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Morning all quick check in Tracy, that is why I spent 700 on one, because I had specific requirements so I felt safe, and that one is similar to the one I use at the Y... and on that happy note, I thought I was slacking last week building back up, well, I just did my 6 mile walk in 1hr 15mins where i was doing it every day and took me 1hr 45 mins.. GO ME Ok off for breakfast, shower and some running. more later

hello all just really sitting down for the first time in days. Been absolutely beautiful here, so went for a 5 mile walk yest and 2 today and went to the gym and did weights. Spent most of the day with the doors open to let some fresh air in and cleaned my back room and living rooms, I mean spring cleaned, moved furniture, cleaned windows, dusted, ya know the stuff you do in spring. I'm completely exhausted, going to give ds a bath and and then maybe take one myself and do the same. Itsn't this great Suzanne, maybe you will get a nice few days off and enjoy

ProForm Crosswalk 8.0 @ ProForm.com there is the monster. It is a good one. The Arc Trainer I really wanted was $2500 and that was not new! This is a close 2nd

Good Morning Suzanne ((hugs)) I second what Tracy said Kat - So glad Rick is coming home Michelle - what an awesome dog! SuzyT - how touching, brought happy tears to my eyes. When you have such good happy kids in your life you tend to forget there are kids out there that are really in bad places. Tracy - what you up to? How is Macy? I have not seen my friend, she has cheer competition this week so cancelled on me. I found a ranch I want to go to this summer or for a weekend, it is up north in the mountains, about 1 hr away, but is beautiful, kind of expensive for me but not really, they have a couples weekend no kids for $450, 2 nights, food, horseback riding and a bunch of other stuff. I didn't think that was horrible. I love horseback riding, have not done it in about 20 years, and was so huge was embarrassed to even ask if i could. Thurs, my sister gave me a $200 gift card for my bday. Between sisters and made me promise not to tell. I have been wanting western boots for a long long time and well $150 later, i got the best boots ever! I took the other $50 and went to old navy and got a bunch of cami's and a tshirt for st patty's day, and a skirt, $15! I just paid $30 for one wish i knew they were going to be on sale. Anyway, I got a size 10 non stretch thinking that I'll be able to wear it soon... I sucked it up and put it on.. Holy Crap it fit perfectly! I almost cried. I think i might go back and get a size 8 in one or 2 since I'm on my mission and I love them, $15 is a great price! I'll wear them all summer with a tank and flip flops or now with boots! I am listening to CMT, I love Zac Brown, man I wish I could go on the cruise in September. I might have to take a trip to PA to see them in Concert. I'm waiting for our summer concert schedule to come out then i'm planning a trip. Oh, So my mom gave me $1000 of her tax return because she felt horrible about mine, she is so nice like that. Anyway the only deal was I had to get the elliptical I was going to get because she knows I drive to the Y just for that. So last night I ordered it! I am painting my laundry room before it gets here so I won't have to move it to paint later. It will be perfect in there, enough room, I always keep an ac in there and it is not in the way. I'm putting a small, kitchen size tv on the wall in there and off I go. I've been to the gym every day this week and I'm going to go for a 2mile walk after I wake up and skip the gym. My right leg has had several huge purple baseball size bruises and for some reason the muscle around them is burning on the elliptical so I figured I'd walk the weekend for a break. Plus it is sunny and 45 out! OK enough ramble. Have a great day

Michelle, good luck with the dog. I am searching for a berenese mountain dog but not ready until the summer at least. ok i'm really off

Tracy - talk to the school. They way it works in NY, once school age services run with them. Call me?! too long to type but know what I have to do, when he was little it was county. School services are good, Dylan does speech 3 x's a week and was doing reading the same amount, and it is in groups of kids with needs so it doesn't isolate them. Dylan did summer speech with school too, and it is a service with school so unlike when he was county, they don't run our insurance anymore. I'm on protein shakes as of today, have been to the gym all week and feeling good, hope to lose a lb or 2 while I'm at it. Ok off to clean, I am getting a jump on spring cleaning.

vicki glad to have you back the weight will fall off plus, remember you are full of air and fluids! they take a few days to get out of you! Its like being banded all over again, you will be at goal in no time... I better get my lazy butt up to keep up... LOL so glad all is better

That is good Tracy I will let you know, I'm running way late now, but applied for jobs and got stuff done, but have to shower and be out of here and make copies in an hour. LOL xoxoxo

Has anyone heard how Vicki is? Thinking about her!

Tracy - in some ways kind of sounds like Dylan. I am suppose to have Margarita night later and my friend is Dylan's old therapist, Do you mind if I share and ask her what she thinks? Is this new or just in a school now that pays attention? Macy is the young one in the class right? Dyan works very hard and goes to speech/reading classes 3 times a week, but he always wrote his numbers backwards and when he is tired, he makes very simple mistakes - not to make light of it, but it may be as much emotional as well as physical. By emotional, I mean having to share you. I think you made a great choice! Love ya, let me know what you think, Kerry is amazing at what she does.:thumbup:

Good Morning all Well, yesterday I started back to the Y, then drank 1/2 bottle of wine and ate like a pig. Productive right? Suzanne - you are my motivation to get my lazy butt up and moving, thanks! Tracy - I don't know much about it, but my son has dysfractia, which is switching of a couple of letters and sounds which is his big issues with speaking, I just found out another one of my friends has dyslexia and she is retired military and is a strong successful person. Well, I'm sitting her applying for a couple jobs, making some phone calls and copies for my military function, just signed up for another safety class, going to shower and do a little running - I'm looking to have a job lined up by time I go to court on 3/19! I think spring is on its way here - going to be in the high 30's mid 40's for the next week! snow will be gone by time St Patty's parade is here, yipee! hey everyone, sorry I've been slacking on posting, have not had my puter on much but i am going to check in at some point every day.

Thanks, It must have been pms, because I ate like a pig tonight with no problems. Going to the gym every day starting tomorrow, meeting my sister so no excuses!

How about the last 20-25 lol I have to, I can't stand myself and really not going to be able to hav tt until next fall at earliest, working hard on getting a job I am finding it more because I want to run that 5k in May and running out of time to train. Hey if the BL PEOPLE can do it so can I right? Night all, took pain pill and I'm losing it quickly

Suzanne I am so ready for the pool. Mine has so much wet heavy snow I'm going to try to get some off tomorrow. Lazy weekend, going to put Dylan to bed and soak in nthe tub I'm meeting my sister at the gym, I'm back on track, she was bigger than me and is down to a size 8 from 22 in less than a year. she claims it is because low rise and she has no leggs or butt, but still it took me almost 3 years to get from a 24 to 12 and I worked my ass off at times for that. I need to get my last 20 off NOW

Vicki xoxoxo you are in my prayers. Please let us know how you make out

Hey all Vicki - I'm so sorry, but on a happy note, probably explains alot and you can get that reflux under control. I have been sick and eating bad for over a week because I eat what I can get down. I've been on broth and cream soup for 2 days but i just almost killed myself choking down 3/4 cup of soup, so I should just stick to liquids. I'll do it with you. Get lots of s/f pops CALL ME ANYTIME! OK???? I'm off to do some cleaning

Hey all I am dealing better - I do have bad days when a lot comes to surface, but I'm dealing with them. I know what I need to do As for migraines, I use to get them horribly and they went away and now that I think of it, I get them back with lots of quick weight loss. Mine are also sinus related so when my allergies are borderline and I can't quite put my finger on it, I know a few days of allergy meds will help control them, but I get them to the point of huggin the toilet for days. Kat, Darien Lake in Buffalo has a great mega ticket out there, Saratoga Has one but only 3 shows on there right now for $150 - I'm not sure what I'm going to do, hold out. I so want to take the Zac Brown Band Cruise but with no tax return, there is no way that is going to happen. They are going to be in NYC but I don't want to deal with that, but they are the concert I'm on a mission to see this year. Sugarland was amazing and is on the Saratoga tour, Brad Paisly and Darrius are another. Well, I don't know what the scale says, but I know I have been living on soup and broth for 2 days and still have a hard time with stuff in soup. It hurts so badly. The damage is done and i need to make it go away, but don't have the will power to do it right now ugh... so I have a guy I dated for a week, proposed to me!? COME ON.... SERIOUSLY I tell him I am happy with someone else and he doesn't care. I am so cold to him and it doesn't even matter. Thats why I like Billy - he is just there for me. Anyway, off to do something, not sure what, maybe snowblow, my back is killing me from shoveling wet heavy snow so i'm going to be a cheater today. Hope all is well!

Thanks Kat that is pretty much just how I feel right now. I'm making things right what I feel I need to do in my heart. Billy was a big one. He is scared of relationship too, and I know he cares much more than he wants me to know. I can tell by the light that shines when I walk in, and for that I know i hurt him last week, but we had a nice talk Monday night and I think we are good. I left him alone and just called to say goodnight last night and he was just happy to hear from me. So hurting him in any way did not make me feel good. So I am going to just continue to follow my heart and try to forgive Kevin for what he did to me. He is going to have to live with himself and I don't have to do it anymore. Good luck with the boots! I've got a ton of paperwork to do tonight for court and then going to apply for the financial assistance for the Y so I can keep my membership. My mom is buying me my elliptical with her tax return so I should have it in 2 weeks, so I cleaned out the room it is going in and going to paint in there so once it is in I won't have to move it. I had a bite of breakfast and threw up very badly so I have had 2 sf pops and a cup of broth. Going to stick to liquids for the next week to get it undercontrol. It hurts so much to be sick like that Lets hope to get the loss rolling again, I was up7lbs this week

Hey all I've missed a lot. Vicki wow! You caught up with me! I have to get my sh*& together so I can get my last 25 lbs gone. I've managed to mess things up and have family court tomorrow so I've been stressed for the last week and have managed to eat 2 times in the last 10 days without throwing up, and somehow, I gain when I don't eat Just had 1 bite of breakfast and threw up like a crazy person and hurt so badly I don't know what to do. I might make some pudding with protein powder in it and shakes for the next couple of days to get the swelling down, or clear liquids Miss ya'll but glad you are doing well. Rain.. how far along are you now? Love the new pic!

Good Morning all Kat - You really have a huge heart, you are always making sure everyone is taken care of. Now, saying that, I love pulled pork and baked beans. LOL I have not seen that show but I'm glad you think of me. I am done, I have a friend coming to frame out my laundry room for me, I just don't have it in me. Michelle, I have trazadone to sleep, I should take some, I have been a mess all week Suzanne, wow it is still that cold there. It has been 38 here and we are getting our entire winter's worth of snow this week so it is wet heavy yucky snow. Tracy - I'm here and alive, all is well, I think I might have to take out my grill this week I have managed to screw something else up... it is fixable, but I messed things up with Billy, I am working on fixing it and as much as i hate to admit it. I do like him, but it is just a good speed for me. We have just enough of each other and just enough space and can not ee each other and yet he is just so happy to see or hear from me. We keep saying not in a relationship and it works. Everyone knows we really are together as much as we both can be, both of us getting out of long long relationships. Anyway, he makes me happy and is taking really good care of me, and is not touchy feely when we are out together, and Kev Destroyed me, I am at a point where I don't want anyone touching me at all. So this is a good thing, and if Billy and I don't work, we will always have a special thing and I would want his blessing on whatever path I take, as he knows no matter what he has mine as long as there are no lies and he is happy. Stupid right? I made a mends with my neighbor. I've tried and tried randomly texting her, but yesterday with the snow it all worked out, we actually went to dinner last night and just talked and it is all good so that has been where I'm at in life. Just trying to make things right I may have had hurt in my heart the last year or so with Kev but I have total anger and hate towards him and it is eating me alive. I am not an angry person and I know that is not the seeds I should be planting. I am working hard to make things right and plant good seeds because I want things to be different for the next part of my life. Well, off to make something to eat. Going to try healthy, I'm pms and bloated and have been throwing up so have gained a few from self distruction but know it is bloat I'm heaing back to the gym for real this time... swear I feel lazy

Good Morning all just up drinking my coffee. Suzanne - congrats! that is a great feeling isn't it? going to snow for the rest of the week here, which stinks, big storm on Friday and I have to go to court. I can't wait until this is over with, he is such an ass and is not in my/our lives at all, and somehow still seems to haunt us, and control me. I wish my glasses were in so I can see.

Hey ya'll Tracy - did you get my card? xoxoxo Hope you had a good birthday weekend. Thisng have been kind of out of control lately - long drawn out story not worth talking about, just been kind of crazy and I honestly can't see past the tip of my nose so its been really hard for me to use my computer. I hope my glasses come in soon, they said 7-10 days, tomorrow will be a week. Hope they get here. My eyes hurt so badly trying to focus I wish I Could pry them out of my head. just picked up my daughter and she is eating lunch and then to the dentist to adjust her braces. I have family court with the dick head on Friday morning, so not really looking forward to this week

Morning all Suzanne - so if no changes that is good right? I'm up getting ready to put Dylan on the bus and shower, going to take care of some more business today

I'm going back to calorie counting again, been a little out of control Good Morning all Just getting myself ready to jump in the shower. Made an eye appointment for this morning, I lost my glasses and they are almost 2 years old anyway, I'm just a mess and can't see far away at all anymore. I'm going to splurge and get a pr of transitions if I find glasses I LOVE that are on sale, or a pr of sunglasses for $50 less if I don't love the frames, my eyes are so sensitive to light I hope to get transitions so I don't have to keep swapping them out. Thats about it. Hope ya'll have a great day Tracy - where are you?

Good Morning all Kat - thank you, your words mean more to me than you will ever know I am still really besides myself but it lit a fire under me and it has closed another huge door behind me. I hired an attorney on Friday to go to family court with me next week. I don't know if I mentioned but besides kev's cold horrible shit he pulled xmas eve, he has decided that he should not have to pay support for his children and is taking me back to court. Thank god my cousin reminded me during my slight nervous breakdown that she use to date a family court attorney and to call him and he would take care of me. Well he called me back Friday, he is going to waive his retainer fee and charge me his old rates. Anyway, it is out with the old and in with the new and i am planting new seeds in life for them to grow and blossom. I think i only have 1 old debt left from my old and getting everything together now. I mailed out 12 resumes on Thursday so I anticipate some phone calls this week and to be working by March 1! I just had a long phone call in the middle of this post and I lost my thoughts Kat, hope you had a good ride. Love to you all, you are the best TRACY - send me your new address please... and Happy Anniversary!