Jennifur

Hi guys bored at work so thought i would check in since no one is here with me, going to be a long hour I am going to bring my little tv in tomorrow with a dvd player built in and i have a burner at work, i have a video - chad hymes - speaker at work, i cried my eyes out but want a copy, it was amazing so i'm going to make a couple copies, maybe burn a couple cd's and clean the place up. I'm kind of sad today, don't know why but i am have to be to work at 6:30 tomorrow and going out for happy hour tonight, that should be fun I started tanning which was going well until last night when i went into the power tanner, the tops of my feet are fried. my feet never fry. Tracyks- love the new pic, you are cute i have to go out for a walk - see how things are going out there

Hi guys, i'm bloated today and feel fat, pms is coming oh well, i'm happy so who cares... ok wrong attitude i just won't hop on the scale for a few days Tracy - i hope they figure it out and fix you Pamela - CONGRATS I got a phone call and lost all my personal thoughts, and there were a lot Kat - enjoy Kinsey while she is there Tracyks- you will get there, you are good like that i'm off to put ds to bed and do some laundry

Good Morning Hi Terry, my name is Jenn and I am a here to claim my life back... lol Tracy (((HUGS))) Pamela - Kat's pulled pork sounds good, and I do the same thing, buy a roast that is on sale, sometimes i even get what is marked down - but, in the store, they have the packets of seasoning - they have a crock pot bbq seasoning (kind of like the packets of gravy or stew seasoning) put that in the crock pot, seasoning and turn it on high for the day and cook it to death, i don't take the fat off the roast until it is done (makes it easier for me to eat) - I don't drain the juices, add a little bbq sauce mix up and done it takes a few minutes to pull it apart but if it is cooked to death just falls apart and I can live off it for a week Judy said Crap??? LOL Well, Wayne is not talking to me so you know what i say.... i'm sorry this happened but what can i do, he must not have been mr. right! I'm happy with my - ok not really but happy with my choices and i'm going to be stronger and better than ever! not right away but i'm admitting my problems and that is the first start ok have to go, have to leave in 15 mins and not even close to ready LOVE YOU ALL hi everyone else

Good Morning gals some stuff going on at work, so I'm stressed about that and can't be late anymore, but feeling much better I think my choices for me are good ones and I'm going with it - one day at a time. But thanks all for your support. I made a pot of soup last night so i have breakfast and lunch today and have a pulled pork in the crock pot, so i'm going to add that. I wanted popcorn so very badly last night but did not do it - I figured I have not had a taste for junk so i'm not going to even tempt myself. I am not drinking enough during the day so i'm up 1lb, but i feel it is water, so today even if i freeze to death - i'm goin to go out and pee and go out and walk. I will not let myself go back to the 200's i'm not leaving onederland, and i will be in the 80's in the next 2 weeks.... it is only 7lbs, I can do that! I Hope you all have a great day, not going to do personal stuff at work until i know what is going on there - major pms for the guys

Hi gals Thanks for al your kind words. I honestly feel so much better, Wayne and I are talking and going to take it back to the friendship we started at... one day at a time... and NO SEX....I have talked to Kev.... and NO SEX.....I am being honest with everyone, which might have caused some of this stress. But if i think with my head I'll be strong. As for me, well - you are all right and I've come to realize this, which is a huge step for me. You are right Kat, and I might use that line... if you don't mind. I tried explaining to Wayne because he does not understand why I can't look at myself in a good way and blames Kev - which ok some of it is, but when your first memories are your aunts telling you how fat you are and offering me money to lose weight - to getting picked on in grade school - middle school, and highschool the same thing, then your family telling you that you are a horrible parent ... blah blah blah... that eventually sinks in and cannot go away overnight. and when that starts to go away, then i can honesly be happy with someone else I'm better and have a great friend and who knows what will happen.... anyway, i'm going to make some soup and go to bed, i'm emotionally drained. OH... it warmed up here today and my water to my island is frozen... ugh! i have the water on and hope that it runs enough to thaw it out. love you all gals!

