Suziecat

Jenn, your friend sounds like my sister. It's all me and no one else. Never give a thought as to what she can do for you. Not that she could do alot for us but for example. She has a home health nurse that comes and hepls her around the apartment. Most of this stuff she can do herself, she just thinks it hurts to much to do it. So her nurse was a little under the weather last week, she calls my younger sis and has her come over and get 4 loads of laundry to do over her at my house. I don't mind but why can't she do her own. So I called her and asked if she was physically incapable of doing her own laundry. "Well, no. I just thought you guys wouldn't mind doing it for me". My way of thinking is this--While I do your laundry, why don't you shovel the snow out of my driveway so we can come over and get your laundry. I would never say that to her but she is an, it's all me type of person. We haven't told her what is going on with my lung yet. We are waiting to get all the reports in and to find out what my treatment will be. No sense in having her asking tons of questions right now when we don't know. It just takes alot out of me to not yell at her and tell her I have my own problems. Her clean underwear is not high on my list. Sorry for the rant.

Well, I did it. I got on the scale this morning. Not as bad as I thought it was going to be. I'm up 3 pounds. I was really thnking it was going to be at least ten. So this is where my starting point is for the new year. Still tying to decide about joining WW this week. I really need to get back to eating healthy again. I'm sure that will help me get back to losing again. The gym that hubby and I belong to is having a winter weight loss challenge. $25.00 to join and after 50 days, the winner takes all. Looks like I'm gonna join that one. LOL. It snowed again this morning. We will proabably wait till about noon before we go out and shovel again. We already have so much snow everywhere. And now they are calling for a big snow storm on Wed. Looks like I will have to get sis out tomoorw and take her to the store. Need to get her stocked up. Kat, I to have lost something. I clear the piano off and put all my snowman on there. Well, we keep a real pretty blue lamp there that has a little night light in it. It helps keep light in the living room at night. So I took it down and now can not find where I have put that darn thing. It's not real small, I should be able to see it anywhere. Just can't figure out where that might be. Hubby and I have been doing alot of that where you walk into a room and than you can't remember why you went in there. We must be oxygen deprived or something. Maybe the fireplace going 24 hours is taking a toll on our brains. I hate it because he laughs at me when I just stand there trying to remember what I'm there for. I made a big crockpot full of chili yesterday. That will be what we are having again today. My nephew has been gone for 2 weeks. He has been staying over at his brother's house feed the kitties while they are gone. So tonight he will be back here again. It's been a nice quiet 2 weeks and I'm not looking forward to him being here again. Sorry if that sounds awful. I just have had enough of the lying and attitude. So hubby and I have decided to tell him that he has 2 weeks to find a job or he needs to move back to his dad's and stepmoms. He's such a good kid but addiction has taken a toll on all of us. He needs to know that he doesn't get to just slide thru life. I wish it was that easy I'll check in soon. Hope all of you survived your holidays.

I'd stay up and party with you guys but I'm pooped. Going to bed early. Potato soup was most excellent, best I've made. Happy New Years to all.

Happy New Year's Eve. Tracy, You guys be very careful driving and having fun tonight. As for me and Hubby, we will probably be in bed fast asleep by midnight. We might wake up long enough to hear all the fireworks and guns going off. Speaking of hubby, he is busy getting the fireplace going right now. He's such a good man. Think I will make a big pot of cheesy potato soup. Have a great day and I'll check in soon.

Night Jenn, Hope you get a good nights sleep. Maybe Tracy or Kat know of a cowboy. We only have farmers here. LOL.

Resolutions sound good, but rather on focusing on someone else special--focus on you being special to yourself. Then and only then will you be ready for someone else to appreciate you!!! I like that and think that is what I'm gonna do.

Kat, how did the surgery go today?

If I can figure out how to do the sex thing then I would be there in a heartbeat.

I'll just take the shots and sip water in between.

Jenn, let's throw a party for New Year's right here. Hubby and I haven't celebrated the new year in years. We are just party poopers. He's out by 10 and I can usually make it till 11. We go to bed and than wake up around midnight because of all the guns and fireworks going off, than right back to sleep. If you plan on being here I will do the same. I'll have a Margie set up for both of us any anyone else who wants to join.

