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I was told when i was 20 that i would never be able to have a child of my own. I got married at 23 to a man with three children that i have raised as my own. I got lap band to live a health longer life with my husband and our children. The lap band doctor said there is a small possibility that one day it could happen. To be honest i really didnt think it would ever happen and my OB was pretty sure it wouldn't happen there was just to many problems with my body despite the fact that i have lost over 100lbs. It was heart breaking at times but i had finally come to term with the fact that it just wasn't going to happen. My husband and i have been together for five years and we have never really used any form of birth control. I am almost two years out with my lap band and i was feeling really good about my body again how ever i still had some body issues with loos skin so i had a breast augmentation planed and also a tummy tuck and a few more tucks like arms and legs. I had the doctor planed out and i was ready to go! One night my husband sat me down and said what the hell is wrong with you? I said i dont know i am just getting so sleepy about 12 and its like i just hit a wall and i cant get back up from it. later i went to take a drink of something and just started throwing up, i honestly thought i had just drank to fast and it was a fluke but it kept happening and i thought ok maybe i need to have my band checked. Again my husband sat me down and said maybe you should take a pregnancy test...... I just got pissed at him and said IM NOT PREGNANT. He fought with me for two weeks. One day i went to turn in some stuff at an office and saw the dolor store in walking distance before i knew it i was in the store asking the lady for the dolor pregnancy test i bought three. Went home ready for disappointment but i had something to prove to my husband. i took two of the three test and the control line came up with nothing else something you see when you get a negative test. I was pretty sure my husband would have to say sorry about that after he saw the pic so i snaped it and sent it to him and then looked back at the pic i had just sent. There was a very small pink line. I almost fainted and thought this isnt right and i looked back at the test both of them had two pink lines. i almost died right there in my kitchen. Any ways right now i am 15 weeks pregnant and i have only gained a pound which concerned my OBGYN. I think that i have gained a lot but every time i step on the scale nothing. i have to go and see a specialist because my OB is worried about my weight, should i eat more? I cant always eat more. Im a little worried i dont want any thing to happen because this is such a blessing to me and my family. any one else have this issue???

Thank you very much

Up until my one year appointment i think that i would have said very nice things about my Doctor, However im not happy with him at all! Maybe i expected to much maybe, but even at my very lowest expectations didn't seem anything like what happened. Its like he didn't even care once i had come back and i wasn't fat any more. He came in and ask what my problem was i said i dont have a problem they told me i had to come up here for my one year. He said so there isn't a problem well ok any thing else? Maybe that how everyone feels when they go back after a year but really? I at least wanted to see my before pic but i didn't even get that. Again maybe i expected to much but he acted like he didn't even give a damn about me or anything that i had to say like the guy was to damn busy. Im not happy, and i feel a little like i have been used. Like i have just been a science experiment that he was done with. I dont know again maybe that's what all of them do i dont know. But i know that little experiences has made me not want to go back at all i dont even want to say what Doctor i have because now i know that he doesn't give a damn about me once the band is in he is done. Any one else feel like that when they went back after a year?

I actually had this problem at 7.4 cc's and yes it is a real problem everything that your saying was happening to me call your doctor you should still be able to eat solids if you cant they have it too tight. I had .4cc's out and then they put in .5cc's and it got to the point of bad for me i had a whole night in the hospital because i got sever heart burn i wasn't eating or drinking because it hurt so bad they told me if i would have waited any longer to come in my stay in the hospital would have been longer. I waited six days before going and thanks to a friend on here they told me to go and i wasnt going to go i thought it would get better wrong! Thank god for my husband making me go. Really call your Doctor make an appointment tell them what is going on. there is noting worst then not listening to your body trust me! If the band is to tight nothing good will come from it. Good luck!

One year and a day I went to have my lap band surgery, I remember being scared and not really know what my future was going to be like. Before i got started my heaviest was 301lbs. I still dont think that i have ever said that out load but there it is. The day of surgery i weighted a good 295lbs, i wore a pant size of 20 shirts where XXXL, bra 44C, underwear 18s, Sweat pants XXL, and wedding ring was a 10 1/2. Today with all my ups and downs i weigh a 185lbs, pants size 11 to 10, shirts Large, bra 38 B, underwear M, sweat pants M wedding ring i finally got sized 8. So was it worth it? HELL YES!!!!!!!!!!! For once i am proud of myself and i might now look skinny as some but to me i am beautiful. I have to admit there are things that i thought i wouldn't ever get to do again like eat at out, eat food that was yummy, drink a soda every now and then, have a drink with friends, things like that but it turns out i can. I am not limited i just know what i can and cant do and what i should and shouldn't do i know that everything has a consequence and i also know that i am fine with that. I love my band and if it wasn't for me asking for the help i would still be where i was before. Afraid of life not really living life because i let my weight hold me back. Now nothing can hold me back! Thanks lap band for getting me this far and thanks to my family, friends, doctors, and everyone else who has been there this year, without all of them i wouldn't be where i am today!

