Jennifur

Terry she is so pretty and looks like she is lots of fun to shop with. and yes i probably should not bake so much, i've just been working my butt off out there. but, on a happy note, i was so bored i was only out for 45 mins. I usually use tanning stuff with some sunscreen. i'm going to go clean the pool - been pb' for days, not sure what that is all about.

Morning gals had a nice day yesterday. Baked in the sun, got a little fried I think, took ds to a party, made dinner and never ate becausse my neighbors came over and we drank rasp lemonade for hours. got in a heated discussion with one of my friends and knew it was time to go in. ate a couple of bites of food and pb' up and showered, going to breakfast shortly then going to lay in the sun and mow the front lawn. Going to get dd's season pass to six flags tomorrow, she has been working really hard and ready for exams so we are taking a mental health day without ds. I'm going to water park part and going to bake in the sun while her and her friend go on rides and stuff. They are going to six flags in MA on Saturday with their field trip and I don't want to go do the season pass thing on the weekend. anyway, off to get dressed and mow the lawn and figure out my day.

Morning gals it is a beautiful day here, got up at 7, had a cup of coffee and went for my walk. sun is out and clouds are gone, i'm sitting on my deck for the first time with my computer and my egg beater and my laptop. It is so nice and worth not having a penny left. I'm going to float in the pool for a bit today while the kids play on the slip n slide, then ds has a birthday party. Tracyk - remember i posted about how i was called out last week and had a breakdown? well 2 days after that a commercial came on for the slim shots... and ds said "mom you should do that" so I know what you are feeling! Terry - during all my dieting, 155 was my lowest and i was so tiny... my dd is 5'8 and weighs 160ish but i all muscle... I just want to get to 175 and tone little, and that seems impossible... shoot, i'm -5 less than when i got prego for ds, bt was more tone, didn't have 100lbs of excess shit...LOL I'm going to take charge, i was bad last night, had 1 serving of sweet pot fries, i baked, but it was my treat. I really want eggplant, but i'm not sure if i should have some. Tracyks - you go ... you will be back in no time... off to take charge of my life... or as much as i can have a great day! Heather - how are you doing?

hi just a check in i was just offering to help where every i was needed. i'm happy living on Protein shakes

Heather she is so sweet and tiny... and so are you... holy smokes... you didn't just have that baby... she just magically appeared right? hey everyone

sorry i realized it did that but was too tired to fix get in at 9:35am leave sunday at 5:24pm i just cut 10 mins off my walk.... there is hope for me yet

morning gals lost another .5 today... small and steady.... i'm determined to be back to onderland in 10 days! going to drink my coffee, just got out of the shower, getting my hair all cut off at 10, i'm very sad about that but i'm loosing it in massive amounts, all in the back, and it looks so thin, so i'm going to cut it off to try to make it look healthier. oh well... have a great day, i'll be checking in to see if we have another baby. Laura, i can't wait to see carson!

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Hi gals just checking in on the site... I am mental as far as everything... and give me a drink... and i don't care who snores or who has a c pap... i'm not picky.... I have a hard time eating lately, propably stress... but love to cook..... so put me in anywhere... i can make eggplant rollatini, with spaghetti sauce night ... contribute to mexican night, love making breakfast... I would love to make a store run with who ever i ride with if that is ok... just let me know what you all need and want me to do..i would enjoy cooking anything.

Thanks gals Terry- you know as soon as i got off the phone with you i had the instant "holy shit i have to get on a plane" Since i don't have any credit cards, when my mother gets back i'll book the flight. I told/asked Kev if it was ok that i go, he said i deserve it but is kind of freaked out..... our entire woking on thing, and his son is leaving for the Navy on the 23rd and ds's last day of school is the 24th, and he claims he is taking us away on the 4th for the week, he knows i don't trust that until we are in the car. Heather, congrats. I just wanted to pop on, I have to do laundry and really want to clean, ok not really but it is going to rain so good time to do it. I seem to be mowing the lawn every few days to keep it neat.... and keep me outside.

