Ms skinniness

I have gained about 15 lbs in the past year and in reality, I have to cut out the. Bad foods again. Struggling with head hunger and hard headedness...

I have been away from this site for a very long time, months in fact. I totally was addicted to this site for the first couple of years after my wls. During that time I seen veterans drop off. I know that when I read newbie posts, I read them and if someone has already answered the frantic cry for help. I would just move on. I also posted to a lot of posts. But it wasn't helpful to my journey. In my profession, I give and I give and I love helping people. I am a Marriage and Family Therapist. I actually went onto facebook and joined other bariatric sites. I know that I have gotten off track, have mindless eating, and returned to bad habits. I am aware that I will start tomorrow On BOT (back on track) to get my stomach back to normal. My stomach does not like too much food, but I over eat anyways. Now how dumb is that. So many ways to sabotage myself. The other day I took a Zinc tablet and I had the worst stomach pain I've ever had and I ended up with dumping syndrome. I thought I was going to die. LOL That reminded me that I can't take pills the size of a Tylenol with Cod #3 for pain either. So my stomach is still small, my head is sabotaging me. I feel that veterans are important in helping newbies, but lets face it, some people are darn right mean and rude in their responses. Cowgirl Jane I love your post and I have found them very helpful in processing what I need to do. are you on facebook? The bariatric sites are pretty much the same drama there too. I do like the Bariatriceating.com for the recipes etc. It has been very exciting to read your post. Dorrie

I am 3.5 years out and yes, I have gained about 15 lbs in the last year.....eating empty calories and sugar. I work hard to get back on track but fail 90 percent of the time. Did good yesturday and hubby brought home some mexican pastries which I love. My bad, i couldn't leave them alone. I'm having a lot of emotional turmoil going on in my house and reckonize that I am an emotional eater......So this is hard work. Just doing protein shakes and protein bars doesn't cut it any more. I can eat a lot more now......I'm going to pull my hair out.........urggggg

I am finding it a challenge to get back to my lowest. I keep eating snacks out of habit and the other day I cleaned the refrigerator out of all crap foods. What do I do, I take a friend of mine out to breakfast and order this delicious Apple pancake the size of a pie. I split it with my friend and ate the bacon first. I ate 1/2 of 1/2 of the high carb dessert type pancake. Then my friend wanted me to stop at Whole foods. I go in and impulsively buy 2 bags of licorice and some candy. Talk about being out of control. That's me right now. After reading this, the licorice is going in the trash and I already gave the candy away. I am reminding myself that I can not eat over 1200 calories or I will gain weight. I need to stop eating when I'm not hungry and not give myself the excuse that I'm stressed and it's emotional eating. Damn this is hard. I have gained about 10 lbs and it doesn't come off as easy as it use too. I need to remind myself that I need this support group.......period.. Thank all you guys for being totally honest. Now back to the drawing board and getting rid of the crap. BTW after going shopping shopping and looking at the cost of food, I will be greatly reducing what I buy to save money......I don't know how people can afford to eat healthy when fast food is so much more cheaper. Frustrating to say the least......Urggg so for the rant...

Rogofulm you are on the right track. Perhaps eating a bit more balanced might help. I can't eat moderately when it comes to sugars and stuff. So I am learning that my brain is more trouble than anything. I eat when I'm not hungry, I've been eating carbs, and my protein has decreased. This has been a learning curve and now it's time to get it right for me. you will find your strengths and weaknesses as you try different ways of eating. Good job on your current losses! CONGRATS!

Cowgirljane you are totally right. I just need to get back on track and not beat myself up. I need to handle my fear appropriately before it gets the best of me. LOL

Feedyoureye this is a good reminder that I need to be focused and not let my negative thoughts and negative emotions get me off track. It is just so darn easy to get off track. This last weekend I went to Las Vegas and looked at my body in the mirror and I looked so fat! So much skin that it did a # on me. A 10 lb gain can take us up one cloths size. It reminded me that I can't eat like normal people even though it feels like I can sometimes. I almost died when I was able to eat a 6" sub from subway. So now I have to have perimeters placed. I am also working on emotional part of where I just don't care.....or am just too lazy to fix myself something healthy. Not to mention it's not as easy to take off some weight as in the past. Typically I could eat under 1000 calories and loose. Yesterday, it was a struggle to stay under and did cut back on the carbs had basically Protein shake, Protein Bar, and a cheese quesadilla and I gained an ounce! Just so frustrating.... Sorry for the vent, I will have to come on here more often for the support and the reminder that I still need a support system in place. I just forget sometimes that I have this surgery...... Have a great Tuesday everyone....

