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I've been looking at this page for a while trying to figure out what it is I want to write. But I keep thinking the same thing. That I'm fat and that's it. But honestly that's not just it. I have been fat for 10 years. It all started in elementary school. I realized I was bigger than everybody else when I couldn't do some of the same things. I always brushed it off like it was no big deal because I didn't care, in middle school I kept gaining weight. I had a lot of friends, and most were tiny. I still didn't realize the extent of my weight gain then. I played volleyball in 8th grade and I loved it. But that's when I realized just how big I was. They didn't have a jersey that was my size so they had to order one for me. I couldn't keep up and I was always tired. In 9th I became very self conscious. I didn't like going to school because I felt like everyone was looking at how fat I was. My parents decided private school would be best for me. So I went to a school that had 10 other students my age and I loved it. My best friends are some that I met there. I felt welcomed and I didn't feel like a outcast. But I started going back to the high school in my home town and felt the pressure again. I'm now in 11th grade and I hate waking up knowing I have to go to school. And I love school. I love my teachers. But I hate my self conscious problem. Because while everyone in my town hangs out at the river every weekend I stay in my room and read. And I hate it. It sucks. So I hope that me going through with getting the lap band not only helps me loose weight but helps my self conscious problem I've got within me.

XOXO Haley!