Jennifur

Morning gals I had a horrible night sleep. i live a block down from volunteer fire dept.... and they were busy last night. all the way up to 6:30 this am. The stupid dog behind me was out barking his brains out at 5 am and then had to get up with dd. I feel bad but I think I'm going to drop ds off at the sitter for the morning so I can sleep, I have my 10hr day and then have to got to the airport to pick up my aunt & uncle at 12:30 so I won't even be home until 1:30. i am holding steady at 212. I feel pretty good, lost another inch in my waist and hips. I need to get to the gym regularly again. this week was just crazy for some reason and I am just beat, it is not always easy to get ds ready and there with me and if i drop him off at the sitter too late it just throws me off. Next week I need to make a plan and stick to it. OMG now my dog is out there barking because my other neighbors puppy is trying to play across the fence.......

Hi Chantay ... welcome aboard Amanda - very nice name - I am so sorry to hear of the mess you are in... but it is all about the money over here. shoot, I would love to take a day trip if I had the cash. I love VA/MD and would love to meet you and help. Another good thing... have any of you been watching the news about that poor woman who died at the airport. They arrested her because she was freaking because they would not let her board the plane? They are being crusified (sp) for arresting, cuffing her for being upset about that. Ok, a terrorist because she missed her plane? I don't think so... Eggplant.... well I don't know if it really has much flavor, but Eggplant parm is breaded ....cooked like chicken parm (I bake it and not fry) and has sauce and mozz cheese on it... YUMMY I love sauce. It is not as thick as chicken parm but has the same taste. Amanda, one of my best friends is from Ireland and i got her hooked on it. It is funny the veggies she has tried with me that freaked her out... she is a meat & potatoe gal all the way. Well, I went to the jewelery party and survived. My mom got me a necklace with her commission - so i'm excited. I'm off to bed. my dd is up and has a horrible stomach ache so i'm going to let her sleep with me

you guys are all doing so great. we went to olive garden for lunch, i had eggplant parm and salad, picked out the lettuce and tomatoe, the rest of the junk i was having issues with and only got the lunch size eggplant (2 very small pcs) and didn't get any pasta. Was very full and it was good. Well, I'm off to the jewelery party... fun fun fun

TracyKS -you are so funny with the pics.

Woooooooohoooooooooo Change Your Ticker!!!! Congrats

Happy Birthday TracyKS (i thought it was tomorrow but I'm out of control) I hope you have a great day

Denise - you look like you had so much fun and look great too!!!!! I hope your daughter is ok, I'm sure she will be but I'll keep her in my prayers Lunasa - nice to see you post Morning all, I'm off to drop of ds then have an appt and then going to lunch with an old friend, it is going to be a nice relaxing day (i hope) My cousin gets in this am from San Fran.... so the fun begins.... my aunt will be here tomorrow night and staying with me from LA... I'm sure I'll be venting. LOL

Terry - I have to find a home for my puppy, ... TracyK - You are so funny. I'm doing liquid diet this week to catch up to you Tracyks- My ds who is going to be 4 in a few weeks loves that song too. He sings it so funny.. he sings it "all night long..... on the highway...." it is so hard not to laugh at him. That sounds fun. Kat - that is crazy they did nothing. kind of scary actually well i'm just getting in and going to pass out..

I get flax seed pita's ... I have 1 a day, it has helped with my issues too. LOL

Terry - you are right, I am super sensative to what other people think about me. All my life this same psycho family would say you are fat, i'll give you a penny for every lb you lose. This started at 6 years old! and continued all my life... you are a bad mother... you this you that...They are insane and drank way too much, but these are my memories.. and always trying to please them and it never being enough... I thank you for such kind words and I hope I can get my self esteem back so I can so I can move on and truely be happy. And not set animials on fire! LOL

Morning violets. I am just getting up and going. What a rough day yesterday. My fav great aunt is not doing well and I went to see her. Then of course her son who thinks he is better than everyone in the world made me feel like crap about telling everyone how she was when i got there. So, needless to say i was so upset by his stupidness that I had the worst migrane I've had in years. I broke down last night when I got home from work and took 1 excedrine. I was afraid to take it because they are harsh on your stomach, but I figured what the heck, if I didn't do something soon i was going to be throwing up which would be much worse. (I lived with these headaches for years of being sick) Anyway, I'm better this am and it didn't hurt my stomach. I want to go over and visit my aunt but i don't want to run into my cousin, I just can't deal with him right now. Anyway... Laura - I can eat chicken tenders but I usually dip them in something (usually hot sauce), I can do ground turkey and beef if I put something moist on/in it, but the last few times I cooked chicken I have not had a problem with PB. It is funny how I was thinking the same thing. Deli turkey is the most evil to me. I can eat pepperoni and salami with no issues, I don't get it either. well I'm going to drink my coffee

Tracy - anything you would do with beef you can do with turkey. I just made a pot of turkey/black bean chili the other day. I make turkey burgers, (I usually season - sometimes mix in onions, sprinkle with flavor stuff, cheese hotsauce...) turkey taco's for the kids Taco seasoned and make a salad with it. You name it. I found some I l like and never get beef anymore. I have had 2 protein shakes today - so I actually lost a lb this am. I don't know how after the 2 dishes of ice cream and the large bowl of chili and 1/4 bag of sunchips.... go figure. I do need to get rid of the bloat = so i'll be good for a few days because I don't feel like I've lost. go figure

Haydee, we posted at the same time, I too am frustrated but you are so right, I find that my busy life makes it almost hard to cook and do the things we want to do. Hang tight, you are maintaining so that means you are not gaining and you are still 50lbs less than you were. You guys remember how mental I was in the beginning about the scale and being nuts, I've come a long way. LOL hang strong.