Gosh I have a way from this site for quite a bit now. I'm actually hiding from my reality. My reality is that I am 3.5 years post opt and in the last few months I have gained about 12 lbs. My lowest was 143 and my highest as of this morning is 156.6lbs. I have times where I eat a lot of junk food. I'm sure I can eat up to 3000 calories in junk when I'm in an emotional spot and just don't care. Other days, I can keep the calories low and focus on mostly proteins. but I am a carb addict and I tend to tell myself lies and postpone the inevitable watching what I eat. This is not the easiest journey for sleevers but a good reminder that this is just a tool. It helps to read that others have the same struggle and hear suggestions given. My bariatic case manager has told me that if I eat more than 1200 calories, I will definitely gain weight. I of course have tested this only to discover how true it is by the reality of my weight gain. So today is the day that I am on proteins and keeping the calories really low. I also had an incident where my cat spelt half of my protein drink. Yayyy that helped cut calories there.

AJ I know that in the first 6 months I ate really low calorie, like below 800. Then after that, I went up and 3 year later i've gained about 10 lbs, give or take. It is not easy......I was eating Cheetos, candy, all kinds of junk food. And I beat myself up many many of times and still ate crap....My family brings it in and if I'm in an emotional place I will eat it until it's gone. I know better, but still do it. Last week I did 2 600 to 700 calorie days and lost about 3 lbs....Got emotional over something and ate what I wanted. I stopped logging etc. Last friday I had gained some of the weight back. Now yesterday, I gained an additional lb. So tomorrow is a fast day of eating healthy. I will also be cleaning out the refrigerator of the junk my family brought in. Just so sad to fight this fight. If I eat over 1200, I gain, but i avoid counting calories...this is how i sabotage myself. Time to stop and get back on track once again. I need to handle my emotions differently than with food. I am a food addict..........

Lisa you are going through stages of grief. This is a process and I hope you can find a therapist to help get through this. It's not just about eating. It's about depression. Perhaps you can talk to your PCP or bariatric doctor about the depression. It is really super hard to lose a person you love so much and to see him fight as hard as he good and to lose the battle at the end. I'm talking as a therapist bc I am a therapist.... talk to us as much as you need too. Everyday.......

I know that my fast days never hit 500 calories, and if I did hit 500, maybe I would lose 2 lbs instead of l lb. I am happy with just 1 lb too. In the last 3 days I have eaten approximately 700 to 800 calories and I have lost 3 lbs totally. So what can be better than that. I feel confident now that I can get this excess weight off... But I know this won't last long, I will start grazing again when I let my guard up. So I need to devise a plan where I can catch myself and get back on track. This is a great group and a great plan to be on. MichiganChic you are doing great! Keep it up. And I can also live with 1200 calories as long as it's not sugar. Sheryl you will get back into those size 4 jeans feeling comfy with some stretch.... I believe that we will all get back down. Here's to a great start of 2015.....

Lisa I am a sugar addict too. But I choose not to get sucked back into the sugar addiction again. I did go to StarBucks and buy a frapp and kicked myself in the arse after I realized that I wasn't thinking and gave into my addiction. So now I choose not to go near the places where I'm likely to give in to the sugary stuff. I get my sweetness from protein drinks and protein bars. I had gained 10 lbs over the last few months but am back on track and have lost 3 lbs in the last 3 days..... Makes me excited to know I'm heading in the right direction now. Now you can either choose to live a full life, or kill yourself by eating all that sugar. So to be so blunt but that is the reality. that is your choice. I hope you choose to get back on track and live. I know your missing your husband, but think of what he would want for you. He would want for you to live.......to live for him if nothing else. You can do this and lose that 44 lbs you put back on. We all have our ups and downs. We are here for you. So use us as your support.... Love ya....

