Jennifur

Hey everyone Thanks for your well wishes, today I hit rock bottom, sad thing is some of my best friends are so far away from me and I felt even more alone, and the one guy who I feel is just right, is again, not close and not moving and i can't for a couple of years either. Tracy, I know you have heard this, but I dont' belong here.... I know this in my heart. or I need to find someone else with southern roots. Keith Urban is Wed night, and every single song of his is just going to make me have a nervous breakdown. I am just going to drink. I have 7th row floor seats. I'm off to bed...mentally exhausted and offically more single than I want to be. xoxoxo

good morning ladies Kat - glad Rick is on the mend Suzanne - wow you are up early. Hope you have a great day. I feel like I'm total self destruct mode and I don't know why. I feel bloated and had a bad day/night yesterday and I'm still exhausted since I didn't sleep well at all. anyway, why is everything always my fault? I get blamed for everything that I know I should not feel guilty for, but that is me. I can't do a single thing right.

Suzanne YEAH YOU! that was a good choice, only 1 and 1/2 then 1/2... How many would you normally have had? Right? Sorry you went home to nonsense! Today must be the day for that. Ok gang, I rated the thread, I'm going to take a shot of vodka or 2 to help me sleep, very bad day and it ended even worse if that is possible. At least with my bad day i did a killer walk and then cleaned my room, got my ac out of ds's and my room and cleaned the nightmare laundry room no one will touch and both livingrooms, and took a nap after I cried for 3 hours. I see i'm going to bed the same way. Lucky me Talk to ya'll in the am

Holy smokes that is scary. I hate to put my kids on prenisone too, but that is scary. I was just watching the news and a young girl just died from it, I think local news not sure. She went to Dr, last wed, and Fri and Sun was having problems breathing and rushed to hospital and she died. I'm glad you caught it in time

Vicki my favorite log is myfitnesspal.com there is tons of stuff already entered in there and it tells portion size and you can adjust. I added stuff from Subway and a wake up wrap i got out, most places have nutrition information posted online. yes, the first year is great, but it will pick back up... you just need to find what works for you

Laura I was on the website and just took the real age test... Took a while but worth it. Happy to report that I am 38.5 and my real age is 39. The bad, I didn't put my Vit D down and it said I should take more Stress in my life Weight/BMI, which I am working on Not knowing my chlorestol *sp* and my resting heart rate, of course I could have looked but I'm lazy. So I'll take that, close to my real age, when I get down some more weight, I'll do it again. I do feel better, I walk and exercise for stress, which usually works, but the last couple days have just not been great. OH well, I got it out, and do feel better. Still mad at my mom for taking my car keys this morning, I'm grounded at home, but it is done

I have been trying to force myself to eat more and getting between 900-1100 cals a day and that seemed to be a good number for me too. I get anywhere from 70-90g protein every day, I focus on that. I am pretty much south beach and was only getting 500-600 cals a day but was full from the protein. Stay strong Vicki. get yourself in a good place with this and psyche yourself up and get a fill, and pretend you just had surger again. That is what I did, but if your head is not in the right place, you get a fill and right back to normal a few days or weeks later. It is ok, just breathe... :tongue2:

Laura glad you checked in. I cook great stuff for my family when I'm eating well, and I am so satisfied that I got to make for others, I don't mind that I miss it, or I make a small portion in a way I can eat the same main part. I saw that Dr. Oz show, that is scary stuff isn't it? I am 6lbs away from my BMI being obese to just over! That is almost crazy amazing to me, so that and to lose some more inches is part of my personal Challange for Halloween. Did you see the Dr. Oz the day before that showed about the belly fat and the liver.... I missed it, might go look and see if I can archive while I'm sitting here, It was almost amazing what the end results were. Anyway, going to do anther wash, having a complete pitty party today, but feel better after 3 hrs of crying

Kat = that is horrible Rick is so sick! that is very scary stuff.... I tried to drink some hot broth yesterday and it felt like it made it worse, so I tried the extreme opposite with the ice cold water and that worked. Funny how that all works. Just took me 30 mins to eat my breakfast and the last bite was about to put me over the edge, but I ate. Tracy - glad Macy is feeling better that poor thing. You take care of you too! OK going to get a wash going and then head to the gym for weights. I'm frustrated with some things this morning and I hate feeling that way, I like having myself together

