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Kat, so glad to hear that things sound like that they will turn out good. I have had my share of bank problems. It's maddening. Having to close all those accounts and than reopen new ones, it's a mess and can drive you nuts. Good Luck to Manda.

Ok, here goes. I'm new at this blog thing but am willing to give it a try. My story is no different than anyone elses. I am Fat, Obese, Overweight, Huge, Out of control............. How did I get this way? I have Hand to Mouth disease. I'm the one that made myself this way. I'm the one that has control over my hands and my mouth. I'm the one not telling myself that I shouldn't be doing what I'm doing. So what is my excuse? I don't have anything in my past that I can say was a factor. I was not abused. I was not overlooked. I had great loving parents. 2 sisters and a brother. They were not overweight. I was the one. I have been heavy all my life. I just don't recollect anything in my past that triggered the out of control eating. I do remember times in my past where the food was for front in what I was doing. That I was more concerned about where the food was coming from and how much was ther going to be. Was anyone taking more than me and was there going to be enough left. At a sleep over i had one time I was so worried about the bowls of candy that were back at the house that I could not enjoy the scavenger hunt that we were on. I just had to get back tot hehouse to make sure no one had gotten into it. There were times that I would drive out of my way to go thru drive-thrus to get food. I would eat it on the way home and than when I got home I would still fix another meal. It just seemed like I needed to make sure that I always had food in my stomach. I went so long like that that when I joined a weight loss group and started a diet I was shocked when I felt my stomach growl. I hadn't felt that in about 10 years. What a wierd feeling. So one day I was watching tv and a commercial came on for Lap-Band. It looked so interesting. I got on line and started reading as much information as I could get. I signed up for a seminar and went with a friend. I was sold on this. I had to go to another seminar and my husband said he wanted to go. He was so amazed at the procedure and was determined that I was going to get it. I had a long wait to get it. I had to go thru all the Insurance hoops. Luckly I had a Doctor that was on my side and we were able to shorten that time. I only had to wait 4 months. On October 19th, 2006 I was wheeled into the operating room. My life had been forever changed. But even with all of that. I still have my disease. I still think that I need to have my food and make sure I eat as much as I can. I push the limit on my band. I seem to think that even though I don't feel like it that I have to ahve at least one more bite. That it's ok to snack all day long. Hand to Mouth disease. I have tried so many things. I have taken up sewing and that helps. I even went and got a part time job so that I'm not staring at the refridgerator all day. I have tried writing down everything that I eat, yeah, that last for 2 days. Some day I will figure this all out. But in the mean time my fight goes on. I will continue to do the exercising. I will continue to loose weight. I will keep pushing myself to loose that weight. I have come so far and I know I still have a long road ahead of me but I will make it. Things have kind of slowed down right now. I'll get my act together. I'm determined.

