I talk myself through it. I had 2 major hip surgeries in 2002/03 and I was out on the table for prob 5 hours. But this is elective, I am choosing to do this. I keep trying to talk myself out ofthe surgery by saying Oh I am not that bad ( big) yes I am. I am 5'5 andprob 245 since I have not weighed in lately. I do not have any co morbidities ( legs hurt, back pains etc) this is me trying totalk myself out of it. I just read up on the surgery and made me feel better, it said it is realativly safe and fatalities are rare. I do feel better but how do I shake this? I have been praying and praying. I know some one you all have little kids and mine are 28 and 13. I want to be here for my 13 yr old but If I keep at this weight in 5 years , as I am healthy now it could turn and I could have other issues. Damn I hate anxiety. I couldve slept another hour but due tomy stupid roving thoughts I am up now. Anyone else go through severe pre op anxiety? How do you talk yourself down? Thanks for letting me vent.

Mom of 2 I am struggling with that right now. The fear and anxiety has woken me up and I did not go back to sleep and I have to be up at 5:15 and trust me when I say sleep is my best friend. I DEVOTE 8 hours everynight cuz I am a teacher of little ones. I make myself go to sleep ay 9 every week night. Anyway.... I am struggling with that same exact thought right now and I did some more reading and it is a safe procedure and fatalities are rare. I guess that is why they give us an EKG before hand to make sure our hearts are ok. I have done many courageous things in my life and one was giving a daughter up for adoption in 89. I found her online in 06 and her boyfriend had a brain tumor and I keep telling myself if he can have 2 brain surgeries that are much more dangerous than the sleeve than I can do this. I am trying. When is your surgery? Mine is Jan 30. They say this surgery is prob a tad bit less dangerous than lap band only for the fact that lap band introduces a foriegn body inside you. Keep me up to date. I also have the same fears. I have a 13 yr old who at times is like a 2 yr old and he needs me, so does my 28 yr old, he may not need me the same way but I am his mommy and we have a special bond cuz I had him as a teen. You will bethere after for your babies and I will be there after for my big babies.

laura -ven, I dont think I will have to do a pre-op diet, unless they tell me on the 22nd to do it and that will only be 8 days. The surgery Coordinator told me due to my bmi I will not have to do a pre op diet but I guess we will find out Next Tuesday. Thanks for all the replies, you all are very sweer and helpful.

How would you know if your liver is fatty? Would you be able to physically be able to feel it? It would show up on blood tests right? My pcp did a manual exame And I guess it was okay but how do you know? We dont eat a lot of fast food at all maybe once or twice a month ok maybe a little more cuz pizza is fast but my cholesteral and all other things are within normal range. How did you all find out you had a fatty liver?

I dont have to be on a liquid diet prior and i didnt have to lose weighf pre surgery. Does it go by your bmi?

I know 2 eople who got the band and one lost 30 lbs and the other prob 40. The girl who lost only 30 lbs started eating ice cream and all knds of things and never went back to fills so I guess her stomach stretched and the band slipped IDK. I originally looked into the band becaise its less invasive but knowingmyself I decided on the sleeve, after seeing Lisa Lampanelli loose so much weight in so little time. Only you an deide which one is right for you. My dang keybrd is skipping letters again.

My date is Jan 30th Dr Small at Meritus Medical Center Hagerstown Md.

I also ad thought of this but my thinking was, what if I had Cancer in what litle stomach I had left after the surgery. I am okay with it now. I am beating myself up at the moment because I am upset with myself that it had come to this at all. My surgery date is Jan 30.