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You guys, Thanks so much for the PM's. Right now I am a huge puddle of mess. I haven't eaten since dinner last night and hubby is trying desperatly to get me to eat. I just can't do it. I have to dry the tears up first. He even offered to go get me some ice cream. Ok, you know I'm not doing good when I turn down ice cream. I told him maybe later after the sun goes down. I am also hoping that it's just a misunderstanding and that they read the report wrong. Let's all keep our fingers crossed for that. Angela and Tracy, did you guys get a chance to meet? I hope so, even wish I was there. Thank You so much for all the kind words and for being there when I need you. You guys Rock.

Hi Jenn, so good to hear from you. We miss you alot. When I read that about you and George I had a sigh of relief. So glad to hear that things are running smooth in a relationship for you. It's about time. And great job on the weight loss. Check in soon again. I'm up and so desperately want something to drink. I will take a little sip but would really like my hot chocolate. Last load of laundry is in. When it's done I will shave my legs and then take a shower. I'm supposed to scrub my back and use clean towels to dry off. I'll head to church and then come home and grab my stuff. I packed a little overnight bag. A robe, slippers, gameboy and a few other little things I'm thinking I might need. I got to meet some of my scrub nurses last night. I showed them me on the board. They gave me some good info. The girls that we work with said they would check in on Hubby. Said they will go into the waiting room and ask "Has she had that baby yet". We talked about getting ballons and streamers and confetti to decorate the OR with so I feel at home. We made all kinds of plans. It was really funning but most of all it eased my mind. Took a little relief off. At one point I was back in the DeCon room talking with Laura and they brought in equipment to be cleaned. It was from a knee replacement. I actually had to walk away. It was turning my tummy and making me nervous. Hubby said he would have a big cup of iced tea waiting for me in my room when I get there. I wish I could have it now. My sister will text you Tracy, so will you post to everyone that all is ok? Hubby is not a typer and I'm not taking my lap-top. I made a small list of people's phone numbers for my sis to text. It will be from my phone so you should recognize it. Everyone have a great day and hopefully I will be home tomorrow afternoon and be back on here. See you soon.

Home from the gym. I rode the bike for 2 miles and it felt good. I didn't go near the treadmill but I did upper body weights. So I'm good for awhile. Now off to the shower and then to the hospital for my echo. See ya soon.

Oh Kat, I hope you got a good nights sleep. I know how stressful that must have been. But you did good. I too am hoping that both sisters will find out in the next few days that they can pull their weight a little more around here. Younger one I'm not so worried about but older one is the selfish one. You know since I told her what was going on, she has never asked me how I'm doing. It's always, "I'll be fine". All about her. I have my echocardiogram this morning and then I will pick up both sisters and head to the grocery store. I'll get them stocked up and then they are on their own. Oh that felt good to say that. lol. Storms are headed in here in the next hour or so. Then hot steamy weather after that. I think I will have hubby turn the AC on before I get home from the hospital. I don't want to be laying in bed miserable. At least get the humidity out. Have a great day and I will check in later.

:confused:HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Angela. Hope You have a Wonderful Day:thumbup:

The Hospital called and I am all set to go. I just need to go to admit and then on to Pre-Op. Count down starts now.

Hey Girls, Home from work and running around. I'm really pooped. I went to me Band Docs to get some fluid taken out. It was his assistant who did it. She wanted to know if I was having problems with a too much fill. I told her "No", I was there because I am having surgery Thursday. She said, "OH, you're finally getting your Hiatal Hernia fixed"? No, again. So we told her what was going on and she agreed that I should have some taken out. She asked how much I wanted taken out and I told her I didn't know anything about this and that I would leave it up to her. She shoved the needle in and and said that my band was full. She goes "look at this". I look down and the plunger is moving it's way up. It was filling on itself. She finally ended up taking out 4cc's. By the time I got to the car I couldn't believe the relief was having. I could actually bend over and not have all that pressure. I'm feeling really good but know I am going to need to watch my portions from now on out. She told me to come back in a few weeks for a fill. I told her that I think I will wait till my Hiatal Hernia surgery, no sense in running back and forth. She did remind me to tell the anesthesiologist that I have a band, that way he can give me some meds to keep me from throwing up. They have OATS here for people to use but you have to give them a 2 weeks notice to use them. She does have someone to come and get her for her phsycotherapy classes. But other than that I would have to find an Adult daycare. Not sure I can talk her into that one. She's an "All Me" person. Bethany, I have never heard that about your hands. That has got to be really hard to live with. You use your hands for everything. Good Luck. Michelle, That is very sad about the yarn shop closing up. I have a little store here I use for all my cross stitch. I would be lost without them. Angela and Tracy, can you please keep the heat that way? Actually the last 2 summers I went thru that period of losing the weight and my internal thermoastat was out of wack. I've been cold all the time. Wearing sweatshirts in the summer kinda thing. Lately I have been back to my normal "Geez it's hot". Not looking forward to it. Think I'll go take a nap.

