Hello there,
My name is Nikkita and I'm 22 years old. I live in Perth, Western Australia.
I recently discovered this forum and spent a few days absorbing it, in total awe. I am fascinated that people out there feel exactly as I do, and I'm not alone.
I have been obese for over 4 years now, due to chronic PCOS. It affects my life in the most awful way. I am having WLS, (vertical sleeve) in or around October. Here, I am waiting on my Health Insurance to cover me, and I still have to come up with the remaining balance of - $3000 - my fiance and I have paid almost half already!
I havent ever really spoken about being overweight, to others - only my close friend and fiance know how I really feel, most of the time.
Its hard for me to open up about how much it really affects my life. I cannot wait until I have a date; I should find out on the 8th of September.
I am so touched, that there is a place for me to talk about how I really feel.. I sound silly, but I have always felt that weight gain is my own fault, and I should suffer it.
I can feel myself opening up, and I actually feel very vulnerable posting this.
I am a smoker, and I plan to completely ditch the fags after my last pack - only four left now.
I have given up so many things due to my size - my dream of becoming a Teacher is on hold for now, as I am struggling to hold down a part time job in order to pay for my surgery - standing for over 8 hours a day at 130 kilos is no easy feat. Most days I want to quit on the spot.
I am currently :
HEIGHT - 163 cms
WEIGHT - 130 kilos or 286 pounds.
Thanks for listening,
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