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I had a bite of watermellon at that picnic I went to a few weeks ago. It didn't get stuck but I felt like if i could not swollow it, I had to spit it in the trash. I am finding that now I can tell when I chew if it is going to work or not. I always keep extra napkins with me

Morning all I could not sleep last night and finally just got out of bed. I'm so glad i'm off today. As for food that gets stuck Deli Turkey dry chicken (won't let anyone cook it for me) dry burgers - don't do them often I have not tried any bread, no donuts, nothing like that I have had a few thicker fries and have not had an issue with them, but chewed and chewed and they were steak fries and I ate the softer ones. Terry - I forgot your mom doesn't know... that must have been absolutely horrible. I have begun to tell more people, but I do let them all know it is not public knowledge. I have so many friends who I'm finding have mutual friends so there are still certain people I don't want to know. Going to drink coffee

Me sleep. LOL what is that????? Actually, my mom stayed here last night and I told her to wake me up at 6:45 so I could have coffee with her... she tried and tried, began banging things, yelling at my cat and dog, dropped her door, I need put it back up for her tomorrow. NOTHING, finally at 9am I woke up because I had to go to the bathroom so bad. I think I need sleep. Just getting in from work - have to check in, I'm addicted - going to relax and probably pass out. busy day tomorrow, no work but have so much to do to catch up.

Laura - no matter how healthy I eat I can't seem to really lose, I lost 15lbs after my fill on liquids and maintained it with no real issues. I have indreased and decreased my cals and work out like crazy, backed off because they said i was working out too much. So I'm going to jump start my w/l and then maintain. I am going to do this once a month - may be good may not, but i have super restriction so it doesn't much phase me not to have 3 meals. Tonight I'm having black bean soup. making it now so I was just about to walk out the door and ds/ speech therapist finally called me back, I had her down for noon and here she s. 1:30. Makes me crazy, I can't live like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whew.... i want to scream, screwed up my entire afternoon

Laura - i'm doing liquid diet this week and it is not easy, not because i'm hungry but because i'm a basket case and want to eat. last night when I left work I made something I love. had lots of hot peps and onions and I wanted to eat, not because I was really hungry but because I thought I was. I came home and went to bed. good for you with the exercise DVD. I don't have a lick of ambition to do that at home. I so want a normal job so I can do my water aerobics Tues & Thurs nights. well, off to the gym.... then to work. Hope everyone has a great day!

Donna thanks for that info. I had very thick full hair so it is not horrible, but to me it is. TracyKS - as long as it is only 1 bad day, that is ok. i was craving wings the other night, i had some from where I work to hold me over and thought they were not going to be the same as the ones i really wanted. they worked and never had the big fried ones with extra hot sauce I really wanted LOL

Welcome - and congrats. Inches are just as important as numbers. :clap2:OMG did I just say that.

Mine is starting to slow down, but suddeny it is very noticable that it is much thinner than it was. I could actually use a small hair tie and I've never been able to do that. I have noticed a lot of short pcs of hair. New growth maybe??? I get from 70-90 g protein daily and 70-90 oz water daily. Like Denise said, any suggestions?

Morning everyone. TracyK - pics... we want pics of your new do Sat. Terry is right, just let her know what you want to be able to do and then start slow. A couple years ago when I was really mad at dbf I cut all my hair off. It was longer than it is now (if you remember from my pics) and when I was done, it was all spiked in the back and a little longer on top so I could pull it back in clips. It was cute but way too much work. It took about a year to grow back out and now is 1/2 way down my back and I get it cut every 4 weeks now. My hair feels so thin, It was so thick, it is kind of depressing. Is it ever going to stop falling out? well, down to 216 today, finally moving again. Survived day 1 of liquid diet. had shake for breakfast, for lunch and 1 c lettuce and 3oz tuna for dinner. and water, i think i'm going to float away. I am back to going to the gym regularly too. I am kind of mad at myself because I am not going to make the charts this month but there is always next month. Oh, I was talking to my contractor, I think he is on board. I mentioned this yesterday, i'm just so excited. it is going to take time but this is my dream - and over the years, we have become true best friends. We have cried together, laughed together, and of course gotten in trouble together. We have also worked together - so it would really be a great thing, he just needs guidance. My favorite thing he did for me was hand carve my mantle around my fireplace. Oh well enough of that. In the mean time, i'm going to a temp agency next week and going to try that route, I will need to work while I'm working with him for a bit until we get really going. but if all goes like I want it to, i can work for 10/hr and suppliment with contracts. I'm drinking my coffee and figuring out my day. gym, work, and i just remembered i had things to drop off for my health ins with the state I'm trying to get.

