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mine too it seems like if i dont drink the coffee in the mornings that i cant really eat that day. I guess the coffee helps to loosen up the band a little. I went through hell before i found out that coffee helps. I do wish you the very best with your band!!!!!

Thats how i feel too. i have to drink coffee every day in order to go.

It is possible that i am in a bander hell! Its also possible that life is hard right now. Of course i am making the best of this and i WILL NOT GIVE UP!!!! ok so here is my problem and just so everyone knows i am working through it! I will win this fight i really will! Ok so last month i couldn't eat at all and that is hard no matter what so they took out .4cc's not to much and i did just fine. This time i went back and they put in .5cc's so yeah i was kinda worried. But i thought they know what they are doing right? Ok so the first day i could eat i tried a hamburger patter on my lunch break with my boss and i throw up everything NOT fun. so today i go black eyed peas and it seem to go down but im only eating about 10% or less and I feel tired real fast and then i feel hungry and its actually hunger not head hunger so ill go back and eat a little more. I went to my regular dr today because i got a spider bite and well that's not fun either but in the past week i have lost a good 8lbs. AWESOME for me because i thought with all the eating that's really good well now that i think about it that's not really so good 8lbs since Monday..... Idk maybe it in my head i am having issues and i honestly don't know what to do i don't want any thing taken out of my band so should i be worried or should i just go with it?? can someone help me?

Thank you and that's the same thing that i thought as well. I am fighting with my band for the past two months and its just obnoxiousness i want to keep loosing the weight and i have a healthy goal. Im going to see how eating today goes then ill call them Monday thank you again.

Ok im Sorry i wasn't clear sometimes my brain is thinking before my hands can type. Ok i am eating 10% or less when i sit down to eat after that i get hungry about an hour or two later and then im lucky if it 5%. I am getting under 400 calories a day. And eight pounds is ok however there is such a thing as loosening to fast and i seem to have a big problem with that for exp I was filled to tight last month and it was hard to drink any thing and eat when i went back for help to Bariatric solutions the new nurse was like oh 11lbs in a month is real good i said no its been a week she was like oh that's not good. So i Know that its not good to loose to much at one time but should i keep with the amount in the band or should i be worried?? I hope that clears it up.

walk alot too that helps you to burp.

Thank you very much! It was nice to not have the old panic attacks and to concentrate more on the panic of the water rides lol.

Ok so here it is summer and here i am with three kids who LOVE swimming just as much as me. Which was always fine as long as it was our own pool but about two years ago my kids learned about hurricane harbor and all the water fun that has to offer. All that i could see was me being the over weight mom wishing that i wasn't. I love to make my kids smile and i knew that i would be the only one uncomfortable with myself because i was over weight. I mean i never ever bought myself a swim suit because well let face it i knew i was big and big isn't always pretty in swim wear. So when i started my lap band journey i had many goals and one of the goals was to get myself to where i looked good enough to wear a swim suit in June. I have push myself and pushed my self. And back in march i bought a swim suit and i wore it at a hotel in and indoor pool and i thought to myself this wasn't bad i wasn't made fun of and this swim suit really hid all the loose skin areas. So last week i bought my whole family season passes to hurricane harbor. It was the first time that i went since i was about 17 and had an adorable body. But now here i am branded looking of some sort of redemption as far as all the excuses i had given my husband in the past about why i didn't want to go to the BIG water park. In my husbands eyes i have looked beautiful at every point but my kids are a little harder to sell on the idea. But we went yesterday and i wore my swim suit in front of the thousands of people and no bad looks no mean name calling nothing. And what made the day even better was that my son wanted to ride all the rides with me he asked me to go ride rides with him. And he said mom your pretty. He is nine and i have said this before but just to be clear i haven't had any children of my own i have three step children that i adopted. But my son is the one that i have really raised because he was so small when we met each other He acts just like me and everyone thinks that he is really mine but any ways. He told me that i was pretty and that made the day that much better! Thanks to my lap band i can go to water parks and i can feel like everyone else at them and as long as my kids are happy im pretty sure i can do anything!

It helps to get a Litter of water and carry it with you all day if you can and drink drink drink its so important to drink all day long!!!!!