Hi gals quick check in... going to get ice cream with kids... did more planting and mulching today. I would love to hop a plane, i have a credit at delta and checked today 197 with tax for me to go thurs - sun... but i would feel horribly guilty and not have any spending money so i don't know... but will keep it in the back of my mind. Heather, my water broke with ds.... it was so strange... was not the huge gush i thought it would be... i felt like i peed my pants...so let us know when you have that sweet baby. i feel like the fat kid again - that stupid lyme did such strange things to my muscles, so now i feel like i'm all flabby and fat... at least before i was just fat... walked again today... 1 egg beater, 1/4 c corrned beef hash, 1/2 cup lettuce and roast beef salad for lunch. I'm going to make a shake for dinner. anyway.... other than that nothing new.... just being depressed from not leaving my house or being social.

hi gals ..i am not sure what is going to happen today because I had 2 drinks but had lg glass and lemon water inbetween them....ate like a champ and walked...one can only hope I lost at least 1 lb terry glad today was a better day tracyk....all I can say is I've been eating without dieting for almost 8 mos....have been up and down 5lbs but have not gained...so I should be happy... but I'm ready to lose again I'm off to bed night all

Mornng gals Tracy- how cute... ds graduates June 24th, we get out of school way late here I'm giong to have a 10th and1st grader all at the same time! yikes Terry - slow and steady wins the race..... chocolate in moderation is good for you.. MOFA ..LOL Tracyks -good for you... i think we are in the same place... Yest 2 egg beaters and 1 slice 2% cheese 110 cal 16g p protein shake for lunch 300 cals 60g p 1/2 cup lettuce, homemade ranch dressing with sliced roast beef and cheese (went to pizza shop and sliced my roast from Monday night - boy was that good) 300 cals and 15g p I lost 5lbs yest.... YIPEE.. but this is my starting point of the -5 challange because i had creaped back up to 209 on the antidepressants ... so 205 is a good starting place.... I was in denial i gained 14lbs from my all time low... Jane,.... did you find your stuff on your computer? I so wish i could go on the trip. I'm honestly so very depressed it has taken all i have for the last week to get ot of bed.... walk 4 miles, crawl back in bed.... get up and shower... back to bed... my mom let me sleep this morning, i had a huge spider in my room last night and couldn't sleep, because i've been seeing things that are not here... i've been freaking out thinking there are spiders all over me, and then last night there was a real one.. so i'm losing sight of what is real and what is not. actuall scares me to death. I'm finishd with my coffee... going to take my mental self for a walk and to get my hair cut. It is falling out so badly i'm going to try to cut off a few inches to see if it helps it look fuller. all the dark is gone from underneath.... maybe i'll go have some bloodwork done. anyway, have a great day Pam...send some sunshine.... or some margies... i could use both!

morning gals i gained a stupid lb yest, but when i was sitting in the er at 2am with my bff's and her daughter, i felt my hands swelling. just ate some egg beaters and 1 slice of 2% cheese, stupid 110 cals and 16g pro .... pb'd like crazy... guess i'm going to go to the shakes again. i'm heading out for a walk, 3 hrs of not good sleep so i'm going out before i don't want to move but i don't want to break it at day 2 have a great day everyone

Thanks Tracy i went grocery shopping today, got my chicken tenders i ate everyday for a year, and stuff to make shakes, but thanks for reminding me what a shake drinking fool i was. I too had one hell of a pitty party, but i'm done, staying in bed for 3 days is just going to make me fatter, which is why i went for a walk this morning. and i'm going to make myself get up every morning had 1 chicken tender for lunch with 1/2 cup of lettuce and was so full, so i hope this works... stupid 25lbs... that is all i want to lose.... i'm kicking ass and taking names later...i'm done!

morning glad you guys had such a great time. after i was called out on being a fat ass last week, i sulked, cried and spent 3 days in bed... this morning i got up and went for a 3 mile walk. I'm going to cancel my gym membership for the summer, because i don't have the money and i can walk every day. i don't know what to eat i just cant remember how i did it in the beginning anyway, i'm going to the grocery store, i'm now staRVing and only have food for the kids, i can't remember what i use to eat, i suck be good everyone Terry -Hugs, Tracyk = motivate me? i need to lose the 5 i gained on the stupid antidepressants.... which i stopped because it is not worth it for me to gain weight! oh, plus the other 200 i was told i was overweight.... yup... you all know how mental i am about it and now see myself right back to where i was

