Jennifur

morning everyone so much going on I don't know where to start. Lunessa - I have the same kind of digestive type issues. The past couple weeks I have been in such a rush I tend to eat too fast. Not eating much different, just not taking my time and tend to feel like i'm having a heart attack! Besides the amazing support here, it is just great that we are all about the same place so it just feels nice to not be alone in feelings and this journey. I am off to the gym in about 1/2 hr and then going to clean up and get ready to go to the pt job. I have an interview at Lowes on Monday am and an employment agency Monday afternoon. I so need something. Someone walked out at my step-moms shop Thursday night so I can always pick up some hours there. Laura, I am going to be crazy the next couple days... just in case HAVE FUN AND EARLY CONGRATS! you deserve it girl!

Good morning Lunessa - they gals said it all so well, I am back up to 230 this am an have been struggling and was refused a fill and can't go back until 7/17 and even then I'm going to have to beg. I exercise and eat healthy for the most part - ok pms so this was a bad week- and frustrated is an understatement, and I can't ind a job to save my life. so you are not alone, stay strong and check in. We are all here for you and are all having our own personal battles. I love checking in here, it keeps me going, lets me know I am not alone. So say hello every day so we know you are here with us, HUGS

Hello all first thank you all for such support, i wish it helped, I only want 1 job LOL Laura - sometimes I wish I had food police, I'm sure I wouldn't if I did, but I don't have anyone giving me hell about what I eat. My dad said on Fathers day it was nice to see me actually eat something, I had 2 scram eggs, a pc of turkey sausage and a couple bites of my cheese hashbrown thing at crackerbarrel, everything else i put on another plate and moved it away from me. We had a great day, had to leave for a dental appt, but just in time, a huge storm followed us home and it is just ending, my pool overflowed on my neighbors yard, and they are already asses (dog issues and not mine!) On a happy note, I have an appt in the am with a temp agency so hopefully they will find me something. SOOOOOOOO - Today I decided to start protein shake day, so I had one for breakfast, one in the cooler for lunch when we left the park and I am having 3 oz chicken and a bowl of salad for dinner. Lets see how that all goes. LOL Hopefully can jumpstart something while I wait for July 17th for a fill

Hey everyone thanks for the thoughts, it is frustrating, I am a single parent with 1 income and next week it will be no income. The last year was hard but I'm freaking. And on top of that... if I get a real job, I don't have any clothes to wear. I know that is great but i'm freaking. I am going to enjoy today at great escape/six flags, who knows maybe I'll get a job there? ok only kidding. I was talking to someone last night about hair loss. This is how it was put to me... and makes sense.... "what was your diet like a couple months ago? Now think about how your hair grows................ It will stop soon and you will be fine" Now.. get it... i hope i'm not bald when it stops. LOL

Tracy - nope... no job, got the call yesterday. I cried this am, I got my last unemployment check and I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't even get a stupid waitress job. I am just besides myself and don't have a clue what to do. I am so pms so I think I look like CRAP, my daughter told me my belly was sticking out but that i look so much better than i use to, but I was beautiful no matter what... is she the best or what!!! Michelle - you are sooooooooo very cute and look fantastic Jane - glad everything seem to go so well Tomorrow is it... last day of food then I'm starting liquid diet for a few days to try to get rid of the 5lbs i've been up and down. I'm sure pms has part to do with that... either way, it is buggin me

Hey everyone. Survived the day. Had so much fun. Very pms so had some issues about fitting on rides and how I looked. I am so stinking bloated. I still enjoyed the day, got lots of sun. My daughter is fried, she has her dad's complection (sp) and unlike me she burns to a crisp and we forgot the sunblock. I am going again Wed. with my daughter and neighbor, I hope i don't feel like a complete fat ass then. Ok I know... I'm not a size 3 but I've been feeling pretty darn good about mysef up until the last couple of days. Judy - what great photos! You look like you have such a wonderful loving family

Good morning everyone I am off to the gym, dragged myself out of bed... then home to get ready to to six flaggs New England and Wed & Thurs we are going to Six Flags / Great Escape. I got season passes and they came with free admission for June so we are going to use all the free passes. I am beat and PMS is starting. I feel so bloated and gained 3lbs. Oh well, Liquid diet will begin again tomorrow. So - It is my turn with the massive hair loss. It is horrible, I am shedding, handfuls of hair every day in the shower and when i dry my hair I don't use the brush to straighten anymore, i just dry it, and my bathroom floor is covered every morning. I have short pcs on top and underneath. It is horrible, and It is silly. I had surgery before (tubes tied) and no issues and I'm taking vits, calcuim and getting lots of protein. I hope it stops soon, I'll be bald at this rate! I was tempted to cut all my hair off.

