Jennifur

Hi everyone, I tried to get on today and the site was down, I was lost. That storm is here today and rain.... holy smokes, that is all it has done. I got my bathtub fixed the other day so I just soaked for an hour, and then made dinner. I'm done, diet starts tomorrow. I just ate pasta... it was amazing 1/4 cup pasta 3oz tuna 1/2 cup sauce mix it all up, put 2% mozz cheese on top and bake... YUMMY my daughter had shrimp mixed in hers. So now that I'm the fat kid again, I'm going to have a fire and watch a movie.. Hope you are all hving a great night

When I do liquids, I do low sodium chicken broth and s/f pops, post surgery liquids. 5 day pouch test. I need a fill, so it is hard when I can eat. I decided last night that I am going to do the old LA Weightloss jumpstart. 3 oranges, unlimited chicken and green veggies, for 3 days. I do know it works, why don't know, but it does. I am so sorry, guys just don't have a clue how hard it is. Have you been with him the entire journey of weightloss? You don't have to answer, sorry if too personal. But do you think maybe he is a little jealous? I am still dealing with jealousy. You know what else I hate, when I am dating... guys like to eat... and most of them want to take me out to eat on a date... I don't tell everyone about my surgery, infact, no one knows, I just tell them I have digestive problems.... that is a need to know thing... but they all know I have issues and am really into nutrition so WHY.... WHY do they insist on going out to eat 3 meals a day??? OK, well, I feel better after my drunk fest last night... so I'm going to get motivated and hit the gym. Vicki - stay strong! xoxoxo

Good morning gals Well, What a crazy night! Slow start because of my mood but got home at midnight! I really should not have spent the money but you know what... I so needed it! Drinks, shots, crazy guys! ok they are all my favorite harmless crazy guys, but boy they know how to make me feel good about myself. I went to school with the weekend waitress and see her all the time, I walked in last night and she didn't recognize me and said omg you are shirnking. How nice is that???? I just literally saw her 2 weeks ago. So, I won't give you all the details... Tracy, remember the dance hall in Gurene? And the night I arrived with my Army friend??? Who, by the way I am meeting in Orlando when I go..... Yeah, I was a saint thent... LOL Ok so I feel better, thanks for putting up with me. I t is raining here this morning so I'm going to te gym I have not been there this month at all. I am going to add my friend (as my roomie) and her daughter to my family plan at the Y which will motivate me to go back at night with the kids. I am also going to get my running shoes this week and start running. I'm going to start doing sprints when I walk and build up from there. So I hope you are all doing well and have good plans this weekend. Tracy, Love the hair. you look great, and younger! don't take that the wrong way. I know when i have curly hair I look like a fatty, and I've been wearing curley, so last night it was straight, that is pobably why i look ike i shrink

Hi guys just checking in - waiting for my friend to get home from work and giong to happy hour... ok so maybe not the best thing, but I don't really care, I'm going!... and yes, I'm probably going to drink my misery away

Suzanne you are in my prayers I listen to her too, and I like Miley, i agree with her singing ability

hi all went for my walk, had breakfast and showered, going to dry my hair and hit the gym and tanning hut, I need light, I'm very depressed, I'm calling dr and having her increase my happy pills for sure. Suzanne - I meant to say... Taylor Swift???? come on... she is good, I think she is the Miley Cyrus of Country... I still love that kenny chesney/dave mattews song, listen to it daily to remind me I have lots to be thankful for.

morning all Tracy - I wish I could easliy fly... I would be so there. Come visit. LOL I'm still in a horrible funk. Drove by the bar, all myfriends were there.... so I stopped for a few... hours that is. I have to say felt great to get the heck out of the house. I am in my winter funk not having money and being stuck inside with no adult contact. I am going to work next week, I hope. Logging friend was there and I was crying poor, he is going to put me to work, and his crew was asking where I was yesterday... HELLO... He knows all he has to do is call and I'm there... I can only ask so much for work without begging or nagging. That would be great if I can work 2 days and payy for the rest of xmas! anyway, running late, got to get the boy up and ready for school. xoxoxo be back shortly

