Jennifur

Morning violets well I survived the gym yesterday - and getting ready to go again today. My foot is killing me from squeezing it in my shoes but other than that it felt great. TracyK - Yup... my turn too, I'm staying away from the scale too, I was still 217 today but I'm sure that is going to change. I took measurements this morning and have not logged them, I am about at a 44inch loss since april. Who can complain there. My mom and I had a nice night last night, the first one where we just hung out since she moved back to NY. We rented Music & Lyrics. It was a very cute movie. Well I guess now that I think about it I can laugh a little, but I guess it makes more sense that I was hyperventelating the other day... ya know with TOM and all. it is funny because I notice that I am not needing as much sleep and that it more regulated and I am much more emotional as I loose weight. well ... off to the gym and to apply for a few jobs.......

Michelle I think we are in the same place. I am so stuck weight wise. overall I'm feeling better but Inches and numbers have really slowed down... then add the rest of my issues. I know both of us will be ok... we are strong people. I need a break but can't afford a day off. so ... because of this.... I just got back from breakfast and stuffed all of it in me.... 2 eggs, a pc of sausage and some potatoes. Just what I need... fat ass

Morning all I have some catching up to do with the gym. I'm going to hit there this am - or try anyway. Well I have to deal with health insurance today, they never got my payment and I've been cancelled. Pray for me, I can't be without because then everything will pre exhisting and that will be bad. I don't really have the money at $10/hr to pay cobra but I just need to hold on. I was just telling my mom how absolutely frustrating all this is to me. I don't have enough money to survive and am spinning my mind. I try so hard to stay positive and know the right thing is out there for me, but it is not always easy. Anyway, I'm going to do a few cover letters today and have them printed - email and snail mail them to a few places. I am off today, up and going way too early, I COULDN'T SLEEP AT ALL LAST NIGHT. What is up with that. I had horrible dreams and woke up feeling sick to my stomach. IT IS GOING TO BE A GOOD DAY!!!!!!!IT REALLY IS!!!!!!!!!!!! I am going to breakfast with one of my good friends, maybe that will be just what I need

9.75/hr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes the benefits would be great, but it would be 1 day 3-11 and could be anytime between 7-5 - if the pay was better I would say it is worth it, but why leave something i'm getting $10/ for something that is not any better?

morning all Sara - thank you. This is just such a trying time in my life, it is all suppose to be good. I am healthier, looking better, loosing weight... yet can't get a job, and took a huge huge huge pay cut. I try so hard to stay positive but sometimes it feels like the world is crashing around me. I do have my 2 beautiful children - albe to keep my house. I do have lots of blessings, I just want things to be better for us. Well, today is Walmart grocery shopping day with my aunt, that is always an adventure. I really do need the money but......... I am glad I have thursday off.

Hi gals - you all all awesome. I think that I am just at my wits end with everything and one little thing can just set me over the edge. Job market sucks, only offers are $10/hr. I was making $17 with bonus of 10-15k/yr on top of that... see the problem???? I'm burried in bills, I am going to have to give my bike back because I just can't afford it. I deal with dbf every day, and honestly, I knew he was going to be a grandfather... it was just the 1 thing that pushed me over the edge and I completely freaked. I feel like I can't get a job because I am a fat ass and a woman... 2 things against me... yes, i feel so much better about me but strangers just look at me as being fat, they don't know that I've lost 60lbs and how great I feel. It is all so depressing, and every day my mom tells me I can't work nights, how bad it is for me and everyone around me.... HELLO/////////I know this..... but I am doing all I can to get out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND THEN that is not good enough, I'm not looking in the right places, i'm not doing this or that.... oh I've done it all and still do it all. now I don't have any stinking health insurance and don't know what to do. and we wonder why I'm a basket case/????????? on a happy note, I don't have a clue how many cals I'm eating but I didn't gain an oz yesterday, i had 2 small salads today, 1 w/grilled chicken and the 2nd with chicken salad. yogurt with fiberone cereal in it and sun chips and a serving of 2% cheese melted on top. I'm still not eating that much which is good since my appt was cancelled today. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... I just want to call in one thing to start making things better in my new life.

Terry, I remember that, and then I started working full time nights and everything around me got lost. I might have to order it tonight so i don't forget. thanks well, off to make my bed and tidy my room a bit before work.........now that i've balled my eyes out hyperventelating I feel a bit better.

i know girls, it is like an addiction. I so need to go to my head dr and my insurance was cancelled, i need to fix it if I can. I hope to get state insurance on Thursday and then I'll be good for sept 1 but i won't know until thursday. I am so insecure and with it all, i have never felt like i did this am, and i told him he will never make me feel like that again and still have me here. I would have never said that before. I need courage, strength and self confidence. well i'm going to clean my room, it is a mess, that is what happens when you get changed 6 times a day

well. what a way for self destruct mode. dbf just put me in my place. through all our issues he has never been mean to me. I guess there is a first time for everything. today is going to be a great day. NOT now that my heart truely feels broken...

