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That is great Laura off to work now... ltr

Laura I am feeling the same way, I have lost most of my restriction and I am craving stuff. Hot stuff. I put cyane pepper and hot sauce on almost EVERYTHING. I am only on my 2nd fill and long overdue. I am so tired like you, so my exercise is slacking. I just got a notebook, I'm making a list and checking it off as I do stuff, maybe to get it together again.

This is a really pretty time here, in the fall. I love CT, dbf use to drill there, in New Loundon (Mystic) area and then New Haven, which I loved the people but was a city that was not as relaxing. I am trying to get the courage to want to fly,

Kat - That is what dbf use to do at the RailRoad, then became supervisor and can't direct trains because of his short term memory loss he forgets what he does from one min to the next. I could borrow his tools. LOL I am sure you are fine!!!! but i see the concern to get to the bottom of it Well, I'm off to walmart to do some serious grocery shopping

OMG ... I am so crazy, I just went to watch last weeks biggest looser and my dd recorded something that took up the rest of my space so it only recorded the first 1/2... what team lost? who got kicked off.. I can't stand it.

TracyK - Your nephew & sister are in my prayers. Remember, I had someone special kill himself 3 years ago. I am glad he is alive and can get proper treatment - but I know how horrible everyone must feel. Kat - your hubby need a good apprentice? LOL

OMG Terry that is so funny, I'm laughing out loud and my kids think I'm nuts

Thanks for cutting me slack. LOL. Mentally I have so much going on it is consuming me. I do need an attitude adjustment. My head dr is not on my new insurance - I love her and really need to talk to her. As for job, at least I have one, it is just the hours. I am so off - I just need to find what works. My friend just joined the Y and she is going to do aqua aerobics with me 3 days a week starting Wed, so that will be good motivation. I need to get up and get in the shower at 6:30 every day so I get moving and not fool around then shower. I will figure it out this week. I am going to the library on Thursday and i'm going to get that book. I won't have ds with me and boy, he is just full of himself and I can't get much done with him.

You gals are doing so well, and I feel like I'm failing - honestly for the first time. I really hope that the fill works. this is only my 2nd one. I am so tired from working the hours i'm working that I'm not going to the gym like I should. I feel like I'm sleeping all the time. Maybe TOM is not helping but I was doing so great and now I'm just stuck. bouncing between 210-214, no higher no lower. It is just so frstrating while all you ladies are doing so well - i'm not moving. Well, on that happy note, I'm off to the grocery store to get a few things, tomorrow is big shopping day at wallyworld.

I was just thinking about that too. I am really looking forward to it

Welcome Kelly.... glad to have you with us.... Judy - that is a great idea to advertise a support group. We have one at the hospital I went to but it is the 2nd monday of the month and I can't always get there with cheerleading. I have been meeting people who want info and I am happy to help. I think that is a great idea. I would love to do a coffee shop type support group. OH WAIT....we are not suppose to drink coffee. LOL

Morning violets I got to sleep in, but a rough night of sleep. ds's eyes were stuck shut again in the middle of the night so when he got up to pee he freaked out and came in with me then was wide awake. Then my insane aunt came up at 7:30 to tell me she was leaving... WHY DO I CARE?????? then she woke up ds and he went down with his sister and I finally fell asleep. I am going to walmart in a few, I have been out of water for a week and need to get back on track. I feel like I've gaine 5lbs so I'm not going to get on the scale. I am going to do liquid diet tomorrow - but today is first real day of tom and I am sure that is part of it. I can't wait for my fill next week. I am anxious, I can eat a lot but I need to get a grip on things too. I need to get some egg beaters and things that I can throw together quickly when I'm in a hurry - and things I can have for lunch. ughhhhhhhhhhhh. I remember this is how I felt right before my 1st fill.

Judy I just got some Rasp Ice crystal light, and love it... and then put it in the freezer ...it is amazing slushy. thank you for the kind words. I am trying hard to keep that attitude, getting it back is just a good feeling. Off to work

Kat. you look great and like you were having such a good time. and no ofense taken. I love him but he better shape up quickly. The stronger I get the closer I am getting to telling him to F' OFF... and trust me... i'm getting there. Remember me 6 months ago, obeyed everything i was told and told to do... NO MORE. My burn is only 2 weeks old and it is 10000 times better. I'll take a pic. I'm going to take some today when I get out of the shower. I have been using Mary Kay night stuff on it, it is full of vit E and other stuff, it is amazing. when you see how big it is and how good it looks, know that it was all blistered and full of green pus.... you will never know. I will have a small hole in my arm forever but if that is the worst that comes from that I'm happy.