I had the very same problem and i was scared because under the largest scare there is your port and if you can stand to touch it you can feel the port close by. I was so scared that something was wrong and at my first check up i told the dr that i was worried because it felt like something was trying to come through my skin. He said not to worry about it but yes it stings and burns and it hurts bad for a little while but trust me there is nothing to worry about it is sewed in really well. And the best thing that i found to do is to get up really slow and in the morning was the worst of me i found that if i uncurled myself real slow and laid there for just a little bit then got up very slowly! if you need more help with anything feel free to message me anytime i do hope that this helps and remember never be to scared to call your drs office they hear some crazy things lol so really if you feel somethings wrong call them!. Have a wonderful day!!! and let me know if this helps any at all please

I would call your drs office and talk to your dietitian and see if there is something different you can do. I was also stuck at the same weight with no changes and i told them i was frustrated and upset and they had my dietitian call me and we worked out a new plan and its been working really good. Mine was mainly that i wasn't sleeping good and that can slow your weight loss down and i didn't even know that. Good luck and i hope that helps!

I have found that sometimes it really not the big things that keep you going its really the small things. My husband put up a meddle fence in our back yard but left a very small space so the kids could get through if they needed to. And when he put this fence up there was no way my fat little body was going to get through. I had looked at it many times and wondered can i get through this? And i didn't want to try because i didn't want to look like a fool trying to squeeze through such a small space. But this morning my husbands truck broke down and he needed the jumper cables from his shop in the back yard. Now we keep our back yard locked up like bank vault, and he had all the keys with him so i swallowed my pride and went for it, I thought well its early and the only person i can be a fool in front of is myself right?? So i looked at this small space for about two mins and just say oh well the worst that could happen is that i get stuck and have to call someone to cut me out right?? So as i was walking behind the trash can i thought ill just close my eyes and hope for the best and before i knew it i was through and i didn't even have to work at it. I was like OH MY I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!!! I really made it!! I even made it back through without a problem it is really a good feeling knowing that before i couldn't have made it through if my life depended on it and now i am sliding through with ease! So i am calling this my BIG win for this month!

Well i Know that i haven't written anything in a long while but well its been a crazy month!! I started a new job that i love so much! And it takes up half of my day then my family takes up my other half. Any ways I got a fill on April 30th where they put 1.4cc's in and i go on liquids for two days after, the first thing that i tried to eat after my two days was chicken nuggets that usually i have to cut into small pieces and they go down good and i usually eat about four. However this time it wouldn't go down at all no matter how small the pieces where. So i gave up and eat some re fried beans instead. After about a week i realized that something was wrong i couldn't eat any kind of "real" food and i was really tired all the time and i was getting confused and i also realized that liquids where not going down right and then i got scared when i went to lunch with my dad and nothing would go down but everything would come back up just fine. At first i guess i thought that it was all in my head until i stepped on the sale and it said i had lost 10 pounds in less then a week. I was freaking out. I couldn't figure out what i had done wrong. I know that you have to eat and i thought that i was eating a lot but really i wasn't eating anything again. I also know that something in my tummy wasn't right and the only way to fix it was to call and ask. So i did and i told the RN that i couldn't keep any solid foods down and i thought it was all my fault and i thought i would be in trouble but really they just filled it a little to much so i went and they took some out and now i feel like they took to much out but i am still loosing and that is what matters right. any ways at least i go back on the fourth and i know that it wasn't something that i did and it wasn't my fault and that takes a load off my mind. But it took me two weeks to realize that something wasn't right. When i went in the new nurse was like well why did we take some out your doing really good for a month 10lbs is really good i laughed and said its been two weeks she said oh well that's not so good. Any ways that's been my life for right now. Ill write more later but right now i have to go. Have a wonderful day everyone!!!!!!!! :wub:

Take it slow. Dont worry to much about the first fill. They don't want to over do you because with ever fill that you get its a learning game for you as to what can i eat now. After every fill you will find things that don't quite go down the same way any more or even at all. So really don't sweat the first fill. Its still about control, and you are still learning. I have had many fills and every time its a learning game. But make sure you keep getting them!!! And Good Luck!

This weekend although nothing really special, it was nice quite and really all i did was stay at home and work on house projects. My husband and i refinished an old desk, and that got me to thinking. When we started our project this desk was his mothers and probably her mothers before that. Any ways this desk was in pretty bad shape. One of the drawers was completely broken, The broads that held a mirror a long time missing was broken off and useless, it was dusty, dirty, and it had marker on it and it just looked like it had been through hell and back. My husband asked me should we fix it or trash it? I said well i need a computer desk lets redo it. And Saturday it started, we broke out the wood glue, nails, sander, and wood stain. And yesterday while i was at the store i came home to my new computer desk sitting in my little study area of our little house. It looks so new, but it still looks like its been here a while. Maybe it was the desk that made me think or maybe it was just a really hard week last week but im kinda like the desk. I was beaten up and hurting and in need of a repair. And now im well on my way to being new and restored but at the same time i still have all the marks from the old me. Well i wouldn't really say marks, scares, scratches. Bottom line is im still me I have just changed the me that i was into the me that i am I don't really think any different i just have the ability to do things that i didn't think that i could do before. I dont know maybe i am different but i cant say that i am unhappy about my changes. Im not im pretty happy about it and some people around me will either learn to like the new me or not. Which ever well i guess ill just have to wait and see right. OK well i said what i started out to say and now im going to deal with life so i hope everyone has a wonderful day.

