Jennifur

Haydee - Kat hit the nail on the head OMG here is my fear... I would get the smaller dress and not fit into it or be a tight squeeze, I would feel like such a failure and even worse about myself, ( I'm good at beating myself up) I am sure you are going to be amazing in it either way!

You guys are funny today something has to make me smile, i can always count on ya'll

Losingjustme - first of all, i've kind of followed you and what an inspiration you are.!!!! I did add that too, I do drink Protein Drinks, but OMG my dr is so against them, he thinks you are not learning to eat properly. I did do them but didn't make them too thick and waited until I could move on to the dairy phase. I was golden by the book,

My best advice, follow your dr's instructions, but hope some of those things give you some ideas.

I'm just a week over my year out and it is funny, I just got a fill, the first one in a long time that has done anything for me, but I decided to go back to post surgery diet so I've had to back track. After day 8 of my 2 week clear liquid stage, I could not have 1 more cup of plain broth so i went to a sub shop and got some french onion Soup with out the topping (bread and cheese) and put it in my magic bullet to make liquid, was a little thick but not as filling as the creamy Soups. After plain warm broth that was fantastic. Because I know I can have more, I added some lean ground beef to it this time to make a little thicker and added Protein ( I don't know if I would do that post surgery) That was satisfying for a few more days, then tried cream soups but all the good ones had hard veggies in them or just didn't do it for me. Stage 2 beginning mushie stage for me: I made the insides of stuffed shells, ric cheese, seasoning, egg, parm cheese parsley mixture and put sauce over it and baked for mushie stage. Refried Beans with a little melted cheese and lots of salsa to keep moist was another one of my favorites. I put everything in the 3-4 oz cups that you can get at the store, the disposable tupperware type things, and never filled them. What ever you do... just make is mushie and take it slow! Good luck! Oh, today is day 5 of my fill and I just had some ricotta cheese today and it was good. I needed to remind myself what it is all about. Take care

OMG I just typed out this big email and lost it!!!!!!!!!!!1 Summary Haydee - here would be a question - if you stayed with the 18 could you have it altered before the wedding??? Or what if it was too big and you needed to order another size how would that work? Me personally I am mental and have so many things I bought a size smaller because I know I would fit into them... needless to say I have now given most of them away because they are either not in style or.... i totally passed that size. I'm still loosing but not as fast so I guess those are just questions I would have to help make a decision. I am so sad today, all the things you gals are posting are things that have been overwhelming me. I have cried most of the afternoon. I feel like I know it is time to turn down the next road, and I can see that turn, but like i have to say good bye to the old one. Maybe that is good, but still sad, and still overwhelming. I don't trust anyone in my life or much of anything. I don't trust part of my family and don't trust people I just met or don't know well. It is a very sad thing, what kind of life is this... but hope just a transition... I so need our weekend to just have fun with people whom i trust and know better than most in my RL

Judy, what a difference. Holy smokes!!!!! and what a great NSV

I LOVE my flat iron, dd and I use it every day (she has my nasty hair) to the point where the spring just went in it.

Judy so true, Jane - she is right but I guess what i was saying was that I understood where you were coming from and you are not alone I'm freaking might even start packing today.

Jane funny, because I was kind of stressing because I feel like I'm huge and will be such a failure in comparison to some, that is the summary, but you said it best

OK last post for a bit DS is so tired and nuts.... he is driving me crazy! I don't want to waste gas to take him to the sitter to lounge around today. but tomorrow, I might just do it... But I'll miss them when i'm in SA :wink2:

Tracy - OMG you brought tears to my eyes for you and you look so amazing and happy

Suzie That is great but I do understand. I still feel huge, OK not huge but as I tell people I lost close to 80lbs, I think OMG, I was just so disgusting and how did I ever get that way? Over the weekend I ran into a friend at the bank, I have not seen her since the month before my surgery, she had the bypass and had some issues but she is 4 years out and still looks amazing, she has gained 15lbs but is aware of it and going to get it back off, she is very tall and actually I think she could have used it, she almost looked too thin. Anyway, her sister is considering banding and will not do bypass after watching her sister so I think it was fate that I ran into her. She has lost friends and had people saying she was on Crack and that was why she lost so much weight. People are just Horrible! So we are going to get together and catch up. She also knows the insurance TT tricks! Yipee Terry - Hugs on today!