Hi ladies - well i blew off the gym, late start and was going to come home and mow the lawn, which really needs it and would have been good exercise for the day, lawn mower is dead and I just paid $120 to have it fixed, pisses me off because I was going to get a new one for abou $175 and they all said, no don't do it, get it fixed, it is only a few years old, you don't have the money, well now I wasted $120 of that money to have used it 2 times... ok 2 1/2 because it just died in the middle of it the last time I used it. and i STILL need a new one. I'm going to shower, my aunt is in the hospital and her lungs are filling up with fluid, she had heart surgery a year ago but they say it is failing and that is why her lungs are filling up. Kind of scary, gram had heart issues too and so did her other sister. She is my favorite, so I need to find time to go see her with all my running. HOLD IT TOGETHER.... I'm going to have to beat into my head going in there. I love her to pieces as my ds would say. Her husband passed a year ago Sept 23 he was my favorite too.

Morning gals I am not even going to shower this am, i'm getting dressed and hitting the gym before I do anything else. My stomach is still a mess but much better, I am not taking any more antibiotics. Michelle - it is a head game. Here is what I do. Once a month I do 2 shakes a day and 1 salad with 3oz meat and cheese. I don't normally do it for more than 4-5 days, it is a jumpstart but I honestly don't think it is good to do long term. I am actually going to do it this week, starting today... I think for me it helps me get back to reality and focus on eating healthy after to keep off and maintain what I've lost, and I need that right now, I'm out of control from being sick too. Not really eating much the last few days has really screwed me up. I am so ready for my 2nd fill. I have 1cc in my band and I need a tiny bit more. I can't wait until the 16th for my reality check (fill) so I can get back on track. I also can't wait to start working days (PRAY FOR THAT) so I can be home cooking and not cooking at the pizza shop. I had my first pc of pizza that I could eat the other day, I wish it got stuck!!!!! I have to cut it so very tiny, like for a toddler but I can eat it. Well, off to they gym before I don't want to go.

Man ... Julie Andrews looks fantastic for 72 sorry had to say that, they just did celeb bdays. I am off to bed. I just ate a shit loat of sunchips. My stomach is rumbling already (or still) Tomorrow I'm doing a 3 day round of shakes and salads. I need to get rid of this bloat. have not gained an ounce but I feel so full of air. Have a good night everyone

TracyKS - my nails are just peeling right off too. painfully, but they are growing in thicker so I hope there is an end to that. The shampoo I use has helped and all the shaked I did for a while, I am down to a reasonable amount of hair loss. I like your new pic in your signature

Judy - Yes I got my resume faxed over. I am done with antibiotics, I could hardly stand up today from the pains in my bely. I am so bloated with gas I can't stand it. I hurt. I was told between 60-74g and I find I loose when I do that and maintain at 40g. I am going to do shakes tomorrow. I had 2 chicken tenders and a bowl of chili for dinner.

OMG KAT= I am so glad you are ok, that must have been so scary. I am on such overload so I'm just lurking around.

Hi gals just checking in, what a day. Laura - I'm so sorry about your sister, i really hope they figure it out.

Morning gals thank you for keeping me in your thoughts - I really need it, and today I am going to have to deal with the support issue again. It is so very stressful but so is not paying my bills. Well today I officially have health insurance again, that is a good thing. I am going to hit the gym this morning at some point. I am going to fax my resume and then clean out the garage now that I have a big empty space. since i have had 4 hrs of sleep, i'm going to drink my coffee so I can function and make a real plan, so much to do so little time, without children around anyway

Judy thanks MUAH! Man, so my day just continued to go down hill. I went to my dd's football game and the cheer coach is the neighbor, they treated me worse than normal. After she told my mom that she missed me and they talked, now she is meaner. Door closed move on to the next chapter. So 3 months ago I called HD and told them I can't afford my bike and I wanted to give it back, they said i should try to sell it and not give it back. So guess what, they came and picked it up today. It was a big releif because I can't afford to live let alone my bike, but still sad. Actually makes me angry that DBF has a new one after he wrecked the old one and can pay $500 a month for that but can't give me my support. I need that $3k and I'm sinking here. I just have a feeling about tomorrow - because I am doing something about it. Well, I'm going to visit with mom, she had her cancer retreat and wants to tell me about it

wow i feel better getting that out as I cried my eyes out as I typed.

I just got off the phone with my sister. She kills me, we live in 2 different worlds - her husband who is a complete pig (another long story) owns his own company and has so much money they don't know what to do with it, Ferrari for example, vacation home... she does not work but takes the kids to dance, swim, play groups, will not ever leave them with a sitter and here I am- down to earth and don't have a penny. Anyway - she was telling me for weeks Oct 20 is her daughters bday and it is going to be early so I can be there and don't forget. Well, it is at 2:30, and she thought that because she mailed an invite to my dad, who she doesn't talk to, that I could go into work late. Hello, resturant, small staff, I can't just go in late Like I work in an office, what world are you living in? Then she said when you see mom... tell her to call me, I feel like I have not seen her in a long time.... I said to her "i know you think I see her all the time but I don't ever see her" she said I know and she had to go and got a major attitude. She does not have a clue what the real world is like anymore, I am working my ass off, have no social life, don't get to see my family, and go to work when my dd gets home and it is not easy for me, so for them to give me shit just doesn't help I get from my mom all the time that I need to get a day job. Are you kidding me? I've been trying for months, send my resume out, interview and nothing - so make me feel worse about what I'm doing and where I am in my life right now. Thanks all for making me feel like crap more than I already do.