Mine went right to my hips. Tracy, so sorry to hear about Nanny. What a lucky person you are to have had her in your life. Enjoy what little time there is left. Shower her with hugs and touches, she will know. I took the last of the cookies over to my sister's apartment buildiing. She will put them in the community room for all to share. The rest of the candy and junk went downstairs to my BIL. He can use it more than me. However, while I was down there and going thru the freezer I found a tub of gooey chocolate brownie ice cream. Guess I need to put the rest of it in my sisters freezer. Maybe.

Bitterly cold out this morning and I have to get out in it. Brrrrrr. Jenn, if I was there we would definately for out for Margie's. Just sit and have a ball. Sometimes, that is all I need to get my head back. Just having a good talk with a friend. My neighbor and I will do that occasionaly and it does me a world of good. I'm really thinking about joining WW's again. Maybe it will help me get back to eating healthy. The last 3-4 weeks have been nothing but crap eating. I hardly get in veggies or even get my protein that I need. I bet I get only about 20-25 grams of protein a day. I also need to step up on my water intake again. It's hard for me to do that during the winter time. I'll check in later, off to work.

Kat, good luck with the cake and with the party. I hope she likes the bracelet. Laura, that is great about your crocheting. Must make you feel good about doing it. We took our cat Tippy to the vets today. She is having a reaction to some pain meds she took. Well, $185.00 and the Doc said it might all be in her head. "WTF". Oh, hubby was mad. So he gave us some more pain meds without the opiate in it. Why is she taking more pain meds I ask, he said she might still have some irritaion going on in the bladder that could be causing her discomfort. Hubby says if she doesn't get better that he will take her and have her tail cut off, than she won't be so afraid of it anymore. Poor thing. We keep her covered up and that keeps her calmed down. I do have a great hubby. It kinda freaks me out though. I guess I just have a hard time still after all these years thinking that someone could love me so much that they would do something like get out of bed in the morning to take me to work so I won't have to be in a cold vehicle. But I know I would deffinately do it for him if he asked. He's a keeper.

Morning girls. Jenn, your message mad me sad. I guess I really didn't realize what an impact Kev had on you and that his mental issue took such a toll on your relationship. I guess that would be hard to get over. I can see where you would still have a love for him, just not for his issues. Your right that you may never find that kind of love again, but have faith that it can happen. And like you said, don't just jump into a relataionship just to try and find it. It will come to you. What makes me sad is knowing that I may someday lose my Hubby and then where will I be. Lost just like you and not knowing if I will ever have that same love from someone again. Speaking of hubby, he just went into the bathroom. I think he's going to want to take me to work this morning. It's bitterly cold and the roads are still snow packed. I told him that it's going to suck to get back in my car after work and not have any heat. I only live about a mile from work and my car won't have time to heat up by the time I get home. I teased him about taking me and than coming to get me so I wouldn't have get into a cold car. He's so funny about it. Says I'm a whaaa whaaa. :thumbup: It's 29 degrees out and they are calling for a cold front to come thru today. Really??? I did pull out a steak and when I get home I'll get the crockpot out and make a steak soup for dinner tonight. Lots of veggies in it. Something healthy besides all the cookies and junk I have been eating. I have decided that I will not weigh till New Years day. I will start fresh then. New year and a new start. Have a good day and I'll check in soon.

OK, the holidays are somewhat over. And I for one am glad. The eating has been out of control. Actually I really haven't eaten that much but it's been junk. I had a fill last monday and I just haven't been a model bandster. It finally stopped snowing. Thank goodness. We shoveled 3 times. Today was the last of the snow fall till about wednesday. They are calling for about another inch. Yesterday we shoveled again and I had hubby take me to the grocery store. They were having a sale and I wanted to get some shrimp. Hubby and I like boiled shrimp and also cooked on the grill. The last few days I have spent in front of the TV. I have watched about 6 movies that I had recorded. I also watched all 7 episodes of Ugly Betty. There were a few other things I got caught up on. My butt is tired of sitting. Back to work tomorrow. I think when I get home that I will have hubby bring all the totes in and I will pack up all the christmas stuff. I just feel like having my house back in order before the new year gets here. I'll also have to go over to my sisters to deal with some insurance stuff she needs taken care of. Jenn, Holidays are hard for me. But i'm looking at it right now as a new start. I have a whole new year ahead of me and I'm going to work my hardest to make it a good one. Financially and healthwise. You can do this also. I have faith in you. Kat, I know it will be hard on your for the next 2 weeks. Look at it as time to get some stuff done that you have been putting off. I can think of all kinds of things I would be getting done. Like cleaning out closets. Hmmm. I think I'm gonna start on that this week anyway. lol. I'll check in tomoorow morning before I head to work.