Good night all, long night at work, got my butt to the gym right before I went in. Getting up with dd and going in the morning. I need to sleep at some point. I talked to my contractor friend. i think he is on board with my idea. He is done with his job on Jan 31 which will be perfect time, I will do all his advertising - which will be advertising for me. I will have to work for a good year but hopefully that is it. I am going to make an appt with an employment agency in the am. I need a day job. UGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Tracy - do they have different doses of the b/c rings? Just a thought but maybe too strong now that you are melting away??? I got horribly sick from my b/c. Felt preg every day... no wonder why I couldn't tell the difference. LOL only kidding I so knew the difference. But don't have to worry about it anymore

ok so i just showered before real work. I had to weigh myself. I almost fell on the floor, only 219 and my 218 is usually first thing in the am. I'll take that. Still doing liquid for a few days to drop down to 210 maybe and hold that for a week or 2 before I do it again. Well, off to the gym, pay my cable bill and then to work. Have a great afternoon all

Laura - I got an email the other day, they are having them in NY next week too, they are looking for teams............HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Laura - I'm sorry you are having such a hard time, and I know the craving thing... holy smokes, i was freaking out last night and needed to have chinese. thanks TOM - I know what you are saying, if i don't eat breakfast i'm so much better too but I know it is important for your metobalism. Find things you can eat that will keep you within your cals for the day. I usually have ice cream every night because I am hungry. it is all in the choices, but we all do know it is best to have 3 meals a day. blah blah blah... I know, I think I'm trying to convince myself too. I'm sorry you are having such problems with TOM and B/C.

Morning everyone. TracyKS - I hope the job move was a good one,... sounds like it. Well ladies. I can make you all feel better about what you ate yesterday. I didn't even count but it was not good Breakfast - 3 cups coffee w/ ff creamer bottle of water. (didn't think I was ever going to stop peeing after my hr long trip to the mall) Lunch - 3 chicken tenders and a small bowl of lettuce with salsa Dinner - 3 chicken tenders late dinner - 3 steamed dumplings and 1/2 cup chicken and black bean sauce. how is that... I didn't even want to get on the scale this am, I can feel the bloat from the chinese Today - 1 cup coffee shake for breakfast shake for lunch dinner - i'm going to have a bowl of lettuce and maybe some tuna in it. going to stick to the liquid diet thing for a few days to try to jump start - i'm good at maintaining

chinese it is. LOL what a great way to end the month!

Terry - You have 100% of my support. You deserve it - and I know you will do fine, you are a strong woman. Fortunatelly for me, I was so sick when I was pregnant with my 13 year old I was forced to quit and not smoked since, ok occasionally with the shots of tequila LOL You all are doing so wonderful. I am going to have something bad for me, I'm not quite sure what that is yet, but it is going to be bad. I am going to start liquid diet tomorrow so I want to get the tom craving out of the way today. once a month i will give myself and not feel guilty.

Thanks Judy - 62# ago, I would have been on the scale and beating myself up. Today, ok I still do it, but not as bad. I look at it like my body is catching up to those 62# and when it does, I'll drop some more. I work hard and can acknowledge that now. I do wish i had somewhere to wear that little black dress that looks great on me. LOL HAVE FUN AT DISNEY _ Take pics!!!!!! give Eyore a hug for me (my favorite) LOL

Well, I'm up. I feel like I just went to bed. YUCK I have started bringing food to the pizza shop with me. I find it is better if I'm going to pick if I have stuff I can eat. and this tom is bad, I actually made a pizza out of a pita last night 45cal whole grain crust, lots of sauce and a little cheese and onions. It was different but the first time I had an actual slice of pizza. So my hair is still falling out. Not as bad but it is, and today for the first time i noticed how thin it is getting. Anyone else still having hair problems? Today was measurement day. The numbers may be slowing down, but... 46 inches lost!!! have a great day all

TracyK - you are blowing me away - I need to get my butt in gear to catch up. What have you been doing? I've been stuck. When TOM is gone I'm doing a 3 day liquid diet like post fill, I'm still not eating lots so it should be easy. Anyway. tomorrow is a huge day, shopping with dad and all older granddaughters and then taking ds to a church baseball game. going to be a busy day off.

