Wow, I can relate! I had my surgery on 2/20 and im just now starting to come out of my depression. It was such an odd experience, I could not even wrap my head around what was happening to me after surgery. I think the first week was ok because I was drugged up. I then began the journey and have struggled since. I think I was in some kind of denial about the fact that I was an emotional eater. It sounds odd but I really didnt realize how much food consumed my everyday. I loved to cook, have parties, plan for my meals, eat out at numerous restaurants....OMG seriously i lived for food. Well, I now have been struggling with all this free time.... now that things dont revolve around food. Its really hard!!!!! I find that I am weak and not able to muster up energy for much of anything, so I kinda sit and waste time thinking about how things used to be. I have lost a total of 43 pounds since I first started this journey so I know that things are going well but Im finding it hard to be thrilled about the loss when I am mourning another loss of aaaah my best friend/enemy....LOL can anyone relate????