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I was so looking forward to having to "make myself eat" after my sleeve. This has definetely not been the case. Im still hungry all the time. Im also upset that I have only lost 1 pound a week for the past 4 weeks. And this is after increasing my workouts from almost nothing to 3-5 days a week. I was so excited when I was in the gym that all of that hard work was going to mean more #'s off the scale. I guess not. Everyday of my life, when I see skinny women, I think to myself "is she hungry all the time?" and "what does she eat to be so damn skinny?". Basically these thoughts rule my world all of the time. As im sitting here, my stomach is growling and the idea of eating is awful because I know it will just keep making me fat. And on top of it all, this concept of protein keeping hunger at bay, well...I just dont believe it. I drink my protein, mix it into just about anything I can, and it sure isnt keeping me from being hungry. Uuugggghhh...
On the positive side, I do feel good. I havent had any problems with my surgery, and I feel 100%. Im just going to keep eating healthy foods, excercising, and praying that one day god will help me get over this food addiction I have.

It amazes me how much my body has changed in only five weeks. Rolls are smaller, my side boobs are almost gone, and my stomach is semi flat (though still big). My legs are changing and shaping and my boobs are shrinking to the smallest they have been since college....when I used to think they were very large. If I have changed this much is such a short time, I can't even imagine what I will look like in a year. The idea of being around 150 pounds is still unreal to me. I know it's my goal and I am doing everything I need to in order to make my goal, but it still seems crazy to me to think I could ever bee that thin. I wasn't even that thin in high school.
 
Yesterday I took the plunge and tried on my bathing suit. I knew when I bought it two years ago that it was too small for me, but I didn't care. I shoved every inch of fat into it and enjoyed myself on the beach or in the pool. That won't be the case this year. First, it went right on with no wiggle-wiggle. You girls know what I mean. The moving your body and the garment in an attempt to get it up and over your ___________(fill in the blank). Nope, this time it slid right up. It fit perfectly and I looked good in it. Not model good, but good. I will no longer have to pretend that I feel comfortable at the beach, because now I will be. I was so excited that I came running out of the bedroom to tell my husband only to find him passed out on the couch taking a nap. So, I decided to jump into the car and drive the mile to my parent's home and show my new body to my mother. I was smart enough to throw some clothes on before running out the door. I think it would be a little strange to see a woman driving in her bathing suit this early in the summer. I do live near a beach, so it's not as uncommon as you may think. I literately walked into the house, said hello and stripped down to my bathing suit. Lucky for me my mother is very understanding and didn't demand me to stop stripping in her kitchen. Instead, she looked me up and down and told me how wonderful I look. Yea, I look wonderful in a bathing suit. LOL
 
Then to make my weekend even better, I tried on a pair of Old Navy sweats I bought prior to my surgery. They couldn't get over my but when I bought them but now, they fit just perfectly. I am really liking this weight loss thing that comes from getting a sleeve. I wish someone would have told me this would have been a side affect. I would have done it a long time ago. LOL Just kidding. The only side affect I didn't really know about was how good I would really feel and not just because the clothes fit. It's more just feeling better all around. Knowing I did something for me that is making me healthier every day. Now, if weight loss is a part of that, I'll take it. I will also take feeling good in a bathing suit (both kinds) because, that's something I haven't felt .... well, ever.

I had my sleeve on Feb 1st and the surgery went great. The surgeon described it as "textbook" and I was only in there for a little over an hour. The pain was not severe, well as long as I didnt try to bend over to put my underwear on (but thats a whole nother story lol). The pain medication more than manages the pain. I didnt have any problems with nausea while in the hospital, the pain thing I noticed was stomach spasms. From the time I woke up from anesthesia I kept feeling this sensation in my upper abdomen that felt like I was hungry. I kept telling my surgeon "I think Im HUNGRY!!?!". She just smiled and explained to me that I was feeling stomach spasms. Cold water has been my only enemy since my surgery. Even little sips of cold water cause slight discomfort/nausea/spasms. The odd thing is, if I put crystal light in my water, I dont have the problem. So for now, I drink crystal light and try to drink room temp h20 as often as I can. Like I said though, ice cold or even cold water has been the only thing I have a problem ingesting. So far my incisions have healed up nicely. The discomfort in my abs with exertion is pretty much gone now, and I must say, I feel like my old self. Right after the surgery my "bathroom habits" were very frequent, which my surgeon said was to be expected. That has even regulated itself now. Im glad to be posting on here finally, I think I had been putting it off because it all seems unreal- like "yeah, this happend!!". I can honestly say that I still feel that way, like I am shocked that its all over with and im safe and healthy at home.

I had my sleeve on Feb 1st and the surgery went great. The surgeon described it as "textbook" and I was only in there for a little over an hour. The pain was not severe, well as long as I didnt try to bend over to put my underwear on (but thats a whole nother story lol). The pain medication more than manages the pain. I didnt have any problems with nausea while in the hospital, the pain thing I noticed was stomach spasms. From the time I woke up from anesthesia I kept feeling this sensation in my upper abdomen that felt like I was hungry. I kept telling my surgeon "I think Im HUNGRY!!?!". She just smiled and explained to me that I was feeling stomach spasms. Cold water has been my only enemy since my surgery. Even little sips of cold water cause slight discomfort/nausea/spasms. The odd thing is, if I put crystal light in my water, I dont have the problem. So for now, I drink crystal light and try to drink room temp h20 as often as I can. Like I said though, ice cold or even cold water has been the only thing I have a problem ingesting. So far my incisions have healed up nicely. The discomfort in my abs with exertion is pretty much gone now, and I must say, I feel like my old self. Right after the surgery my "bathroom habits" were very frequent, which my surgeon said was to be expected. That has even regulated itself now. Im glad to be posting on here finally, I think I had been putting it off because it all seems unreal- like "yeah, this happend!!". I can honestly say that I still feel that way, like I am shocked that its all over with and im safe and healthy at home.

I had my sleeve on Feb 1st and the surgery went great. The surgeon described it as "textbook" and I was only in there for a little over an hour. The pain was not severe, well as long as I didnt try to bend over to put my underwear on (but thats a whole nother story lol). The pain medication more than manages the pain. I didnt have any problems with nausea while in the hospital, the pain thing I noticed was stomach spasms. From the time I woke up from anesthesia I kept feeling this sensation in my upper abdomen that felt like I was hungry. I kept telling my surgeon "I think Im HUNGRY!!?!". She just smiled and explained to me that I was feeling stomach spasms. Cold water has been my only enemy since my surgery. Even little sips of cold water cause slight discomfort/nausea/spasms. The odd thing is, if I put crystal light in my water, I dont have the problem. So for now, I drink crystal light and try to drink room temp h20 as often as I can. Like I said though, ice cold or even cold water has been the only thing I have a problem ingesting. So far my incisions have healed up nicely. The discomfort in my abs with exertion is pretty much gone now, and I must say, I feel like my old self. Right after the surgery my "bathroom habits" were very frequent, which my surgeon said was to be expected. That has even regulated itself now. Im glad to be posting on here finally, I think I had been putting it off because it all seems unreal- like "yeah, this happend!!". I can honestly say that I still feel that way, like I am shocked that its all over with and im safe and healthy at home.