Good night everyone. I'm going to relx, I'm mentally done today:frown:

Shalee, Thank you for reminding me that this is all worth it and it is ok, I really needed that good swift kick in the butt. Well, I walked my 6 miles today, had my great breakfast, french onion soup for lunch and just had a 1/3 cup of eggplant parm and 10 noodles. what the heck is wrong with me? I am mentally in a bad place, just in general, I have a lot on my mind and I'm very depressed with being so super broke and not knowing how I'm going to finish xmas shopping for my kids. so I get depressed and eat. Not total stress and throwing up, but just depressed enough to need comfort food. Ok so on that happy note, going to get subway for the kids, I'm going to make myself dinner, or get a flatwrap, i don't know... i suck

Ditto. I listened to some of it on the radio while I was driving, came home and turned on tv to watch and the new South Park was on, I couldn't turn it off. Man I'm a sick ticket, but holy smokes, it was a good one. I love my MP3, I keep it with me at all times That is great to know, I'm going to try to get to Orlando for Feb break! Well, good morning all, I'm up 2lbs this morning so I'm going to make myself do liquids. I don't know if I can wait until Dec 10th for a fill. I always tend to leak fluid, no more than .25cc but aparently it makes a huge difference. Ok running late, got to get dressed and hit the bus stop. xoxoxo be back soon

I gained 2 lbs yesterday. shoot, I need to get back on liquids today. no excuses stay strong all!

Hi guys. Man I have to give up a couple guys... this is getting way too complicated. I'm going up to meet super nice guy, who has been here on and off, I don't want anyone around the kids. He is getting to be very serious and that freaked me out. I cant even think about serious until after the holidays. I don't care who takes that answer from me, but that is the way it needs to be. I can't mess my kids up at holidays and I don't want any gifts from anyone. That is too much of a commitment, and I have my own demons I need to deal with. Life decision I made today ok, well off to the mall... have a good night all

Vicki NO..... that is not an option!!!!! I am in a funk myself so i do understand, but it really will be ok

Hello gals ok went to applebees for lunch... man i'm such a fat kid. Had 1/2 cup french onion soup, and yes I ate all the cheese.....1/2 steak tower thing and 2, yes count them 2 cheese burger slider things (ok I had one when i got home after it settled) I have my 5 boneless wings left which I'm going to make a salad out of later and the other 1/2 of the steak tower thingy. what is wrong with me? I'm kind of stressed, and food does not seem to be staying with me at all today. what is wrong with me? I want to be good but not lick of willpower today. Man... I guess I have sunk into a funk myself

Hi all, Tracy hit everyone so I just used her post, I know lazy Suzanne, wow that was very touching, I don't know what my problem is, I can cry at the drop of a pin lately, I was a mess. OH and did anyone watch Biggest Looser last night? CRIED!!!! My daughter is hooked and into it this year too, Well, kids are off, I set my alarm and got up and walked, going to make an egg, then go to dentist and to get dd's belly button pierced. Going to be a great day! xoxoxo i'll try to post pics

Hi gals Vicki sorry you are in such a place. I wish I had something to say other than stay strong and don't totally gve up. I bounced 8lbs for a year, up 8 down 8 but never lost any more than my lowest, it was very frustrating but I survived, and trust me, if my OCD crazyness got thru it... so can you!

Maria Thanks, yes feeling much better, still stuffy and having a hard time eating but better, did 7 miles yesterday and 6 uphill miles today. Going to hit the shower and do a little cleaning and have a meeting tonight, then a late happy hr. I know... don't need empty calories, but I can't resist. I say, we can survive the holidays, even if we maintain, we are still ahead of most of the world. LOL Have a great day

Happy Anniversary Kat & Rick. Don't do anything I wouldn't do:lol::lol::lol::tt2:

Hi!!! I seem to be terribly busy these days too, and I check in every chance I get, but it is so nice out, I'm taking full advantage before it gets too cold to function:eek:. Don't give up, I can't lose an ounce and other than my horrible weekend, I've been golden and walk every day and backed off on my weights. I want a TT:frown: I'm finding that my stomach is starting to really hang that it bothers me... I wonder if that is part of my hold up, that is never going anywhere unless I have it removed? Good Morning gals I'm up, drinking my coffee, my allergies are a mess today. I got more xmas lights up yesterday and last night went up to the attic and found more new lights, so I'm going to finish the deck today. You all have anything good planned today? Tracy - call me sister! you are very quiet for you Crzytchr - how are you? Hope all is good! Michelle - you feeling better? Well I lost 1lb yesterday. Yipee, my body is still swollen so today i'm going to really push the water. I know i was slacking on that yesterday too. Check back in later :tongue2: (just because I can)

Hi Michelle I still can't seem to drink enough water. I need to find a straw for my large 1qt cup, I did so much better when I had that 3 of those and I knew what I was drinking. Can't wait to see the new do! you going to take pics right?????? Hi Laura and YorkieMama, I see you there! Ok well tomorrow I hope I lost something, I was good with the food today!

I am very picky about what salad I can eat, when I make them at home I almost shred the lettuce and I can't choke down the leafy green part. I usually have romane and start at the bottom, and don't eat the tops. LOL and I use homemade italian dressing which helps it slide down. Defintely doing liquids.

:smile2: Congrats. I just went to lunch and it took all i had to choke down a cup of salad. I'm stuck again, yipee.... liquid diet for me!

Good morning, I am going to agre with you on this. It is a mental thing, I waited just about a year for surgery because of some very stressful personal things in my life. For me, it was the best thing I could have done. I still get completely out of control at times, Like this weekend, but I have not had a sip of soda or beer in over 3 years. Something I knew was a problem for me. Support groups are fantastic and you should go if you can, just even to get ideas. As for vomiting, everyone is different, I can't eat deli meat except for bad ones, (italian meat) and after 2 years I'm just able to eat chicken and I wont even try it if I don't cook it. It is all a huge learning game. After 2 years out and being content with my weight, I learned how to play the game, and took a long hard look at myself. I now can acknowedge I have an eating disorder and learning how to live with it, vs dieting on and off all the time. Don't be discouraged, talk to dr, support group, ask away here... I personally don't think you should rush into a date if you don't feel ready, but when I am asked if I would do it again... there is not a bit of hesitation.. HELL YEA... sign me up. Also, I do have to add, don't stop going to nutritin and dr check ups after surgery, I went almost a year without and now that I'm going back regulary, it is motivation to do well, plus, it helps to keep you on track, you are not doing this alone, so use all your resources

Ah back from my 7 mile walk. I feel great, bloated as all get out but good. I'm going to have lots of water the next few days too, my fingers are swollen so I know I'm retaining tons of water. Going out to lunch with a friend, going to have a salad where ever we go, and going to make chicken tonight and have chicken ceasar salad with that. I'm out of control. I have to lose at least 5lbs by next week, and if i'm as bloated as i feel, that should be easy. Tracy, I'll post a link tomorrow after my meeting for the resolution and petition, it is a good thing, these soliders have a lot more to deal with when they come home from that nightmare that is going on. Anyway, running to the hardware store to get clips to finish hanging xmas lights out back, all my hooks were lost when they took the window out and replaced with a door. I should clean, but too nice, i'll do that later.

Good Morning gals Well, I am awake and only gained 3lbs this week being sick. That sucks but I was happy, I was very bad this week. I have to get it together. That is all I can say. and on that happy note, I'm getting ready to hit the pavement. Suzanne - I am shifting myself and i don't like it. I am back on the wagon this morning Tracy - well I guess if you get it then that is what you are suppose to do right? I am on a job mission myself. Going to take my 30 hour safety training today and want to get the hazmat cert too. I am volunteering for a project with the military, it feels right. I'll keep you all posted, there is a patition that I'll be passing around. Ok i'll be back, have 3 mins to leave... yikes