Kat, Good Luck tomorrow. I'm thinking that is why I don't get involved in working the polls. I remember years ago my parents were stongly involved. Tey actaully used our house as a polling place. I remember people coming and going all day long. Not sure I want to get involved with all of tht again. Tracy, over on FB I posted some pics of my Dad and his nephew from when they were drafted. I also made reference to my FIL who served in WWII in the south pacific. None of my family said one word about the pics, not a "Hey Suzanne, thanks for posting those". "look how young they were". Not a mention. But I make one statement which was my own opinion and a cousin remarks to it. I know next time I see her she will be apologizing for it. I get a lot of crap like that from that side of the family. They are die-hard Dems and so totally look down their noses at anyone who isn't. You could be an independent and they would still think you are scum. I gotta work in the morning and then I will come home and get hubby. We will have to go to his old work and pay our life insurance policy and then we will go to the Band Docs to have some fluid removed. I hate that I am doing that but I don't want to suffer after the surgery. Went over to the sisters today to tell her the whole story. She cried and then said, "who's gonna take me to my appointments?". (bangs head against the fireplace). I'm so glad this is all about her. What was I thinking. Anyway, I reassured her I would take her grocery shopping Wednesday and somehow I will get her to her Doc appointment next Tuesday. Hope everyone had a great weekend.

Happy Memorial Day. I hope all of you have a great day and hope that you all had a great weekend. We are just gonna hang at the pool today. Gosh, kinda like we have for the last 3 days. LOL.

Cindy, that is scary. I've been in those storms before. Nothing you can do put pull over and pray. So glad to hear that all of you are ok.

Tracy, I never could understand why women or men for that fact would do things like that. Don't they understand that at some point their child is going to find out what a complete ass they were. Poor kids act more like adults do. So far we have had a lovely weekend. The weather is beautiful and warm, so lots of swimming. For the last 3 days I have gotten in the pool and stayed in my floaty chair. Well, today I got in and put the goggles on and did some swimming. I'm paying for it now. My butt and leg are killing me. I took a shower and then took 2 vicodin. I told hubby he is incharge of dinner. I'll be loopy here in about a half hour. Angela, so sorry to hear about your friends mother. How sad. Cindy, I was so glad to hear that about Keith Urban. Someday I will go see him. I'm not a big Taylor fan. She may be a very good song writer but I don't think she is a very good singer. I hope the guys have fun at the other concert. Kat, I love to do stuff like that. We have a Fall Fun Fest here and I go every year even if I go by myself. I love to walk around and see all the stuff. Have a great evening.

Two weeks ago I had an unfill. This Tuesday I am going in for another unfill. This morning I had a slice of pizza for breakfast. :cursing: This unfill thing is not working for me. Looks like I'm going to have to get the brain in check.

I took a muscle relaxer last night and went to bed at 9pm. Woke up at 8am. I'm all refreshed and ready for the weekend.

Cindy, so glad to hear you DD is home and had a great time. We saw Brooks and Dunn last Sept. They really put on a good show. I would love to see Keith Urban. I have several of his songs on my MP3 player that I listen too when I go walking. I hope the rains hold off till after mignight for you guys. Have a blast.

We used to get our stuff from JC Penney's. They had a section in there where you could go get Boy and Girl Scout stuff. Back then they didn't really have a wide selection. Gosh I would love to go to a store lie that. I bet it would bring back a lot of really good memories. Swim time. We floated around for about an hour. Loved it. I sure do miss Jenn alot. Can't wait till she can check in a little more than once a week. Did you see where Gary Coleman died? He was really young. Not sure yet what happened but he did have kidney problems. Poor thing.

