anniegs

Hello.. I'm back and banded! blimey - the anxiety and nerves but I survived and am back at home.. You were right - I'd never have been able to drive myself home, much to sore, but am getting better every day and am quite content with this liquid diet! Thanks for your support and advice everyone, it really helped.. now where do I get a ticker from??

Been hell at school today - some vile kids and organizing my cover for next week and told my line manager I might not be in for 2 weeks as people seem to think I'll be sore for longer than I thought. At least all the activity and a staff meeting after school took my mind off tomorrows events! The nurse called this evening to ask a few questions and explain what'll happen tomorrow - she asked how my pre op diet was going (what pre op diet?) then she went on about someone who'd lost half stone for her op (Why have the op if you can lose weight so easily??). I have this nagging feeling that if anyone is going to fail with the band .. it's bound to be me. I know that's not fighting talk and if I heard anyone say that sort of thing I'd say they're doomed to fail.. please let it work for me!! I'm worrying now about the actual operation now and I must focus on the good that'll come out of all this and think beyond the op itself. Time to pack my bag and get things ready for the kids.. I promise I'll be back to tell what happens - if not.. well:straight

Been hell at school today - some vile kids and organizing my cover for next week and told my line manager I might not be in for 2 weeks as people seem to think I'll be sore for longer than I thought. At least all the activity and a staff meeting after school took my mind off tomorrows events! The nurse called this evening to ask a few questions and explain what'll happen tomorrow - she asked how my pre op diet was going (what pre op diet?) then she went on about someone who'd lost half stone for her op (Why have the op if you can lose weight so easily??). I have this nagging feeling that if anyone is going to fail with the band .. it's bound to be me. I know that's not fighting talk and if I heard anyone say that sort of thing I'd say they're doomed to fail.. please let it work for me!! I'm worrying now about the actual operation now and I must focus on the good that'll come out of all this and think beyond the op itself. Time to pack my bag and get things ready for the kids.. I promise I'll be back to tell what happens - if not.. well:straight

Wonderful Lynne - good excuse to ditch the inlaws :-)~ It makes me so mad the way people make judgements - it seems the bigger you are the more invisible you are.. anyway I'm stocked with painkillers and have now told my kids that i'm having a 'procedure' the closer I get the more nutty it seemed not to tell them.. haven't said what it's for.. 'womens problems' it makes life much simpler as my daughter whos at sheffield can drive me home, so that's been a bit of a relief, although the two older kids are a bit anxious!

Well this morning I decided it was ridiculous not to tell the kids about the fact I'm having an op. As it gets closer there seems no benefit to keeping them in the dark - and also lulu coming home will help me enourmously. When I told Lulu this morning she was very tearful but as I assured her it was in my interest she seemed a lot more understanding. Jake was phillisophical about it all and Sophie Rose dosen't need to know. Jake, Soph and I went to town to get some supplies, had a nice relaxing afternoon getting ready for my few days away and wrote up lessons to be covered at school. Last night I connected with other people who were aprehensive too and their comments helped to alleviate my worries.

Well this morning I decided it was ridiculous not to tell the kids about the fact I'm having an op. As it gets closer there seems no benefit to keeping them in the dark - and also lulu coming home will help me enourmously. When I told Lulu this morning she was very tearful but as I assured her it was in my interest she seemed a lot more understanding. Jake was phillisophical about it all and Sophie Rose dosen't need to know. Jake, Soph and I went to town to get some supplies, had a nice relaxing afternoon getting ready for my few days away and wrote up lessons to be covered at school. Last night I connected with other people who were aprehensive too and their comments helped to alleviate my worries.

ahh thank you you guys - feeling weepy here now this side of the pond! gone 2am so I must go to bed you have all helped SO much! anniex

Robin I find that my Mother is the worst - she seems to think she can say things that just floor me - like 'have you thought of wearing a girdle' (I know!) or why don't you get a personal trainer - etc.. although I know she loves me totally but it is almost more hurtful that your nearest and dearest feel obliged to cut you down. Because I have failed so many other diets I feel like people will just roll their eyes at this and mutter about burning money Possibly I'm wrong but if I did tell anyone - I wouldn't be able to un-tell it! annie

will you be staying overnight footballmom?

hi danielle - I'm just about to have my surgery on march 6th .. and I haven't told anyone!! well I eventually had to tell some close friends that I was having surgery for 'women's problems' because I needed help with looking after my 8 year old. I told my work that also but there is no law that they need to know what my operation is for and my doctor will give me a 'sick note' (a uk phrase). I just can't stand the idea of people being in judgement of me, having had such low self esteem for a long time.. I can't bear anyone even my family to know what I'm doing. I don't know how I'll carry it off to be honest, and hopefully i'll be foccused enough to get on with it. I'm freaking out here as it is so close now! annie

hi sherry - I am going through EXACTLY the same as you - it's comin up 1am here in the UK and I am a complete bag of nerves over my surgery which is on tuesday 6th. 6 weeks ago when I signed up I was so excited that I was doing something positive - now lookat me? Andrew I am also thinking "omg what if I don't see the kids again" worse is that their Dad died nearly 3 years ago, and I'm sole provider.. I feel overwhelmed by guilt and selfishness.. but my weight is totally holding me back and I'm becoming more and more isolated. It has been such a help to find your posts. Thanks so much annie

have just found you guys! my surgery is 6th march too - here in sheffield england - feeling VERY aprehensive/nervous/what the hell am I doing?? I've been rubbish at the pre diet - just trying to train myself into 3 meals a day rather than persistant grazing!