FYE I really love the pics.....so active and energetic, I need to get my bike out and start doing some hiking...I am so lazy.....now that I said it, I need to change it. LOL Yesterday I was really totally brain dead. I got it in my head that a double chocolate Frapp at Star Bucks was about 300 calories and that I can handle that in my calorie intake. So i had one. I forgot about the all the sugar in there and today I gained a 1/2 lb. Like duh! Sugar causes inflammation which equals water retention. So now that is off my list. today is a new day and no sugar and keep calories under or around 700 to detox.... I had a consultation with the bariatric case manager a couple of months ago and she told me that as a bariatric patient, I should not be going over 1200 calories or I will gain weight....so I asked for life, and she said yep. So no goodies for me because after all, I did gain when I was eating all those sugars and stuff. FYE I am really looking forward to seeing the photos of you modeling. Before the surgery you looked like you were about 40 years old, I bet you look look young now too.....<3 Georgia I had started looking at my goal at being 150 lbs to and I was always around 148 to 150 until Xmas. Now I look back and realize that I had set myself up and gave myself some slack to hang myself. i did a very good job at it too. So now it's time to real in the slack and go for 140 lbs. I realized once again that I don't really need that extra cr*p I was eating and it didn't make me feel good. I just wish my kids would start taking better care of themselves weight wise too. happy Sunday everyone.... BTW has anyone heard from Laura or Cherie? Gosh I miss them....

I am 3 years out and had put on 10 lbs over the holidays. I too have kicked my self and been very angry for falling back into old habits and irrational thoughts. This is all cognitive too. I am a sugar addict and even though I knew this, I kept eating all the candy I wanted, and it had become habit to put into my mouth without a thought. I would then rationalize and say I would stop tomorrow. Each day it was tomorrow. This was a flash back to the past.... So in the past two days I have stopped eating carbs, I have a protein drink in the AM and a healthy high protein meal for lunch, and protein for dinner.. I am following the 5:2 diet plan also. I just did 2 days of eating 700 calories and I lost 2 lbs. This diet is posted here. The diet saids to do 500 calories but I struggle with keeping it that low. So if I can do this so can everyone else here. Don't be too hard on yourself, this is a learning lesson. Get back on the wagon and stay away from carbs and keep portion size small. I can eat more but I'm not hungry. I'm over eating and that caused weight gain. but it tasted so good is the rationale I would use. In fact, I was just making excuses. We really don't need to eat as much food as we have and other people are still eating. Less is better and healthier. Hang in there and be good to yourself...

I am really surprised. Yesterday I kept my calories down and it was really pretty easy. I stopped the grazing, cut out the sugars, went back to protein shakes and protein bars, and bought myself a new robe. I would of done even better if I could of cancelled the lunch with my son and his wife at a china bistro. Ordered Kung Pao Chicken and ate about 1/4th of it. In the evening I had 1/2 a chicken thigh because I wasn't really hungry. I didn't allow myself to have anything, even though I was hungry (in my head). LOL after all that, I lost a lb last night. So I'm down to 153. Yayyyy! I will try to keep it down today too. I love this excess weight falling off so quickly, even if it is just water weight...... Happy Saturday everyone..

Georgia thank you for sharing Jillian Michaels comments on over eating. It reminds me that it can come back andbite us in the butt..... ways of self sabotaging ourselves.

I am always amazed at how everyone on here is able to process what's going on. Me I process things in my and then it's gone. I know that I've had to reflect on how I have gained back 10 lbs and that's not from my lowest either. I have been very careless and just tired of watching my weight. So I took a long break, even stopped getting on the scale. I put on a lot of weight when I got married and had kids and was basically not worried about my weight because I was happy and carefree. I would go on diets and lose some only to put it back on again. I do know that in high school I went into a deep depression and it followed me for many many years.....I had so many irrational thoughts that weren't valid and had lost almost all of my friends. So sometimes I hold back on here and I enjoy reading everyone's post here. Yesterday I attempted at a fast day and did exceptionally well until my hubby made grill cheeses. So I called that my dinner. I couldn't believe I can now eat a whole grill cheese sandwich. That brought me up to little over 700 calories. Not bad but it was really hard not to eat something in the evening time I was so darn hungry... Today I weighed and I had lost 1 lb. So yayyyy, I now have 9 lbs to get off. I also have a horrible headache this morning and couldn't sleep last night. I am going to detox my body from sugars today. The last couple of months I have allowed my sugar monster to come back full force. I know what I need to do. I just need to follow through with it and love myself enough to do it..... Happy Friday everyone......

