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Terry now that I've stopped crying enough to see, that is a great poem, I am making it my background

Thanks TracyK Terry - first, dbf is / was Navy until his motorcycle accident last october. So even though he has not gone, he was chief and we went through lots of emotions of him sending his men/young kids. Nope, not pms... so must have to do with weight loss or something. DBf has been around, but he was doing so well and we were working hard on things, now it is going to be dr appst and running, and he gets depressed being out of work - or did last time. I could be totally jumping to conclusions, but I don't think so. It has been so hard in general because of everything, but since the accident, he suffers from short term memory loss and it is a horrible thing. I sometimes wish he was not so sweet because it would make it easier for me to be strong for me, but unfortunately, I love him and he is, and because I'm so "understanding" I know he needs to work with his dr's now and get better. I mean he was plowed over by a car while on his bike and in a coma for a week, how can I be selfish and only think about me? I agree with you about this site too, you guys - I consider my friends even family. This is a place we can share banding issues, personal issues, family issues. I have more from you guys than people in my home life most of the time. I hope others read too, this is the best think I do some days, today being one of them Kat- I am praying for your baby, I'm sure they are taking good care of her, please let us know

Happy 4th everyone. TracyK- thanks and I hope you are right. I am an emotional basketcase today, lack of food, I don't know, went to bed crying and woke up crying. I just feel so sad and don't know why. I had to get that out there, figured saying it might make me feel better. This is going to be a very long day. Maybe I'll go to the cemetary to visit my friend today, usually on days where i feel like this going and talking to him usually helps. Maybe it is because the anniversary of his death is coming up. I just thought of that. Who knows, just know it is going to be one of those days. Oh found out dbf was pulled from work again last night, trama dr from his motorcycle accident didn't think he was ready to be working and was doing more damage than good. He called me at 10:30 last night... so 10 steps forward with us and hopefully he will continue to fix things with us or not. Maybe that is part of why i'm so sad. sorry, I needed to vent someplace... that and no food at all yesterday I'm sure is not helping, I'm not hungry but I think a little dizzy from not eating

TracyKS - I am sure it is just how you see yourself... I think you look great and you have been an inspiration to me since the beginning. Stay strong ... YOU ARE AWESOME!

Ok I've been thinking about using my original weight too, but since Laura did it - I figured that I might be better looking at total since Jan 2, 2007. That is when I started to lose for surgery, and if I think I'm looking at it that I'm 1/2 way there... maybe I won't feel like a looser! Off to put the little one to bed and maybe even take a nap, I'm tired today

TracyK - I think this is so what I needed. I am on liquids and had 1/2 cup of broth about 4 and 4 hrs later having another 1/2 cup of broth, the rest. It acually taste good but I can feel it going down, so the thouht of food is not even doing it for me. I feel like I did about a week out without the pain and gas LOL We will see... Tomorrow the gym is closed so I am forced to take a day off, maybe it will do me good.

Laura - that just stinks, I'm sorry about that. Since I have lost weight I am back on a normal 3 day schedule, the only bad part is I got so used to some spotting 2-3 days before that now I almost forget I'm getting it. Either way, you are getting married and will have a fantastic time. Judy - nice to have you back. That was what happened to me last month for my first fill, which I just got today. He knew I was going to need one at my next appt (today) but very glad I stuck it out.

HI ALL I am back home and so excited. I got my fill... do I have a clue how much... no... I know he used a 5cc... not the 3 and not the 10... I have a fear of needles so I was hyperventelating..(sp), one shot, didn't hurt, actually felt cool when he put it in... I could feel it running to the band and then it filling. So I'm on liquids for 48hrs, the mushies... works for me, I had a small cup of water in his office and still feel full. Maybe liquids and mushies will help my other issues. LOL Tracy - I feel the same way, like I am failing, but when My Dr. asked me how I was... I told him other than hungry overall I felt GREAT. I would take now over 6 months ago anyday. So that in itself is not failure!