morning everyone

Morning gals it is cold and rainy here Laura, good luck, my ds can't have any kind of milk and i had very similar issues, ended up with soy and was mixing cereal in his bottle at night at 6weeks old, but boy did he sleep great.... I'm so jealous of everyone, trip to CA this weekend and so very sad i can't join you all in AL. I'm freaking about money and waiting to find out how much unemployment i'll be getting. I'm doing more spring cleaning today...just about done with my room and worked on dd & ds's rooms yesterday and made some ham & ch soup, since someone i hate called me out yest and told me they were 200lbs less than me.... nothing like hitting me where it hurts the most. can you only imagine what petty bs I delt with yest, but it was all so hurtful .... every word, infact the 10 harrassing calls, texts and messages i got last night, i was ready to press harrassment charges, 1 more thing and i'm done. I'm not doing this again. anyway, hope you all have a good day, i'm going to jump in the shower and figure out what i'm going to do today.

Morning gals, i was going to get up and walk tis morning but my mp3 is not charged so i'll charge it and walk later, i might just relax today not sure, anyway, off to get ds on the bus......bbl...

good morning gals Jane - Happy B-Day, hope you had a great weekend I am here, my mom got me a grill for mothers day, so i put that together, did some yard work, some laundry, cooked dinner on new grill, Sat I planted some shrubs, moved hasta, went swimming, week wacked the yard and planted some grass, and Sunday, i used my left over wood from the deck and built a bench for the little deck for a place to sit by the pool and a tash can for the deck out of the wood, so it will be heavy and wont blow away and won't get destroyed in the weather here because it is pressure treated wood. That took most of the day. Here I am this morning, just applied for unemployment, it is official, I'm home... kind of stresses me, but wil be ok. I got this playhouse for dd and it has needed some work, and i have stuff to fix it, so I'm going to relax today and tomorrow i'm going to fix the shingles that need work, put new stairs on and fix the railing, and get it painted and cleaned up for Dyan to play in My yard looks great and has taken 10 years but is cleaned up! I am going to work on 1 room a day while i'm home so i can enjoy my time at home. If anyone wants to come visit you are all welcome... hope you guys are having a great weekend too

Haydee... I would like to visit there again... I think I'm going to become self employed, i just need to get my thoughts together first. Terry - i'm so sorry for what you are dealing with... but you are right, at least he will be safe tomorrow i'm getting up and going for a walk,

hi everyone hope you have a great time Tracy and Judy on your trips I'm doing housework and baking in the sun this weekend ... today sucks... my last day at work and i'm trying to hold it together... my mother picked a fight with me this morning and i have a little other drama going on... just don't need it today anyway... hope you are all well... i suck

hi gals quick check in still at work Tracy, i'm at same 3lbs too, and now pms so it feels like 300.! I am with you Terry, have not lost much since lack of exercise, and since we have been in the building, i don't get to walk around like i did, so i feel extra wiggly! Pamela, congrats on everything Judy... soak for me try to be back later hi everyone...

Hi gals a quick check in... I have not vanished, just sharing very tight quarters with my boss these days and pop in when I can, Monday was our May day scheduled for town clean up so i trimmed trees and bagged the rest of the leaves and crapola from winter so they would pick it up today, I hate when the bags sit in front of the house for weeks waiting for our next day. Thursday is my last day of work, i'm actually very sad! I love these guys. Other than that just trying to get stuff cleaned up here, my computer goes tomorrow night... so sad Terry - HUGS Everyone... hi.. i'll try to do personals later, but when home I will log on daily. I posted deck pictures on my facebook if anyone wants to look

i don't know where you guys are posting for the trip anymore or if you are just emailing. i did email Terry Back, It was a very hard thing to have to make a decision, but I am living paycheck to paycheck, i'm much more comfortable than I was last year, but still week to week, but with not knowing if or where I am going to be working, is so very stressful, and I can't commit to spending $1000 eaisly with not knowing where it was coming from. For a while I thought maybe we would get a stimulus like last year... which would have paid for it all... but no, we get $15 a week in our checks... and that just isn't helping. I am going to miss you all so much and so very jealous, but i hope you all have a great time too. Love you all