SkinnyMiniWannabe

Like many of you, I have been quite chubby all my life. I have always been the funny fat girl. I never had boyfriends and had horrible self esteem issues which I never dealt with in a healthy way. I tried everything to lose the weight because I thought that in order to be happy you have to be skinny. I tried every fad diet you can think of throughout high school. I did Atkins, weight watchers three times, liquid diets, uber restrictive probably anorexic diets, the lemon water with cayenne pepper diet, and countless others. In my senior year I went vegan and lost about 70 pounds but wasn't healthy at all. I ended up being anemic and very pale and weak.
Finally I decided that if being skinny for me wasn't healthy then I would stay fat. I learned to love my curvy 240 lb body. Then I met my fiancé and my eating habits turned out of control. I would eat the same portions and same fattening pizza as my hubby to be and ballooned up to 330 lbs by the end of my second year of college. After trying to get my portion sizes under control on my own then feeling deprived and ultimately binging on mo than I would have eaten in the first place, my mother came up to me and asked if I wanted to get the lap band surgery like she had had. Of course I jumped at the chance and started my six months of dietary that following month. Now I am post op and feeling better than I ever have. I now know that even though my thanksgiving this year kinda sucked because all I could have was diluted juice and turkey broth, that I will have many more thanksgivings because of this lifesaving surgery.