Morning gals I slept like i was dead. Picnic went great, I ate way too much food, I had baked beans and lots of them, 2 small pcs of cake that had a pudding mixure & crushed pineapple as a topping and a small pc of chicken. I would eat a little and then go back for more when it settled. I feel like a total pig. Then I had a total jealous moment - dbf is a grandfather again from his adopted daughter - he spends more time with grandkids and not his own. it kills me. I think he knows how great our kids are and knows I am strong and take good care of them, the adopted kids are always in trouble, teen moms, pot heads, and drink heavily. maybe he is there so much because he feels like a failure - I don't know, but I just had a meltdown when it became a reality yesterday and had 2 margarita's. They were not even strong enough to make me completely happy. I'm afraid to get on the scale this am so i'm not, I'm going to do protein shakes for 3 days and then try it. TOM this week, I'm sure that is not helping either. Kat, the shooting star night sounds so nice. I'm sorry about your granddaughter, it breaks my heart when small children are that angry. I'm going to drink some coffee.... i need it

Just a quick check in... I am not all the way caught up but I was laughing. first WWJD???? I'm sure not have a bowl of ice cream for lunch... LOL Terry thank you for your prayers... I love the sun and heat. but it is hot out in my yard, no shade so i'm happy. Thanks for permission to take today off.... that means a lot coming from the gym nazi!!! omg i was just going to try to add a smilie... i usually don't go there... some of them are funny as heck.... and the full line of banannas... holy smokes... some of them look a little perverted... LMAO

Ok gals I'm up... how i don't know and I have a hug list of things I need to accomplish. I am still thinking about hitting the gym but i have running to do and setting up for the picnic. and I HAVE to go talk to the guy where i use to work. I am going to have a job this week, I know it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so jealous of all you gals with the heat. It is usually like that here in August. It is only going to be 80 today and 70 on Friday.I am going to want to close the pool already. How sad. i hope you all have a great day, I'm sure i'll be checking in

hey hey hey all... I'm home from work, just painted my toes, brown with white butterflies today. They have been blue for so long I thought i would mix it up. LOL I have a super busy day tomorrow, hitting the gym, job stuff and then lots of people over. what fun Kat- you look so amazing... and so happy. what an inspiration you are. TracyK - see... told ya!!!!!!!!!!!!! well... off to bed... so very tired. oh ... pamela, so nice to have you back, can't wait for pics.

hello all well, I just updated my cardio. I always count Sat night at work - that is the only night. I am working 4 ovens, sweating my butt off, stretching and lifting. I also count lawn mowing which I just got done doing. 2hrs which included weed wacking. My gym counts lawn mowing and I log my sat night as general aerobics. I am sure I could count more time there but sat is the one I actually "work out" I am going to get ready for work - tomorrow is the co picnic here at my house. it is all so nice and clean, yard looks good, so happy, i got more done in the last 4 months than I have in the last 4 years. Thank you Band.... Judy - 4lbs. you are awesome. I am stuck, can't wait for a normal job so I can stop being bloated and working in the heat.

Kat - I would love to help, but that is something I think Terry or TracyKS would be good at. I am not good at the photo thing either> LOL I have one of those neighbors too... Sometimes I wonder how he does it. Anyway, we dated when I was at my worst so it is a little tease. no only kidding, he is married now - but I wear a tshirt until I get into the pool steps so no one sees me. I never had a muffin top and it is almost gone again and my bottoms cover the worst part, so i figure what is the difference if my upper belly is covered when I am alone? silly isn't it. . . I can't wait to the day where I don't HAVE to wear old lady bottoms ( I probably always will) or I can walk around out front with a top on. I use to be there. anyway, drinking my coffee ds let me sleep in, he watched toons in my room this am and let me sleep. dd is still passed out.

Hey all I'm going for ice cream lunch on Tues after my Dr. appt and I'll get my camera - actually maybe i'll pick it up tomorrow for the picnic. I usually wear my bathing suit in the back yard that only I can see. boy cut bottoms and bikini top but when people are around I have a halter tank top to wear, I will not post side view but maybe i'll post some. we will see. Kat - i hope you survived the day Michelle, nice to have you back. I don't like going in ocean deep because of things out there... but I love the beach, love walking in the waves, love the sounds.