:tongue2::clap::clap::clap::clap::clap: I'm so happy for you... keep it up and you ca walk my4.5 with me every day:eek:

Rain, that is a great postive outlook Vicki, you are a year out right? I was so frustrated and felt the same way. I stayed at 210 for almost a year, ok 210-220 on a bad week. It was just this last fill that I decided I wanted to get going again, I held my own where I was. I went from 280 day of surg to 210, 70lbs in a year I was happy... I was eating fried food, 1 chicken tender, a few onion rights, bad stuff just not alot, held my own but didn't lose. it was a huge head game before I was ready for that last fill and have since lost 32lbs since July. So I guess what I'm getting at, yes loss slows down, but it will start again, don't give up... Have your PITTY PARTY!!! you are entitled, just don't lose track of what you have accomplished. maintain for a few and be happy, then, when you are done focus. also, if you are not getting enough cals you won't lose, and south beach high protein you might not be getting enugh, I feel like I eat like a horse and I only get 900 cals a day Stay strong girlfriend! MUAH

Hi everyone else I'll post more when I get back, have to finish getting ready and leave in 5 mins to get the bus and go for a walk, I have not done that since Friday. I did do a level 2 water aerobics last night... holy smokes, but felt great:w00t:

hi everyone I am sick, my band is so stinking tight I can't even drink. ughhhh

Haydee, I like #2 wow, that pool makes mine look like a plastic kiddie pool LOL it was homecoming weekend so was crazy all weekend, and sick today so staying in bed most of the day hope you all have a good day

Tracy - that poor thing! give her lots of hugs nd chicken soup... I have Alex's cold, she is better, musinex D is a miracle drug, but now I have it, feel worn down and so swollen I can't seem to eat, made breakfast and can't eat it... and it is the same thing I eat every morning, and it is noon. Hope everyone who is not feeling well gets better... Suzanne, veggie hotdogs... YUCK! My mom use to eat all that stuff and say how good it was... NOT IN THIS LIFE TIME. LOL The black bean burgers might not bee too bad. hope everyone is having a good day

That is horrible... You do need a new job!

lol Rain I use to make myself crazy moving it, but once I realized a spot it was dead on with my dr That is where it stays. Off to get a new bathing suit... Water Aerobis starts tomorrow night

Vicki Deep breath.... it will be ok... do you keep your scale in 1 place? Are you getting enough water? Try putting some lemon in your water and increasing from 8-8oz to 10-8oz. That always seems to help me lose some bloat I just can't get rid of I know you said south beach, but are you watching your calories too? How long have you been doing it? Give yourself a few days so your body can adjust... Don't give up.. xoxoxoxoxox

Tracy Hi - so you are as crazy as I am Alex is sick to... she had body aches after she got the flu shot so I think a reaction, but I think this is just a yucky cold! Take Macy to the Dr. tomorrow, The swine scares me so much with everyone, but kids are getting hit hard! Ok here i go xoxoxo to all

Suzanne, you know what else I have heard and thought was crazy, you should drink 1/2 your weight in water. I was thinking... OMG that is a lot, but you know what, the days I drink the extra water, I find I am not retaining, it is just enough extra to flush me.. Are you getting enough water in? I use my six flaggs cup, it actually holds 1 qt of water so I try to do 2 of them and a random glass or 2. Ok I'm really off now, going to shower, go to Kmart to get a few things, and then go to Dicks to get a bathing suit since I don't have one that fits that I can wear to water aerobics. Going to pack a gym bag for water aerobics and have a bag packed with old huge sweats and a t shirt and extra sneakers so if i am out and have time to stop, I don't have an excuse:tt2:

Hi everyone just wanted to drive by post... read the last couple pages Jane - I am so sorry you are in such a bad place, let me know if there is anything you need... but here is a giant (((((HUG))))) Laura - hope they get your band fixed. I kind of hoped I would see good news by now for you. Haydee - Love the shoes, did you start trying on dresses yet? Pamela - You are nuts..LOL but that is a short term thing so shouldn't be too bad. Hi Judy, Heather... sorry if I'm missing anyone. Miss you all -

I also put the link under my signature

Hi ok I did a little editing and cleaning up. I might add some colums but I am going to weigh in on Friday mornings to keep me focused. I've been trying to go through post to find everyones starting point

Ok lets see if this works. it didn't take everything and transfer it but I think i got it. Halloween Challange - Google Docs can you all open it

Thanks I will try google docs...