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As a child my mother always called me fat, so unfortunately I thought I was.  Looking back at photos I was not even remotely fat or even overweight.  But when you are made to feel this way it makes one turn to food as comfort.  (There were other factors in my life that made me turn to food also).  I got my first weight loss tool at the tender age of 9.  A silver suit that was supposed to make you lose weight ( I ordered it from my grandfathers National Enquirer).  

 

Well to make a long story short food was my best friend, my therapist, my everything.  Food never said a bad word about me or made me feel inferior.  I loved it unconditionally and it me.

 

I am married to a wonderful man who loves me whatever my size, but I want to feel healthy.  I hate going to school events and thinking everyone is staring at me cause I'm the fattest person there.  I want to be able to walk up the stairs without wheezing, and go to the pool and play in the park and so on .

 

So I am taking the lap-band path and I am terrified.