Denise that is strange, but I don't know if it was the ice that worked for me either. Same type of thing happened, one day i was dying and couldn't even move when in bed, and the next... I was fine. So now when I get a little stab, I pay attention to what i'm doing "just in case" Judy-so glad you had such a great time. I can't wait to feel that great. So I have a similar story to Denise's. At Bartending classes... yes...it came out very privately that the lady, a teacher, had bypass surgery 2 years ago and had lost over 150lbs. She brought it up and was very kind, but I was late one night because I had an appt with my surgeon, she asked who my surgeon was, I told her and she knew, Dr. Singh is fantastic and if you have had him you know, if not, it could be anything because he is the big laproscopic surgeon at the hospital. It is kind of nice to share success stories with other people and see their great results

Michelle where do you live? sounds like a road trip >LOL I live on Eddy's ice cream. No sugar added now, but it is my fav!!!!

Morning everyone Hope you are all doing well. Judy - love your yard! I'll have to take some pics for you when I find my camera. I have deep purple clamitis (sp) When I bought my house 9 years ago it had 27 everygreen shrubs that ave since been replaced with pretty stuff that flowers, still a work in progress because of money, i really need new mulch, but takes up so much of my time getting the yard in order. Anyway.. such a pleasure to see all your hard work enjoy the weekend/bday and wedding

Terry You said it all today... LOL It does feel great to get into working out regularly this month. I am getting my 13 year old set up on a circut next week so she can tone up with me.... Now don't get me wrong, she is a size 3 and is taller than I am, but she is really getting into sports this year and I want her to be fit and tone. I know... she is young. she didnt make the BasketBall team last year and her coach told her if she could run better she would have made it. She does cheerleading and is trying out for volleyball so I figured with her asthma, it would be a good place for her to run, on the treadmill inside, and tone. We have a great trainer and she will start her out slow and steady. I talked to her today. Plus... it is nice to have my buddy with me to workout! anyway, crazy day, just got home from the gym and now going to take a little nap, get ready for work - go in from 2-10 hope you all have a great day Judy - Happy Birthday... Happy Anniversary.... and have fun at the wedding

Morning everyone Laura - good luck on your closing. Get something in writing about the stuff that is missing and the ac issues. I did new construction closings and it sounds like this is turning into a nightmare in the final stages for you... Just want to make sure you are covered. TracyK - have a good weekend. Denise - did the ice work????? Well I updated my workouts - went at 6:30 this am and now I'm headinig back for water aerobics

Ya know what is making me crazy, I have to log in all the time for the last couple days. Is anyone else having these problems? It is starting to make e crazy. Maybe I'll shut my computer down and see if that resets something.

I would not worry- I hurt really bad about 4 weeks out and just stopped about 2 weeks ago but still get sharp pains every once in a while. Last week I could not stand up straight after a night at work, and I didn't work out for days. Have you tried an ice pack? that helped me too, the heat helped but only temp. the ice packs regularly really did the trick for me. I hope you feel better.

I so want to find my camera, maybe i'll go clean my room and look again now. I am going to do the protein shake for breakfast, & lunch thing again and have a turkey burger for dinner. that was how i lost the 7lbs right before my fill. That and water water water. The only bad thing is it has cooled down, when it is 90 an dhumid I don't want to eat. I hope to update you all monday with another weight loss. I am going to try aqua bootcamp and aqua abs on Sat am at a different Y. It is only on Sat am's during the summer. Everyone is doing well LAURA - I know you will feel better in the am. You are doing wonderful. Look, you know you are, otherwise you would not have posted those pics. We all have bad days... shoot... I finished my chinese for dinner tonight LOL You have a lot going on with wedding, new house, weight loss.... you are entitled to be on overload. You go girl. I wish I had 1/2 of what you have. go Laura...go Laura... go Laura...!!!!! Ok so i'm a bit peppy today... sorry..................... Denise - I'm just starting to get better. I did a new machine today and thought I hurt myself all over again. Take a couple days off. It will help... or take a break from ab machines? Well all, I'm off to bed. I am beat. Passed my bartending test tonight and I was so very stressed. I made all kinds of mistakes, but passed. Now I get help with job placement !!!! I so need one. I will be going to the Y with my neighbor at 6:45am then home to get kids to do 1hr 45mins water aerobic class. I so love being home during the day with my kids....

Denise... I usually got fried dumplings and got steamed... why do i think that mattered if i was going to eat them LOL it was so good. TracyK I am right there with you this am... but I'm not going to eat chineese food every day if that was what did the trick. I ate a ton of eggplant last night Well off to the Y with the kids!