Hey all I get the hiccups when I get really hungry and burp like crazy after I eat. I am glad I'm going to Dr. today I need to make some food that I have ready, I am starving by time I eat and I don't think that is helping my case

Kat - done, she is in my prayers. Poor little thing. Hopefully it is just the very strange viral thing that was going around here, same type of issues, vomit only. Please keep us updated - I was there when my sone was 2 1/2 and I know how scary it is, I was a basketcase lots of love and prayers

Terry You are not preaching... and I have been rushing everywhere lately so maybe I need to pay attention to my chewing. I have not really had a pig out day at all, I am getting about 1200 cals on a bad day and that was all my dr wanted me to have. I am not eating a lot but feel hungry all the time (or every couple hrs) I have an appt today, I wanted to reschedule so I could be in the 90day period where I didn't have to pay co-pays and today was the only day. Maybe I can get a fill and start working my way back to normal. I am going to stick to liquids for a few days either way so I can relax and fell like I'm starting over, paying attention. No iceburg, and it is white chicken, but I cook it and it is nice an juicy, I've mastered that one. LOL

Morning everyone Tracyk - I need to catch up, congrats on the loss, I'm still stuck between 226-228 and just can't lose So that brings up my next question - I have been working hard at the gym and since, I am finding that I seem to be getting full quicker again, hungry all the time, but full last night on 1 1/2 oz chicken and 3/4 cup lettuce, but then hungry 2 hrs later. Plus, I've been having food get stuck so much easier. Do you all think there might be anyway that there might be some kind of connection? I'm going to try to do liquids for the next couple of days to try to heal whatever is going on. It is very frustrating

Tracy Now that you mention it, my bf did the coffee thing with her daughter, we thought she was nuts at first giving a 7 year old coffee but it worked for a couple of years. But, in the end as Terry said, the medication just did that much more and her grades are so much better. She is not medicated during the summer while not in school, the coffee is enough to help.

My bf's daughter has it. She was diagnosed years ago and my bf worked with her for years and did a great job, consistancy and everything was on a schedule, meals, wake up and bed time. She did a great job with her but within the past year, she decided to medicate her. I am not 100% sure what she is on but I will ask her tomorrow. Her medication has helped her focus in school and her grades have actually improved greatly for the first time. In preschool, this same girl would spit on other kids, bite them and could not sit still. I guess what I'm saying, without knowing the entire situation, they can try setting a schedule, a very strict one and sticking to it. I will ask my friend about the meds and post tomorrow. Hope that helps

Kat that is me... smaller on the bottom than the top, I got a misses x-large 15/16 at walmart in the regular section and that was even big, I just got my first Large shirt. my belly and hips... YUCK every day I walk past the mirror and yell at myself , now that i am starting to look better, I think I am harder on myself. to be a fly on my wall, you would hear how mean I am to myself, but hey... it gets me to the gym every day LOL Sorry to hear about your granddaughter, I went through the same thing last summer with a 2 year old and he refused to drink, we used the medicine dropper to squirt gatorade into him to keep him out of the hospital.

Morning everyone Terry - you are cracking me up, but I hear you. I have friends shorter than I am who weigh the same as me but wear the same size. That I don't get either. I have 6 inches on some of myfriends, I am now in a Large top and 16-18 bottom. I hope to change that to a 16 easy soon. But I guess going to the gym every day should help Judy, you just look amazing I am off for coffee with my friend, that is the one thing i was suppose to give up that I just couldn't. No alcohol, no bread, even no sugar added icecream... but coffee......... no way. I do use skim milk in cold coffee and have fat free creamer stuff in hot coffee. so i guess that is a big difference from my old ways.

Kat - thanks I do since it came back up. still hungry but afraid to eat... so i'm cleaning and checking in here when i feel hungry - lol it is only 70 here today in Albany, which stinks but is a nice break, I am getting all kinds of really good, floor scrubbing, curtin washing cleaning done. LOL I am going to clean my front porch shortly, I got these great hammock chairs at collectionetc.com for $10 each. I wanted them last year but in stores they sell for $80 on sale. Same quality, they support 250lbs each... well needless to say I am now safe for that. so I got 4. They might be cramped on there but I am so going to enjoy them, that way we can all sit out there at night. My mom is going to get a bug light she raves about when she gets here the end of this month. Did I mention she is moving back here from AZ? Well she is ....She has been gone for 5 years to the day and just misses her grandchildren and me so much that she is coming back only to vacation in AZ every few months. It will be a nice time to have her back

ok i thought i had a pb before and I WAS WRONG! I had my first one today - i was starving when i got home from the Y and grabbed a slice of pizza to eat the cheese to hold me over. I did a bad thing - took a bit of the crust. I wanted to die and had that wonderful slime thing you were all talking about happen. YUCK I so need a fill, i want to much and eat all the time, still not huge amounts, just all the time I'm jealous of all you guys

OMG - Judy you are AMAZING and such an inspiration. I have to tell you that you motivate me to get my butt up and get to they gym, and now seeing how absolutely great you look. I am blown away and know I can do this. Denise - Do you drink enough on the weekends? When I was working i always did better at work because I had a giant cup and drank water, and on the weekends when running I know I did not and the scale would not move. Now I buy water bottles (just picked up 3 cases) and take them every where I go so I don't have an excuse. So, July is off to a good start - did my first workout and feel great!! hope everyone is having a great day

LOL I walk away for a few and there is Michelle HAVE FUN! I have a friend in Maine who was just here visiting, I am going to Orchard Beach in August and can't wait! I love the ocean

Good Morning all wow, what a busy weekend here! Read all and I don't know where to start. I am so proud of everyone, and we all learn from each other... but JUDY>>> WOW !!! How else can I say it.... 44lbs... that is just amazing. I am back down to 228 this am. It is funny, I did my measurements yesterday and I've lost a couple more inches. I am not going to log them right now, I'm going to wait to the end of the week. I have officially dedicated myself to the gym and muscle weighs more than fat. So after another full week, then I'll take them. I'll probably loose another 5lbs right before the 17th when I am suppose to get my fill. That is what happened last time. Where is Michelle? I have not seen her in a few days Laura - where ever you are. I hope you are having a great time...

I agree... LOL Go Judy! I was short 5 workouts for the month, but considering I am running around in a kitchen 2 nights a week (at work) for 6-8 hrs I would call it even. I have my July exercise challenge posted in my signature, I broke it down by workouts (weights) and water aerobics to make it a bit more focused

AHHHHHHHHHH speaking of hot tubs... I wore new sketchers to work last night and wanted to die at 11pm, and just as I was thinking a dip in the pool might be just what i need to relax, my friend called to see if I wanted to come soak in the hot tub... you know what I did right.????? ok so it was an x.... and told me how great I was looking and he has no idea about surgery how nice was that

Judy that is great!!!! Tell DH Congrats!!! that must make it so much easier when you have support at home and can motivate each other

TracyK - I was brought up the same way. No drinking until we ate, so it is easy for me not to drink while eating. I found at walmart the sams water 20oz bottles (a case of 24 is $3.98) which makes drinking for me much easier. I can have 3 bottles a day and be close to the 64oz we should have. Somedays I have more but that is the only way I can track my water. Lots of propel to go and green tea to go... LOL Judy - what a great feeling huh? I let a friend borrow a dress that I didn't think in a million years I would fit into. Well she wore it and loved it, the perfect little black dress. It is a size 18 that I had altered because it was huge when I bought it, but it was perfect and the 16 didn't fit right at the time. Well I braved trying it on the other day, with my daughter close by so when I got stuck she could help me get it off. (we laught alot here - more since surgery and I am turing into the old me again). Needless to say, I didn't look 100% because of bumps but, it fit and was hanging on me!!!!! I could wear a slip of something and would be very comfortable wearing it out... hmmmmmmmmmmmm... now just need somewhere to go... Laura... can I come to your wedding so i can wear the dress... Only kidding..... Have a great morning all