All right, enough of my lurking on this site. I have never participated in a forum but what the heck, it's time to try something new! I have learned so much from reading this forum, many thanks to all of you for your informative posts and discussions.
After a lifetime of yo yo dieting and health problems, I am ready for a permanent solution. Last fall a dear friend had the sleeve (to date he's lost 110 lbs!!!), and I started paying attention. Had the first consultation with the surgeon and started my six month insurance-mandated waiting period. Last week I found out my insurance company no longer requires the waiting period, so now I'm on high speed! Had the psych eval today and the surgeon's office submitted to the insurance company this afternoon! Hoping and praying this is approved quickly. I was diagnosed with HBP on Monday (my BP went up during surgery in January and never came back down) so now I'm on yet another medication. I am so anxious to get this scheduled and done!!!
I know my biggest obstacle is myself. My husband and siblings are very supportive. I've only told a few friends, I am so ashamed of how I've let myself go and even talking about weight makes me cringe. I'm on a strict pre-surgery diet since last weekend, and so far so good since I have a goal. My surgeon didn't want me to start dieting too soon as he only wants me to lose a few lbs pre-surg. Have not been able to exercise yet, as I threw my back out again and have been almost immobilized until this week.
I'm too young to have the health problems of an elderly person and I feel like finally there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I may not be a fast loser because of the health issues but I don't care. Anything has got to be better than this.
After a lifetime of hiding my shame, I just threw it all out to a room full of strangers. Now THAT feels weird - cathartic, but weird!