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Hi guys checking in, Judy - thanks for the updates Tx gals,.... glad you are ok... how about Haydee other than no power? is her house ok Kat - LOVE YOU!!!! Pamela - I thought it was you who did Zumba..... LOL... i remember too Michelle - you go girl... Tracyks, Jane hey i feel like i'm missing everyone so tired, got up and left at 6 for work bbq and meetings, out at 4:30 to go pick up u-haul and cabinets, unloaded and returned the truck and just getting home, Can't see straight. Oh... Judy, you are right i'll land on my feet, always do, just a rough spell, just want it all to be good again... doesn't even have to be as good as it use to be... just even anyway... talk to ya'll when I can tomorrow is going to be a long day too

Hey gals I am going to bed, this is crazy week.... ok out of control... walking, going to the gym, working, gyno, cyst, lots of pain, running out of health insurane 10/1 so i can either rush and fix my insides or .... wait until 11/1 when my new ins kicks in. I am exhausted and so financially tapped, I'm just so on overload I didn't take a before of ds play room which is in the works of being my laundry room... but i'm going to take pics of my empty, now dirty kitchen with no table before they take the cabinets out Saturday. My sister called freaking out, they are taking the cainets out of her house tomorrow, so ran like a crazy woman to get a u haul truck there so they will load them for me. It is going to take me forever but it will be nice when I'm done I'm goingto bed..... I had personals for everyone but i'm just out of control tired and can't think love ya'l

morning gals we got left overs of Ike, lost power at 1am Sunday night, it was tropical here and so windy. I couldn't sleep because 1, it was so hot, and 2, because I was afraid i was not going to get up.... long day yesterday. My boss was home in Buffalo and experienced the same thing. I'm mental eating, my tummy feels so bloated but my legs and arms are shrinking. I don't get it Kat - omg... that just sounds horrible, take care of you! Laura - take it easy - forced bedrest is not fun Tracyk and Terry - so glad you guys are ok Haydee is ok but would love to see her Michelle, I love being set up on the Y, does yours have fitlinxx? I love that I account for everything I do there. Jane hey there Suzie - are you still motivated Pamela - you sound crazy busy - but must be an amazing teacher Tracyks- hey there sister - enjoying your new kitchen? I know i'm forgetting someone, i'm sorry not intentional I got up early to walk but I think i'm going to pass and do Water aerobics tonight - i'm getting out of work early and it is freezing here this morning. Talk to you all later

Hi gals So glad Terry and Tracy are ok, anyone hear from Haydee????? I'm just checking in... so i don't get completely in a horrible place, so busy i'm just exhausted. Going to try to get the floor down in the laundry room today - found out Thursday my cabinets will be here in 3 weeks.... how can i do that? I thought 8-10 overwhelmed is an understatement Tracyks - you are so good (picture day) anyway hey everyone.... i'll be back later

Tracy, Terry and Haydee. Stay safe and let us know you are ok from time to time... ya'll are in my prayers My stress level just picked up 100000 times, my sister is going to have cabinets for me in 3 weeks... what happened to 8-10? I'm not ready, i'm going to be working my ass off Plus, so stressed can't even choke down coffee today... WTF... you know that is bad for me. Stress ... a bad thing

Morning gals Tracyk- I am so there with you, I am in a bad place too and feel like a cow, the stupid scale is not moving, I can't eat much and have been working out like a fool - 2 weeks now ... and can't get that 6lbs off, it is frustrating. I know 6lbs... big deal... but you guys all kicked my butt - i've been stuck here since my fill. I think monday i'm doing liquid diet - to get back on track I called the guy from the bar last night, that was a big thing, I'm going to see him this weekend. Might invite him up for a drink tonight if i see him in my travels Kat -- that is so awesome! I got teary when I was reading that story. Anyway - off to get ready, I'm going to have coffee with my friend Kim on my way to the train station to pick up one of the boys Have a great day

I'm home from the gym quiet here today Kat - I'm glad you are at least eating something. I love multi grain chips, i make nachos with them ya know it is funny, i was out of control eating this weekend and then on my obgyn's suggestion, I started taking my flinstone vitimin/minearls.... I am not throwing up but feel sick enough that i'm not even hungry and when I do eat can't eat much... could be some left overs from when I was just throwing u[ like crazy a couple week s ago ... who knows... but if my scale doesn't move i'm going to lose my mind. I lost my meagurements from pre surgery which really stinks but i have a starting point from now... my belly is 1" bigger and my leg measurements are 2" smaller, which is odd for me anyway sorry about all the typos i just realized, fingers not working gym at night when walking a huge site and climbing all day is bad... i need to go in the am oh and kat... yes i am pretty pissed off still.... not to worry i will have a firm date for the wedding this weekend!

