Jennifur

I'm going backwards and very depressed about it but don't kw what to do - hopefully the new job will help a little bit. I'm exercising every day but does not seem to do good, and mom told me i looked like i was gaining... what does the scale say? nice way to be there for me. I have been holding for 6 weeks - last week she told me i looked good and yesterday told me i looked like a fat ass. anyway, just needed to vent sorry

good morning gals omg i am beat, what a week I am up to 212 again and holding so I am slightly depressed about that but not going to stress, I am not leaving without a fill next week and a good fill, what ever he puts in me, and i'm walking 3-4 miles every day. Last night was my oven night so i'm sure i'm bloated, I always am on Sunday mornings. It has been so beautiful here and the storms are not going to be here so sunny and mid 70's all week! I only have a little yard work left in the back yard. The pool will be filled up today and I might get it running and start cleaning it this week. It has been so hot and dry we have no burning going on and now no rain until at least Sat. Laura - I am in the same place as you. I am not going to obsess about the scale right now, or until my fill - I'm starving after working out and walking, let your body adjust is my suggestion?

happy weekend, it is 84 here already, not going to last because we are suppose to have storms and a cool front, but mid 60-70 and sun, I'll take that It is early to open the pool but we went to the store and got a few parts that i needed and I'm filling it up. I'll run the filter and add the beginning cleaners so I can get it clear and ready. No winter cover this year because I didn't have the money to buy a new one, so we put the solar cover on yesterday and are going to let it bake and get warm so when we do officially turn it on for the summer it is nice and warm. Anyway, going to shower and head to work, tonight is my oven night so i'm sure i'm going to roast

Hi guys, just a quick check in, going to drop ds off and then going fr my walk, I'm going to clock it to see how far i'm really going. I know yesterday was 3 miles but i'm doing the hill far walk today i'll check in later going to the drive ins tonight, it is going to be 80 here and horton and alvin are playing. so excited I can actally go because I'm not working! love ya'll

Hey... I'll be the only girl on site..... I need to get motivated here. LOL maybe i'll find a date for my Sept wedding.... My bff is going with me just in case i can't find one.... that way if i hook up at the wedding no hard feelings. Anyway... Tracyks - you are so funny, i found some pics of me... and i thought the same thing.... I use to think I was fat????? hello... I would take those days in a heart beat!!!!!!

I told my agent I needed it when discussing the job, but I will tell them again and will tell them again when I get my start date, which I don't know when it is going to be. I'm so excited!

Dont have a start date but I have the job!!!!!!!!

Morning gals Still waiting so i gained 6lbs overnight from Tues - yesterday. I wanted to puke, but i knew it - i had no fingers or toes, why am i so swollen. what a happy bandiversary I don't know what is going on, but i have a week to get rid of it because my appt was cancelled for today, he had an emergency. All I know is I am going to insist on a fill, and a good one. I do great for a few days but am hngry when I'm done eating my egg or pudding and then after a few days, I work out and I'm just so hungry i eat more than I should. Still make ok choices but eat way too much. I went for a 3 mile walk yesterday and i'm going to shower now and hit the road and do it again, then more yard work and mini golf later today. I'm trying to get out of the house, I was so tired last night i wanted to fall over! hope you all have a good day, I have to get rid of my fat! I'm getting depressed about it and it is not helping it go away

Thanks I am almost really sure today is Laura's Bandiversary too, I think she is my band buddy! Happy Banidversary

Silly me today is the 16th... I told you all i'm not a morning person!. LOL

Pam you get in on the 15th? what are your plans? call me... my cell is on the list

Morning gals Well, I'm bloated from working last night in the heat an being completely off schedule so I'm not even weighing in on my bandiversary. Either way -overall it has been a great year. I have gained so much self confidence, went from a 24 to a 16, enjoy life so much more and have met the most wonderful people! I could write a book about the last year, because I've been putting lots of thought into it but I'm not awake enough for that. LOL I'm still holding my breath waiting for my offer on that job. You all will know as soon as I do. Well, I'm off to finish my coffee so i can go get my aunt - I thought today was my appt so I told her I would be over today ... sigh I am so swollen today, I am not sure what that is all about.....

Hi guys I am home, was in my 2nd interview for 45 minutes, super told me before everyone else got in there I basically have the job but because i'm going throught an agent, they have to call her. OMG I'm dying, she is out of the office I already called her. I love these guys, and the project manager is older and said he is fighting for plumbing so we wont have to use the port a potty, and that i will basically run the office and be their mother. OMG you guys, i'm so excited and waiting for the official official word. I know I have it so if something happens and I don't, I'll take the bridge. As for fills, maybe I could use more but i'll take 1.75 at this point. I am down 5lbs since my last appt which sucks but would have been better a month ago. I am going to tell him my last fill did nothing for me....and that i need a fill and i will let him put the extra in that he wanted to last time. I want this last 25 gone. anyway, i'm off to put my mower together and then work at 3. as soon as I hear you will all hear! thanks for the purple power, I could feel it!