thank you you guys - I must admit I feel very weepy and sorry for myself today - just the anticipation and anxiety I suppose. People have been lovely on this forum it's a reall fillip to find out what others do or don't do. Lynne thankyou for your email too that was really kind of you. Suzanne - I agree totally about Ann D.. bet she had the whole lot free and a personal trainer thrown in to boot!

Anyway I need to go and do something - well done on your size 16 status - I haven't seen that for a long time, keep having a good day and thanks for your support!

aaaaaaah now - nearly 2 years ago when I first researched the possibility of doing this I got in touch with Nurse Diggory! but she honestly gave me to believe that I needed to be well over my weight to be considered for the op, at that time I was about 15 1/2 stone. Telford was also a bit too far away for me and it wasn't practicable. It wasn't till I watched Ann Diamond on fit club and notched her problems with the band that I thought I'd had a lucky escape not having it done.. then a few months ago I saw her again with the weight loss etc .. and here I am : a slave to bloomin celebrity!

It's been a really rubbish week. My pre op diet despite all my good intentions has been non existent. I've searched out loads of good advice .. and what have I done with.. nothing! so now with just a few days to go before the op I'm wondering if the surgeon will take one look at me and boot me out. I still haven't told the kids or any of the family about this, close friends and work think its women's problems - so I feel guilty about that. Jake has dislocated his shoulder which means I need to be well enough next thursday to take him to his hospital appointment. I am trying to do this for me - but i feel like I'm swimming against the current ALL the time. To ad insult to injury here I am with a twisted ankle which is throbbing like mad and I'm hobbling round like an idiot. Please let this work! I've read so many success stories and seen the before and after pics but somewhere deep down I feel like I'll be one of the ones it won't work for.:phanvan

It's been a really rubbish week. My pre op diet despite all my good intentions has been non existent. I've searched out loads of good advice .. and what have I done with.. nothing! so now with just a few days to go before the op I'm wondering if the surgeon will take one look at me and boot me out. I still haven't told the kids or any of the family about this, close friends and work think its women's problems - so I feel guilty about that. Jake has dislocated his shoulder which means I need to be well enough next thursday to take him to his hospital appointment. I am trying to do this for me - but i feel like I'm swimming against the current ALL the time. To ad insult to injury here I am with a twisted ankle which is throbbing like mad and I'm hobbling round like an idiot. Please let this work! I've read so many success stories and seen the before and after pics but somewhere deep down I feel like I'll be one of the ones it won't work for.:phanvan

thanks suzanne! how are you getting on with your band - have you had a good week? where do you go to get a fill? have you got a family?

Sara I'm with the hospital group too - it is expensive compared to others - but i couldn't do a trip to Belgium or france. I just hope that they have the back up and support I'll need. Well everyone my Op is on tuesday everything is organized pretty much, although you will not belive I twisted my ankle badly yesterday so am hobbling around like a right idiot! at least it's taken the focus off the op but I'm still anxious as hell! :cry

when you say all provided GC53 do you mean that they came as part of your package?? hospital group don't do that - my god trying to make contact with them has been really hard - apart from them chasing the balance!! am having my op in sheffield .. annie:spit:

Yes Gc it's been really good to have a uk site, has really helped with the pre op nerves - am having my surgery next tuesday ooh er Mrs.. don't think I've done very well on my pre op diet though so hope they won't kick me out if my liver hasn't shrunk enough (not that anyone measured it at my consultation so how would they know if it had shrunk..). To those who were questioning my decision to drive myself home after the op as I hadn't told a soul... well you'll be glad to know that two of my friends volunteered to take and pick me up which is brilliant! Tomorrow Im off shopping for all the things i'll need so any more advice on what I might need would be much appreciate! annie

thankyou you guys - have made a list now!

now here is a question I've been meaning to ask: immediately after the opp (now in exactly 1 week for me!!) can I use ordinary meds (painkillers etc) or do they have to be liquid form? I'm gonna have to go to the chemist and get a job lot of vitamins and potions so I could do with a shopping list.. any advice? annie

Oh dear lynne - everyone has you believe it's just mild discomfort - I figured I would just take it easy driving back! my daughter is at sheffield university so I may just go back to her digs for a few hours.

UKAngel I cannot belive 2 stone in 2 weeks!! omg!you have done brilliantly and really encourages me to carry on .. I have just paid the balance on this op and just hope it's all worth it. I have a fridge full of slimfast for the pre op stage :¬[ Saggi I have to tell you I went to an all inclusive in Cuba last summer - It was the only time I lost weight on a holiday!! there is only so much you can take of buffet style food- the thing you need to watch out for it the unlimited alcohol! annie