Thank you all for the kind words!!! Good luck in your journeys!!

Monday i will be going back to school, I am so scared and excited! My life didn't really turn out like i thought it would leaving high school in 2005. Sure i went to college just like all my friends and i did the classes but after a while i realized that i had no clue what i was going to do and while i knew i had a good job i was content with not going back after two years. I always had the intention on going back but i wanted to go back when i was sure i knew what i wanted to do. However my intention's got lost somewhere between gaining weight and life. I didn't want to go back to school because the thought of sitting in a desk at about 300lbs was just to much for me. Not only that i didn't feel like going to classes everyday. I thought that i would go back to school to do hair and nails but again i wasn't sure and it felt like i was always stopping myself. When i got the job as a dental assistant at my fathers dental office he told me that i should start doing the billing and the insurance so i was told and shown how to do it and i started. I was a little tricky at first but once i got it i realized just how much i really loved doing it. So why not make that my job right? Why not go back to school because now i have no excuses. I am healthy i am fit and i have the drive to do it. I have had many colleges call me and once they talk to me they have told me how much drive i have is amazing. I know what i want and i know where i want to be in the next five years. I honestly had no clue that i had that in me. I have the drive to do what i want and i have to want to, to get it done. For the first time in a very long time i am taking my life back into my hands and not letting myself stop me. I have placed so much pressure on myself that at times i thought i was going to blow my top but really all that pressure seemed to move me in the direction that i needed to be going. I looked at my kids and i thought if they are working their butts off in school right now why cant I? And if i am telling them they have to go to college and i quit and didn't go back what kind of a message is that sending to them? I feel like i have to prove myself in order to prove to my children that just because you make a few mistakes that you can fix your life to be what you want it to be. If i can go through lap band and get to a healthy me and make my kids healthy along the way then why cant i show them that i can also go back to school at 25 and make something more of myself. I have shown them that it is ok to ask for help when you need it and to reach for the stars and find something that makes you feel like your on top of the world and go for it. Here is my main point i am a smart person, I have done things backwards and forwards, and i have made it this far. But with out the step that i made to start my second chance without lap bands help i would still be sitting on my coach drinking my sodas and eating like crazy and being an unhappy person with all these i want too's. So i want to say thanks to my Doctor and thanks to everyone at Bariatric solutions for giving me this second chance with my life! I couldn't be any happier then i am right now with myself and my choices.

Good luck!! Its not easy but its worth it! I wish you all the best! And thank you i enjoyed writing it

One year ago today i made a choice that has changed my life. One year ago today i said ok to having lap band surgery. Not knowing what was going to happen to me later on but scared and excited all at the same time. I didn't have my surgery until September but today is the day i said ok to changing my life forever. This time last year i was well on my way to three hundred pulse and my feet, knees, legs, back, everything hurt. I huffed and puffed everywhere i sweat doing the smallest things and i wasn't sleeping well and i couldn't figure out why. And exercise was a very dirty word for me. I didn't wear a swim suit all summer or even for the past seven years of my life. I couldn't wear the girly clothes because they just don't have pulse sizes everywhere you go. I was limited on things that i could and would do. I was unhealthy and unhappy and most of all i wasn't a fun person. On the inside i wanted to be someone who could do everything that i wanted but on the outside i knew that i wasn't. After hearing about lap band i knew that i wanted to do it and i knew that i was going to. So one year ago today is when i found my dr the next day i made the appointment and today here i am a little wiser and allot healthier. Im still not where i want to be but im so far from where i was. I have worn a swim suit and i have shopped at ever store in the mall and i don't have to wear a size XXX L and my pants are not a size 20 and my bras are not a size 44 D and my underwear are no longer a size 18, and i don't have a ring size of 11 on my ring finger. Today as of right now i wear a shirt size of Large a pants size of 13 juniors underwear size med and a bra size 38 B and my ring finger size is 8. Granted i have been through hell and i have been in bandster hell and i made it! I have had problems and i have still made it to here healthy, happy, and for the first time in a long time excited about life. When i am ask knowing everything that i know now would i still have done it my answer is always the same YES. Knowing everything that i know I still would have done it. Do i ever get scared when i feel like something is going wrong YES but i seem to always make it through the hard times and come back and looking back i would do it again every time. If you are sitting here today wondering if you should have lap band because of all the stories you have read and all the horrible things people have told you, im here to tell you that its all up to you. If you want to go for a healthier life then look at all your options and find the one that works for you but don't ever let anyone tell you that you cant do it. You have to do this for you not for anyone else! I love to exercises now and i go to the gym every day that its opened i am going back to school i have a full time job and i am married with three kids. Before lap band half of the things i do now where not possible but with the new me anything is possible. Don't ever get down on you because you can change and you can make your life what you want it to be! When you start don't let yourself stop and take the time to reward yourself. Make the change for you not for anyone else. OH and one more thing I got to meet Jessie James last weekend and i had the courage to ask him to take a pic with me something that i could have never done before lap band!!!!!!

