I have no guilt whatsoever about chosing Lap Band. I had always been chubby growing up, and it carried over into my teen years and before I knew it, I am almost 29 years old and weighing in at 243. For my height (I'm 5'8) I carried the weight well, but I still felt awful in my own skin. I HATED my body. On a daily basis.
I had tried many diets over the past few years. Most of them would take off a few pounds but when I'd stop, the weight would pile back on. I've had high blood pressure since I was 15 and higher cholesterol than I should at my age, so I was "accepted" into the WLS program.
When I brought up the idea to my husband, I went through my reasons for needing this surgery. I'm a perfectionist at heart and failure is something I just do not do well with, and I was failing myself over and over. I researched the heck out of it, went to the seminar with an open mind, then spent the next 10 weeks going through the process. The process alone was life changing. I learned SO MUCH about myself and so much about the person I want to become. It's been such an amazing journey so far.
I know my decision seemed durastic to most people - you couldn't count how many times my family said that I wasn't overweight enough to do it. I just kindly said - I may not seem like I am now, but the way I'm headed I will be soon. I needed a way that would help me not fail myself anymore.
This morning, 9 weeks post-op going in for my second fill, my blood pressure was 120/63, heart rate was 60, and I am down 42 lbs since May. Pants that hung in my closet for the past year, too small to even work over my hips, are now so baggy I need a belt. My wedding ring is a full size too big. Shirts that couldn't button if I tried now are too big. My favorite part? I can see my collar bone outline! I still have about 40-50 lbs left to drop, but if I stopped losing right now I would be happy with what I've done. Not thrilled, like I will be when I'm 160 lbs, but happy