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Kat that is a funny story! But enjoy tonight Suzanne,, oh that sound nice, I won't tell dd that you are the reason I remembered we can have a fire, she is the wood girl Tracy- drive safe and have fun! Ok enjoy, i'll be in bed very early!

Hi all Happy New Year, I went to a small house, margarita party last night so I'm going to try to eat, had 2 baked mozz sticks last night and spent the rest of it in the bathroom, I just had a serving of ricotta cheese and sauce ... lets see how that works. I until this year, extreme stress has always made me gain weight, this year I am in the bathroom 24/7 and last time lost 20lbs. I'm at -10 in a week. Vicki - Thanks Rain - that has to be strange, but glad you are doing well

Morning gals I feel like a complete pile of drunken mess. LOL I went to my friends last night for Margarita Night. Some of you may remember my tuesday night margi nights? well with holidays we have been off. We talked, laughed, had a couple margis. kerry's hubby is awesome, we didn't have enough stuff so he went to the store for us and topped the night off with a mudslide. He got her the $400 Margaritaville maker, which I would not pay that much for anything right now, but the thing is amazing. She is neighbors with Mr. Unavailable so we ended up there and he drove me home about 12:30. I just needed to get out an laugh and forget about things. Hope you all have a good day ... anyone have new year eve plans? I'm going to the pub with my mom, kids and a neighbor and coming home and passing out! xoxoxo

Kat, I met Jeannine (military) on Vet's day at ds's school, she touched my heart. We always laugh about how we were brought together for a reason. I'll take a cowboy, they are real down south.... it is all a pretend world up here in NY. So, I'm off to bed, I am drugged and have to get up at 4am love to you all

My new year resolution ... hmmmmmmm I have 2 Continue to work on me, so i can let that someone special in my life Lose my last 15lbs and get my tt by the end of the year! anyone else I think they are both realistic right?????

So, I just changed my ticker since I reached my short term goal and want to track my next one... anyway, I just realized that I was 218 on July 31 and at Dec 31 (5 months later) I am down to 180, that is almost 40lbs. I can get down 15 more by my bday in March right? Here is the other thing, I don't see it.... none of it, the only huge change I see are my tiny boobs are sagging and I only have 1 dimple in my butt .... that's all I get for 40lbs?

LOL, no, he is the guy I was dating last year's breakup ... he actually loves me and won't lay a finger on me because he respects me too much... that was our last talk we had on thanksgiving... too bad i can't see myself with him, he would take really good care of all of us, and he has a daughter who I talk to all the time too Yea, that is a good thing... but no baking.. holidays are over, make a healthy dinner! All the talk about food, I wish I could eat, but just thinking about food turns my stomach. 15lbs to goal, maybe I'll stay like this until I get there.... JK ladies... I hope to be able to choke down some broth or protein drink or somehing soon... just because I worry about nutrition. I'm going to mediate and pass out. 4am comes early

I know right? they do know me well... I have been super depressed before and usually go do things that I regret ... I'm trying to be an adult. So, i talked to my guy friend, who is the unaviable one, he is just a great friend - ya know the guy you can go shopping with and jus be happy with no ties... He has guy night tonight, but is going to call when he gets home so we can chat.

I will, if I go, I could easily self destruct and go home with someone, but ... I could go hang with my friend if that was what I wanted.

Sorry, that last one is unaviable and i don't want to go out and come home feeling worse about myself than I already do. I might go to the bar by myself to get out -

Thanks Vicki I just sent you an email

Hey girls i'm home, I don't have anyone to go out with ... I so suck... and I need to get out of the house so desprately, I can't shut my head down, and now I realize I don't have a single friend left, ok I have a few, but 1 wants sex... not happening... 1 is going out with her hubby tonight, and 1 is just available. that is it. I actually threw up my water today. sitting in the house with nothing to do is just making me insane I'm there for margi's... but.. I would have an entire dayof calories because I would need about 10 shots to bring me down... or back up I should say. you guys are the best, thanks for listening

hi all at work..i wish I could share some of my "i am way too stressed to eat" with you all. I don't feel hungry but feel like I'm so tight I can hardly sip water...and I know it is stress. I ate pizza last week! congrats to all of you for tossing the junk. Suzanne - I was thinking about doing something too..but I guess first step for me would be hit the gym. I'm so lazy wish you were all here with me. looks like ill be spending new year alone for the 2nd year in a row :biggrin:

Thanks Vicki I usually am, so when I get to this point, I pretty much withdraw from everyone and everything. The good thing is before my surgery a few years ago, i worked myself into a state 80% of my life and would stay in bed for days. I'm far from ok, but not in bed and trying to function, can't eat, and taking all i can to drink a little water, but not in bed. We are just getting the cold and wind, so I guess I should find something warm to wear. have a good day all 1 more week and the holidays are over, then maybe we can all get back on track. New year resolution for me is to lose my last 25lbs by summer