Thank you I am happy to help. Good luck with your journey!!!

Well i am almost at my year mark. only one more month and ill be there September will be one whole year. Last month was truly the hardest month i have had in my journey. And it turns out it really wasn't my fault. But for me to get to the point of how this happened i guess you kinda have to go back to where it started right?? Back in February i found out that i have arthritis in my hands crazy because im only 25 but my reg Doctor said i have had it for a while i was just to big to really see it before. So he put me on a drug called neproxon to help with swelling and the pain. My lap band dr informed me that i shouldn't be taking them since i have had ulcers in the past and to go ahead and take what i was told but if i got heart burn to stop taking them. So i got the heart burn and i stopped. So last month i started to get what i thought was a tooth ache, i haven't ever had one before and the dentist that i work for was out of town so they called me in an antibiotic and some pain medication. i was sitting right there and hurt what she said when she called the meds in. I went and picked up the meds and started taking the antibiotic and the pain meds that on the bottle said Sub for lortab, which is hydrocodone. After a while the pain was still there and nothing seem to change. The pain was still there now before this i hurt my back falling out of a chair and my reg dr gave me Tramadol and a muscle relaxer. so i thought maybe i would take the Tramadol and that just made me sick to my stomach. So i stopped taking all of it but the antibiotic. Then i got a horrible ear infection and realized it wasn't my teeth but the ear. Any ways after that is when the horrible heart burn started and i thought i was just really sick i thought it was a stomach bug and nothing would stop it. Well during that time i started to look at the Tramadol the hydrocodone and realized that i wasn't taking what was on the pills the hydrocodone was actually neproxon and the Tramadol had more salt in it then median. After it was all said and done and i was better i got to wondering why they did that to me when both dr and dentist know i am not aloud to take neproxon. So i called the office last night and ask if that is what she called in for me and she said no i called in what i was supposed to and never once did i tell them to give you neproxon because i know you cant take it and i don't understand why that did that any ways what we call in is what needs to be in the bottle i said well i understand that but on the bottle it says something completely different then what was in the bottle. Then i got to thinking well i have lost alto of weight this year and what if he thinks that im just a pill popper?? i don't do it i only take what is given to me and that's it. And then Monday i went for my fill............................. Normally i am so excited about my fill and i cant wait but Monday i started crying as soon as we got there and i wouldn't go in. My lap band buddy was like what is wrong i said i dont know i just cant do this. Thank god for her she told me it would be ok and to go in so i did an i told them that i didn't know what was wrong with me. I told them what had happened at the hospital and i told them how i felt along and abandon by them they informed me that there was no reason for them to treat me like they did and that they would do anything to make it right. The er dr that took the liquid out shouldn't have done it and knew to call the on call nurse for lap band but i didn't feel much better i kinda feel like i have been done wrong buy them and my the pharmisy. I was told by my dad who i work for as a dental assistant what i felt like and what all had happen he said i needed to see my reg doctor so i did. I told him about everything i told him i couldn't stop cry but i didn't know what was wrong i have bad dreams and the fear that i felt was nuts. I also told him i didn't have time for a break down. He didn't tell me to calm down he told me he understood and that i was going to be ok i just needed to find a different pharmisy and that i needed to be on some meds just for a little bit to make me calm that i wasn't crazy and i wasn't depressed. He gave me the medication and well being myself I went to the same pharmisy and i looked him in the eyes and said if you think i have a pill problem that's fine, but my doctors don't give me meds that i don't need, and the next time you choose to give me something different because you think i have a pill problem ill turn you in. You put me in the hospital over the hydrocodone that was neproxon because i have lap band and i cant take that medication and all the doctors know that so maybe you should know that too. I told him i was going to give him this prescription and it had better be what is in that bottle. It was and it helped me through that day and now i am fine. But in a way i have a fear of trusting now about what am i really getting in the prescription bottles because clearly i cant trust what i am getting can it??????? I am scared and should i be? I never want to scare anyone away from lap band because it changed my life for more then the better and i would get it again but im just scared right now My lap band team is awesome and none of this was really my fault or there fault. But i have learned not to trust anything even if its my prescription and not to trust what it says on the bottle its what is in the bottle that you have to look at.

