dwolley

Hello! Im writing to you cuz i need support so please don't judge me, thats the only reason why i came here. Im 22 years old, turning 23 in september. I have struggled with my weight since i was 3! I was always the fat one in class. Honestly i don't know where to start. I hate my body and i hate that i have to live on a diet constantly to maintain my weight. Im 168 cm tall and i weigh 78 KGs so my BMI is 27. Everytime i try to lose the excess weight i end up gaining it right away, i tried every single diet there is. Im also insulin resistant and recently i went to my doctor and he said i need to lose the weight ASAP cuz its effecting my sugar levels a lot and i have 40 percent body fat which is very dangerous. One year i lose 10 to 15 kgs the next i gain double. Its always been like that and I'm suffering. If i eat a burger today , the next day will show on the scale. Living in Dubai makes it extremely hard to diet and exercise given that i work and study and own my own business. Its really tough cuz I'm in the fashion industry and every time i look at my pictures i feel incredibly shocked and depressed. Im really really down. I found a doctor in Lebanon, Beirut ( self pay, i can afford it ) that accepted to band me but told me since i have such a low bmi then the risk for the band slipping is higher. Is it really that dangerous to get banded at bmi 27? a lot of people lose plenty of weight banded and keep the band when the Bmi reaches 25, so whats the difference? I have considered lipo and other options but i knew that that was a short term solution. Please help me.. I'm really down

Thank you for the info! but question, is getting fills painful? is any type of anesthesia used??

You also have to keep in mind that its not all in the height or weight ( BMI ) i have a fat percentage of 40 Percent, that means I'm practically obese. The amount of fat i have on my arms, legs, and flanks even my bank is incredible. I hate it.. honestly now I'm feeling extremely discouraged.. after a lot of research I came across this picture ( that freaked me out!! ) , thats what I'm gona have to go through every time i go for a fill? AAAAH I'm so discouraged now.. and unhappy to say the least.. i don't know what to do, I'm so confused!!

Thank you for replying. I understand where u come from. Im at 80 kgs now, so i wana be at 55 kgs ( so i want to lose around 20 to 25 kgs ) I want to be " THIN ", not even chubby. If i could reach 20 then that would be amazing. But thanks for shedding the light on the average 60 percent weight loss, i never knew. Also, I'm worried about the scars. Don't they ever go away? are they that bad? Its amazing that you reached your weight,and lost even more than expected. Im sure you look amazing!

You are all so supportive, thank you so much for your replies. Im so glad that i found a place where I'm not judged, or told that " I'm not fat" or what ever. I really appreciate this. Well today i was having lunch with a couple of friends and i told one of my friends that i was considering getting banded, and she was so shocked and kept saying how crazy i am and that i have a nice body.. the thing is i know how to dress in a way that covers all the wrong areas! So they have this idea that I'm not that fat.. but once the clothes come off its horrible. Ok so enough about that. My biggest concern now is the actual surgery and the pain, i googled some images of the surgery and it looked so painful with all these holes and the port and all!! Oh and my friend told me that a lot of people have died in that surgery+ never lost the weight.. Im so discouraged right now, but i know that i have no other option.. Please help, i don't know what to do.. can u just tell me about the pain after the surgery and the pain getting the fills? Is it that bad? Don't they use anesthesia or something while going for the fill? Im so clueless..and lost.. and worried that something might happen to me!