Ok, here goes. I'm new at this blog thing but am willing to give it a try. My story is no different than anyone elses. I am Fat, Obese, Overweight, Huge, Out of control............. How did I get this way? I have Hand to Mouth disease. I'm the one that made myself this way. I'm the one that has control over my hands and my mouth. I'm the one not telling myself that I shouldn't be doing what I'm doing. So what is my excuse? I don't have anything in my past that I can say was a factor. I was not abused. I was not overlooked. I had great loving parents. 2 sisters and a brother. They were not overweight. I was the one. I have been heavy all my life. I just don't recollect anything in my past that triggered the out of control eating. I do remember times in my past where the food was for front in what I was doing. That I was more concerned about where the food was coming from and how much was ther going to be. Was anyone taking more than me and was there going to be enough left. At a sleep over i had one time I was so worried about the bowls of candy that were back at the house that I could not enjoy the scavenger hunt that we were on. I just had to get back tot hehouse to make sure no one had gotten into it. There were times that I would drive out of my way to go thru drive-thrus to get food. I would eat it on the way home and than when I got home I would still fix another meal. It just seemed like I needed to make sure that I always had food in my stomach. I went so long like that that when I joined a weight loss group and started a diet I was shocked when I felt my stomach growl. I hadn't felt that in about 10 years. What a wierd feeling. So one day I was watching tv and a commercial came on for Lap-Band. It looked so interesting. I got on line and started reading as much information as I could get. I signed up for a seminar and went with a friend. I was sold on this. I had to go to another seminar and my husband said he wanted to go. He was so amazed at the procedure and was determined that I was going to get it. I had a long wait to get it. I had to go thru all the Insurance hoops. Luckly I had a Doctor that was on my side and we were able to shorten that time. I only had to wait 4 months. On October 19th, 2006 I was wheeled into the operating room. My life had been forever changed. But even with all of that. I still have my disease. I still think that I need to have my food and make sure I eat as much as I can. I push the limit on my band. I seem to think that even though I don't feel like it that I have to ahve at least one more bite. That it's ok to snack all day long. Hand to Mouth disease. I have tried so many things. I have taken up sewing and that helps. I even went and got a part time job so that I'm not staring at the refridgerator all day. I have tried writing down everything that I eat, yeah, that last for 2 days. Some day I will figure this all out. But in the mean time my fight goes on. I will continue to do the exercising. I will continue to loose weight. I will keep pushing myself to loose that weight. I have come so far and I know I still have a long road ahead of me but I will make it. Things have kind of slowed down right now. I'll get my act together. I'm determined.

Steel Magnolias. That one gets my vote.

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Judy hasn't checked in since yesterday morning. Is she busy with Ethan???????

Good Morning Girls, Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr it's very cold here this morning. Not much going on today. I have a meeting this morning and than I have to work later today. Other than that just some housework. Everyone have a great day and don't forget it's, CTCD.

Kat, A job?? I know I only have this little part time job and that seems to keep me happy, but I miss my old wages. I make in 3 weeks what I used to in one week. But I would have to work full time and I'm not sure that is something I want to do. But good luck in yo decision. If it's something you want, go for it. Haydee, welcome back. We missed you alot. I'm gonna call it quits early tonight. I've been up since 4:30am. So I'm gonna get dinner ready here and let the hubby clean up afterwards. He's got it easy, I'll use paperplates. Everyone have a great evening.

Ok, just read my e-mail and guess what????? Janie, Suzie and Tracy are getting together. :thumbup: :cry_smile: :blushing: :biggrin: :cursing: :scared2:

Just got home from Doctor's visit. Well, alls' I can say is that I lost. It wasn't much but I did loose. Thanks to Jenn this last week and me trying to keep up with her. After I left the office we were driving home and I took a drink of water. Hiccuped for 30 minutes, guess I must be full. Rain has stopped for now. Very cold though. Only 64 and dreary. Laura, "I will NOT smoke, I will NOT smoke, I will NOT smoke..............." Try repeating that over and over. Your baby is worth it.

Janie, Suzie and Tracy all getting together??????? Tell me when and where.

Rain, Rain and more rain. I'm sure glad we need it. :thumbup: Up early to go to work. Than I have a Doctor's appointment today , sure hope I get a fill.I need one real bad. Denise, The boys are beautiful. Dimitri looks like he has put on some weight. Before you know it both boys will be about the same. You are going to have a ball during the holidays. Kat, I need to come and go riding with you. I haven't been for almost 30 years. My best friend in school had 7 horses and we would go riding every weekend. You made me miss it. Everyone have a great Monday.

Picnic went great today. I had a hambuger patty, 2 slices of watermelon and a spoonful of apple salad. Was so proud of myself till I got home. 2 bowls of chili. I ran into a lady at the picnic that lives the next block over and down alittle and she says "I see you walking all the time". So I told her I was going at 6pm tonight and asked if she wanted to go. We had a great time. Usually I don't like to have a walking partner. But this was nice. Kat, how do you find time to do all you do???? Laura, love the kitties. Want mine???? Pam, got your e-mail and that is fine with me. I have to be at work at 6am. so I'm off to bed. Talk to you all tomorrow. Night.

