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At work on Wednesday they fed us lunch and I couldn't resist the free food. I had a single serving of pototo chips (160 calories) and 1/2 of a big cookie that came with the meal. If I hadn't already eaten earlier I wouldn't have felt so bad about it.
 
So I tried to make up for it by walking an extra mile the same day.
 
Sometimes the temptation is there, it's hard to make the best food choices, but I don't think I went too far overboard. I woke up 2 lbs lighter this morning.
 
You have any tips to avoid temptation?

I had a wonderful non scale victory this weekend! I was able to shop in a "normal" store! I went to Old Navy and bought some shirts and a blazer! It felt wonderful!!! No more shopping in the "big girls store" down 50 lbs!!!! whooo hooo!

Finally! 3 months 5 days in and 50lbs gone gone gone!!!
 
Funny thing though, have always been 5 feet 1.9 inches, and today measured at 5'2"! am I getting taller? lol
 
Size 20 now! Haven't been 20 since university days! Having a lot of fun digging through old clothes, will shop for new ones when I reach size 18

Since surgery I have had an issue that I didnt discuss much as no one seems to have the same problem.
 
I get a thick white coating on my tounge and in my throat that has been driving me insane!It got progressively worse over the last month.
 
Yesterday I realized it must have soemthing to so with the milk Im drinking.I cut back on the milk,but not a lot,and because of this I became dry.I could feel my lips was even getting dry.So,I tackled a bottle of water,which I dont do often as I still struggle to drink water,and almost immediately the mouth started feeling better.
 
Today I cut the milk a little more and had a lot more water.My mouth was actually fine most of the day except tonight when I had a large cup of tea with lots of milk and didnt rinse my mouth immediately.I am now chugging some water and my mouth already feels better.I still dont know why the milk does this but I now realize that water is super important.Not tea,not crystal light but water.
 
My mission for this week is to double my water intake.The dr halved my BP meds and there is a powerful diuretic in it.Of course I will have to stay away from the scale for at least a week (hehehe...who am I kidding?) as I will go up in water weight.But they say the best cure for that is more water.Will also juice some celery and cucumber as it is a diuretic as well.
 
Went for a dexa scan today and some bloods.Vit D and A is low.LDL is still a bit high but HDL is also high,which is great!Will see what the B12 is like.
 
Ok,now tomorrow I am going to exercise.I think if I keep on saying it,it will be so!

December 5, 2012.
The first day of the rest of my life.
The last few days have been very dark days.
I've been in a stall for a about 5 days now, and this is my second stall in 8 weeks.
My highest weight was 242.2 and starting weight was 239.8.
I've been stuck at 205 + or - 2-3 lbs.
 
Today is my 8 week surgiversary. Today I am feeling much different than the few weeks, even the last 5 days. I have learned so much about my body as well as food, nutrition, and life in these last few weeks.
 
Today I hit 100 oz of fluids. Prior to today I might have hit 50-60 on a good day.
Today I hit my protein.
Today I walked over 2 miles in under 40 minutes.
Today I ran on the treadmill. I haven't 'ran' in almost 10 years...
Today I made healthy choices.
 
I have had sooo many struggles.
EVERY SINGLE MEAL is a challenge. (anyone else?)
Every meal is a new opportunity to choose the best food for my body.
I am sooo far from perfect, and have struggled every single day.
 
Today I put the scale away.
Today I will focus on being healthy.
Today I will focus on exercise and going forward.
Today I will focus on being happy and living in the moment.
My hunger has NOT gone away, however I can say that it is NOT the same kind of hunger as pre-surgery.
Music has been my healing power.
I hate plain water, and most protein shakes.
 
I have learned that I am a strong woman, but I have a lot of dark demons that haunt me, I have many issues that I am always going to struggle with, but I am NOT going to let them beat me or get me down...I have done that for way too long.
 
Thank GOODNESS for the amazing people who post on this website as they are and have been extremely supportive and I have learned so much from the many others who are taking a walk on this journey. I don't always post, but I read others posts and comments daily.
 
Cheers to the rest of my healthy life!

I am so ready for summer! I'm ready to be out gardening. Going to farmers markets. Im excited at my new lease on life! I no longer worry about the scale. I actually no longer own one the only time I weigh is doctors visits. I feel good and I'm getting my protein and staying around 600 calories a day. Life after surgery only gets better

Well unfortunately I'm writing today's blog with such an attitude. At 4 weeks out, I still can't even keep liquids down comfortably. I hate it! I was so stressed out and tired last night that I just got on my knees and prayed. I'm tired of crying, tired of the thirst (not hunger, but thirst!)... I'm sure when I get to my post op appointment I will be put on an IV for dehydration because I've taken in less than 20oz each day over the last week. I feel so unhealthy and can't even complain because I elected this. I'm sure this is PMS or one of those emotional stages we all go through.. But I definitely don't like it! On the other hand, I'm down 30 pounds. Here are my stats:
 
HW: 256
SW: 247
Day I left surgery: 258
CW: 226
 
Not too bad considering all of my clothes are sagging but my body feels really jiggly so I know I have to get in the gym and do sme weight lifting but I vowed to not do anything until I can keep down a set number of calories... Keep me in your prayers for I know better days are just ahead!!!