Tracy- i'll scan it tomorrow at work and post it from there. I can tell you but i've altered a bit, enough that i just put he stuff in it. My mom got me the best slow cooker cook book in the world. anyway, going to work out and swim lessons

hi everyone bad place bills are piling up and I'm stressing and i just got a court date for a dental bill Kev "took care of" on 8/12 - thank goodness i keep emails... that is all i can say. I am just so stressed out because i'm so close to being caught up, infact, I will be even closer on the 19th but i am just at my witts end here, it seems the harder I work the more I get behind. anyway - needed to vent... check in ... what ever it is Terry, i'll get your check out this week

Morning gals I don't know why i keep getting logged out.. how frustrating Anyway, lazy weekend, i don't know why i'm so tired. Yesterday we went to lunch, ate 1/4 of my burger no bread and almost died, what a waste of $9 - then went shopping for dd's school supplies that she just got the list for, went for a little over a 2 mile walk, cooked dinner for the kids, ate 1/2 cup of chili I made on Sat, made lunches for today and off to bed, and I'm still tired. didn't sleep well Anyway, Kat, I'm working on a long list like that too, but needed to get the house together so i can focus. Denise - what sweet babies...glad it is going good with the girls Laura, your turn next. Hey everyone.

Terry I was so happy to see the walk on the news, it is something that might help with my closure and awareness. I'm going to shower and get lunch with the kids, i am dying for French onion soup! That is about my speed

Laura Thanks, and i'll go through it my entire life, but it is ok, i'm in a better place about it and much more aware of things around me. I have to tell you... with dd, i picked at the craziest stuff that you would have thought would have been bad, grilled in butter bagels and cream cheese, reubins, and vanilla icecream with hot apples were among my favorites (still are) and lost 25lbs when i was carrying her! so don't beat yourself up too badly, you are eating for 2! So eat 1/4 cup of chips and not the entire bag....I am still laughing about the fat girl at heart... because I am too!!! you better take pics of yourself with that cute baby belly.. I gained so much with ds i just looked fat... very fat for most of it... you are going to be cute, you really are tall and slender so will now have a baby bump.... i don't know if that is coming out wrong or offensive... not meaning too,...... just trying to say you are going to be stunning !

You guys are so sweet It is not easy reliving and I'm sure the walk is going to be hard, but there are so many people who deal with this type of situation. Anyway... thanks... but there is the rest of my story that i don't always find easy to tell. I'm just getting up, drinking coffee, and going to go for a walk, i ate 1 bite of store bought potatoe salad last night and threw up for hours... yuck reality check!

I'm sorry but glad that you were there for your sister. That was the short version, you could not even imagine the horrible details that were left out. My daughter remember's how I was, she is walking with me.

Hi guys sorry for the drama post... something i've been working on yesterday and today. I was late yesterday and went to have a drink and a share nachos with friends... my treat for all the hard work, I was in home by 7 and alseep on the couch at 8. I was beat. Got up at midnight to pick up a friend who was at the bar and couldn't drive, and stayed and drank water for 3 hrs. Got up late this am, went to pick up friends car, grocery shopping, cooked some food (stew beef black bean spicey chili) went to the gym, had a cheese burger and here I am. Terry - what a beautil necklace I'm sending the dress back I got, I'm wearing the dress I wore to grams funeral to the wedding. It was snug then and I had to wear a sucker in thing, fits perfectly now without the sucker in thing.... and if i lose another 5-10lbs in 3 weeks like i would love to, it will just fit perfectly! Well, i'm going to shower from the gym, i'm yucky ttyl

Hey everyone reading post and doing different things I am going to be doing a walk I just found out about https://afsp.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.participant&eventID=531&participantID=15199 It is something very personal to me and I am poor, so I only obligated myself to $20 donation, the walk is very important to me and I didn't want to be stressed about money. As some or most of you know...I began really gaining weight after Dylan was born.... I can honestly say it was not from him per say, but from severe depression after having him and the stuff I was dealing with Kevin that emotionally drained me. Anyway, I was not up 20lbs and months and months of therapy. After all that therapy my Dr. told me to call one of my best friends I had lost touch with (again you all know why I lost touch) so I did, it was the best thing I could have ever done - After spending all of my free time with this friend, he became a very important part of my life again. One weekend in July, I was having my daughter's birthday party, he was camping all week and was not sure if he would make it back but if he didn't promised to come over the next weekend. Well the week went by and I didn't hear from him or see him (I saw him every morning on my way to work) I was getting worried. A few days later I had a missed call at my house from his brother, I freaked out and called him, his machine was not picking up, I called his brother, no return calls, Finally after being frantic for 2 days, I called a mutual friend who's wife said I knew you didn't know, you would have been there... He had killed himself. I will never forget those words, Everything went numb and i fell to the ground, I couldn't breathe, I felt like I was not real. Needless to say, I blamed myself, he loved me as much as I love Kev and I knew that.. and suddenly I had gained another 50lbs and wouldn't leave my house other than work, I cried for months, even years. It was only about 6 months ago was the first time I could talk without crying. I still go to the cemetary as much as possible and do not have a minute in my life where I do not think about him and understand why he did that.... He had so many people who loved him and would have helped but just would not talk to any of us. So... knowing that, he changed my life in many ways but doing that - and there is not a day that goes by that i don't miss him with all I have, but I know that I would not have met all my violets if I had not gained all that weight. I know that I am a stronger person for dealing with his death on my own, and I know that it is not my fault he took his life - This is after much more therapy. He took his Life in Sept 2004 - I don't want to ever have to experience this again, or have anyone else in my life have to experience it either. So, I just needed to share this with my Violet Sisters - more because it is a big part of why i break down a lot and something I don't share in such detail. Love you all