Morning gals What a weekend, worked the entire thing, my body hurts in places I forgot I had, it has been a long time since I worked like this, or so it seems. Went out sat night after work, have still been on liquids and only had 2 drinks, thank goodness they were not strong. I had on a pr of jeans, my fav big flip flops and a black halter top, (that was how I went to work -flip flops) NSV a friend was hanging all over me, not really in that sense but kept telling me how amazing I looked and that there was something different about me. (with a big smile) Yesterday, I took dd shopping for her great report card and got her some new clothes and me a new halter top, skirt and water shoes from Target and sundress from Walmart. The skirt was a 16 which I'm ok with because I could never wear target skirts at all but the dress...it was a size 14!!!! I cannot remember the last time I was in a 14, the green one was my favorite but the zipper was broken at the bottom so I sent dd out to get the brown one, she was mia forever so i opened the door and walked out... The young girls at the desk were like OMG you look great in that ... not many people can wear that style and not look pregnant, which was what I was afraid of. Then I put the brown one on and got dd's opinion and then went back out to the girls. 1 loved the brown (so did dd) and the other (and me) liked the green. So I got the brown because the zipper was ok. I guess the brown one makes my itty bitties look bigger too (so i was told) And... down another lb today to boot, I'm now -2 for the contest and 1 more and i can change my ticker again. I raised it a couple the other day when it was telling me i was a loser for not changing it in 80 days. LOL Rainy and cold here, so ds and I are just going to hang today, he planted with gram yesterday went to bed at 10 and is up already, it is going to be a long day!

You guys are funny I too am bringing a large suitcase so I can have room to bring stuff back and a small carry on. I so need my hair done today but don't have the cash so it kind of works out, I'm going to go next week and it will be perfect for our trip. Who knows, I need more chocolate in my hair so I am not sure what color it will be

Morning gals well, here is a huge accomplishment, I worked last night and still weigh the same as yesterday and feel a little swollen. I will confess, I did go have a couple drinks with my freind from work, OMG what fun we had, but I was already swollen when I left work, so when I got home, I drank my warm lemon water, which I had to pee forever in the middle of the night but seemed to do the trick. I feel puffy but look normal so I think I got it figured out. I came home to 2 more work emails, this job is going to be fantastic but take lots of time. I'm just so happy Any Happy Bandiversary Denise & Tracy Denise, so nice to hear from you, how are the girls and the house? Pama- Oh... Poor baby, his ears sound so sore Judy - it is chilly here this mornng too, I guess summer is gone lol

Hey where is Kat, You ok? well, i'm off to talk to my neighbor to see if he can help me with a little project this week

Terry thank you for that suggestion. I only plan on taking anti nausea stuff, anything for nerves would probably land me in jail or in the hospital, they might think I'm dying. As for drink, I'm a happy drunk, give me a movie, a drink and some headphones, and i'm good to go. Maybe my ipod and a drink, but nothing that I can't function, My flights are not horribly long, 5 hr travel with 1 hr layover so I'll need to get myself to another plane. Maybe a drink in the airport so I actually get on the plane would be nice. Only kidding, I'll be there, but no jail... PROMISE

I will only need to check, it depends on when I start my job, but it looks like I'll be doing part time stuff this week, either email or work phone? and since brand new ... ya know but no work on sat or sun, and friday is travel day so will probably forward my mail to my aol account I can check on the phone this is all play.... promise

Absolutely you can check your mail. I am almost 100% sure I'm going to bring it - just for the movie, check my mail friday and when we get back to the hotel before i travel home, new job stuff

It was so cute _ I knew the tune... and it has not left my head since I read it. LOL You guys, seriously, I can't believe that I am actually getting on a plane, not once but 4 times with my layovers! I know I'll be fine but i'm so anxious. I can't wait to get there but it has been 8 years since I've flown and I had a nervous beakdown then. I get anxious, can feel my bp going up every time I think about it. I walk around telling myself to just breathe... People are starting to think I'm nuts becaue they have no idea why >>> LOL I think that is why i'm putting off packing and stuff. I don't want to bring a carry on. Can you bring a laptop on the plane to watch a movie? with some head phones... it will all be good

:biggrin2: anytime, it is very relaxing and an excuse to soak too

Judy- I made mine 2 weeks ago, I arrive in SA on the 15th, I actually need to make an appt for with my pcp so I can get some anti nausea pills, I'm so afraid of throwing up. The thing is, when i made my reservations I idn't really have the money but.... I had money so I called and they said they would not charge my card, just reserve, well, they charged it! So My trip is officially 100% paid for, and there is talk of the refunds going out a week early (on the news today) so, I'm going to go get a couple pr or short and tops to take away the weekend before and the rest is my spending money. I'm so happy I found my cowboy hat, I hate the way it looks on me, i got it when I was rounder, so maybe ya'll can help me get a new one that looks better on me. I loved that crazy thing Oh well, good excuse for a new one! Terry - can I send you a box of clothes to bring for everyone to look through? Is there a place to donate left overs if there are any?

Pam - sounds like a fun night try epson salt to soak your foot in, I swear it works, pulls infection out. That is what they told me to use for body piercings and when my belly got infected it sucked the puss out (i know tmi) but really works. it is chilly here, don't feel like doing anything today as i know I have to work my butt off later

Morning gals so strange to be so quiet here. I passed out so early last night, tosses and turned for most of it. Well i'm down 1lb, wish it was another but lost 11lbs of bloat the last few days, I do feel so much better~ It is going to be cold and rainy here all week but I guess that is ok, we are going on almost 3 weeks of no rain... so we are going to get all of our april showers in the last week.