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Terry - You go girl, I read that and honestly think that is basically what i've been venting and ranting about too, I've been sick and tired and have not been doing what I know I should. I try to make good food choices but I feel like I'm running all the time and don't always eat, skipping meals was always a problem for me. And not making time for the gym was not good either. So Monday I got my lazy ass up and made a choice, I am not going to listen to people tell me not to go every day, I AM GOING EVERY DAY. Today I just walked a mile on the treadmill, but hey it was a mile, I hate those things, and I did abs and lower body. Tomorrow I'll do arms (hopefully depending on my burn) and walk again. but I will go every day, no exception! It is all about choices and I admire you for yours! Michelle, I'm glad it is not just me thinking that, but hey if those people can work that hard why can't we - besides we have help from our bands! Kat - no red lines, but watching it close - definately 2nd degree, I have done some bad ones but this tops them all. You are such a strong woman, putting up with it all

Michelle] I thought that was funny too, jogging around like they were going to work it off right there. I was sad to see Jerry go, that man is amazing. and his after!!!! Holy crap! Here is a thought about all that. I know I was a complete fat ass, but some of those ladies weigh less than I did and even are about my weight now and they are so much bigger. Do they pick ladies who are short and round? I don't know, but I just keep thinking, I don't look like that anymore... do I? I know I'm not small but if they can do it, there has to be hope right? well off to the gym

I just did measurements - since i had slowed down on the gym the past month, i slowed down there too, but i have lost 49 inches so I'll take that! and with getting back in 100% again, I hope to at least lose some more inches. I guess if I lose anymore before my fill appt he won't give me one. Either way - I am officially at my lowest in over 10 years, only by a lb or 2 but still. I was joking the other night after my drink with my friend, we were walking in the parking lot and I said to her, I actually like my shadow from a front view, it is the side view with my belly I don't' like. The shadow didn't even look like me. LOL

gooooooooooooood mornin' violets i'm up after little sleep once again. I stayed up until 12:30 watching the biggest looser. then I tossed and turned all night, my burn is killing me. mom who is a RN looked at it this am, it is raw, 2nd degree, 3rd in some places and hurts, my entire arm hurts. There is a 1x1 blister that has popped and just showing bright pink skin. Ok I need hazard pay. LOL So i have worked out like a crazy person and watched what I ate and nothing, not an ounce gone, so here is my new thought, i'm going to keep doing this but will not anticipate loosing before my fill - but once I get my fill get down into onderland quickly. I can do 14lbs after a fill easy, I dropped 18 last time just from the fill. well enough of the blah blah blah, just thinking outloud so I don't get too hard on myself. Not sure what i'm going to do today, maybe clean my room, go to the gym with my ds, take a little nap before I have to go to work. mom made polish soup last night for one of her cancer patients, who is done with his kemo tomorrow and she loves her patients, she does stuff like that for them all the time. Let me tell you, I can't eat it but it smells so good. It has bacon, kielbasa, beans, cabbage. Not food for us. LOL hope everyone has a great day

Hi guys = home from work early, ready to pass out. TracyK- I am not nearly as close to Onderland as you are, 13lbs for me. I am determined to get to 203 which is my -75 but going to work my butt off to get there, so I'm up for a challange to catch up to you. Laura, I don't remember if i said it but Congrats!!! you are on your way girlfriend

Man - I just took the best 30 min nap ever. I went to the gym again, did some yard work, went for a 2 mile walk, and bam.. out like a light. I now have to go pick up ds and then get ready for work. I timed my walk today, it took me 15 mins to walk to work, so I might start walking there depending on who can bring me home. I won't walk home in the dark. did i mention I am determined to hit my next goal in 3 weeks. Onderland here I come oh dbf stopped over earlier, since i have not seen him in a week he made sure to tell me how great I was looking... yea well do something about it ass before I find someone who wants to be with me!

I agree branching out is what I need to do, either way! I need to keep my good true friends, but I think it is time that I expand them too. DBF asked why I have been so quiet and distant ... HELLO???????????????????????????? do you need to ask after all I've been saying to him over the past couple of months? I would really like some of those drugs

hi again, I'm back home. I worked out for about 45 minutes and going to get myself together and go for another 2 mile walk. I am beat but I'm going. I will have ds all day tomorrow so we are going to the gym but can't take kids where i walk, just not safe. Judy - please ...LOL I just want an honest man who wants to be with me. anyway - I hope you are all having a good day TracyKS - where are you girlfriend?