Morning gals I'm up drinking my coffee about to get ready for my big interview. pray and cross everything that i know today. I am going to shine! Anyway, Wow Judy, 3.1 I can eat anything and i need more, i'm going to tell him that an i'm going to let him fill me to where he wants to - I've never had more than 1.25 in mine and as it helps I don't think it is my sweet spot but I don't think I could imagine having 3 ... but then again i'd probably lose my last 25 LOL Have a great one, i'll keep you all posted

Hi just a check in. My interview is at 9am tomorrow

Morning gals up a little atere than I wanted to be - but not really awake yet if that makes sense talk to ya'll later Have fun Judy!

Morning girls I took a muscle relaxer last night and feel so much better, a little pain this am but nothing like yesterday. I'll take another tonight and hope that will be my cure all. We are heading up to my sisters today, BIL is going to go over some stuff with me on what to expect out of this job so I can exceedingly shine at my 2nd interview. The cafe is set to open in 2 weeks, they are busting their butts now so can open a week before mothers day. That will be so good so i can pay back the loan I'm going to have to take from my mom. I am just so completely stressed out - I hate to tell her how much I need for the next 30 days. Oh well, i'll have income in 2 weeks I hope you all have a good day, it is damp and rainy here for today and tomorrow then beautiful for the rest of the week. going to get lots of yard work done

Well, it is rainy out here after a beautiful week. Here is the thing... I raked up the yard the other day and with the sun and rain, OMG, the grass is getting long and very green. Mom is going to get me a lawn mower today - it is going to rain for the 3 days and back in the high 40's but by friday it is going to be 70 here... I'll have a jungle LOL I'm so glad it is spring, now if it can just be nice enough out at night i'll start walking again. I am going to clean out the stroller so i can take ds with me, he would like to walk but would never survive the 3 mile treck i do.

Jane my house was empty for a couple of years when i moved in, I had only had 1 wolf spider experience before then. OMG, my neighbors laugh at me but i buy spider killer by the gallon and spray the entire outside of my house 3-4 times a year so they never come back. I set bombs off in the garage, I only did that once last year and there was the biggest dead spider on the floor I've ever seen. Nightmares for weeks. If i could afford the pest control I would, but it is $500 a year for them to take care of the mice. I'll stick to my gallon of spider spray> LOL My mom has a house in Sedona - she says when it rains in the spring the tranchilla's (sp) come out of the large hole in the ground to get dry, they would be everywhere, in offices, hospitals, houses, she had one just walking up her stairs.... and she wanted me to go out there... I THINK NOT

Morning girls i'm down another .5 today, slowing down i guess, but i'll take it, i'm back to my start weight for the contest so now everything I get credit for. My back has been hurting so very badly, during the day i'm not too bad, but at night, i just cant seem to lay anyway without feeling like i'm going to die. I am going to make an appt with my pcp next week I just can't function not sleeping and the pain is horrible. ughhhhhhhh have to work tonight - everyone wants me to take my hours back, i just can't do it - i miss it because i'm home but i can't go back to nights

night gals

You are my hero! I don't know where to begin to get a life and i don't have to answer to anyone You guys are going to have a great time

Tracy I am trying to hit my sweet spot after a year too, the only problem is my dr doesn't like to give fills, he is a believer in you have to work for it. I could eat a full plate of food, and I have been, I don't know why he doesn't work with Melissa though, she has never had any restriction. I would be so happy at 180 that is only 5lbs from my goal. But as my bandiversary comes up next week, I would have never in a milliion years have expected to feel so good in general and have gained any of my self confidence back, and take charge of my life, kind of, and want to go out and thrive on compliments. And to be where you are and quit smoking!!!! that is amazing. you guys are the best