I think im letting things just get to me. I am siting here just thinking about things and you know maybe i have changed allot in the past eight months. That would be from August till now April. See i started out this journey that in my mind i wanted to be skinny and i wanted to be beautiful and i wanted my husband to be happy to be with me lol little did i realize that he already was but any ways. Now here i am and i am about 90lbs lighter then when i started and i have to think am i changing or are the people around me changing because i have changed? I hope that makes since but if not well im about to explain what i mean and hopefully someone can say that im not the only one that feels this way. OK lets talk about before what i like to call the before me and lets start with when i was over weight because that's where i want to start from. Any ways so before guys didn't look at me unless they knew me well yes i understand that you start to loose weight you start to look better to others and that is just the american way i guess. But sometimes i think maybe my fat was my cover like it was my wall between people talking to me and not talking to me. Even though now i do talk allot more and i go out a whole lot more i find that i am hit on a whole lot more and im not saying that to sound like im full of myself im not i just find that i don't like it and sometimes find myself wishing that i still had my cover. For example i have never really been comfortable with men other then my husband. I had a bad relationship and he was possessive and controlling and cruel. So i know that's why i don't like the attention of other men but i was working for a lady with a husband that was a total creep. He would wait until she left the room and start saying very inappropriate things about my body. He would tell me that my boobs looked hot stuff like that and i found myself finding ways that i could eat more and i gained two pounds from my last Dr visit and they asked me are you stressed right now because this isn't like you. well HELL yeah i was stressed who wouldn't be?? So i changed jobs and while i would like to think im doing OK im not to sure that i am. Well not really with my weight loss because i think im doing really good now i lost the two pounds and i have lost about ten more but what i mean is, is that i don't know if im doing OK mentally. I know that people go through a depression but i don't think that is what this is its just like every thing that i am doing is wrong or that my friends that i have made are wrong for me or they don't really want to be my friend. Ok what i mean is i had to start telling people that i had lap band surgery because I herd this women's daughter who has been to my house and was my daughter friend talk about me to her mother at a basketball game this year and she told her mother in not such a loud voice that i was doing drugs and that's why i was loosing so much weight and in my defense i wasn't sleeping much so yes i did have dark circles under my eyes but i don't do drugs. But i thought well she cant believe that right? Later her son came over to sit and talk to my son who is nine and she came and got her son and told him that he wasn't allowed to be around me because i am a bad person and i do bad things. OUCH! That was like a shot right to the heart when my son asked me mommy what is it that your doing that is so bad? I said nothing Ryan people just like to make things up to hurt others im healthy and i don't do bad things because i love y'all to much. And yes i ment every word of that after that game i didnt see much of the women. But now its baseball season and she made it so that her son would play baseball on the same team as my son. But there wasnt enough players so they are now on the same team and the gossip just will not stop its like they have nothing better to do. And after basketball i did start telling everyone that would listen that i had lap band surgery because i didnt want to be labled a drug addict. I mean i have worked so hard to be where i am right now and this is the kinda crap that happens. My husband told me it was my own fault because i didnt tell anyone about my lap band when i had it but i didnt want people that think that i had taken the easy way out that i had failed but now i dont really care i tell everyone that will listen! The only problem is, is that some wont listen. Ok i have said the before im sure but I live in a very small town in texas and there is always some kinda drama going on with someone and for the most part i stay out of it. Here is my other problem I grew up in this small town and my dad is the kinda guy that everyone knows and everyone loves he is the only dentist in this town and sometimes that makes life a little harder for me. People think well he is such a good guy and his wife is so wonderful well there must be something wrong with his daughter and my whole life people have thought that i was the bad child when actually its my sister and brother that are the bad kids but they are way older then me so this little town doesn't know them and all they know is me. I have never been in trouble but its like they are always waiting for it. And this lap band gives them the perfect chance. And rather i like it or not this really bothers me even though the mother that is telling her child to stay way from me and everyone in the town that im on crack, has black teeth and missing teeth and used to pound her kids off on my husband and i for the weekend every weekend so that they could go party well Idk maybe ill just start to let people think what they want to think because no matter what i do it wont change the fact that i cant change what i what people to see. Then there is my lap band friend who is my sons baseball coach who seems to like everyone but when she talks to my husband she has **** to say about everyone one. So i have to kinda ask myself is she talking **** about me when im not there? Or is she talking **** about my husband when he isn't around. And its not just that its like friends that i have had forever just seem to be Facebook friends now. And if they come into town they don't call they don't text when they used to. I haven't really change on the inside that much just the outside but its like most of my friends are mad at me. I am a pretty strong person but i dont know if i can really deal with this. Someone has to understand how i am feeling right???!???!???