TracyK- the thought of what you are dealing with makes me ill. I've never had a cavity so the thought that my wisdom teeth or at least on on the bottom needs to come out scares the living daylights out of me. You will feel so much better when it is done.

Morning violets. I am up after listening to that stupid dog getting every dog in the neighborhood barking at 4am again. OMG anyway, going to drop my ds off at the sitter and going to the gym and for another 2 mile walk. I might do the stair stepper at the gym, it depends on how crowded it is there. I hate doing cardio when I feel like I'm going to die and everyone is watching. well, off I go hope everyone is having a great morning

hi all well, got stood up by 2 today, new guy fell alseep, oh well sucks to be him. I am done begging people to want to be with me, now if i can just get the confidence to meet new people. all in due time. I am wasted. I had 3 drinks in 3 1/2 hrs. 2 Nasti Tini's, vodka, melon liquor and cran juice. they kicked my ass and were too sweet, but they didn't have any orange flavored vodka (my fav) and then we stopped at a bar on the way home and I had a small orange stollie and cran (yUM) I am so wasted. I needed to relax. Terri - thank you, I have faith but could use all the prayers I can get. I just need a good paying job so I don't have to rely on my other sources of income. and a nice strong, yet independent man would be nice too.LOL anyway, off to pass out,

Terry - you do look great, but we all have our issues so do what makes you happy. I think I look good in clothes. I'll never meet a man, i'll be too afraid someone will see what is under there. As for dressing sexy, I love tank tops, but, even with the built in bra's I always wear a real bra with it to hold it all together and look not as slutty. I wear them with everything, jeans, skirts, sweats, doesn't matter. I also wear them under shorter t shirts or even regular t shirts, I love the layered look and now that they actually fit.... but I also wear them under everything to hide some of the fat rolls. I know I'm insane. Kat - you go girl, and you look great at a size 14. and healthy.

Terry that looks great. I was going to make some this weekend but I might use yours instead. Well - I'm getting ready to go do a little running. Have to go to the bank and post office. I again am so tired of being stood up. I know blah blah blah. I think I'm going to go out on a date tonight... not with dbf. There has been someone interested and I'm going to call him out... I love dbf but I'm starting to love myself and you know what, I deserve so much more - so maybe he will realize this or maybe i'll meet someone else and move on with my life and be happy???? one never knows, but I do know it is 1 chance with anyone new, stand me up, change plans at the last minute.... i'm done. I feel like tracyks... who is this person.... and she is wearing jeans, something she has never ever done!

LOL and then fell asleep!

Hi gals well, went to the gym worked out for 45 mins. OMG I can tell I have not been there, then came home and went for a 2 mile walk. I went on a new route. not something I could do at night but in daylight was great, down my hill up a gradual hill, then leveled then up a huge long hill, then down a hill to my house. Did it in 30 mins. I am not a walker so that was huge for me. I want to get out and walk the streets so when it gets to nasty out I will be happy doing the treadmill with strangers around. Anyway, I am beat only getting 3 hrs sleep. I'm going up to work on my room and get rid of more clothes.

Judy, I'm sorry you don't feel well, I'm recovering - I hope you don't have what is going around here. Feel better I'm really off - it is so cold here at night but going to be 85-88 the next 2 days, this is insane. and I just got a few long sleve tops. Size M - I'm so excited about that. I am still convinced my Csection is what killed m lower belly, OH well TT here I come

Morning gals I'm up and getting ready to hit the gym. My crazy neighbors have a dog that they never let out until 9:30 so they say has been outside barking since 4:15 this morning, and is still out there barking and barking. How can they not hear that? This is an every day thing, weekends too. It is insane. This after my dog barked 1 day out there and they blasted me, I listen to this every single day. I got my dog a bark collar and had to move his kennel because of them, again, same 1 day. Yet I can't walk out my back door. sorry, needed to get that out! They just had a baby in June, you would think it would wake them up be back after the gym

Hi gals well, I'm off to bed, just looking at before and after pics. I have decided that I'm getting my ass up in the am and going to the gym. I have 3 weeks to my 6 month bandiversary and I want to be at -75 so.... Tomorrow is that new day, I can lose 10lbs in 3 weeks! Then I'll post new updated pics.

