You ask a question, "Do I even want to know?" and the reality of the situation is, that even if you knew, it wouldn't change the horrible experience you went threw. Knowing might even bring on more stress and even nightmares that produces more stress. I like to live in the state of gratitude where I'm thankful that I have my wonderful children, even if they are young adults that are doing well in life, I am in better health now than I have been in the past 26 years, and being skinny is one of the most awesome feeling to have. I didn't really know how my weight had a negative down pull on me. I really didn't have any complications from my procedure, but all along I have a pain in my left side when I am full or have over done things throughout the day. I did have an endoscophy and every thing is normal. I contribute it to scar tissue from where my stomach was pulled out. I'm still gratiful because of all the wonderful things that I can do now and my diabetes is in remission. Yayyyyy! So I truly believe that knowing what happen is not going to be healthy for you. Do continue to share your story with others, it is healing. But I hope you can let the knowing part go. There's really not much you can do to change it. So sorry this has happened to you. So happy your baby has his mommy home!