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When I started I wasn't wearing jeans because my 24s no longer fit and I refused to venture any further than that. Now I'm in baggy size 12 jeans, from F21 of all places. But I don't understand it. Obviously the way weight loss works is you lose weight and clothes fit differently yadda yadda but, it's just so weird to me. I guess it's an nsv in a way right?
 
I don't feel like I should be in anyones 12 much less them be baggy. What am I to do when the 12 is too big??? It's a great feeling to know that I fit into clothes or that I don't for a good reason. But I still don't feel like I belong in the "skinny:" side. I still have that feeling that an associate will come up to me and point me towards the plus sized section.
 
Mental weight loss is a real b***h!

I have been wearing leggings and yoga pants since January.
I stopped wearing jeans when jeans stopped fitting me, ultimately I stopped shopping all together.
 
Yesterday, I went to get a dress for my sisters graduation. Dress looks great but I put on these size 24 shorts way to big, that was a shocker because I have been a 24 for a while then 24's from that store (dots) stopped fitting. So I put on a pair of 22 denim shorts and omggggg they fit like a dream!
 
So now I'm down from a 22/24 in tops to an 18/20. and from a 24 in jeans to a 20!
 
This feels awsome and I'm closer to being able to buy my Forever21+ jeans. Oh and I'm a 2x now too! ahhhhh Things are going sooo well!
 
I needed my bf's motivation to get me through the gym yesterday, today I got it covered on my own!

As of Friday I am 1 month post op, and down 20 lbs. 45 lbs in total.
 
So far things are ok. I'm on soft foods now.
 
I had 1/2 cup tomato soup and use one slice of toasted wheat with it. I got stuck, but I'll grant it's my fault for not eating with enough time to commit. I've gotten back into my gym ritual. I got to the park more though.
 
I've topped my time walking/jogging time. Back in February it took me 21 minutes to finish a mile. Now I'm at 16 minutes to a mile. Which is great. Hoping to get down to 14 minutes soon.
 
My clothes, I started back in March easily fitting 3x and 22/24 shirts and pants. I'm now in 2x's and 18/20's with the acception of jeans which I haven't worn in a while because the stopped fitting. I just bought a pair of 22 jean shorts which is shocking because I skipped 24 altogether haha.
 
Finally in total I've lost 25 1/2 inches.
 
Starting:
 
Right Calf:22in Left Calf 22in
Right Thigh:30 Left Thigh 32in
Right Arm:17 1/2 Left Arm: 18
Chest:55in
Belly:53
Hips:57
 
Currently:
RC:18 LC:19
RT:28 LT:29
RA:17 LA:17
Chest: 48
Belly:49
Hips:53
 
I think I've hit my little depressed stage I think it's mostly the fact that I like looking good , I never gave up on being pretty, girly what have you. But everytime I leave the house my clothes look horrible on me, loose as hell, and flowy without intention. I honestly feel fatter in my clothes now than I did 45 pounds ago.
 
Thats all for now
-Tiana

I have been wearing leggings and yoga pants since January.
I stopped wearing jeans when jeans stopped fitting me, ultimately I stopped shopping all together.
 
Yesterday, I went to get a dress for my sisters graduation. Dress looks great but I put on these size 24 shorts way to big, that was a shocker because I have been a 24 for a while then 24's from that store (dots) stopped fitting. So I put on a pair of 22 denim shorts and omggggg they fit like a dream!
 
So now I'm down from a 22/24 in tops to an 18/20. and from a 24 in jeans to a 20!
 
This feels awsome and I'm closer to being able to buy my Forever21+ jeans. Oh and I'm a 2x now too! ahhhhh Things are going sooo well!
 
I needed my bf's motivation to get me through the gym yesterday, today I got it covered on my own!

I have been wearing leggings and yoga pants since January.
I stopped wearing jeans when jeans stopped fitting me, ultimately I stopped shopping all together.
 
Yesterday, I went to get a dress for my sisters graduation. Dress looks great but I put on these size 24 shorts way to big, that was a shocker because I have been a 24 for a while then 24's from that store (dots) stopped fitting. So I put on a pair of 22 denim shorts and omggggg they fit like a dream!
 
So now I'm down from a 22/24 in tops to an 18/20. and from a 24 in jeans to a 20!
 
This feels awsome and I'm closer to being able to buy my Forever21+ jeans. Oh and I'm a 2x now too! ahhhhh Things are going sooo well!
 
I needed my bf's motivation to get me through the gym yesterday, today I got it covered on my own!

The best part?
That I want to celebrate by going to the gym, not eating a million course meal!
Its been a long time, but I did it, which means I can do it, and anything else I put my mind to. I have never been so happy in my life, I have to take my nails off but thats the lest of my worries, I just, its a great feeling!

The best part?
That I want to celebrate by going to the gym, not eating a million course meal!
Its been a long time, but I did it, which means I can do it, and anything else I put my mind to. I have never been so happy in my life, I have to take my nails off but thats the lest of my worries, I just, its a great feeling!

Lost 3 more lbs, two more months and then surgery!
I used to have these "pockets" of fat under my boobs, I'm young I can say boobs, and they're gone!! My calves are getting toned, theres an indent in the side! My back is smoothing out! My face is slimming down! haha Sorry, just really excited. My skin is lightening and my cycle came by it self this month! I wanted french bread pizza today, two slices, saw it was 470 calories for one, said nope! had turkey bacon, an egg with egg whites, and weight watchers toast.
 
I don't think I've ever felt so good!

Things are good!
 
Although, every so often I get the idea I'm trying to lose weight for the wrong reason ( not health related, more for visual effect). But I like that I'm doing well for myself, I mean c'mon, how can I complain that I'm losing weight?
 
So I'm at work today, and the day receptionist says to me "Tiana you look thinner, that diet is working!" Thanks barb!
Then my dad comes do make sure I got to work alright, and he goes, what are you doing, losing weight in your face? Thanks dad!
 
I never see it on me when I lose weight, I only go by the numbers I see on the scale. Blah and those dont move very much. But I'm down to 318 so I must be doing something right. Hoping the scale gives me good news again on friday!
 
My boyfriend broke up with me, for reason I cant verify...whatever, but I'm using that as more motivation to lose weight and look good, he can see what he's missing out on . Anyway, I'm on a roll. I met these things called sweat, and resistance, we're pretty good friends. They know whats good for me!
 
Less than 70 days til the next surgery attempt, I have a feeling they'll deny AGAIN but I'll keep trucking on, I'm doing alright thus far.

So Im not sure if its my type A personality or that Im a nurse thats pissing me off more. Ive never had "major" SURGERY! HOWEVER i had NO idea i would be this tired and no energy. I have vowed not to weigh myself until my Dr. Aapt. Monday. Overall feeling good, just cant wait to be "back to my crazy self!"