Well,
I am sick of being fat! Ive been big since my tween years. I have attempted to lose weight on my own with minimal or extremely slow success. My job previously had insurance but it didn't pay for the surgery, but the doctor visits and possibly fills. This is neither here nor there now that I have resigned (the job was more stress than worth the pay, and the pay was good.) The job I have now is great pay, but no benefits. I can afford the fills and visits out of pocket but not the surgery. My husband and I are in the beginning stages of filing bankruptcy (as a result of bad decisions from our youth that still hsunt us) My credit score is a source of embarassment. I'm in a place now where while I really do not want to be this big anymore. I'm so tired of this circular motions, and its exhausting. I'm scared to go under the knife, but I'm also scared to continue being over 300 lbs. I have a seminar online to attend in the morning so I can gather more. I guess I'm watching, waiting, and hoping just now.