1. Get below 300 lbs COMPLETED!!
2. Get to size 20 COMPLETED!!
3. WorkOut faithfully COMPLETED!!
4. Celebrate Myself COMPLETING!!!
5. Get in to size 18 pants COMPLETED!!!
6. Weigh below 260 lbs COMPLETED!!!
7. Get in to size 16 (Havent been a 16 EVER)
8. Get in to size 14 (Holy Moly)
9. Begin a spinning class
10. Enjoy Running!

1. Get below 300 lbs COMPLETED!!
2. Get to size 20 COMPLETED!!
3. WorkOut faithfully COMPLETED!!
4. Celebrate Myself COMPLETING!!!
5. Get in to size 18 pants COMPLETED!!!
6. Weigh below 260 lbs COMPLETED!!!
7. Get in to size 16 (Havent been a 16 EVER)
8. Get in to size 14 (Holy Moly)
9. Begin a spinning class
10. Enjoy Running!

1. Get below 300 lbs COMPLETED!!
2. Get to size 20 COMPLETED!!
3. WorkOut faithfully COMPLETED!!
4. Celebrate Myself COMPLETING!!!
5. Get in to size 18 pants COMPLETED!!!
6. Weigh below 260 lbs COMPLETED!!!
7. Get in to size 16 (Havent been a 16 EVER)
8. Get in to size 14 (Holy Moly)
9. Begin a spinning class
10. Enjoy Running!

1. Lose first 25 lbs Accomplished 01/05/13!
2. Get below 250 for the first time in 3 years Accomplished 1/12/13!
3. Join a gym
4. Weigh less than my boyfriend (242) Accomplished 02/06/12
5. Weigh less than when started College (232)
6. Buy a pair of pants smaller than a size 20 Accomplished 02/01/12
7. Get below 200lbs for the first time in about 14 years
8. Buy clothing that is not in the plus size section
9. More to come as I think of them!

Excited but a little exhausted at the same time!!! Had surgery on December 20th and the first week was smooth sailing. Wasnt until about 12 days post op did I realize I had not had a bowel movement. I was in an all out panic and my surgeon was too. He ended up having me take some Miralax and Colace and this morning had my firt BM since surgery.. Glad that's over with! Stepped on the scale last night and was 235.6lbs!! Not much of a loss like in the first week, but I'll take every single pound.
 
Starting Weight: 256
Day of Surgery: 247
Day Left Surgery: 258
1 Week Post Op: 241
2 Weeks Post Op: 235
total loss thus far: 21 pounds
 
Not bad. Won't complain. But I think in this week I will begin taking my vitamins (and boy there are a lot!) and doing some cardio at the gym. So blessed to have gone through this process with little to no complications and even more blessed that I am on my way to a healthy new me! Happy losing all!

So I am only 4 days away from the biggest event in my whole 24 years of living and I am freaking out. I know this is normal I know this is normal, but I am so nervous at this point. I just don't want anything to go wrong. Finals are done, vacation is set to begin this Wednesday so I shouldn't have anything pressing. Liquid diet is getting on my nerves, but hey, it's just one of those things that you gotta do. So I'm a little irritated with that but I'm doing it. I'm down about 5 pounds from my starting weight so the scales didn't let me down at all. But I'm definitely getting rid of the scale as soon as surgery hits. I will not step on that thing until my post op appointments. I just don't want to overwhelm myself with trying to eat right and watch the scale drop pound by pound. I'll be ok I'm sure. Just panic. WOOOOOOSA! I'm ready.

So very excited and wanted to share my good news. Pre-Op appointment went great, passed the written test that my Dr. gives, lost the weight she required me to lose. Sooooooo, on December 12, 2012 at 12 noon I will be sleeved.

Insurance approval was faxed to my surgeon today! I'm approved! We'll be setting a surgery date within the coming days! I'm SOOOOOO excited!

just spent 45 mins typing an update and poof, when i tried to preview it and edit a word it dissapeared
basically, still waiting for blood test results, really fed up of waiting, not got my hopes up to have my op in november any more.
Today i have cast my cares on the Lord and will have my op when He gives me the date, He knows best.
I know i still want my sleeve, and will restart the liver shrinking diet when i have a new date for my sleeve.
I am not concerned if it is just before christmas, any time soon will be ok with me, i was motivated and ready for oct 9th and can do it again, but this time without the problem of my blood it will be safer.
Hope everyone is doing well, sleeved or to be sleeved, God Bless, xx

It has been a 13 month process up to this point. Nutritionist for 6 months, doctor's visits, psych eval, run around, run around, run around, argue,wait,argue,wait, stress out, run around again . . . . and Finally Approved for surgery!!! annd . . . . . now we wait again!!! i dont know whats taking so long. im so stressed over this entire process. i feel a huge weight on my chest. . . . . still waiting

It has been a 13 month process up to this point. Nutritionist for 6 months, doctor's visits, psych eval, run around, run around, run around, argue,wait,argue,wait, stress out, run around again . . . . and Finally Approved for surgery!!! annd . . . . . now we wait again!!! i dont know whats taking so long. im so stressed over this entire process. i feel a huge weight on my chest. . . . . still waiting

It has been a 13 month process up to this point. Nutritionist for 6 months, doctor's visits, psych eval, run around, run around, run around, argue,wait,argue,wait, stress out, run around again . . . . and Finally Approved for surgery!!! annd . . . . . now we wait again!!! i dont know whats taking so long. im so stressed over this entire process. i feel a huge weight on my chest. . . . . still waiting