Take it Tracy - you work hard for that 2.5lbs. next week... I am all over it. I have not been eating, stress is swelling me and I ran out of water and that is the only way i really drink enough. That is ok. at least TOM will be gone by my fill and I can get it under control. Ya know what is funny... usually I want chinese food... crave it... nope. kind of grosses me out, just thinking about it.

Morning gals I feel soooooooooooooooo much better today. PMS aparently didn't help my already explosive situation. And on top of that I don't have grocery money until tuesday so I have not had any fiber... so you know it has been 5 days and no potty. I'm dying. i know... tmi Tracy - my aunt is amazingly better. they think she might have had a mini stroke because she cant talk right, but she is sitting up and alert. I am going to see her tomorrow. 197... you are well into onderland.... you go girl. when I get my fill next week I'm catching up quickly.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH now i know how you adies feel when you do a long post and lose it!!! anyway, thanks guys and Jen - I didn't take it the wrong way - feels kind of nice to see how much you guys mean to me. anyway short version of what i typed they can either, 1. take his license 2. freeze his checking account (I vote for this one) 3. take his tax return(already in the works) 4. jail. (i don't want this one) It is just so hard for me right now because I had such a nice good paying job and didn't need his money, I saved it and used it for vacations, but right now... at this point in my lfe... I NEED IT I'm getting stronger and more pissed off every day Laura OMG .... I am a big scale person... but I don't care what yours says.... YOU LOOK ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!!!! and the jeans look great.

I just thank god all this is going on and my mom is here, I would probably be ready to take the bridge if she was not here.

Tracy - I'm jealous. I would so love to see him and that is the only place he has scheduled, the week that the ultimate hits come out. If you have an extra ticket... let me know LOL

Morning gals My phone woke me up at 10:30 and I felt guilty so I got up, I could have slept til noon. I have to do it all over again at 3. UGH I am just praying for it all to turn around, I just don't really need anything else on my plate right now and this is a big one. Terry - no have not heard, he said it would probably be this week, he was going to shoot for the end of last but he didn't think that was going to happen. Well I felt skinny yesterday but bloated last night and guess I know why - tom is a week early. So I am not even going near the scale this am. LOL

Well gals, I screwed up, I said flights from vegas are always early here when my mom comes... well one of the connector flights was running late (an hour actually) which delayed the flight only by 1/2 hr. so they would have been here early... so I am just getting in from the airport and had to check in. I went to get ds script filled today and Insurance is saying DENIED/NOT COVERED! Are you kidding me.. .he couldn't tell me they don't have insurance. I just got state insurance and didn't add the kids because they had insurance. I left him a message. who knows when I'll hear from him, but he didn't have any problems coming over this morning for a little brunch!!! (what good brunch it was ... I have to stop thinking with my parts!) I am so ticked off, $200 if I paid for it - so I called the Dr. and asked about over the counter for a 4 year old and explained and they had one similar for $8. Both the kids have Asthma - what the F* am I going to do if we have to go to the dr/hospital? We were just there on 9/10. This is the last straw. I am just afraid they are going to lower my support and it is going to be a huge war, but if I don't get health insurance I need to do something Tuesday! I was just so ticked off earlier. I know it has to get better, it has been a long year... Yes 1 year today from the horrible accident that changed my life forever. anyway, I'm off to bed, it is 2am here and I'm falling over

Congrats Laura!!!!! Tracy - you are funny, but what a great feeling that must have been As for me.... I put the shorts on, still a little snug but I'm wearing them, they give me a little muffin top but they fit and I did not have to lie down to get them on.... YIPEE ... slow and steady I have decided today... plastic surgeon... here I come

Terry - that is very odd, since that is not what I typed, and doesn't even make sense... well off to get ds, i got laundry, dishes showered and then home to finish up and go to work..

I guess eggplant is similar to zuccinni but i cook them different. I like them both. I just called my cousin to check in on her. I am sure she will be so happy.... she was upset because she gained a lb, i told her that happens right after surgery - gas - bloating... I asked if she was drinking tons of water, she said she was drinking it. I went through 6 months of therapy and took the time to rid my life of things... beer ... sweets..soda ... drinking water before surgery. But I remember when I would freak over the scale, and now I say, I still look every day but if I gain, drink more water, go for a walk... get off my butt and get rid of it! what a difference in attitude. Once it starts falling off her she will be so happy

I have a pr 18 shorts. I promise you I got them last time I weighed 180 and they are really a size 14. I am very comfortably wearing 16's and Yes, I can get these shorts on but I am squeezed into them. I'm going to try them on again this am - to see if they fit any different. I'll keep you posted. My b-day is March 12... that is funny my sister violets bdays are in July. Most of my friends are either in March or in July. I have 7bdays between july 1 - 5.... no wonder why i like you gals so much LOL