Hi guys Sorry, I must have missed a post about my kids? they are so cute... anyway... just wanted to stop in, I was so confused because it took me back like 100 pages and i am mental from lack of food. today... gym at 5:30... sb protien bar, 1 serving yogurt 1 chicken tender and going to have some yogurt for dinner 550 cals today, 45g protien. i might take tomorrow off from working out since i am going to be there sat too (ds has his first swim lessons) i'm crazy at the moment

Morning Ladies... quick check in before i run to the gym.... up and dressed just need to dry my hair... Kat - glad you are feeling better Terry - (((((((HUGS))))))) Well, i survived food pron yesterday anyway, i'm only down 3lbs this week... why did it work so much faster when we couldn't eat, i still had more than i am now???? at least it is not another +3... 6 more to go to get to my lowest... how sad is that? well going to work out, taking tomorrow morning off since i have to be there for swim lessons on saturday morning. have a good day every one

TracyK - sliders... small greasy burgers with fried onions and ketcup (now we can have cheese too) ymmmmmmmmm Pamela - ds is excited to do his homework every day right after school with his sister.... so my training for her will pay off. LOL... the reward is good grades and little extra study time, (she earned that) Lunassa, nice to see you i'm off to bed... going to get up and go to the gym again Suzanne - i'm glad my crazy person who motivated me is helping you too.... happy to help... I don't know if the scale went down again today but my butt sure is kicked and i'm not eating like a crazy person, i just had 1 slice 2% cheese and 1/4 cup baked beans... and a protein shke for dinner at 4:30.. had approximately 800 calories today and 50g protein. we will see

Hey everone! Michelle you are too funny Terry - you are in my thoughts So we made it through the first day of school.. of course with an accident because the teacher didn't hear or see him at lunch raise his hand that he had to go. but all in all he loved it and had a great day! dd- - she had a great day at high school... i only had a tear or 2 anyway....i'm going to bring dd to cheer.... and then put ds to bed, he is tired ughhhhhhhhh dd got sliders and cheese fries for dinner and i'm not eating... this crap better pay off... that is all i can say ttyl

Morning gals quick check in, i'm going for a walk and then Dylan's big 1st day of school... I only had 750 cals yest and worked out for 40 minutes and only lost 1lb WTF? I told my trainer from years ago my story this weekend and told her I was on a mission... she said bring it and she will help me... so I emailed her back last night and told her to give me 2 weeks to get in a routien and i'm calling her on it. That gives me 2 weeks to lose the rest of the 7lbs i'm still up and get in a schedule i know I can deal with. Plus, i have the wedding in 3 weeks, i would like to be down 10lbs in 3 weeks but i'm not going to push it, I'd be happy to be where I was before. I'll try to check in from work, have to get an oil change in the work car this morning and leaving work about 1 ttfn

Kat - nice to have you back Pamela... my dd's name is Alexandra... and to me that's what she is... but her friends call her Alex, (Dylan and I always call her Boo) I let her pick out Dylan's name... middle was going to be Patrick after their dad and well.... they have my last name... anyway, going to bed, been up way too long

I'm at work... working away... I need to get a fill... i can eat anything and right now choose not to... so problem... i'm lonely without my boss and I want to eat... working on 25oz of rasp green tea, and my 2nd rasp lemonade crystal light... I'm trying to flush myself out. I had 1 south beach protein bar 140 cals 10g protein and i'm thinking about having my serving of dannon light yogurt soon.... how frustrating... i can't beleive i let myself go after last month with kev... kind of makes me angry at myself... after all was said and done i gained 10lbs...! (8this am) no one will ever make me gain back all the weight. Ok can you all tell i'm trying to convince myself of that too? ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ok back to not eating...

Mmmmmmmmmmmm shrimp and bacon.... better yet... soak in olive oil and pepper, wrap in bacon and cook on the grill (on a cookie sheet or something) scallops are really good that way too

Tracy NOPE... I don't want her showing up more often... trust me there is a lot of bad emotions that come with it I'm honestly a huge basket case and my boss is not in this am so i don't have any distractions. 1 day of stress from her and my hair is falling out in clumps again...going to get some sublingual zinc tonight Well - i'll check back in shortly... can't stay on too long