Thank you i think that is just what i needed lol i know that i have changed but just like you said i have had to deal with my feelings instead of eating it away. Thank you so much for your help and ill try to remember your words when i feel crazy next time. Again thank you so much!

Well im on my month seven of lap band. I have to say that so far i have had my bad times my good times and my blah times. Mainly the times that have been bad have really been my own fault. Like when i don't go to the bathroom for four days and i get built up gas all in my stomach well that's my fault and i have learned that i have to keep up with things like that. Well that is what i am going through this week and let me tell you it hurts and its not fun and i couldn't even go to work today because i couldn't get off the toilet. Now i know lots will not understand this but not all laxatives are the same. And never before lap band have i had to take any kind of a laxative. But with the band comes new things lol. So i took one Monday and nothing so yesterday i took a new one and holly cow! Never again will i listen when the bottle says you can take three at a time! But on the bright side and yes there is always a bright side today i want to eat again where as for the past four day i haven't really wanted to eat anything in fact i know this is bad but the only things that i have really eaten in the last four days has been about four crackers a day. That's what happens when you don't go to the bathroom. But enough about that, This is what i would really like to talk about today and yes im sure it may piss off some but really i don't care, someone needs to say it right? This is what i hear the most and some how it really hits a nerve with me. Its when people say well so and so had it done and they lost a few pounds but they weight more now. OR i read this ALLOT " im sick of lap band i don't weight any less and i hate it im getting the sleeve." OK no normally i would feel sorry of the person but when i start asking questions like well how many times did you have it filled? And they say oh well just once or twice then i stopped going, it kinda makes me what to say well then its your own damn fault and maybe you should have spent the money some place else. And i understand that the sleeve seems to work for lots of people don't get me wrong there but again you have to work with that just like you do with the band!!!!! I know that getting stuck isn't the funnest part of the band and in fact it SUCKS but if you eat what you know that you can and you do what your supposed to do then i don't see the problem! As far as restriction go well i have it but then again i have been fill every month since i had this done minus two because i didn't need it. Its like i told my friend that just had this done last month, Its not easy and at times it sucks but when you start to look awesome and people start to tell you how good you look you want to keep going even though sometimes it sucks. I told her that you have to get your fills and that you have to still watch how much your eating because at times your head can lie to you when your stomach is saying stop and I told her my all time very Favorite line " The band doesn't fail people, people fail the band" which means you would with the band you do what your supposed to and you will loose the weight! I mean really if so many people fail with the band then why is there still so many that get it done. Here is another thing, you have to have a want to. You have to want to loose the weight because if not your just spinning your wheels. I have herd to many people so well i have had the band for three months and i haven't lost that much well it didn't take you three months to gain it all so why would it take only three months to loose it all????????? I have been told that at times i can be harsh and yes i know very well that i can but really don't keep complaining about something when your not willing to work for what you want! i can walk up to 15 miles now could i do that the first day UH NO i could barely do one and i didn't get up to that until about my third month after surgery but i am out there everyday. When i first got on the bike i could barley do a 10 min incline run now i am up to 45 mins and you know what i can do it and i can keep going because i have to want to! I have 20 more pounds to go until i can say that i am the same weight as i was in high school i was 175 and no i wasn't fat. but any ways all im say is that your cant complain about the band unless you have worked every where possible with the band to loose the weight. Hate it or not that's how i feel! TO everyone working hard to get to your goals keep it up and there is a light at the end of the tunnel for everyone!

No i have never heard of that but i will look for some!!! UGH yesterday was horrible! i couldnt even go to work i was on the potty all day and when i took my son to baseball practice we had to leave early but lucky for me his coach has lap band too so she understands. Any ways thanks for the comment and i will look for the tea.