Oh, the PAIN. I decided to make apple salad for the picnic today. I'm supposed to make a veggie or fruit something. Well I get up this morning and feed the cats, get my juice and start opening a bag of caramels and unwrap them. I didn't even take a nibble while I was cutting them up into smaller pieces. I than start cutting up apples. I ate 2 slices of Jonathans and than started cutting up the Granny apples. I had a few slices of that also. Than it hit---OUCH. I should have chewed them better. They aren't stuck just in there. I can drink so I'm ok there. It's just like they feel like a ton of bricks sitting in there. Hope it gets better by Chili time. I also started a pot of chili for the football games. I woke up with a charley horse this morning. Went in and took a pottasium pill and went right back to bed. I slept for another 2 hours, so I think I'm good for the day. Looks like it's going to be a great day here. Sun keeps peeking out and it's supposed to get up in the mid 70's. Nice day for a picnic. Janie, Kity ans Suzie---Hmmmmm, all good little Chatholic Girls. Did you guys go to parochial schools? I attended St. Ferdinand's - in San Fernando Calif and Bishop Alemany High School in Mission Hills, Calif. Believe or not but to this day I still like plaid. I never did mind having to wear uniforms. Never did figure out why the high schools boys didn't have to. Our Senior year they were able to wear slacks on fridays. I do think my knees are mad at me though for it. Nothing like growing up in the church. Everyone have great day. I'll check in later. Hugs.

Gina, good to see you back. It's a daily struggle for me. A long road but one I am determined to see to the end. All I can say is hang in there. If you fall get right back up and work on it again, which coming back here is a good start. Hope you stay with us. Jenn, I'm sorry for all that you ahve gone thru. That had to have been awful. I wish I could walk with you. I had to take my sister to the pshyciatric center twice for thoughts of suicide. She is so much better now but it was a hard faught battle. You are in my prayers. Nice quite evening here. I got back from church and decided to take doggie for a walk. We did about a mile and no sooner got home and it started to rain. Tomorrow is our church picnic and they are calling for nicer weather. Good deal.

Judy, Sounds like you guys are going to have a great time this evening. I love outdoor fires. One thing I miss about going to the lake. Have fun tonight. I just finished cleaning like crazy. I've been so busy the last couples of months, I have just put off doing it. Hubby got a little miffed when I tried to sweep around him. But all is done and I can sit back and enjoy the evening. Tomorrow is football day. Our church picnic is also at the same time. Hubby couldn't figure that one out. I told him I didn't think that checking the football schedule was a priority with them. So we will watch the first half hour and than go over to the picnic for about an hour and than come home. I have to take a covered dish and it has to be a vegetable. Anyone got an idea for me??? I had half a muffin for breakfast and half a cup of cottage cheese and pineapple for lunch. I also had about 3 fish sticks. Not sure what dinner is going to be. I plan on making a pot of chili for tomorrow. Monday is my Doctors appointment. I sure hope I get a fill. I sure hope he reams my butt also while I'm there. Or at least kick it real good. Hugs to all. Haydee- we miss you.

Good Morning Girls. I slept in and guess I needed it. I have spent the last 4 days pouring water down my throat and it finally caught up with me yesterday. I spent half the day in the bathroom peeing. Judy, so glad you got the heater is in and running. We had to take our pump motor back to the pool company, seems the bearings burnt up in it. So it's back home and running. Hubby just told me he turned the heater on????? It's only supposed to get up to 71 degrees today. Hope he has fun in the pool. I sure do miss it though. Kat, I purposely do NOT buy the candy corn. I will nibble till it's all gone. I won't even share with anyone. This is basically the worst time of the year for me. All that candy. But it's also my most favorite time of the year. I love Fall. Terry, The necklace is Lovely and will look wonderful on you. Everyone have a great day.

Quote for the day: "Whatever you give a woman, she's going to multiply. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her." So - if you give her crap, you will receive a bucket full of shit.