Hi guys, I know this is long, as i read it I was sick to my stomach and evdn have a can of that stuff right next to my laptop! xo jen Latest Drug in Middle School - Dusting First, I'm going to tell you a little about me and my family. My name is Jeff. I am a Police Officer for a city which is known nationwide for it's crime rate We have a lot of gangs and drugs. At one point we were # 2 in the nation in homicides per capita. I also have a police K-9 named Thor. He was certified in drugs and general duty. He retired at 3 years old because he was shot in the line of duty. He lives with us now and I still train with him because he likes it. I always liked the fact that there was no way to bring drugs into my house. Thor wouldn't allow it. He would tell on you. The reason I say this is so you understand that I know about drugs. I have taught in schools about drugs. My wife asks all our kids at least on ce a week if they used any drugs. I like building computers occasionally and started building a new one in February 2005. I also was working on some of my older computers. They were full of dust so on one of my trips to the computer store I bought a 3 pack of DUST OFF. Dust Off is a can of compressed air to blow dust off a computer. A few weeks later when I went to use one of them they were all used. I talked to my kids and my two sons both said they had used them on their computer and messing around with them. I yelled at them for wasting the 10 dollars I paid for them. On February 28 I went back to the computer store. They didn't have the 3 pack which I had bought on sale so I bought a single jumbo can of Dust Off. I went home and set it down beside my computer. On March 1st, I left for work at 10 PM. Just before midnight my wife went down and kissed Kyle goodnight. At 5:30 am the next morning Kathy went downstairs to wake Kyle up for school, before she left for work. He was propped up in bed with his legs crossed and his head leaning over. She called to him a few times to get up. He didn't move. He would sometimes tease her like this and pretend he fell back asleep. He was never easy to get up. She went in and shook his arm. He fell over. He was pale white and had the straw from the Dust Off can coming out of his mouth. He had the new can of Dust Off in his hands. Kyle was dead. I am a police officer and I had never heard of this. My wife is a nurse and she had never heard of this. We later found out from the coroner, after the autopsy, that only the propellant from the can of Dust off was in his system. No other drugs. Kyle had died between midnight and 1 AM. I found out that using Dust Off is being done mostly by kids ages 9 through 15. They even have a name for it. It's called dusting. A take off from the Dust Off name. It gives them a slight high for about 10 seconds. It makes them dizzy. A boy who lives down the street from us showed Kyle how to do this about a month before. Kyle showed h is best friend. Told him it was cool and it couldn't hurt you. It's just compressed air. It can't hurt you. His best friend said so. Kyle was wrong. It's not just compressed air It also contains a propellant called R2. It's a refrigerant like what is used in your refrigerator. It is a heavy gas. Heavier than air. When you inhale it, it fills your lungs and keeps the good air, with oxygen, out. That's why you feel dizzy, buzzed. It decreases the oxygen to your brain, to your heart. IT KILLS YOU. The horrible part about this is there is no warning. There is no level that kills you. It's not cumulative or an overdose; it can just go randomly, terribly wrong. IT'S NOT AN OVERDOSE . You don't die later. Or not feel good and say I've had too much. You usually die as you're breathing it in. If not you die within 2 seconds of finishing 'the hit .' That 's why the straw was still in Kyle's mouth when he died. Why his eyes were still open. The experts want to call this huffing. The kids don't believe its huffing. And that's why its more accepted. There is no chemical reaction, no strong odor. It doesn't follow the huffing signals. Kyle complained a few days before he died of his tongue hurting. It probably did. The propellant causes frostbite. If I had only known. It's easy to say hey, it's my life and I'll do what I want . But it isn't. Others are always affected. This has forev er changed our fa mily's life. I have a hole in my heart and soul that can never be fixed. The pain is so immense I can't describe it. There's nowhere to run from it. I cry all the time and I don't ever cry. I do what I'm supposed to do but I don't really care. My kids are messed up. One won't talk about it. The other will only sleep in our room at night. And my wife, I can't even describe how bad she is taking this. I thought we were safe because of Thor. I thought we were safe because we knew about drugs and talked to our kids about them. After Kyle died another story came out. A probation Officer went to the school system next to ours to speak with a student. While there he found a student using Dust Off in the bathroom. This student told him about another student who also had some in his locker. This is a rather affluent school system. They will tell you they don't have a drug problem there. They don't even have a dare or plus program there. So rather than tell everyone about this 'new' way of gettin g high they found, they hid it. The probation officer told the media after Kyle's death and they, the school, then admitted to it. I know that if they would have told the media and I had heard, it wouldn't have been in my house. We need to get this out of our homes and school computer labs. Using Dust Off isn't new and some 'professionals' do know about. It just isn't talked about much, except by the kids. They all seem to know about it. April 2nd was 1 month since Kyle died. April 5th would have been his 15th birthday. And every weekday I catch myself sitting on the living room couch at 2:30 in the afternoon and waiting to see him get off the bus. This Officer is asking for everyone who receives this email to forward it to everyone in their address book, even Law Enforcement Officers!

Hi guys Tracyks- Hugs - I can honestly tell you that I understand, dbf is more mental than ever and has admitted that he is extremely jealous of me and is afraid i'm going to find someone else.... and this really does make him more mental than ever... it is like a freaking roller coaster ride oh... ladies... just in case you are wondering... i still love him and probably always will, but i don't know if that matters anymore... to me... good sign huh Pam - glad you are good, and enjoy the R&R and the pampering Tracyk - I have a friend who is on the board, she was banded Last March, Melissa, shee posted for me remember? Anyway - she has not lost much since surgery - had her port fixed - still not loosing, she does look great but our Dr only has her at 1.75! I was telling her today that was it? I know others that are almost maxed. I'm glad you are eating again. I only have 1.25 and think now I could go to 1.5 or 1.6 and go to the next level Kat - that is a horrible story about your friend. I'm reading it and sadly thinking to myself... that is why i can't meet a normal guy... they are all with the crazy women. LOL Well, don't know what to do with myself, just had a cup of sliced sub type lettuce, 3oz tuna with salsa and 1oz provolone cheese. I'm going to add to those numbers if it kills me!