I can see this is a struggle for everyone. We can do this. I haven't been able to get myself on track for the past 2 days but tomorrow will be a pure protein day. I have clients from 9am to 8pm spread out so I will take some protein bars and a protein shake with a lot of water to drink in between. I put by nice slacks on and they are snug.....so tomorrow morning I will be on track and away from my house.... Yayyyyy. I haven't started exercise due to feeling like my knee is going to go at anytime. I can only walk a bit and then it starts hurting so I need to see my PCP and the nurse always ask how many times a week do I exercise and I am embarrassed when I answer. So it's time to stop playing around and get on top of this. No excuses...

I love this team. We all are focusing on 140lb goal and when I'm working as a team, I am more successful.. So here's to a new year of 2015 and our goal is 140 lbs..... Yay we can do this.......

I am dedicated to getting down to 140 lbs now for sure. It has always been the # in my mind. So 140 lbs is right around the corner. Working on decluttering my house right now of all the junk. Now I have a team that I can work with and when I'm dedicated to others, I don't waver. So here is my official time in. Today I'm a little under 155 lbs. Tomorrow will be a 5:2 day of 600 calories. Let's see where this takes me. Let's do this.

MichiganChic you've got this. Glad to hear you had plastics. Congrats! Some of the weight I'm sure is due to plastics, and some from eating to heal. I have this message in my head that I have to finish what's on my plate going on, after all it's just 1 more bite. how ironic. I also know if I don't eat it, my husband will and he is increasing his weight but can't stop. So I eat it. Tomorrow I will be doing my fast day of 700 calories. Oh and we will be very successful this 2015!

I will order some whole food based vitamins. I have the Raw for Women with the pink label and I believe it's the B complex that does it. So I will research and see if they have a gummy one too.. I have Kaiser and I have been consistently bugging my PCP for blood work up the first couple of years but have been avoiding lately due to my poor eating choices...I will call and schedule an appt with him this coming week. Thank you.

Sheryl I think I'm going to shoot for 140 lbs too. I am so thankful for the good hearted people in this group. It helps and I really need the support too. Time to kick butt and get back on track...

Hi Everyone, I have had a lot of life changes and I need to get back to taking care of me...so I'm back and I have not been on the 5:2 plan and have found that I've gained lbs from my 142.5 lb low. I am now at 156 lbs since the holidays. I can now eat so much more, not because I'm hungry, but because it tastes good. Gotta stop that. So I have been trying to get back to the 5:2 and each day I sabotage myself. So today I am focusing on eating just protein, decreasing portion sizes and eating no sugar. I am a sugar addict and I need to get this under control. In the past i found everyone on here was very helpful so I'm back....I love this group and I have missed everyone. Thank you for reading and letting me share....

Hey everyone, I've been missing in action for a long time so I'm back. I have gained 10 lbs since my lowest and now have to get myself back on track. I have 5 other adults that live in my house and the younger adults bring in all kinds of crap..... It really hurts me because I make the stupid choices of putting that crap in my mouth. So it is my fault that I gained. I got really nauseated taking my vitamins, even after eating and so I stopped taking my vitamins. Now my skin is so dry, my hair is dry and breaking, and my body is aching. So I am working on getting back on track with eating protein, protein, protein, and cutting the sugars out of my diet. I am a sugar addict. LOL So now it is detoxing. I am going to have a talk with the younger adults and go through the cupboards and clean them out of all the horrible foods. The good news is, I can do this, just have to get out of the old habits that came back into my life. Need to exercise too.....