Terry, I know that your Mom is very proud of you and your work shows your love for her. That is just to beautiful. Laura, I like the name Lily Roisin. That is a vry pretty name. My cousin just named he little girl, Kildarie Rose. Very Irish. Jenn, I was going to hang right in there with you but today is my day off and I don't workout, it's a relax day. But tht is one thing I don't do. We have been busy all morning long. I'm doing great on my eating and I'm pouring water down my throat like crazy. TracyKS is right. It's cold here today. I've had a light jacket on all morning. It's finally stopped raining. Good Bye Gustav. Just need to sun to come out now. The Hospital was very busy last night. I don't think they have an empty room. I wonder if something is going around. Hope the flu season doesn't start early this year. Have a great day.

Jenn, A 60 calorie yogurt for breakfast. A salad for lunch. Snacked on some pretzels. A salad for dinner and some cheese. A handful of peanuts for an evening snack. Done for the day. I think I've done pretty good. We had our shift at the hospital tonight. Boy were we busy. I don't know if it's the cold weather or what but the hospital was packed. We did a lot of running tonight. TracyK, we do have a heater in our pool but the weather only got up to 61 degrees here today and it's only going to be in the mid 70's for awhile. I can't tolerate cold like I used to and shiver when it gets below 75 outside. Have a great evening.

THAT, was too freakin funny.

It's COLD here today. Only supposed to get to 62 degrees. Wow. And believe it or not, we are leaving soon to go to the Pool store. We have to go to the Pool store to see about them replaceing our pump. Good thing it's under warranty. We also have to buy a cover, it didn't ome with one. Seems they would sell you that when they sell you the Pool. Judy, I think my pool days are over with. It's only going to be in the 70's for the rest of the week and that's too cool for me. I hope you will get to use yours long than me. I'm sure you will enjoy having the heater on it. Terry, I fully understand everything you are going thru. I do agree that you are findng it relaxing and comforting doing your beading. I put my efforts into a lovely poem about my Mom. They read it at the viewing and again the next day at her funeral. Everyone loved it because I touched on memories that she had of all different relatives. I wrote about her feelings for all four of her kids. It was very touching and everyone enjoyed hearing it. I love the idea of the necklace and the rosary. You hang in there and remember we are here for you. Jenn, Thanks for motivating me. I thought of you thru my whole workout this morning. Thanks again. Everyone have a great day. Hugs.

Tracy, either today or tomorrow I'm going to call and get info on the Atchison Huanted Trolley ride and House tours. Have you ever gone to any of them? If you have, do you have any advice? Thanks.

Jenn, So proud of you. But be careful about over doing it. Your body will not like it. But keep up the momentum. I had decided that I was not going to do the long walk last night. I had really over did it the 2 nights before. So I take off last night with Doggie pulling me along. I went pass Cindy's house and she was outside with her son Daniel. He is 21 years old and is mildly retarded. So I could hear that they were having one of their I'm the Mom and your the Son and what I say goes, fights. So I hollered over and asked Daniel to go with me. He grabbed his bike and off we went. I wanted to get him away from his Mom so he could cool down. He has some serious anger issues. Yup, I over did it again. But it was worth it. Last night I made Shrimp for dinner and followed a new recipe. Bacon wrapped shrimp. OMG, it was delicious. I ended up eating about 6 pieces. So I guess I really needed that walk. Everyone have a great day and don't forget it's CTCD.

Terry, Just know that I am thinking of you. This is such a special time that you will be going thru. It's all about your Mom and making the right decision for her. Making sure that she is laid to rest and done just right. Burying my Mom was one of the most unreal times I ever went thru. It was one of the most important things I ever did in my life. I just kept in mind that is was for my Mom and that made it so much easier. Time will ease your pain but your heart will break forever. Not a day will go by that you won't think of her and miss her like crazy. But remember that she is with people that love her and that God will keep her safe. Hugs to you Terry and also to your Family.