Hi guys. OMG Pamela... a violet TAT.... that is awesome and I'm so all over that. I was looking for something to add to my vine and butterfly. What better than something that marks the beginning of my new life and my new found friends, who I would never make it through the day without. Ditto what Tracy said.... I love you guys!!!!!!!!!!1 oh and Tracy, congrats on the 12/14. I am excited I am working on the 14/16... although the 16 are very comfortable right now.

hi gals i have a bandage and antibiotic ointment on it. I am going to put some tape on it when i get to work to make sure it sticks. I have some aquaphor, it is a burn ointment, my mom turned me on to it years ago when i worked with stepmom in the past, they use it for radiation burns for cancer patients. I could go but I know they are just going to do what I'm doing. the 3rd degree spot is really small and I'll just keep it clean and I should be fine. When it rains it pours Pamela - I pray every day, for the right thing to come along and I know god has a plan for me. I also know that I need my child support to be able to live on what I am right now, so that is a problem that I will need to address again. I'm going to scream for military money - I'm sure he has enough to pay his bills and for his new Harley he just bought! I am going to let them repo mine, I need to make that call this week. Sad but I don't need that like I need a house and car. I have to do some more paperwork to get things together for the fall/winter around here. You would think being stressed I would lose more weight, since my band gets tighter as I get stressed. Tomorrow, back to the gym, no matter what. I am not going to push it with aerobics. I am not at a good place to try to throw something else in there. OH, I just had a 500cal lunch.... but OMG was it good, I had sunchip nachos, with hamburger (taco seasoned) refried beans 2%cheese and fresh salsa. The good thing is was there was just about 40g protein. well, time to go to work, I'm glad today is sunday

Tracy - Laura is right, get your measurements!!!!! That is the only thing that keeps me sane during my time of plateau. which is now. Take today, relax, take a bath, do something for you and tomorrow get up and get your butt moving. I am queen of the couch and pitty party. Monday is the start of a new week, I am so stressed about money it is taking a toll on me. I thought maybe just maybe I would have some child support this week, nope it is now up to $3175 I am owed. I need that money! my mtg is late and I'm getting nasty grams, my car payment is late, heat is due, I just don't have enough to go around and don't know what to do. There are no jobs out there. I am going to go to another agency this week. UGHHHHHHHHH

Morning all just checking in real quick, getting ready to go to a game . I still don't have my camera but will post pics tues, I'm getting it back tomorrow. I will have to show you all my beautiful new war wound. it actually turned my mom's stomach and she is a nurse. LOL have a great day

Hi all, kind of quiet day here I am just getting in from work. got a real nasty burn tonight, I left the oven door open and was freaking out because I was missing part of an order, the guy was standing there looking at me and BAM! I ran into the door, step mom saw it as it was happening and as I turned around and some of my skin (very small amount) was smoking on the oven door, I kind of went into shock. I have a huge bruise/burn where I hit it too. what a mess and man does it hurt! I should be blonde! anyway, have a great night all

Hi all went to Breakfast with mom and ds, what a nice am. I got 2 eggs, 2 sausage links, potatoes and toast. Man I can usually at least eat my eggs and sausage. NOPE , had a few bites of eggs, 1 sausage, a fork ful of potatoes. Man, Not that I am complaining, but something is going on. Got my antibiotics today yipee. after breakfast, we went to Walmart, mom got me some tops. 6 months ago I was wearing x-large, today... get this... I got MED shirts. I love them. I got 2 pr of work out pants they were a size xl (16) but, the belly fit and the butt and legs are big, the lg ift but I would not feel comfortable wearing a short/tucked in shirt with the L. They also had out their winter coats. my last one was a 2X ... Yes, the size 16 fit, and after my fill in 2 weeks I know It would be too big so I'm holding off. How exciting to shop in the regular dept and not in the plus/women's. I was talking to mom, I should get my health ins stuff soon and going to look into tt, bt I am willing to give up my deck on the back of my house to have surgery in the spring. I AM DOING IT. I am going to get info now and give that to myself for my bday present in Feb/March. I will do it at 180 I think. After fill #2 I anticipate being in onderland. I lost 20lbs after my last fill and have consistantly kept it off, so that is what I need to lose after my 2nd fill. I need to talk to a ps to discuss skin removal, tt, what is the difference, what are my options, expenses.... Well, what great decisions - now something else to work towards.

morning chicks! last one to bed , first one up. sad - well going to breakfast then going to get my antibiotics.