Here's a few more pics. Trying to get to church.

I actually tried to keep my eating under control today. I did so-so. I didn't over do like the last two days, so I guess that's a plus. Weather is horrible here. They are telling everyone to just stay home. We did, decided not to go to the in-laws. Good thing I had bought a ham last week. We fixed dinner for here and just had a nice quiet day at home. Watched a few movies that I had recorded. Hubby said that it was a good day for all the kids that got sleds for christmas. I told him that kids don't get those anymore but that it sure did suck for all the kids that got bikes. Looks like they will have to wait for over a week before they can try them out. I got a hooded sweatshirt from our local high school, so I''m nice and warm. Hope all you had a great day.

Merry Christmas. Wishing everyone a very happy and great day. Hugs to you.

Good Christmas Eve morning. I had a wonderful nights sleep and woke up to light rain and temps falling quickly. Hubby had brought in firewood and started the fireplace when I came out. Not much on my agenda for today. I have a lot of shows and movies to get caught up with on my TiVo. Looks like it will be a good day to get started. Wishing all of you a very Merry Happy Christmas Eve. Stay safe, enjoy your families, food, and the reason for the season.

Cindy, Hubby and I have a memebership to Anytime Fitness. We are pretty happy with it. The "Y" wanted $87.50 for us both. Anytime is only charging us $38.00 for us both. Huge difference especially when I can only go maybe once a week.

Good morning girls. Quick post before I have to head to work. Tracy, Maybe with the little girl, this will be a chance to teach her right and wrong. A chance to instill some manners in her. Good Luck. Kat, thanks for thinking of me. The last few days have been rough for me. It's like this every year but with losing so many loved ones right at Christmas time it's hard to get out of a funk. I'm getting better at it though. Jolly, WOW. Glad you guys got home ok. Raining today and will be raining for the next 2 days. They are calling for snow on Christmas day. That will be nice. My new goal for right after Christmas is to get back to walking. I went for a walk with doggie yesterday and realized I hadn't walked in weeks. I could really tell it. Everyone have a great day and I will check in soon.

*Help Wanted* Immediate opening for a very strong, loyal, energetic, caring, fun and understanding person. Looking for someone to help me get back on track and someone who can take a beating. Someone who will understand what it's like to struggle but won't let me back down or try to fool myself. Someone who will bring a smile to my face but not let me try to slide back to my old habits. Someone who won't ridicule me or chastise me but also strong enough to see that I'm a normal person and needs some help. If you think you are up to this job, please send me your resume. I will hire all that is up for this grueling job.

Kat, normally I can't do bread. Yesterday at the restaurant, I ate way to much bread that was dipped in oil, I think thatis why it went down so easily. It was covered in oil. So today I cooked some fat-free hot dogs and wrapped mine in a piece of bread. 3 bites in and wham-o, stuck. Crazy. I will be going in for a fill tomorrow. Doc isn't going to like the weight issue. Oh well, I suck at this right now. Stress will do that to you. Hubby is going with me. On the way we will be going by the cemetery where my parents are buried. So we are going to stop and put flowers on their graves. It was 20 years ago today that my dad passed away. It sure doesn't seem like it's been that long ago. Mom's been gone nine years. I'll check in when I get up in the morning for work.

Wow, sounds like Pam is all most as busy as me. LOL. Went to a christmas party last night and drank way to much. Guess with all that has been going on, I looked at as a stress reliever. And now I have a fill tomorrow and Idon't think Doc is going to be happy. But with all the that has gone on in the last few weeks, I hope he understands. I'm definetly getting a fill. Another round of cookies to make this morning and than I will be ready for our christmas today. Everyone should be here around 1pm. Cookies and candy all day long. I'm doomed. Have a good day.

Hi Pam and welcome. Hope you hang around with us. Sorry I have been M.I.A. Been sicker than a dog. And when I'm feeling up to it, I have been baking and making fudge and everything else we need for tomorrow. I did just get home from lunch. My boss took all of us girls to Zio's for kunch. I love italian food. Now I'm off to church and than home to get ready for a christmas party at a friends hosue tonight. I already bought a bottle of margarita's to take along. LOL. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.