Well yesterday out of pure want to i tried on my wedding dress from 2009. I put on the slip that wouldn't stay up with out a fight, i put the suckeriner bra thing on that i didn't need extenders for any more and i gracefully stepped into my wedding dress that was about six sizes too big. As i thought back to my wedding day i thought about before the wedding the scared feelings that excitement then i remembered thinking what am i going to look like in the pics? I thought omg call off the wedding im a cow. But i said oh well im not going to change in one day so lets get this over with. Needless to say i hated all the pics of my wedding that had me in them. And now here i am about three years later in the same dress thinking damn i wish i would have been this skinny the day of my wedding. And that makes me think should i sell this dress and buy a new one with the money i get from the old one and do it again lol or maybe just take all the pictures again. But here is the thing that was me. And my husband married me for me not for what i looked like but me. Im still the same person there is just less of me. And my husband seems to love me just as much as he did the day we said "I DO" so sitting in that dress made me realize that i was happy about the wedding and the wedding pics after all. So i pulled the dress off and i hung it up and that is where it is going to stay if for nothing else but a reminder that even fat i was still beautiful to someone. Its so easy to think that once you are looking cute that you were just ugly before and that everyone saw your ugliness but you. but really your only as pretty as you make your self out to be. I know most all Americans don't see it this way but this is how it should be. It really doesn't matter what you look like on the outside what matters the most is how you are on the inside. You can be the most beautiful person on the out side but if the inside is nothing but rotten it make you not look so beautiful after all. Any ways i realized that im the same person i have always been nothing really changed but my outside shell. And that is something to smile about. And now im not treated like an ogar but treated like the person i always thought that i was but no one could see but me and my husband who made it very clear that i was always beautiful to him. And once i stoped hatting myself and could see that the more beautiful i have become no one is ugly because they are fat and no one should hate themselves because they are fat that should love the person that they are. And if at the end of the day you can love the fat you as well as the new you then its a good day. So for that i want to say thank you to the most loving man i have ever met.

By the way that is my dad in the pic with me not my husband lol. Just incase anyone was wondering.

I am so excited!!! I found a friend that started her lap band journey last month!!! And we live in the same town and our kids play sports together! I know that sounds crazy but i live in a very small town and i have yet to meet anyone that has lap band. Not only that but we have the same doctor and her first fill and my like seventh is on the same day at almost the same time. Its so nice to know that i don't have to go alone any more. Now i am no longer shy about telling people that i have had lap band and everyone ask me about it but they cant really understand everything until you have had it and are pretty much going through the same thing. My favorite thing about lap band is that people ask me questions but to someone who has never had it done they cant always understand what you go through on a daily basis. Like right now i am having to fight myself to stay way from food, and drink more protein that is just icky. Any what i mean by staying away from food is that i have to stop myself from just snacking on everything like when i cook i want to snack but then when the meal is done im not hungry any more and if i eat well my tummy says NO! so that for me is my biggest problem right now. Every day is something new. I have pretty much everything but snacking under control so far. i have awesome blood pressure, haven't had heart burn in a while, i haven't been sick in a while, And im not feeling sleepy all day long any more. I got all my lab work done and everything was wonderful! That can make anyone day better when you hear that your vitamins are wonderful. I have knowtist that my tast in food has changed. Like i used to love chicken nuggets and french fry's. now not so much. I like more fish now and i like lots of veggies now and just things that before i liked but never really wanted. French fry's are my least favorite food and bread. But i find that i really don't miss them that much any more. I do still eat pasta from time to time and Ramon noodles lol but i found that i can eat them when i cant eat anything else. Chips are becoming a problem and they weren't before my last fill. I can eat them but it hurts and i do the little furby sounds. so i guess maybe i should stay way from all chips, and tacos. Before its all said and done im starting to wonder if there will be anything that i can eat lol. the only veggies that i have found that i just cant do is broccoli, and sometimes asparagus but to be honest i don't really like asparagus that much. I hate when its in a can! And they are not easy to eat when steamed. Oh and raw veggies, they are not good going down. pretty much i have found that anything cold isnt easy to go down and usually wont. But again i don't really seem to mind it so much. Now don't be crazy there are tons of things that i would just LOVE to eat like a burger, or stake, or turkey, and Chicken but i look at all the ways that i used to fix this stuff and i realize that its really wasn't that good for me to start with. Any ways i know this is all scattered and nuts but oh well.

LOL I hate it. It sounds like i swallowed a furby my husband only hurd it last week and he was like Are you ok?? Are you going to live what did you eat lol.