Bubbles I might try that, but I have cereal issues, actually, I HATE milk, and i've been trying to do yogurt an no sugar ice cream (which btw has the same nutritional info as skim milk) I still do the fibersure too, just not quite enough, I hate to get hooked on laxitives because my aunt is 84 and is addicted and cannot go without them, they are bad things if taken over long periods of time. One way or another I'll figure it out... if i have to try suggestions... it is so bad tonight my back actually hurts.

Terri Maybe it is just the day or couple days, I could just eat and eat. I hate feeling out of control. I feel like I'm eating out of control. I am just about to have a bowl of ice cream. Maybe I need to do the protein shake thing for a couple of days to remind myself I don't need to eat so much. The humidity dropped today and it was a perfect day. I almost like the hot humid temps, because I don't feel like eating. I am going to resot to getting some sugar free jelly bellies. I am so sick of not pooping I can't stand myself. I like tuna too, I eat a ton of it. and turkey burgers.

I just had my first non stop eating moment and I feel like CRAP. I had chinese for dinner, chicken and eggplant, my fav. I ate about 1/3 cup chicken and a full 1 1/2 cup eggplant. oh and 1 steamed dumpling, which i ended up not eating the shell, too rich. i am over stuffed and hope I did not do perm damage to myself. OK now i need a fill

Michelle. say the word and I'll do liquids with you for the next couple days. Want to make it a competition? HUGS

Amanda - Pamela couldn't have said it better... this is something special here. WELCOME

Morning everyone Pamela. My aunt from Pasadena always comes out to visit me, I'm in upstate NY, but her last trip a few weeks ago she brought her hubby, She is a director at a college and he is a respetory therapist, so she comes to visit my gram and us for short but frequent trips because she can and he usually cannot due to line of work. Anyway, when they were just here they left here, went to Niagara Falls, Via the scenic route, then to Canada, then back to New Hampshire and then back here. She has done a few road trips over the last couple years. If you are interested in something like that (they left sat am and got back to my house Wed am) I would be more than happy to ask her some of the thing/routes she took. Judy - I have come to realize it is all about family, so having a bbq with familay sounds very nice.. Congrats on 38 years!

Terry You look so FANTASTIC!!!!! and so happy I wish I could find my camera. I know I still look like complete crap but I have lost 30lbs since my last photo and a total of over 28inches over my body! So as part of my new attitude... me and my 13 year old daughter have been doing some serious bonding, I know she needs friends but we are getting back the old relationship we use to have. Today I went to lunch with my friend, and my daughter called to tell me how lonely it was without me, so I picked her up and she went to lunch with us... of course she ate a peanut butter/choc sunday for lunch but we had so much fun, the 3 of us. then I took her over to the nail place and got her a manicure and we went to pick up my 3 year old. We laughed, and just fooled around. I am so glad I am getting mentally where I was before I had my son... it is best for all of us Anyway.... so glad everyone is doing so well... I love this group

TracyK I know you are right, I love him with all my heart but I am not going to be strong enough until I love myself. Don't get me wrong, I've come a very long way since March, therapy and feeling good about myself sure helps. Just not ready, but almost pushing him to shi@ or get off the pot- so i guess that says something all in itself. Pamela - how about Hawaii? that sounds nice to me... LOL congrats on the workouts. I need to update mine, I lost track but have them on my gym membership log. Denise - I have good days and bad days too, generally I feel great but when I work out extra hard it is painful... I guess that means that our workouts are doing what they are suppose to. Off to bartending class... 2 days left HUGS all

Good night everyone. I was back to 225 today, I broke down and drank the cleansing tea last night. I was so full it was starting to make me sick... I know TMI but i had to tell someone...LOL I just got home from bartending school. I still don't have a job, still waiting to hear from the sports grill. I am in panic mode so I'm looking for a fun job then will get back to focus on real job. I need to have a job commitment this week. I got totally fried in the sun today. I fell asleep in the pool for an hour then got out and did yard work for another hour. well we will see what tomorrow brings. I have a feeling it is going to be a long night with dbf. he is working tonight and we had a slight disagreement yesterday and I have not talked to him all day. That is if he is even talking to me Did you all see Bruce Almighty????? The last 30 minutes where Jennifer A. is praying for him to find himself then praying to be strong enough to let go... well that is my every day for years, and now to the point of praying to have strength for me. My heart breaks for him every day of my life - but he does some of his problems to himself, but a lot are out of his control, and as he does not mean it he is pushing me to closing all the doors and with my new mental state... not 100% yet but therapy is doing lots of good, I just say what is on my mind... the difference is that I am not yelling and not crying when i talk to him. But I am closing him out and pushing him away, and except for my handful of true friends, I am pushing everyone else away too. These changes in me are good, but on the other hand, it is sad to find out who your real friends are and who are just people who come and go. I had a very emotional, trying day (week) can you tell HUGS.... hope everyone is having a good night