Morning gals thanks for your good thoughts, i don't know what i'm going to do, I medicated last night and got a little sleep. I called a head dr and left a message to try to get in, I don't have insurance that will cover it until April 1 but I don't care anymore. I just can't do it on my own. I know it is not me, but I do blame myself for so many things. My friends have bailed on me, which really just says they are not my friends, but I feel so alone right now. I just really need a friend to say lets go do something. I need to get out of the house. I hope you are all having a good day I have to check with my mom to see what she did but I have a bunch of clothes from size 14-16 that I was going to send to the green box because I'm sick of looking at them. I'll let you all know if she didn't take them. I have myself in such a state I can't eat, so Tracy - no bad food for me. I'm back down to 181 today - I guess there is a plus to not being able to keep food in me.... and not being able to even eat at this point. I'm off to find something warm to wear to work. It is freezing today

Hey all hope you had a good Christmas. Sorry Mia - get very depressed this time of year. I wonder why I am so horrible and alone and it takes all my energy to make sure my kids have a good day. I have not left my house since last Wed. Vicki - step away from the candy Twins - I had a couple other surgeries as well, but the banding just about did me in with the gas pains. it was horrible I couldn't move. To this day I also cant drive too long, about 3hrs, without the gas pains starting, what is that about? wish you the best of luck!

Good Morning Kat, Suzanne and Tracy thanks for having such confidence in me. I am starting to feel like I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life. In the last week I have once again cleaned out closets and have lost more friends and put an end to everyone I have been dating. I am heart sick about some things that have happened, and have not slept more than an hour in days. Today seems to be the worst, could no sleep, cried most of the night and feel sick. My love for kev is that kind of love that you are truely lucky if you experience in life and it is hard to "settle" for anything that doesn't even come close to filling my heart like he does. I know if I find it again, I'll be the luckiest person in the world, but it makes me not want to settle for someone because I don't want to be alone anymore. anyway, that is my night from hell.... I guess the only thing I'm getting out of all this right now is realizing what I want from life and where I want to be. Now I just need to figure out how to get there

Hi guys merry christmas late. sorry, I get very depressed during the holidays and this year is taking every ounce of my energy to be up for the kids. I spent most of today crashed, either laying around or crying Why can't I just be happy. guess it is time to cler out some old shit and open my world to the new. Finding out again who my friends are!... just makes xmas even better for me xoxoxo love you all

Good Morning all Kat... mmmmmmmmmmm fudge. I would eat it all! Laura -10lbs! how the heck did you do that? Tracy - put the turkey in the sink and fill it with room temp water. ok well off to work, so glad i'm off tomorrow... sucks i don't get paid... but ... oh well, i'm exhausted... mentally and physially xoxoxoxo ho ho ho

Morning all just wanted to check in... you have all been chatty I got a fill... can't eat much but eating crap... must be TOM... I don't actually get it anymore but get the pms... fun Vicki - I'm sorry about your car... I had mice live in mine a couple years ago too. well, off to work... Have a great day!

Hey ya'll I am so tired i can't stand myself Tracy - love your new pic... you are so cute I have not pooped in 3 days, i'm a mess going to take some drugs and hit the sack night

Morning all I'm just quick checking in... will be back again later Pam - Welcome Thank you my special friends for my Christmas Cards! I'm slacking, never got mine out...that is sad, first time in 10 years Well, Party was a hute success, but have been dealing with furnace problems since Friday am, just got heat back and working last night. Thank goodness I have 2 gas fireplaces. Ok off to get dressed and get kids up... off to work! xoxoxoxo

hey ya'll quick check in... running late love and miss ya'll, i'll be back tomorrow

Morning all Renee - I'm so sorry to hear what happened. I am shocked Vicki - I'll post later, I didn't lose 10 this week from jumpstart... it was from my fill. I had a couple drinks last night so i didn't get on the scale this am. lol I'll be back to really check in over the weekend. Running late and have my family party tonight

Morning ya'll quiet yesterday Kat - that is CRAZY! just wanted to quick check in, my computer is chugging along this am so now I only have 10 mins to get dressed and hair done.LOL had a 3pm meeting yest so I ended up working until 5:30 because I had to finish a presentation for a 10am meeting! Got it done and hopefully my boss was impressed, I usually leave at 3:30 Well, off for another day, I'm leaving on time today. Kev gave me some money for xmas yesterday, I have so much stress lifted. I don't know what happened for the 2 months we didn't talk, but I know that for the first time in years, he is taking care of me and the kids like he should, and has admitted and apologizes constantly for being the way he was. Anyway, I'm going to finish my shopping up this week... whew!