Jennifur

Morning everyone Well, I made it back to the gym today - now I can officially say I have exceeded my challange... YIPEE DBF just left, I can't even go there today, but I have not seen him in a week... (see why I can't go there!) and he told me how great I looked, asked how much I've lost and then said you can really tell ... That felt good but I was so mad at him that I didn't bat an eyelash at the comments... while I really was thinking how nice it was. I am off to get a copy of my ss card and pick up my resume from a friend who can print stuff out for me at her work on a nice printer. I am going to apply for a job at our local food bank, which might be smooth...good benefits and health insurance I need a day job this week, it is killing me

Good job Jennifer = I have not tracked my miles - I am going to revamp my exercise challange for next month, I am not quite sure what that is going to be yet - but I have already started thinking about my schedule. I am really going to try hard to do aerobics 2-3 times a week and weights 2-3 times a week to balance out. I love aerobics just was not working in July for me. Oh well, I need a normal job, I think that would do so much for my mood. Have a great night, see you all in the am

Michelle happy band-iversary!!!! -39 is fantastic. don't you feel great???? I am off to mow and get things together for the party.

Good Morning ladies! Kat- 100lbs.... WOW... CONGRATS... that must be an amazing feeling. I can't wait for the day I am even close to that. You are so great and Terri put it perfectly, we are lucky you have joined us! Denise - they are so funny. Last night my dad said he was going to take us to Country Buffet on our shopping trip in a couple of weeks. I hate buffets to begin with, then I think, I can't eat there, it is a waste of money!!! LOL I hope everyone is having a good morning. No gym for me in 4 days... I am deprived. but last night I worked the ovens and I was sweating so badly (yes, me sweat) that I had to call my mom and have her bring me a pr of shorts. the sweat was dripping down my back and my pants were so big that the way it was going I looked like I peed my pants. LOL True story So - as far as me sweating, I think that loosing some fat is causing that, not that I am totally complaining, it almost feels good to get it out and not be as bloated at the end of the night. Does that sound crazy? I could not drip a bead of sweat for years, and all of the sudden, I am soaked. who knows... just something strange Pamela - I agree, when I freak about the numbers, which I do all the time, I try to take a step back, I am sleeping much better at night, off my meds, my bp is down to 110/70 unmedicated and I have so much more energy I can't stand myself sometimes. Well, I guess I should finish my coffee - I need to clean the house and mow the lawn and shower by noon. It is my dd's b-day tuesday and we are having a few people over today before I have to go to work.

Morning violets I am so bloated from working last night, i didn't even get on the scale. TracyK yes I feel the same way, and sometimes I can take a bite of something and as soon as it hits my mouth I know I'm not going to be able to swollow it - freak out and spit it out - As for work... well you all know my story, I can't find a job and I'm trying to get into construction, I don't want to sit behind a desk anymore and not be in mortgage industry. it is not easy... but i totally understand. It is getting so bad I am about to cave and go back to Mortgage.

mmmmmmmmmmm bacon I am having a danon fit & light yogurt with some fiber one on it. it is actually pretty good. only about 180 cals but I think I was eating too much, i'm just going o have more of a variety but not eat 1400 cals, that was too much and I was too full. I will just make better choices then just meat. I am backing way off this week to try to get back to 218 which was where I was after my fill. I wanted to be at 200 by labor day but I don't see how I am going to lose 21lbs in 6 weeks. ... either way I'm ok with that, at least i'm going back in the right direction

Terry i needed a good laugh. Can you stand it. it was/is a good lesson that I deserve more from dbf and that there are people out there who want to be with me.... but hello???? I'm not going to leave 1 situation where I am starving or attention to get into another with someone who doesn't have the balls to fight for me... I guess I am getting stronger every day, even if I don't always know it. LOL Well I took the water pill yesterday, and going to take it again and again, it is already so humid here and I have a 10hr shift in the sweat shop. so look, i met my exercise challange and have not gone since LOL Monday is the start of a new week, at least I met my challange.

Sara my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. It is nice to have you back too. Morning violets.... I am back down to 221 this am. that is a bit better but still not great, how did i gain over 10lbs with my monthly visitor????? at least it is going in the rigt direction again. so check this. I had this guy bugging me to go out with him for months. I finally figured what the heck, maybe something good will come of it and I can get stronger and have the guts to tell dbf to poop or get off the pot.... so after months of him begging me to do something, I called monday night, said lets see a movie, go rollerskating, play lazer tag... anything silly and fun... well he fell alseep and then when he got up didn't like any of my ideas... so last night we were talking about going to alive at 5, which is a concert at the park, I went called and told him I was on my way down, and you will never guess he fell asleep again. Then he calls after 9 and I was such a witch, I told him off.........you beg me to do things with you and I make plans and you blow me off, he told me i was cranky and needed to drink to relax which turned into a whole nother arguement, because he knows I quit in April but was convinced I was at the bar when he called. I don't need that crap! I love dbf and don't deserve what he does to me, so if i every leave him, it is not going to be for someone that I have to beg to be with me or blows off plans we make, DBF is different, 17 years and 2 kids and I love him, as wrong as it is, but someone new.... NO WAY whew.... poor guy... he is catching me wrong week... LOL anyway, going to get a cup of coffee. I need to wake up, got in at midnight

You gals all look so fantastic... you are all so lucky to be so close

hey all - I am kind of down lately. the job thing is getting to me and not loosing anything and gaining is killing me. I am going to float in the pool for a bit, no kids at the moment so i'm going to put my radio on and just relax. I am off tonight and there is a band playing at an outside park so i might go. I don't know. I am just yucky and hope i can get a job soon - I am so far behind on all my bills... blah blah blah... and don't even feel like I look good at this point. well enough of that... i'll be back after i get in

Jennifer - congrats! that is a great feeling isn't it? I am down to my waterpill only, and I tried not taking it all the time but i am so full of water right now I don't think i should give that up Denise - You go girl....... I still hav to get caught up on some major post, when I wake up - i'm still out of it

Tracy - love the rings... i am just so happy for you. Everyone is doing so well... back on shakes for me tomorrow... does that say anything... this was a bad month for me... bloated - wanted salt... need I say more? I hope everyone has a great night, i'm off to sleep... or try anyway... it is hot here again and i'm so bloated. could i need another fill?????

Bandedme LOL that is total loss, since surgery it has only been 40lbs and now I'm gaining. I just changed my diet, uped to 1400 cals a day, but I'm sure I'm not getting that. As for the loss, mine just started about a month ago and I don't know how long it last, mine has slowed way down and i have a ton of new growth, but I think what didn't fall out is just breaking off as it grows. The new growth is very strong and I don't seem to be loosing that, only the old where there is a gap. I just got some herbal essence shampoo in the bright green bottle, it is fortifying, lenghten and strengthen I hear great things about that from my friends with long hair that were loosing a ton

Wow~ 51lbs. what is your secret? what do you eat during the day? I hear there is not much you can do, and the way it was explained to me was that it is from the time around surgery when there was not protein. Like for me - I was on chicken broth and jello for 2 weeks and then for the next 10 days not eating that much, hair loss is happening now because it is growing out to the place where there was not much protein in your hair ... does that make sense? It does to me but I'm not sure it is coming out right. Wow - 51lbs... still amazed!

Pamela, I'm cracking up... at least it is just an hour. My contractor has been coming over for 2 weeks to do a little project for me.

Laura I emailed Alexandra too, she told me to go to internet options, delete cookies and restart, log in and click the remember me box again... and guess what IT WORKED!!!!! I don't have to keep logging in thank goodness, it was driving me too

TracyK how cute... it looks like I'm not the only one with a visitor this week. I have gained again. I know bad choices yesterday but OMG. I am going to do shakes for the next few days to get this under control. I think the choices I've made have been good ones, I'm not having bathroom issues at all, but i'm gaining weight! so I'm going to get it under control and then cut back cals and if I need to increase have a protein shake during the day, I am disgusted that I was doing so well and now I'm finding what you gals are loosing. I am going to jump in the shower, it is cloudy here right now but going to be hot and humid today, so I'm going to bake in the sun, mow the lawn... and go to work at 4

Wow what a busy day. I am so tired. no gym today but did go to Six Flags. I have the worst rash between my legs. We were having so much fun on the water slides that I was late for work, so didn't have time to get changed and we ran out with wet clothes, and my shorts just irritated the hell out of me and then it was too late, and had to go to work like that.... OUCH!!!!!!!1 the happy news... I got on the tube for the water slide and didn't get stuck -- and actually sunk in there a little bit. I walked down small spaces i would have been a tight squeeze, walking up to them in a panic and fit with no problems at all. What a great day. I am sure I gained today, I'm not even going to weigh myself for a few days. I had great breakfast, some chicken tenders for lunch and eggplant with ric cheese for dinner. did not drink enough water so I'm sure that is not going to help. Anyway, that is my day, I'm beat. I will check in after the gym tomorrow. Hope you all have a great night all you violets that got together tonight.. i'm jealous.. glad you had a great time

Morning everyone! I hope you all have a great day. I have accepted the fact that today is not going to be a great eating day and what can I do. I am drinking my coffee, checking in with my violets and then we are off to Six Flags. It is cloudy here but going to be a perfect day, so hopefully not to crowded. We are going early so I can be to work at 4... YUCK, I really need to find a day job! I was out walking the mall and being silly until almost 11 last night and still couldn't sleep last night. Oh well, back to reality tomorrow I'll miss you all today but will check in as soon as I get home tonight to see how you are all doing. ta ta for now........

what great info tonight gals... thanks Michelle - I went to the mall and walked around, I could not find anyoneto go with but I did have a very nice relaxing night. I ran into an old friend I have not seen since last year, he didn't say a word but never said I looked horrible either. He has always been a great friend.

Jennifer - I was just really reading the info you sent me. Thank you - again. I'll scan it and post it. It is interesting to me that it was recommended for you to have 1200 cal a day and I think I'm making wise choices from the list that was provided. I am having a hard time with the 1400 cals but still close. the last couple of days have been out of control for me, I have not been home and running for 16hrs a day. No wonder why I am beat today. I really hope to get back on track Wed. Tomorrow we are going to try Six Flags again, rain today, and then work at 4 so it will be another long hard day. I am so hard on myself, i know i need to stop, but I want to be great now... I don't want to wait a year. will this feeling ever go away? I think 20 more lbs and I'll be in a much better place. if I can get into my 16's comfortably like I am in the 18's right now I will be very happy. or will I??????

Hey is anyone else's page super huge? I am having a hard time reading it for some reason. today is a completely lazy day, I just woke up from a little nap. I couldn't even stand myself. I never nap anymore. hope everyone is having a good day... Tracyks, I am just so very thrilled for you.....I know I said it, but it is nice to see a sister violet so happy.

Tracy - I am so happy for you... CONGRATS!!!!! I am sticking with the cal thing, I am going to put my scale away for a few days and not take measurements or anything until TOM goes away What a busy day for everyone. I am going to the movies with my 3 year old - it is raining here so we are going to go to pass on the drive ins tonight ... i'm so sad about that

LOL OK it is going to be hard... I'm not going to get on until Wed. Off to the gym...

Morning everyone well off for another insane day - (I think) my mom is here and I'm so happy - but she is a morning person and I am far from that, evenmore so now that i'm back to working 2nd shift. I cam home to a huge and I mean HUGE mess in my kitchen, which is the room where the door is, my daughter blew off all her chores, which was to vaccume, dishes and change her laundry. So can you imagine how happy I was when I walked into that. Then....... this morning my mother felt that I needed to be up at 6am... HELLO.........remember where you are..... I don't have a job and you are getting me up before the sun... I don't think so.... I am so glad she is here but we set some ground rules before I even had coffee. My house is definately lived in, but I've been bustin my butt to keep it all nice and in 1 day, it is all turned upside down. WHEW... thanks for letting me vent! Anyway, up another lb this am... can I take the bridge????? I eat nothing bad for the most part and work out like a crazy person and gaining. Wed or Thurs when my friend goes away I'm going to take more measurements and see if I'm at least shrinking. I don't want to give up on the increased calorie intake, but if I don't lose something by the end of the week I'm back to protein shakes for 3 meals a day. Well going to finish my coffee and go to the gym