lizzyshade

Not sure how I sent this twice, but I do mean it that much

Surgery tomorrow morning! Can't wait to get it over with & on to a thinner, healthier me Hope today goes by fast!

Will be up at 530 am to get to the lab for the test that need to be drawn before surgery! Hope they get the results in time!

As I read my paperwork on Friday, I see that I should have been sent for additional labs after my pre-op apt this week. It's Friday and the Dr. office is already closed! I leave a message in hopes someone will get back to me and am fortunate that someone does. She says, yes you were supposed to have labs drawn, but don't worry the lab is open on Sat from 8-4pm. Relieved, I leave work early today and get there at 2pm, their signs says they closed at 1pm! Closed Sunday. So now I am really nervous, because I have surgery on Tues and am praying that if I get there when they open on Monday, it will still be in time. Pray with me that it will be enough time, because I only have two weeks off work and can't afford to have surgery postponed another week. My surgeon only does surgery on Tuesdays. 3 nights to go, I hope!

The nerves have set in today, I have this anxious energy that won't stop. It's like I've been nesting today, cleaning, bills, shopping, planning and so on. I just want tomorrow to go fast so I can get this part over! My brain won't stop thinking about everything, "am I doing the right thing, for the right reasons, is it selfish when I have a family to consider, would I ever be able to do it another way, don't I deserve this, what if something goes wrong, what will I look like in a year".... and on and on it goes. All the mental debates I've had over the months streaming back through two nights before. Even with the doubts, I know this is the right choice! Just last minute jitters I guess. My husband and I are going for an hour massage tomorrow, then we will get a clear fluid of some kind and walk for a while. Later I will pack for the hospital and then go to be early (if I can sleep) so I will be well rested for surgery on Tuesday. I'm so lucky to have a man like my husband in my life! He took a week off work to be with me every step of the way. I'm really thankful he is mine! 2 nights to go!

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and praying that the other side will be as wonderful as you dream of, healthy, happy, thinner you!

Thanks for the realist view of the first days after surgery. I am having mine on Tuesday and am glad to read what it may be like those first days. Thanks again for helping me mentally prepare. I hope you continue to get better and better. You're right it will be worth it! Liz

I was going to post a topic tonight about the fact that I just drank down 24 oz of water not long after I drank my 8 oz shake. It hit me that my stomach will only hold a couple of oz. at a time. My stomach must be huge now. I admit I could have done the same after eating a whole meal too. Portion control is going to be a battle for me, for life I think. My counselor says that I should expect to go through the stages of grief after the sleeve because I will morn food, my changing relationship with it, and how much of my marriage relationship is based on our social eating. I've been on the liquid diet for 19 days now and it has already challenged our marriage habits. Like breakfast out every Sunday morning and Chinese out every Saturday night.. ect. This is such a great place of ideas and insights that help me feel not alone in my thoughts and habits. Hope your stall breaks soon and your job turns out great!

Thanks, Mina! Wishing you the best too.

WoW, you wrote so many words that could have come right out of my head! I can really identify with all of it, even the childhood weight and the small comments, meant to help that destroy you a little bit each time. I was in a custody battle many years ago and my mother said, "Honey are you worried the judge will side with .... the father... because of your weight?" Up till that moment I never even gave it a thought that I could lose my kids because I was fat. Just another kind, prejudice. My husband has been behind me all the way too, he's also made sure to tell me how much he loves me and thinks I'm beautiful to him just as I am. I wish I had, had the words you used to describe my inner turmoil that I need to get this weight off so I can be comfortable in my own skin. I can't stand to look at me naked, it's hard to believe someone else could, even when they love you. Thanks for sharing your story and I hope the process goes quickly for you. I started my journey in January and will be sleeved this Tuesday. My process took longer than most I think because of some health complications. Wishing you all the best! Liz

Your bathing suit story is sooo great! Congrats to you! I can't wait to see that kind of results.

Congrats on the weight lost! I know stalling will be hard for many of us, at least seeing someone break theirs gives us hope. I hope you reach your goals!

Hi Lisa, I'm having surgery on Tuesday and just wanted to wish you luck! Maybe we can stay connected for support? I'm nervous too, but also really excited. I've been on a fat free milk and protein powder diet for 19 days now and all I can think about is food too. I did drink some broth though, I just had to have a salty taste! I'm dreading another 2 weeks of liquid after surgery, but at least then I will be allowed some variety. I will be thinking of you and sending up positive energy for you and your surgery team on Monday! Liz

This was the perfect post for me read today, thank you so much! I'm so excited for you. It's so good to read success stories that are happening right now. It helps me believe it is in reach for me too. I have surgery on Tuesday 22nd and am thankful to have read what you wrote!

That is a great picture! You look great. What an awesome feeling to put on clothes that couldn't fit into before. I can't wait for that too.

Wishing you luck and congrats on the current weight loss!

Now that I am in the week before surgery, my family who is very supportive, has shared there fears and concerns with my about the procedure I am electing to have. They have made it a point to make sure I know how much they love me no matter what I weigh. This week I am having to reassure them, that I am making a very educated choice, not just because of a jean size, but for my future health. I have a great surgeon who will be doing her best for a great outcome. I know there is always a fear regarding any medical procedures, I'm just going to have to rely on God to see me through. Only 5 nights to go, I'm so anxious, I hope these nights go by fast because I can't think of anything else. Just have to get through 2 more days of work, pray I can keep my head in the game!

Thanks for all your comments and support! I like the idea of writing a list of why I'm having the surgery and what I look forward to, I'm going to write one too. My husband made a similar comment as your dad Mina, he said nothing will be the same for at least a year! Maybe not the same, but I hope it's even better once we get through the surgery and adjustment period.

If you live in Oregon anywhere near Portland, I will drive you and be there for you! We don't know one another, but in a way we do because we are fighting the same fight! We are fighting to be healthier, and have a body that we can move around in this world with more confidence in. I've been a single parent and I know how much you need support. If we don't live close, I will promise to be there in spirit for you!

I had my final surgical consult today and it went great. Surgery is a go for 5/22/12 at 7:30am! During my endoscopic exam they found that I have a hiatal hernia, which explains my acid reflux agony these past few years. My surgeon is going to repair that as well. I have a higher chance of blood clots due to my hematology disorder so I will also be on preventative shots for a week after too. I'm really fortunate to have a doctor who cares so much about my health during this process. I'm getting more excited than nervous these days! 6 more days

Thank you Trcyprkr70, I will send up positive thoughts that your insurance comes through. I applied a Jan 2011 and was denied on my husbands insurance plan, so this year I paid for only me to have to insurance through my work because they would cover it. It's been a long road. Hope yours takes less time.

I was nervous about the endoscopic exam also. I went in and they gave me something IV and then I woke up and it was all over. No pain or memory of the entire event. I did have a mild sore throat for about 2 days, but other than that nothing else. I hope yours goes as good as mine did!

Sending positive energy your way!

I'm so excited to read about your success so far! As for the protein, try maxpro (from Max Muscle) protein powder or the like, it has 30 grams of protein per scoop, that may help you get the amount you need while also getting your fluid content in to.

Good luck on the interview, I hope you get the job that is right for you! I'm so glad I am reading the comments from fellow sleevers, I am learning so much. I know it will help to have more realistic expectations of the up's and down's that people write of here. I will be sleeved in 7 days and I pray that I will have few regrets, but if I do, I will look here for support through them. Wishing you everyday without regrets!