your more then welcome i don't want to scare anyone that isn't want im going for lol i just post my blogs as they come to me. any ways they gave me meds that have kicked in and seem to be working wonderfully just stick to what they tell you to do and try the baby food because i can deal with reg before banded heart burn the what i felt was so painful i wanted to just cry it wasn't fun and i don't want any one else to ever go through it. Thanks for your comment!!!

OK so here i am six days later and so far no pain!!!! I did have my husband call my Dr last night because the pain was so bad that i was shaking and crying something that i rarely do. And i never ask to call the dr and i never go to the er, so when i do that's when people start to worry about me. But it was so intense last night that i thought i might die yes for real. I know that when ever i have pain that bad i turn in to like this awful person who cant control what i say lol. My husband just laughs at me after he finds out im not going to die and ill be ok. Any ways after talking to the dr and him telling my husband that there shouldn't be that much acid in anyone's tummy and that i had a reason to be pissy and cry he told my husband to go to the store and get some childrens Motrin and give me that and in the morning he would call me in something different. Well i took two phynigrin before he got back then he gave me the Motrin and i slept all night!!!!! All night long! I haven't don't that since last Saturday!! And please don't get me wrong i still love my band and i still want it and when they told me they had to take liquid out i cried because i have come so so so far and im not going back! But this heart burn is horrible! And sadly it wasn't my fault. they don't know what is happening but I do have to go back for more test . OK so i cant eat real food till tomorrow and trust me that scares the hell out of me but today i was going to the store and i thought to myself what can i eat............................... Then i thought what is the most gentlest thing that i can thing of..... and trust me this took a while but then i saw the diapers and thought oh baby food!!!!!! Ok i know what your thinking gross right but really I haven't eaten in six days and when i did it wasn't very much and it made me hurt to the point of i stopped even drinks where making me hurt that's maybe why they had to give me an iv. any ways this morning i woke up and drank a very small coffee cup of water and that made my tummy feel just icky. Like it was raw on the inside i know gross but any ways so i called my friend who has a baby and asked her what her baby liked and what i could get that wasn't high in acid. She told me all the good stuff to get because well i haven't ever had a baby and i have no clue about the baby food. She told me to get some meats but the ones that where dinners not just the meat so i did and so i got that and some bananas because i read that they help with acid in your tummy and while am allergic to reg bananas i thought its got to be better then feeling like crap right? ok so i get home put everything away and choose chicken noodle and banana and some cereal. And its was like after i ate that and then drank the Gerber juice my stomach just stopped it calmed down stopped hurting and stopped burning everything and i didn't even have a reaction to the bananas. I felt so good i almost cried with JOY! I text my husband at work and told him he at first got scared and said that the Dr only told me i could have liquids so i got on the phone and called them and they said baby puree food was fine. Then he calmed down lol and couldn't believe that when he got home i was sleeping good and i felt even better. Of course he asked what made me think of that and really i was in the soups and everything i looked at just looked painful then i turned and again saw the diapers and it was like a light went off in my head. Any ways im just happy that my stomach is happy with me again and that i am not going crazy with pain. Ok so this would be my biggest point if your having hell with heartburn that hurts like crazy try baby food and Gerber juice, i think it saved me from going insane! I just thought i would share this because it sucks and its not fun. And i wouldn't wish this on ANYONE so really if it happens to you just try to baby food.

