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morning violets thank you tracy - i think I might have strep. My throat is still on fire and is flaming red. Other than that I do feel much better. It is cold here too Judy. I think 38 was our low. I refuse to put the heat on - but if this continues I might have to turn the gas stove on the lowest setting. My mom who is here from AZ I am sure is freaking out. Well i need to find somethin hot to drink, and I do have to go get a few groceries today... joy joy anyone have any warm drink suggestions to sooth my throat? I love cold tea, and cold coffee but not really big on hot tea and I don't know if coffee is what i should have

hi ladies. just getting in from work, I think I sweat out my sickness. I am feeling much better, my body still aches but still, much better. I just took a night time cold pill so i hope I wake up feeling great. My stupid throat hurts so bad and is swollen, so when your food is in your upper stomach it makes it even harder to swollow. It is so strange - this is the first cold of anykind I've had since surgery and it is a totally different experience. I was down again today. I had a packet of grits and put cheese in them for some protein, a serving of icecream for lunch and a chicken strip for dinner and another with a little cheese as a snack at work. probably had 700 cals but lots of protein. I hope you all have a great night.

Laura I am sorry you are having to deal with so much crapola from your family. You just take care of you girlfriend! get your band fixed and show them all! HUGS off to work I go

Morning all tracyk- I am the single parent, so i know exacally what you are saying, and now i'm not even getting financial support. I have the kids 24/7 a 13 yr old cheerleader and a soon to be 4 yr old sho is very needy. I work nights and can't get a normal job so i feel like I never stop. So I understand Well, still sick as a dog, just woke up again, I had a small bowl of grits with cheese for breakfast and I'm having 1 chicken tender for lunch. My throat hurts so bad it is hard to eat anything, but with the cold meds that can't be good either no food. I can hardly drink anything either. my fever is broken for the moment which is good, I usually run 96-97 so to be 100 and higher is horrible for me. I hope you all have a good day

hey everyone, just a quick check in, i feel like crap and even home from work early - going to bed denise - I'm happy for you. and you will be a small, healthy gram to play with the grandbaby - yipee for you

Hi everyone, i was 214 at the dr today, which is 14lbs less than 7 weeks ago, so that averages out to 2lbs a week. I told them I was not ready for a fill, getting close, but with being sick it would not be good anyway. So Oct 16 I get a fill. My nutritionist was very pleased with my loss and said I was doing better than the average. 15lbs and i'm in Onederland. I can do that. Get better this weekend and get it together next week

Morning violets First and foremost. Laura-my prayers are with you, but look how well you have done so far, so imagine how great you are going to do when you are fixed. And they found it early, I met someone who had problems and ended up going 2 years before they found out what it was. Plus you have our support. Well, dd is still in bad shape, but I think it is a cold. How would I know this? for the last 2 days I've been pb'ing on everything, last night the thought of tuna was gagging me, I went out with an old friend, I had 1 mozz stick and a bite of chicken tender and 1 drink I went home because my mom called. dd was in bad shape - i got home and said to her I feel like i'm burning up, she said it was just stuffy (she is a nurse). within the hour I was on fire. I had gone into my hope chest and took out every winter blanket I had, my ears hurt, my throat, and now my legs ache from tensing up from the fever I had. I got up, took a dose of children's motrin and went back to sleep for 20 mins. I have an 8am appt with my nutritionist then i'm coming back home and going to bed before work. YUCK, I can't afford to be sick! I am going to stop and get some theraflu, I know I can't swollow a pill right now, I can hardly sip Water. I hate fall allergies/and this 1 day 90 the next 65, no wonder why everyone is sick around me, including me. but, between that and TOM coming early, it sure does explain why i've been so drained this past week. Judy, cold here too, I refuse to turn mine on until Thanksgiving, but I will start my gas fireplaces earlier, they will heat my entire house this time of year. I have one in my back room off my kitchen and 1 in my bedroom and a wood fireplace in the living rooms. It is actually nice because we have heat when we lose power in the winter