Wow - the Violets are AMAZING as usual. congrats JUDY!!!!!!!

Wow, what a great weekend for everyone!!!! Sara - you are absutley stunning TracyK - congrats on the panties. LOL Michelle - 20mins is not bad. I couldn't or wouldn't do 2 miles on a bike. Terry - I can't wait to see them! SO as for me>...TOM is here this am, man, I could have killed someone at work last night, but on a happy note, I was only 218 this am, which considering I usually gain 5lbs easy, I am very impressed. I think I have things under control a bit. Last night I was crazy, I was looking for something to wear because I went out after work...and I found a formal dress I wore 7 years ago to a formal holiday party. OMG, It was actually big on me!!!!!!!! and the little black dress I worked so hard to wear for DBF's military promotion dinner 5 years ago when I thought I looked way great... gettin big. It was a size 18 but I had it altered when I bought it, a 16 was tight in my belly so I got the 18 and had it fixed to fit me. What a great feeling - all this with PMS bloat. LOL As for my night out. the other guy who has been wanting to go out with me forever went out to a bachelor party last night an then went out, so i went out with him at midnight. He lives about 30 minutes away from me. there is a river that seperates us and it is funny, people rarely cross the river to party. Anyway I actually had a good time. I had my first real drink or 2. I was wasted!!!!! They were the small rocks glasses and I had Orange Vodka and cranberry. The only way they could have been better would be if they had CranRasp jucie LOL. I can say this.... as he is a very nice person, and has kissed me before... he is not a good kisser after a drink or 2.....or maybe it was just me. Anyway, had a great time either way. Crazy neighbor/old very good friend who thinks I did her wrong by caring for myself.... remember her... well yesterday when i was leaving for work, she pulled in, and her sister came up behind her and stopped in the middle of the road to tell me how great I looked, we talked for a quick minute because I was late but she was very impressed. She asked me if I saw it yet. Funny because I don't see it at all sometimes, ok most of the time...and the sister, just stood in her driveway looking at me like i was shit..... not my loss at this point, but I do miss her Step mom's friend has been telling me how great I look, and when I was grocery shopping with mom, we ran into this lady, I introduced her to my mom and she told my mom she was my biggest fan. At least I'm learning to say thank you.... and hope I can see it some day soon. I know blah blah blah... I am a basket case... don't know if there is any hope for me, but i had to share TracyKS- 9500... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm... that is a tax return check for me..... LOL I would do tt and arms. I did notice the other day my arms are beginning to show muscle and as they are, I am beginning to see more sagging below.

Denise - they are right...... but hey when you figure it out would you please fill me in... I know I need to get there too. I get compliments up the but and I just can't see it. I have actually had on my Levi's 2 times this week. I remember how hard it was for me to get to the point in my life that I could fit into regular size and they looked good. Well 4 months ago, i could not get them over my hips, now they fit more comfortably than when I bought them, but I just can't stop seeing myself as a "skinny thinker" I am going to take a shower and get changed for work, just got back from a shopping trip with my aunt and mom took the kids shopping. So nice and quiet, and clean in the house. what a nice feeling. Have a great day everyone. OH JUDY - it is that cold here today too. It is suppose to warm back up to mid 80's this week after this crazy front goes through, but it feels like late sept here. How sad.

Oh Theresa........ I LOVE DD carmel latte x shot of expresso and skim milk... you know what is better....... Starbucks ice carmel machiato (sp) OMG to die for. they are expensive so a treat. I mailed my resume out, had lunch, got home just in time for my ds's speech therapy session and then to work in an hour. what a day TracyKS - not going to take mail room job, 9>75/hr, WTF who can live on that????????????? SO NICE TO HAVE YOU BACK

Hi all I don't want to know my BF% because I already know... it is not pretty I did another workout, I feel so much better, I don't think it is good for me when I take too many days off. Off to get my resume printed... then work.. fun fun hope you all are having a great day