OK so after my scare of yesterday i am feeling better today, They took out 4ccs because of way to much acid in my stomach. I feel more like a pin cushion today then anything. Trust me an unfill by a Dr that hasn't ever done it before not a good things ugh but here i am living to tell the tail and to go on another day right!! OK look im not putting down any kind of a hospital except for the one closest to me that i will never ever in my life go to and wouldn't let anyone i dis liked go to either, but sometimes i wish that nurse and Dr would take in to account that people in an er are sometimes really in pain and placing more pain on the person isn't nice! And don't get me wrong i understand that they have been there a long while and they are sleepy and they are unhappy at times because its so stressful really it is i know because i have worked in the health care world where sometimes you have to take a 20 hour shift and that sucks. But here is the problem that i do have, its not fair that i was stabbed 8 times with a needle about 11 in long and about a sixteen gauge. I mean everyone in the lap band world knows that its long and it quite big but we also know that they numb it before because let me be the one to tell you IT HURTS! and i have had things pierced and it isn't bad im not like the worlds biggest baby but when your already sore and your already hurting getting 8 piercings in one night isn't fun at all in fact its like cruel almost. And here is another thing since i am on it just in case anyone for the health care world is listening. When a person says please can you get the iv in my hand please because the veins in my arm are not easy to get and they blow easy you might want to listen to that person because no matter how much you learned at school that person knows there own body 110% better then you ever will. Hopefully the sweet man RN will know that next time and not blow up half of someones arm. I don't like hospitals but i know that they have a hard job so i try to be as sweet and nice as i can but its my body and i know more about my body then they do. Same with everyone else. MY dr was on vacation which im not mad about they all need a break and the dr on call, called me this morning to check on me and he was very nice but i was so sleepy i dont remember much of the conversation except he told me never to wait four days and be in pain because that isnt what lap band is for that i could call him if i was ever in that much pain again. i just hope next time he is there and not a dr that hasnt ever done anything with lap band. Please understand that i am not a bitchy person i just think that if someone is already hurting hurting them more never helps right??? so what i have learned is acid sucks, i have to drink liquids even if i don't want to and to call the dr if the pain goes on for more then a day. Lesson learned!

Well thank you both and i have herd bad about all Bariatric surgeries nothing is perfect and anything can go wrong i dont blame my surgeon its myself that i blame. any ways yes the needles are freaken huge and im not just saying that the poor little xray guy even said oh my when he pulled that needle out. but any ways i am still having issues and i let the dr know that i wasnt about to go back and have another dr do that to me ever again because literally my stomach has eight punchers in it. And it hurt so bad i wanted to slap someone but again im a very nice person so i dont lol. and as for the IV my veins are so crazy difficult that no one has been able to get a vein in my arm without it blowing or rolling. I guess im just difficult like that. But thank you both!!!

I would say dont stress and there are other reasons that women don't loose weight that i didnt know about until i had the conversation with my dietitian he is really wonderful i was also stuck at 208 forever but i talked with him and he told me if i wasnt sleeping good i wouldn't loose weight and sure enough i wasnt sleeping good so you might try that. Also i would get a fill if i was always hungry maybe you just need to sit down and chat with your DR about all this because lap band isnt easy but it doesn't have to be this hard. Please let me know if i can help any more. I have been through hell with my band lately but i still believe that it was the best choice for me.

I had to same issue, i have three kids and we would go to games and have to eat out allot. I found that if you pack snacks that dont have to be cold like granola bars things like that it really helps also try to avoid fast food but if you have to eat something like chicken nuggets. And for other things look the salads over and if that isn't good then go for something like chicken strips. just remember sometimes the salads from fast food places have more calories then the chicken. I wish you the best!!!!

Ok someone please help me with this PLEASE don't just read and then go on with your life because as of right now i am ready to rip out the lap band and say to hell with it. I have been sick for a week now. not get me wrong i love my lap band but as soon as i need to throw up the pain is so bad that i just want to say to hell with it but i stick it out and i go on with life because that's all that we can do right? but please tell me that someone else feels this. It starts as a burning and then moves to like this god awful gas pain and i know that i need to throw up but nothing ever comes up sometimes a big icky burp but that is about it. As of right now i have lost 20lbs in one month because for the past four days i haven't eaten and when i have i feel this need to throw up like i must have a stomach bug or something but do stomach bugs really last this long?????? FOUR WHOLE DAYS! ok no biggie because im not really hungry any ways how ever......I got to thinking which might be wrong of me but is being pregnant with lap band going to be like this???? I need to know because it scares the crap out of me to think that it would feel that bad and i wont be able to throw up. Can someone just tell me is there anything i can do i have taken the promethazine 25mg but i have to take two and it doesn't always help at all. is there anything that i can do to help this because it really sucks. And i have never been pregnant so i know if i got pregnant it would be like having the stomach virus??? and why is this stomach virus so bad??? and it usually happens about seven at night. I am giving up on eating until i know that i wont get sick that's how bad i am feeling.

As of about an hour ago I am on my way to wise reg er where they are expecting me so I should know something. I don't want to loose my band but I don't want to feel like this any more. Thanks ill post after I know more

I did call my dr and i have an appointment for tomarow to see what they need to do they said since i can keep liquids down i should be ok for tonight im kinda worried now. It just hurts and i wouldn't wish this for anyone.