You are in my prayers. Makes my trivial problems seem simple

Michelle - again, right there with you sister! I want to see the numbers go down. I have accepted the fact that I am super screwed up this week with TOM and all, that again has started and stopped 3 times this week. UGHHHHHHHHHH I can't stand that, either come or dont! LOL You are shifting, did you take measurements? Take them before you work out even harder. I feel better when I see results there, at least I know something is working. You are so funny - but you deserve a cheer. We all do, we are all doing great - I think that 6 months ago I could not do 1/2 the stuff I do now. Next week, I'm kicking it up. I promise. I have health insurance again as of October 1 - so I am going to schedule a fill for October when I'm at the nutritionist tomorrow. That will be just about perfect So did you all see the Thanksgiving challange. I hate going there but I am going to make my own challange and put it on my signature. i want to hit my -75 by Thanksgiving. If I hit is sooner, I'll change my goal. I think with a fill and doing water aerobics it should be reachable +.

Michelle - I'm getting there, haven't you seen where I've been bruitally honest with everyone in my path lately. The last part I need to let go is dbf's approval. And after all that worry, he just called and didn't say a word. maybe that worries me too, but that is ok too.

Tracy - that sounds like such a nice program. After dbf's accident I started going to christian church with my dad. I had gone before but don't think I was at that point in my life where I was ready. I am now, they are the most wonderful group of people and have great activities for the kids, but I'm still learning about what they have for them. Judy - My sister is having one of those parties in a couple of weeks. she thought I was not going to go because of food. NOPE, I'm not going because I don't have any money. I think I need a fill, but I'm going to have to pay for it - to I'll go to the nutritionist tomorrow morning and make sure she knows what and how much I'm eating so that when I go back I can get one. I don't think I need much, just a little - but i don't think I need it today. I'm just getting to the point of being hungy more frequently.

Michelle - thanks, I know it does no good to worry, but i am the type of person who is a people pleaser and i worry how people feel about me and people who I care about - OMG if they are upset with me I can't deal with it. I am not as completely stressed out as I would have been in the past, but I am stressed. But either way, I'm just telling myself, he needs to take responsibiliy for his children no matter what. well unfortunately i'm awake, got a horrible night sleep, it is cold here and ds woke up about midnight and climbed into bed with me, I don't think he felt great, he was jammed into my back all night and got up at 6:30 and was jumping on me - so finally I got up Kat - I know you are gone but I hope some of those meds help and you start to feel better. how frustrating!

Hi ladies, thinking off all you in the storms path looks like it is going to be nasty when it hits... I am mentally beat - not hearing from bf after I know he got a call today about money is stressing me out more than him yelling about it. And I'm not going to bring it up first, that is for sure! why am I being tested? haven't I passed yet? I am so close to being where I need to be and then 10 steps back. I am leaving it all up to him, i know he has a plan for me and I am almost there. I got something saying I make too much money for medical assistance - but ghi will notify me when I can start using my insurance. I am so confused. I know I don't qualify for medicade, I don't want that, I want the insurance from NYS. So tomorrow I need to call and talk to them. I just don't get it. so something else i need to do tomorrow - I just don't get it, it said that my income could not be more than $1000 a month and I make too much, well If i only had 1000 a month I would be living in my car. well off to bed. I am sorry I vent here - I am just so tired of being rock bottom and it is making it hard for me to focus on me

well, Judy is right, the gargle just takes the edge off. if it is bacterial. so, I want to puke, my stress level is so high right now. My caseworker from child support called me back and he found out that he is now being paid from disability and not the railroad. He is putting in for $50 a week towards arrears and he is going to call him and talk to him. I told him I didn't want him to let him know I was in a tizzy, that I tried to get it out of him and we just don't talk about money because I can't deal with that stress, and that he does have retirement income, not sure how much because we don't discuss, but he is retired 23 years Navy from the accident. I know it needed to happen but he is going to freak! and i am going to have to deal with it. Our kids having a home, food and clothes are the most important thing right now. The only thing I'm worried about is that our casework is ticked off, because he is suppose to notify them of any changes or work with them if they get behind and he has made no effort, and when I told him when the accident was he was even more ticked off. so i know, for the first time in 13 years, they are not going to take any of his bs. I guess that is good for me for once, but it stresses me out since we do see each other on a personal level.

Kat - yes much needed did you try gargling salt water, or peroxide. will fight any bacterial things going on I hope you feel better

I know I deserve it but I do feel lazy. I just watched LionKing 1 1/2 with my ds, we just snuggled on the couch. It is cold and cloudy here and I have not just done nothing in ages. I had an egg and mini pita this am and now i am grilling a pc of chicken for lunch. I am just drained and could go back to sleep. It is so cold here, I'm having a problem drinking today. going to force myself to drink a 20oz bottle before my lunch is done

TracyKS, I just had mine 2 weeks ago and getting it again. change in seasons! My dd has been like clockwork the week before me since she got hers, and yes, like clockwork, she was off and early too. LOL I just woke up, fell back asleep so I missed my aerobics class. I guess I needed it. good thing ds is so very good and played with his gameboy and watched MickeyMouse Clubhouse all morning and I didn't have to worry about him while i slept for 1 1/2 hr.

Denise - Well, I can see why not the greatest thing but Congrats. At least she is happy with dbf and not 12. Right? My mom didn't want me to have ds, and yes, I was 32 - but she loves him so very much - you will have fun - you can send them all away when you want to LOL

Pamela - I recorded it and watching the end weigh in right now. I agree about the music. But look at these people work their asses off. It blows me away. Did I look like that at 5'5 and 278? No wonder I hated myself!

Tracy- you are kind of right, that was what happened last time, but I think pms was a big factor. I am back down to 213 and I was 233 on July 19. So my plan, liquids for the next couple of days to get rid of the bloat and get my self together, and make myself meals. I went to the store today and got some yogurt, some chicken, 2% cheese and some more tuna and veggies. So- saturday morning I'll get my butt out of bed and start eating real food. I usually do this Once a month and have worked hard to maintain. And I'm still holding strong It is just time to kick it up. Speaking of, I'm home from work and watching the Biggest Looser. If these people can work and sweat, so can I. I know I'm at the gym every other day, I need to kick it up. loose the last 14lbs to get into onederland I can do this. Anyone else watch? It is so touching, what people say is just so true and just touched my heart.

Hi guys a quick check in on my way to work, Laura, i can see how you can't do shakes, you have such sensitive taste buds. LOL Judy - mine is finally falling out at a normal pace- and even growing back in so there is hope, but I remember those handfuls and it was scary

Laura - where do you get them? Anyone watch Days of our lives? I know you all work. The new host for the Biggest Looser is Allison Sweeney - I love her. I am going to tape it as motivation. Look if those people can do it without surgery - so can I!!!

good for you Tracy - I really can't wait for appt on friday, I really need to go over my choices. or good choices for when I'm running like a crazy person. I am going to read my journal at work tonight or when I get home while I relax. today - 2 cups coffee 2 chicken tenders i know... no good. about 250 cals for the day. I have good food at work - I have not been able to eat with dd being sick, stress does bad things to the band. so here is my NSV for the day... I was at the Dr. office with Melissa - we obviously have same dr - so since we know each others weight, and bad habits, she said I could go in. Nancy our np (who I love and is leaving) asked if we met, i looked familiar, I told her my name and she was amazed. Dr. Singh was looking at me like he knew me but couldn't put his finger on it either... that was the motivation I needed. my own dr didn't know me. LOL Melissa - you are doing great girlfriend! keep up the great work.

Ok back from lunch, I ATE food. I still feel so yucky, I didn't even pretend, I had 2 chicken tenders - I have a nutrition appt on Friday am at 8 so first thing in the am... good, sucks i have to pay for the visit 49 but i get 15% off if I pay on Friday. I do need to go for an attitude adjustment. I so need my health insurance back. I can't wait. Anyway, I'm going to relax b efore I began the next part of my day

Off on an adventure, going to meet melissa for liquid lunch then possibly the Y It is raining here, has been for days, don't think it is ever going to stop. Man you would think it was May, not Sept! I hope you all have a great day