Morning gals just wanted to let you all know i'm alive it is done everywhere - I talked to wayne last night and tried to tell him i wanted to be with him but i will never be able to give my heart 110% if i hate myself and that i needed to step back and focus on me for a few and that there cant be anymore sex because i was feeling that was what it was all about, he didn't understand and then sent me an angry text saying he wanted to come f"*k... I can't be mad at that, he needs to takeit in So i guess it is going to be all about me i'm on my own i am not going out for a while, i'm going to get my shit together and focus my energy at the gym i am not doing anything personal on my computer - so i will check in at some point love you all and thanks

Morning gals Wayne and I had a good day yesterday - but up until yesterday he knew all about Kev - but he did something that was unforgivable (kev) and until yesterday, wayne and i were friends taking it slow while i figured out how to end it with Kev Well, it is ending and is ugly, he is taking the unforgivable thing and turning it into i'm not talking to you about this tonight, when your boyfriend gets out of your bed and goes home ask me then. again... something else hurtful and unforgivable. Wayne had a hard time with it but is standing by me. honestly - i know it is for the best, but i feel sick to my stomach todayy and my heart is broken, it has been 17 years with kev and I guess if i said that it didn't hurt i would not bee human. He would never be here and has already proved that by not being here. I am just sick to death What Wayne doesn't understand is why i need to hash it out with him - and for me personally i need some answers so i can close the door I have to get ready for work - going to be a long day

Good Morning gals another nice night out with Wayne -and my friend Laurie, she came over and I was going to stay home and said lets go, i called wayne joking that i was going to the same place and he was so happy we went. Laurie told me if i screw this up she is going to kick my ass! She said I look amazing and you can see it all over my face. A friend of mine from the bar is a good friend of Waynes and we were invited to go away to Long Lake for a weekend with him and his wife. Anyway, .... Laura - how are the Pipes? Judy, is it ever going to stop, you were snow blowing yesterday and sent it to me... I'm heading out now to do the same thing.... I'm sick of it already, we don't normally have this much snow and i don't like it Have a kids bday party today and heading down to the pub with the girls today for a little bit. Started tanning yesterday -went in for 10 minutes and already have some color, ok not tan color but don't look sick pasty have a great day

Laura are pipes in the basement? do you have a space heater? put it where the pipes are. Also, Open the cabinet doors to let the heat in. My pipes use to freeze and my dishwasher lines freeze every winter, actually, new kitchen is greeat, problems are solved. but spent many days opening doors, leaving all the water dripping, hot and cold and all bathrooms and blowdryers and space heaters. good luck

I can get the same flight out on Sunday, leavig at 5 getting home at 11 but would get in at 9:30 on thursday

Terry that is coming my way, High temp with no wind chill all last week was 9 and when i got up yesterday was 23below without the wind. That snow is coming my way tomorrow INSANITY IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT. I am afraid to get my heat bill, I've actually kept it at 65 because when it cools down it takes forever to warm back up. I might do the 5 day next week, I'm still having soup 2 times a day and my sauce for dinner. I am not eating too much at all and high protein and i really want to make a pulled pork this week and I think i'm ready for that. I'm also hitting the gym this week - i need to get into shape. my belly really grosses me out

I am having an issue with flights I can get one for $158 but does not leave monday until 5pm. what time is everyone looking at leaving? the other flight that gets really expensive leaves at 12:30. what to do, if i stay in AL until 5, it would be such a great price help Judy - that is on Delta and goes through detroit, did you see that, it has to be even cheaper for you

Morning girls thanks all for the nice thoughts, His name is Wayne. Last night we had another heart to heart -and it just scares me even more. I didn't get home until 3am Tracy - so glad you got some sleep, that must have felt wonderful Terry - Ham soup with no peas.... hmmmmm did you ever go to food network online? I'll see if i can find my crock pot cook book, i thought i saw it the other day Laura, mine got clumpy when i put the cheese in and i used shredded cheddar. I did add an extra tbs of flour to thicken a little and i cooked it down for about 30 minutes when i added the broth - Day 2 it thickens up nicely i'm hungry.... going to have soup did i tell you all how good that spaghetti squash was?

Hi guys Heather got it...LOL I typed a post and maybe it didn't get here, about how well our dinner went, no pressure, went as friends, taking it slow, had great converation and great kiss at the end of the night. No pressure and day by day. He is great, I am kind of scared, not a single person has made me feel this good - but taking it day by day. I had some doors I needed to bring to work to dump in the roll off, so he let me take one of his work trucks, he won't let me put gas in it and i used 3/4 of a tank getting to work and back, and told me to make him dinner and we will call it even. I know I'm probably skipping a lot of the story, I could write a book about this, it is crazy, but i think he actually makes me happy. I am off this weekend, I'm so happy, it is so cold out there Heather - as far as the soup, I thought about using bulk turkey sausage in a batch, but smoked turkey might be good too. mmmmm maybe i'll do that next time. I just made some more and used 2% mexican cheese and cyanne pepper, yummy, my aughter loves it too I also just made a small pot of sauce with bulk hot turkey sausage in it, 19g protein and i got a spaghetti squash and had that with it. It was intersting, smelled like a pumpkin but had a little crisp to it but almost had no taste, and shredded like spaghetti. It was a really good dinner. DD actually liked that too, the squash, she put some butter on it and ate a huge bowl. I'm going to start tanning tomorrow.

Maybe this was in another post, but i'm starting from the beginning Pam - i had to go to the jewelry place to have the rings put back in my nipples and they were almost closed, so they were pretty much re-done. (the girls, my boobs) see? and needy guy is turning out to be amazing

Ok I'm with Tracy... Sam Elliot wins for me I have to go to bed - so tired hey did ya'll hear about the plane crash in NY?

Hi gals i'm home and YIKES... it hurt like hell. It didn't even hurt like that when i got them done, but they were starting to close up and well... I won't give you all the gorey details - but the girls are fixed! and... thought i would also let you know this is needy guy working with me....

Hi gals quick check in from work, i'm so bloated, not drinking today and have to go to the bathroom but it is 7degrees out there and i just can't do it, i'm going to go when i start my car to leave if i don't explode Date was good, went to dinner, shared Nachos, ok i only had a few with cheese only and a couple drinks, then we went to the bar and had a night cap, very casual. it was nice, we just talked about everything, he has his own business, tree removal, which with all the ice is booming right now.... and chatted about life. just nice and... yes ladies... he is a good kisser! that says a lot to me i have a 5pm appt to get my jewelry put back in from surgery, i just can't the them back in the girls - so for $5 i'll go catch ya all later for personals, just wanted to update since i had a minute

HI JUDY just a quick check in, going to dinner with my friend... which is what it is... friends, hanging, getting to know each other, not dating... omg he got it! anyway, freezing here - had company at work so i've been good today talk to you all later

Good Morning I may have to get that book Terry - I will only have big things left, Student Loans, Mtg and small home equity loan that is not going anywhere...and my car. It does feel good to pay off cards and not spend if you don't have. Did I tell you guys work is paying me for the 5 days I missed, and planned on missing so I figured my budget this month without that, it is a full paycheck, that will make up the difference on my tax return and pay off that small credit card. How nice is that? Anyway - i'm procrastinating, it is -8 right now and not going to get above 10 the next week, this is what i hate have a great day Judy - stay warm, looks cold there too

Hi guys appt went well, I just saw the resident, but my dr was in the hall, when i weighed in i caught him see me and do a double take. Then when i was leaving he stopped me in the hall and told me to keep up the great work and was so different. I think I'm a star pupil. I didn't need a fill, i'm hardly eating as it is, but i'm going to kick it up 2/1 when i can get back to the gym and then evaluate the situation in april. I have an appt with him and the nutritionist in April. I would be happy to lose 10lbs by then. (ok who am i kidding - make it 22!) I got on the scale and it was 200.3, which is ok, I was 197 still this am so 3lbs of water and clothes is ok with me, I"ll take it-would have been thrilled if was less than that but overall it has been a great couple of days. Off to make margaritas, girls night is back on every tuesday

I found 1 flight, but leaves early on 25th and gets in at 9:30am for $158 on Delta The great flight that works for me is $308 + so that does sound right I am going to reserve a car too Terry - no more credit cards for me either, I'm paying off what i have with my refund and i'm done... never again

Hi gals just got my hair done, i missed my red - i'm looking like me again came home to do a little laundry then running off to the dr. counter top guys are having a slight problem in there and i am hiding. it is freezing here today...

Good Morning gals Denise, it is not that expensive, flights are cheap and the weekend is not that much - you saw the price posted and the deposit was not that much. And it is a girs weekend, so you don't have to spend. Anyway, We would love for you to join us. Well - i'm up, had step mom's pizza shop holiday party last night, now i've only lost 8lbs but the bloat must be gone, my step brother for the first time in 20 years, gave me a hug when i got there - has never hugged me ever! and then asked me what happend to me and where the rest of me went! A good friend's wife, who i have not seen in almost a year came up to me and said"I don't want to sound rude, but did you lose a ton of weight? You look great". What a feeling! I am still holding Onderland and getting compliments, I needed that because I didn't feel it. Stupid gall bladder. LOL I have not gained more than 5lbs and my jeans were tight and my stomach measurements went up 2-3". I have yet to take them again. After I get cleared from Dr today, I'm starting water aerobics next Tuesday. I'm claiming my life back! I wish we had another option for cable, time warner is the only one here and they are so expensive. - and they can get away with it because they are it! I'm off today - make it a good one

Hi gals i'm excited... I am going to have to get info on Dylan's moving up ceremony, they have missed so much school it might be on the 25th. the only thing that will change is my arrival time - but worst case if i can't come in Thursday night - I'm still in for paying for my commitment