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TracyK- did you try the fiberone cereal? it really works, i was not going for weeks at a time and now regular. oh, hair is falling out at a normal rate again too

Terry thanks again for the bracelet... I felt like i really had my sister violets with me today

hello all - interview went well, and I so want this job, it is perfect for a non construction job. I did 2 phone and 1 personal interviews and feel that i have a shot, Planning on starting work in 3 weeks, but on the other hand, not counting my chickens, because it is so depressing when I feel that things go so well and then i get the call or letter... thank you but f' off, we don't want you. So I'll know next Wed or Thurs but so want this. Pam - yes I don't know how I do it either sometimes, I never got much sleep but now that I'm working a physical job, I need more than I'm getting. You gals are all so busy today... Michelle - I hate that thing too, and i'm right there with Pam - It killed myknees so i just don't want to get back on it. Water aerobics here I come! I think I'm going to take a little nap, I don't have to go to work tonight but am so very tired... be back soon!

Tracy - Good morning. Yes, I'm here after 4 1/2 hrs sleep i'm here. LOL I use to be able to function on so little sleep, but I also didn't have a job that was actual hard work. I get a workout every day there! I'm so glad I'm off tonight. Good luck at the eye dr. you will be in my thoughts.

(most) MEN SUCK!!!!!!! Morning Violets. I feel like I never sleep anymore and am always running. I am up and showered and working on getting ready for my interview. Keep them all crossed. For an office job it would be perfect and pays $15/hr - huge improvement. Of course - no outift is comeplete without my WWJD bracelet. Terry - I am going to get my camera back today I'll get some pics tonight, in my interview outfit. my levi's (which i don't have a before but I can tell you that they fit just like Tracy's last month jean photo. blah blah blah, i'll be here for another hour or so - then off on my adventure

Terry = I'm so sorry, wish I could give you a great big hug. You are strong - one thing at a time. that is the only way I make it through the day Laura - he is on long term disability and has his military retirement. He retired 3 months ago from the accident he had 22 years in so full retirement. Well you are all amazing, i'm off to bed so I can get up and get a job tomorrow!!!!!

holy shit Tracy!!!! I thought they looked amazing but just saw the second post with the month difference.. YOU GO GIRL I am just quickly checking in have 30 mins to shower and get to work. I just bought a new outfit for myinterview tomorrow. 16 pants - the have a little give but not stretchy and a Lg blouse. I am so happy about that. I did squeeze into the 14 but they looked like crapola - and since i'm wearing them tomorrow I needed them to fit. Anyway... looks like a good day...everyone is doing good at a quick glance, except i got tat Terry was cranky. LOL Oh no response on the support.... guess that means I won't be getting my $1000 this month... I'm going to freak when it really hits

Well, i just got a good morning email from dbf - works better that way, i'm not usually awake at this hour. I replied and asked him about my money. pray for me, i don't have the energy for an arguement today.

Denise - I get support but because dbf is out of work it is so screwed up. Right now I'm $1500 in the hole and because i'm only making $10/hr I really depend on it to live. He has not taken me back to court to reduce it but he is on long term disability from his motorcycle accident. I have to deal with it today and it makes me sick. anyway - off to get dd on the bus. first day of school then going to make it over to water aerobics

Hi violets just getting in from work and checking in. Laura - with your skewers (sp) marinate your veggies/meat in your balsamic dressing with a touch of evoo. Add a little extra garlic if you would like? let them soak over night. I've done that before with regular italian dressing. So- I had a mini phone interview Last thursday and got a call today to go in for a "second" interview. The pay is around $30k/year, which is still a huge pay cut from where I was but so much more than I'm making now. you know the drill... cross it all! Well - i'm going to bed, have to get up at 6:30 dd starts school tomorrow and has to be out for the bus at 7am! YUCK. Good thing is I'll be hitting the gym for 9am water aerobics class As for restriction. I still have a lot. I don't know if stress is helping but I can't eat much. I did 2 shakes and a bowl of lettuce and tuna for dinner. The only problem is I know I can eat, so I wanted a few wings at work tonight. I am not going to cave! I will do this for the week and get my shit together have a great night all!

Tracy man - some things are different, but some of my life is almost identical to yours. The court thing is insane, I had a "clerical error" for almost 2 years every time I went. I tried to hire an atty to go after the County for mailing out my name, address and SS # to some random guy for privacy violation but I was told "you can't fight city hall" So now that I'm $2500 in arrears which is almost 2 months... they will do nothing until he is 5-6 months behind. INSANE. - so I feel your pain. everyone tells me to go back, but I don't know if I have the strength yet to fight that fight again. It will be another 2 year war... Plus in 2 years his other ds he pays support for will be 21 so more for me... I'll deal with it then. well off to work... not really thrilled about that.

Laura - forget it... cataccori is sauce Beans? bbq??? try looking for pork and sub with chicken. LOL I thought I was picky. you win

LOL - dark meat is not as good for you but is moist and still full of Protein. actually shreds better too. I was just looking through my cook book I love and use all the time. Here is what i came up with.... chicken - mexican type stuff, enchalida's and tortia Soup. Chicken caticcori - made with dark meat falls off the bone... and a good place to check out shredded chicken recipes would be for pork. I know you said no pork but to replace with shredded chicken would be good.. like BBQ, pork & Beans except with chicken. They are all crock pot recipes so siimple and easy. Let me know if any things would work and i'll type them up for anyone who would like them

OMG laura - you crack me up. what about whole chicken/turkey with the dark meat? to me, it is kind of funny that you nuke chicken. to me that is disgusting LOL .... has to be nice and juicy

Terry- I'm glad you are pleased. you are in my thoughts and prayers. just got back from getting my hair cut. I have bangs and layers. I was going to color my hair today but I don't want to do it over, it looks nice right now. so I was suppose to get my child support today and it would have paid all my bills for the month with exception of my mtg, which come out on the 15th... and guess what... didn't get it... i'm slightly stressed and don't want to have to deal with that right now. $2500 in the hole, one month i get it the next i don't. no reasoning behind it which makes it worse. ughhhhhhhhhhh

nope, no hangover - i'm sure because i passed out and slept til 8. Since there is no smoking in the bars in NY - I find that I am not as hungover in the morning. I think the smoke killed me. Laura - I love chicken - I usually soak it in something, italian dressing, olive oil, lemon juice, garlic, salt & pepper and throw them on the real gril or the george forman grill inside. Actually that is what we did last night with homemade mashed potatoes & sauted zuccini. I got this great chicken rub at the local grocery store in the spice section. it kept my chicken nice and moist and great flavor. would be good for baking because it keeps it moist. I - personally would love some shrimp or scallops - that sounds good. Maybe that is what i'll do for dinner on Monday night - that is my next night off.

Oh did i mention that i'm doing protein shake again this week? I need to get motivated and start eating healthy again.

TracyKS - nice to see you are back. I'm sorry, why are we dealing with crazy men lately? I am so tired I can't see straight. I'm going to get a cup of coffee and then go get my hair cut. then i'm going to try again to take a nap before I go to work.

Morning violets sorry about my obnoxious post last night. I was feeling great. LOL up and going to the gym... tomorrow is the first day of school here... YIPEE. the house to myself

Well ladies, just wanted to say goooooooooooooooooood night. today is the last day of my self destruct. I AM WASTED!!!!! had 2 margaritas, 1 at home I made, and then went to the bar at the bottom of the hill and had 1 drink with 3 shots of tequila, and I'm still typing. Tomorrow is the start of shake day and going back to the gym but first.............. i am goin to literally pass out, talk to you all tomorrow. hope you all had a great holiday and were better than i was did i mention how wasted i am......... not good... had extra tequila in 1 drink so i didn't have to many calories in the mix. that is sadd

Kat - that is just so horrible, but it sounds like Rick was worth the wait. there is hope for me yet. LOL TracyK- me, no prom, homecomming either.... i so regret that sometimes we went to drive ins last night, saw ratatulli (sp) it was actually really cute. my phone range early so i'm up, going to enjoy my last day and then shake central here i come! I have a horrible yeast infection which is just horribly uncomfortable - I have to go get some meds this morning, but since I'm running with no health ins, i pray it works..I've had much worse but this one is obnoxious, not getting worse or better, just hanging around.. I KNOW TMI... sorry I have super sensitive skin and changed laundry detergent (mom picked it up) and then i got this, i have ezma rashes popping out all over my body. I am ready to re wash all my stuff, even if one has nothing to do with the other - or does it. Uneventful Labor day planned for today, we are just going to hang out, may go apple picking, the orchard opened up on the 1st. going to shampoo carpets and move furniture. I hope everyone has a good day - off to breakfast with mom and the kids.

Terry - wow - you are such a strong person I can only blame myself for my self destruct, and I feel myself falling again. this is take control of my life, so that is what i'm going to do. I have been feeling sorry for myself again.. NO MORE. I am eating lunch and then going for a walk with ds and then i'm going to take the kids to the drive ins tonight. I feel trapped in my house and it is not a nice feeling - all my fiends are mostly married and are all off doing the family thing this holiday weekend - so pitty party me.

TracyK - Like I said, try fiberone cereal, you can have it in milk or in yogurt which is what I do. I also keep sunchips in the house for snacks, they help too. I actually make nachos out of them or eat them plain. I was more like Terry - I always thought I was fat and ugly - I was chubby but not horrible, I was 150 in HS then when grad up to 175 then back down to 145 and I worked hard for that. at 145 I was wearing a small/med and was so happy with myself. Growing up at those weights, I thought I was fat, in 1st grade, they made fun of me because i was chubby - then put on a little more... in grade school, they made fun of me and were so much meaner. when i went to hs, i changed districts. I always had boys interested in me, was engaged after hs, and found out my df had cheated on me, ok. he was in the navy and it happened... not to make excuses, he came back, begged me back, was done with his duty, wanted to take care of me and my unborn child, i said nope, was in love with dbf (yes same one as today) wonder why I have commitment isues. Anyway this guy, my bff, who was in love with me but had accepted where we were, killed himself 3 years ago this month - there was rumor it had to do with me. I gained a shitload of weight after that and with issues with dbf - I went from 220 to 278 in a matter of less than a year. I couldnt figure out why i was just such a mess this week and last night it hit me. ANNIVERSARY of his death - I always get sad but I AM NOT going to get into a funk. I am going to the cemetary today or tomorrow and have my talk with him and get my lazy ass up and get to the gym. I do go to the cemetary every 4-6 weeks and I think it is much closer to the 6 at this point. I miss him. wow i can't beleive all that came out. anyway, now i'm back down to 214 where i was before my son, and i was happy and confident then, but now i still feel like a complete fat ass. HOW FRUSTRATING btw - i fell back asleep right after my last post at 8:19 and just getting up about 1/2 hr ago

Morning violets Laura - Breakfast suggestions. hmmmmmmmmm..... I make a crustless quiche - you can put anything you want it in and is easty to take on the go. TracyK- you know I was having serious issues myself. I am now regular as long as I eat regular, but here is what I did that helped. (fibersure didn't work for me either) found some whole grain pita's 45 cals and lots of Fiber have a yogurt and add fiberone cereal to it every morning have at least 1 salad a day and when all else fails, which i doesn't seem to, i have some cherry essence prunes, only need 3 or 4 and i'm working. I hope those suggestions help. Remember I was going weeks without going. I'm off to drink my coffee too. ds decided i needed to be up with him. I think i'm taking a nap today

Gina - so nice to see you again. Wow - I have been on self destruct mode this week, I pb'd slime and all on a chicken wing tonight... I am officially done. Protein shakes starting tomorrow for a week then get myself on a schedule. I hope everone has a great night. I was going to go out after work but guess not. I'm going to have myself a little drink and off to bed.