Hey guys, thanks, you are so awesome, the time is coming. I have an appt on Tues but I know no fill for me. I am still only eating 3 small meals a day and not hungry and have lost 15lbs since my last appt 1 month ago. He is going to laugh at me. He usually does, I love to entertain people and more so now that I feel so great about myself. Anyway, I'm wearing a tank and my pooh boxers to work, it will be so nice to wear real clothes again You all enjoy the sun, i've been cleaning inside and cabinets all morning, no gym, but feel good about what I've done. I will go tomorrow and tuesday, there is no way i'm going to get there Monday with the job thing and having the picnic at noon. so much to do so little time LOL I wanted to hit the next level at the Y by the end of July. I FORGOT TO TELL YOU ALL... I DID IT, EARNED 6000 POINTS IN 1 MONTH!!!!!!!!! I am so thrilled, actually made the wall for most weight lifted for females - all ages so my goal for sept is to hit the list for that and cardio. it will be so much easier once I'm not working nights. Have a great day

Laura CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!! isn't that a great feeling. I put on a size 16 skirt yest that was one of my favorites. i'm going to post a pic. I looked awesome and that felt great... keep up the great work

Morning Ladies TracyK - put the suit on, you look awesome girlfriend and I guarantee you that after the initial walk out to everyone, you will forget you have it on and have a great day!!!!!!!!!!!!! Judy - holy crap!!!!!!!!!! all that exercise tightened up so much... you are so beautiful Terry - omg, that is so good to know, I remember seeing an advil story so I have stayed away... I'm going to get childrens motrin as soon as I have coffee!!! So - I think the interview went ok, I would love the job, but here is something ironic... I have lunch a couple times a month at the bank I worked with - I meet my friends. One of my friends is the boss in the mail room. they have been saying for months that one of the strong full time people is going to leave. Well, yesterday he interviewed at the state and is done working on 8/23 and John needs a replacement by then. I told him I would be in Monday am to talk to him, if the pay is decent, I'm going to take it and start asap! I would get back all the time I was there, so I'll be 100% vested the second I walk in the door and I'll have 3 weeks vacation, 10days sick, 3 personal, they would pay for school. I would have to work 1 day 3-11 but shoot, that is so much better than 6 nights of that killing myself. I can keep sat & sun nights at the shop for a short time to catch up a bit. John is leaving soon too and that would be an opening for mail room supervisor. who knows???????

Ok Ladies, I'm off to work! not happy, wrapped my foot and squeezed it into a sneeker. I know I'm going to have to have it checked. I just needed to share, I put on my size 16 skirt... I had it on a month ago but it was still tight around my belly. It is still a little tight around my stomach but not uncomfortable and it looks almost as good on me now as when I bought it. I'll have to take a pic when I get my camera back from my friend. Have a great night all, I'll check in when I get home from work

I think the interview itself went well, but then he told me background check, no problems there, drivers check... again good to go... and credit check... PROBLEM.... I've been unemployed for a year... everything gets paid but not always on time... shoot, i'm living on $350/wk for a year. He said as long as no BK/Foreclosrue/liens I should be fine, so keep your fingers crossed. it would be a great job. TracyKS- Good vibes going your way, have fun To everyone else, hello.. hehehe. I just got in, have 45 mins to get ready for work and off I go... going to wrap my foot and hope I survive the night!

Morning everyone. last night was a lazy night but still so tired. I was off. Last weekend my dd ran into my foot so hard with a shopping cart. I am pretty sure she broke my 2 toes, but, now that they are not hurting I realize that the side of my foot that she hit has some serious damage. A few years ago I fell down my garage stairs and did some serious damage to some ligiments in the same spot. I don't have the money for weekly therapy and can't take time off work, but I think I might go and have it x-ray'd to make sure the bone is not broken and get a brace or something that will help. I am up getting ready for my interview, man this is early but will be nice when I am on a normal schedule again. Wish me luck

OMG I just typed the longest post in the world for me and my ds was fooling around and hit my puter and I lost it. Jennifer - yes I was on last night, so tired I couldn't type, let alone refresh to see new post. TracyK- you look awesome, I don't remember who said it last night but....GO GET A SEXIER SUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! Judy - Nice boat, that would be fun to leave the letters on. Hope you are feeling better from your crash... dd's teacher goes to safety things and does lectures because she would have been killed in a crash but her helmet saved her life, and was split in 1/2. she brings it with her to show the kids. TracyKS-I talked to him the other day, he was kind of on board but doesn't know what he is doing when he is done. I am not going to pressure him but I'm going to do it either way. I am going to start doing some leg work and get some estimates and working relationships with local contracors and electricians. I just got a call, so early in the morning, from Stewarts, it is a local corner shop, ok huge company here in NY. I applied for an internal auditor position with them less than 2 weeks ago, they mailed me a letter acknowledging me the end of last week and I have an interview in the am. They have great benefits and not a desk job. and not nights. I miss my kids, I miss cooking, I was just getting into that and having a variety of stuff, and now I'm working so much I can't do it. Anyway, I'm off to meet with someone about health insurance. I hope to save $300 a month while I'm in between jobs. Cobra sucks.

You gals are so very funny with your ebay stuff. I have been on but never bought anything, I'm clueless. so I dragged my butt out of bed and went to the gym this am, went and sold cookie dough for my dd's cheerleading fundraiser, took a 45min nap, shower and now off to work. it is 90 and tropical here, going to be a very long night

TracyKS - thanks for point that out...I'm not that with it lately CONGRATS TERRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :whoo::clap2: