Jennifur

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!!! I am golden child today so I'll give you permission to skip today. LOL although... the pb balls are my absolute favorites... no wonder i'm not baking this year.

OK - I'm going to try those levi's. I am a huge fan and don't know why I even tried something else. off to freshen up to get ready for the gym and drop ds off at the sitter

Oh Thanks Terry - I'm going to Kohl's for the first time today so I'll check that out. or maybe not, maybe i'll wait until I get to onderland, give me something to work for. I have tried to give blood, but never make it past the paperwork. I get to the "any tattoos or body piercings in the last year" and I fail...speaking of... i'm just about due... LOL Maybe I'll get my next one right before our trip in May so it can heal and I won't be working. I am getting the top of my foot done

Morning gals what a horrible night sleep. I am so tired. I woke up with the worst headache ever. What can you do? I have not jumped on the scale yet - oh shoot, better not jump, I might break it. LOL I hope it moved, i thought I was pretty good yesterday - ok golden. Pam - I feel like a space case sometimes, I have lots of things i want to say but forget as I type. Tracyks- that is a good idea, go to bed instead of pace because of the munchie monster. LOL' another day gals.. CTC day

Kat- I have to... I am beating myself up because I'm 2.5lbs higher than my fill a month ago and I have to go see HIM next week. I can't deal with failure and I feel like I have. I was not going to ask for a fill but i'm going to. He was going to fill me to 1.5 and I said no 1 but I think 1.25 is my sweet spot. that was my original fill and my best place. I have my music (or some of it) downloaded and ready to go to the Y in the morning. I will be hard on myself, I will be back down to 208 by the 11th. I will be in onderland by the 1st of the year. PERIOD. OK who am I kidding, but I'm going to try my hardest. Tracyks - THANK YOU I was so upset about how those jeans looked on me, at least I got them on, but YUCK. I am going to JC Penny and going to try on some real Levi's, they are my favorite and I guess that is that. Keep your fingers crossed ladies that the scale moves tomorrow morning.

Pamela OMG i just almost fell off my chair, that was so funny... i am guessing today was eat the crap day?

hi guys I survived today, 2 shakes and some taco seasoned turkey burger, 1/2 c 2% cheese for dinner and 3 bottles of water. no more food for me today. I didn't get to the gym, something came up, but I did go to Walmart to get my mp3 player so I can have music for the morning. I got a hell of a deal. I got a pink 8gb RCA for $69 + start up kit for $10 to total of $79. I thought that was a great deal, well I just went online to get the link so I can show you all, and it was $96.78 online for the same thing as a special deal. HOLY CRAP I got a great deal! I didn't want to spend so much money but all the ones that I was looking at were tiny and I wanted a screen so I can see what I'm doing. so it is charging now and I'm going to download some music. I'm so happy. Now if I can get off some of the 10lbs I gained it will be golden. I would go tonight, but it is freezing rain here on and off all day and it is dark, 30degrees, windy and the roads are getting slippery, so my sweats are in the washer so i can be ready to go in the am. OH... so I was at walmart today, tried on faded glory size 16 low rise/bootcut.... I HATED THEM! they looked too tight and maybe I'm not use to wearing them, but yuck. How depressing... still a strong 16... Tracyks= how do you do it girl? I couldn't even think of a size 12 and you only have 10lb on me.... I am very impressed!!!! (at you... not me) here hanging playing with some music

Michelle I am doing shakes today, I usually do them 1 week a month to jump start or get my butt back on track, but I have been a mess since Aunt's funeral and Thanksgiving. and today is my 1st day off since Thanksgiving so I figured what a better time to start when I'm home for 2 days with no pizza shop food around. so I guess something to remind me what a fat ass I am would not be good.. LOL

I found an mp3 player at Walmart with a BMI calculator on it... would that just be torture to get it or motivation..???? anyone????

Michelle - I talk to myself like that all the time.... so I guess I've flipped my lid too. I walk by a mirror and rip myself apart, i put on clothes and rip myself apart, I stress and I swell, i'm a mess right now too. Well, there was a 2 hr delay this morning so dd just left for school. ds is getting himself dressed, I'm not going to shower, going to throw on my sweats and go to the gym and do a little running/shopping. I need to get out of this house! Tracyks- you look great, but I understand what you are saying. I'm bouncing around the same 5lbs that you are... Onderland is so close I can taste it but just can't get there...

Tracyks- you look great Laura - that is a nice color... you must be exhausted all that painting yesterday Pamela - I am just getting into lots of colors. My walls are a tan, in my living rooms and going through the hall upstairs, mom's room is a golden color, dd is bright green and ds's is Navy blue, and mine is a deep brown and I have chocolate accent colors in there. I am going to do my back room a rust color to match parts of my kitchen and my bathroom off the living room sage. I love warm colors. dd's room stresses me out completely but she likes it and I don't have to go in there. LOL well, I'm just getting in from work and going to pass out... tomorrow is a new day for me people. I have to do this and do it my way, I am not listening to people tell me not to hit the gym every day...

morning gals still in the dumps so kind of quiet Terry - love the top Tracyks - great NSV Gina - you opened your ss? I was going to put mine under my tree for xmas I don't get presents to open Tracyk- As of right now I have to long weekends planned, one in march for my Bday w/ the kids to an indoor waterpark at our SixFlags and May. As for my dbf... no gift giving between us, we use to but no more, not in the budget I had so much more i wanted to say yesterday but i got home late. work is trying right now, it is so busy. I was going to be sent home early last night and then the delevery guy pd me $10 to take the rest of his night, so with my tips and what he gave me, I made$30, not much but I'm going to get my mp3 player with it so I can start walking again. I am a lazy slug and have gained 10lbs, i feel like a failure and a pc of shit. Tomorrow morning I'm getting up, doing shakes and going to the gym. who cares if I don't walk as fast as everyone else, I just need to walk for 30 mins to get back into the swing of things, I felt so much better doing it. My work week and schedule has been out of control for the last 3 weeks, and Tomorrow starts a new week, and it is a normal week, Monday & Tues off, So what better time to start than a new week? Right? I am having a scrapbooking party Tuesday night which should be interesting. I need to practice self control. As for holiday parties, i don't get to go to one this year, my step mom will have a bowling party or something silly in January, so maybe I'll beable to justify a new pr of jeans for that. well, I'm off to finish getting ready for church.

Option is open... and it is ok... something I had from before my ds and can't part with just because..., it is actually a deep burgundy. that is my old sofa sleeper that i had to take the door jamb off to get out there. My kids put some of the decorations on the tree last night for me

Morning gals Terry - glad mom is doing better. Is your dd my dd's twin? mine was 13 in July and last measurement she was 5'7" and weighed 136. she went from a size 3 last year to a size 7 and honestly she was in denial. LOL but I tell her she is perfect and that is actually a good weight in comparison to her height. Can you pull weight charts to show her where she is and that she is perfect? Michelle ok here they are... sorry I look so shitty, just woke up and had dd take pics before she went to school, i'm drinking my 1st cup of coffee while I post. I also have a cropped black jacket that I wear all the time that would go nice over it that I would be happy to let you borrow and you would not hurt my feelings if it didn't work. Also know I don't have any spandex things on under it, I actually have on my flannel pj's on too, and if you need to have it altered at all that is ok, I got it for a new year party a few years ago, wore it once, had it cleaned and tucked away ... just in case. HUGS

Well ladies Remember I got new furniture 6 days ago??? well looks like something was spilled on the couch... and guess what I just found... a pc of gum ... WTF???? I know it was not my dd she doesn't chew gum... and if she does it is my orbit which is white or orange... so She is no longer allowed to have friends in the house until one of them admits they did it or lost gum.... period. I have insurance on it but shit... it is only 6 days old and I have to call them to have it cleaned already. I don't even want an apology, I want them to apologize to my mother, because she bought it and she is going to be pissed too. so my swelling was starting to go down... and now it is completely out of control again, I don't know if I can even drink water. I am off to get a couple things at walmart... and try to calm down

Great article Cindy - thanks for posting that oh... My favorite aunt and cousins live down there.... and hopefully where I will be in 5 years... ok 4 1/2 now. that was my 5 year plan I made when I was in Myrtle Beach for Easter. Everyone is so much nicer down south and here in NY

Morning gals welcome Cindy! Tracyks you are doing great, i'm still stuck but at this poing I'm just going to make it through the weekend and Monday start shakes and be super golden. I don't have grocery money til sunday and I am still swollen and bad choices are easier to eat at this point - and serious pms is not helping me make good choices. anyway. I bought 40lbs of boneless chicken from work and have to go in and seperate it and freeze indiviually freeze it at work before my shift today. I know, I can't really eat chicken but mom eats a lot and my dd loves grilled chicken so because I'm out of control she is too. But the chicken by the case was only $1.48/lb.. that is a great price for boneless/skinless chicken, I usually pay $1.99 at BJ's and think that is a great price. Tracyk- that is so sad I got an email from a friend today - I'm not big on sharing but it really sums up what keeps me going on a daily basis When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. Concentrate on this sentence....."The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you"

night all pamela - i didn't take it that way, infact, i only blam myself for being a fat ass... but I love my new head dr and I am slowly getting stronger... PMS.. yup... that is me... seems that I feel bloated a full week before tom actually arives. I hate that, I'm use to 2 days before. anyway... i'm going to bed.

Pamela I agree, I was not abused, my parents fighting was what it was but, what has come about since being banded is that all the kids teasing me about my weight when I was in 1st grade was the beginning, then i gained and gained and by 8th grade they just picked on me for nothing... I even changed schools so I didn't' have to go to high school with those same kids, I just covered it up and just told my mother about all this in May when I had a breakdown. I use to use sex as feeling good about myself because someone wanted me... this is what I have been working through over the last month, and it it changing me. and I think that is part of my problem right now, and holidays, and so cold i don't want to leave. It is hard work attacking issues and this one is a tough one for me Terry - I think reading that book is helping me through this phase. THANK YOU Judy - I've noticed how quiet too and was wondering the same thing

OMG Kat, 38lbs in a year, that is great.. If I could lose that in a year I would be at my goal - so there is hope I think I am at the next head game stage. I'm kind of stuck, still in a size 16, not loosing not going to the gym, and then I think... I should be happy, I am right where my Dr. told me I would be at a 50% loss.... and I told him I would be ok with that... but guess what... I AM NOT HAPPY WITH IT. I am going to get my shit together one way or another and start and end December with a bang. hugs all off to bring my mom to the airport

morning gals not that it makes it any easier, but Kat, I think you are right. Thanksgiving - New Year is eating season and we can't eat...I am down 2lbs of the 5 I gained - I guess that is a plus you gals are great - I couldn't sleep, went to bed at 2, and up and showered. I can't keep my eyes open

I'm with you Ladies. My head is in a bad place. i think part of it is just everything, but I am really depressed that I cannot afford to live on my own and my mom is buying my kids xmas presents. I am thankful that she is so good to me and helping me, but it is still depressing - and since I'm so swollen from being sick I am eating crap because it goes down. Today I was starving so had an omlet, 1 pc of sausage, and 1/2 pc of toast. Problem... I found I can eat certain breads... which is bad, but good because I have something with substance - sometimes lately I feel like i'm going to pass out, and very bloated and have radiating pains, I'm afraid it is my gall bladder. I am with you terry - I love my band, just in a shitty place... so when you gals figure out how to get out of it... share the secret... OK?

Thanks Kat - I was thinking about doing the same thing but just had that thought and wanted to throw it out there. 11 that is way to cold for me. I seem to be freezing all the time these days and I don't really like it but at least I can fit in some sweatshirts that I couldn't get over my head when my mom got them for me, and even layer. off to shower and get on my adventure, maybe take a nap at some point

Morning gals so. back to protein shakes and try to get my swelling down today. going to find my mp3 player so I can go to the gym and walk on the treadmill. I have just been doing weights because I need music to walk. I have set myself a goal, I want to run...I have always wanted to bu never felt like I could. I want to do the run for women that is in our area in the spring, May or June. I don't care if I come in last but I want to do it. Anyway, I'm beat. Did I tell you all about Thanksgiving and a comment made by my dd? Well, I asked her to keep an eye on her brother so I could relax and visit with the adults and she said "but mom, you get to visit with adults every night at work"....WELL.... I said to her OK you think work is a social hour... you are coming with me Sunday and going to work your ass off.... I was amazed at how great she did, but we were super busy and she worked her butt off, and not time for fun and games. I wish she came Sat night when we were all yelling at each other because one woman would rather argue than just do what she needs to. It is loads of fun. So I taught her a lesson - she is willing to go back to earn some cash but... not anytime soon. LOL and I gave her $10 which made her happy. She does now understand why I like to come home to a clean house, or at least the way it was when I left. I have been making myself crazy trying to think of the perfect secret santa gift. I think I got it, so Mine should be going out by the end of the week or the 1st of december anyway. Did we decide to keep it a real secret who the package comes from?

night gals