myownjourney

Sorry for the late reply but OMG!!! I didn't know there were so many of us youngsters lol ... I will add everyone as soon as I figure out how lol

Thanks for all te comments ... I really do appreciate them all. Not too long ago I took my friend to the mall with me to find a dress so that we could go out to the club ( that's what normal people my age do, right?). We went to nearly every store in the mall and could not find a dress in my size that wasn't churchy or matronly. After doing this, she said that she had no idea that the options for girls like me were so limited. I think I'm going to bring that up the next time I talk to her.

Lol yeah I'd rather be smaller all together than big for the sake of being busty lol and yeah like this site really helps me understand that my questions and fears aren't as stupid as I think they are lol

Thanks for the workouts!!! I've been trying to find some workouts that'll keep it tight and I talked to my friend today and told her that we won't talk about it for the sake of our friendship... I'm happy I found this site because I know there are a lot of people who are going through this journey at the same time as I. It helps to not feel like I have to do it completely on my own.

Yeah for the most part I've been doing this on a need to know basis... I went for my first orientation in January and got so much negativity that I decided to not do it. And the doctors were asses there. Well after a couple of months I decided to change doctors and do it and only a few people know that I'm doing it.

Aww thanks... You guys are making me feel so much better!!????????

Yeah she really doesn't understand that. I know a couple of people who have lost 100+ lbs through diet and exercise ( they also don't want me to have the surgery) but I don't know how long they'll keep it off and they have all the resources to devote time and money solely for wl ... I spend the majority of my time in class or at work. I thought that she would be happy for me because this will drastically change my life forever.

Lol it's funny you say that because I said something like that to her. Which one would I prefer? Lol I would prefer to lose the weight. And it's more about health to me, I'm 21 with issues that I shouldn't have. I'm already saving for a lift lol.

So my nut class is next Friday... And then after that is the psych eval... Everything is moving smoothly ... I've been working out daily and I feel stronger and healthier by the day. My main problems are 1. I am having a shitty time trying to quit smoking... My surgery date is exactly three months after my last cigarette an every day that I smoke is another day that I have to wait to get my surgery 2. I am sooooo greedy. I forget how much I I love food and at odd hours of the day. I have to lose 20 lbs in three months and at first it sounded easy but I'm realizing how difficult it will be