Nothing like a crappy 3 hour sleep before having to go work for 6 hours. It's gonna be a long day. I was really tired when I hit the bed but the brain went into overtime. Finally got to sleep but kept waking up and the mind would start racing again. So now it's awake when it doesn't want to be. Can't do anything about it now. Looks like a nap is in store for later. Michelle, glad to hear DD had a great day. Can't wait to have Kat back full time. Everyone have a great day. I'll check in when I get home from work.

Angela, You are so lucky that your boss was understanding about the phone call. I get those here at home and explain that there is no one here by that name. I even tell them to call the phone company to see who the phone is registared too. They still call back. They here our answering machine and still ask for those people. Not sure what it will take to get thru to them.

They will make a 1 1/2 inch incision at my L4-L5 area on my lower back. He said it will take them bout 2 hours to do the whole thing. I will go to the hospital that morning and then be released the following day if all goes well. Oh dear, right in the middle of this post my Band Doc called to tell me I have been approved for my Hiatal Hernia surgery. I told them what was going on with the Spine Doc. They suggested that I get in next Tuesday or Wednesday and get a slight unfill. They said there will be a lot of swelling in that area and that I might feel better with the unfill. I think I might take them up on it.

Hi Guys. Hubby, younger sis and I went to see the Spine Specialist today. Looks like next Thursday I will go in for surgery. He said that the cyst is taking up 2/3 of the spinal column and pushing on the spine which is causing all the pain. They put the MRI up on the screen and my sis said "OMG, look how big it is". I just laughed and told her that that was my port. LOL. Anyway when the Doc put the screen with the cyst on it up, you could really see how big the cyst is. Doc is concerned because the MRI is not showing where the cyst is coming from. He can't see any fingers to it to see what is feeding it. So they were going to turn it into the insurance company and if all goes well I will be admitted to the hospital next Thursday. Wednesday night hubby and I work at the hospital and I told him I like that because I can now sterilize my own surgery equipment. :thumbup: Now I have to find someone to cover my shift at work for a few days for me. Wednesday I will go to the hospital to have my echocardiogram done and then head over to the older sisters to let her know what is going on. For the last 6 months we have kept all of this from her. The lung, back and heart cyst. So I will have to go explain it to her. There is just no way I'm going to be able to slip this in under the radar. She'll wonder why I can't drive her to an appointment or do shopping for her. So I will go over and sit with her and tell her the whole story. This should be interesting. We came home and oldest nephew came over and helped us get the steps done for the pool. He got in and I went and put my bathing suit on. I tried getting in but 84 degrees was a little too cool for me. So I sat on the steps and gradually lowered myself in to the water. Before I knew it I was up to my chest. So I grabbed a floaty chair and nephew and I floated for about an hour. It felt so good on my back and hip. He's got the girlfriend coming over here soon with the boys so that they can go swimming. Fun time here tonight, Hope you all had a great day. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers. But please keep them coming. Next Thursday is going to be a worrisome day for me. HUGS.

Do not read Kat's post when you just wake up and your eyes are still adjusting. I thought she wrote that she was teaching a jerk class today. OMG. Tracy, either way, she is just too cute for words. Can't wait to meet her this summer. Michelle, tell your DD I said to have a very Happy Birthday. Cindy, have a good time at your planning. Bethany, no need to apologize. I had actually ran into a friend earlier that day and she is the one who said it to me and it just brought out some feelings that had been festering in me. My rant is over and I learned a valuable lesson by it. I learned I am a strong person but most of all I learned that I belong to an amazing group of astonishing women. You guys rock. Thanks for hanging there with me. Now to go dry my hair and go get my sister taken care of so I can go to see the surgeons. Make it a good one.

Not to gross you guys out but here is my story for tonight. I don't shave my legs during the winter time. I know, gross, eewwwwww. I'm not very hairy and I have very light colored hair, so it's easy to get away with it. Now to on to what I wanted to tell you guys. I just went in and shaved my legs so I can put my bathng suit on tomorrow. I got some new stuff from Avon. It's Skin so Soft Shaving Gel. I really like it. The other stuff I like is a foam and even though it does a good job it just seemed to be easier and do a better job with this gel.

Home from our shift at the hospital. I just love going there, we have a great time with the girls. When I got there I had to go to my sisters room. They were discharging her today. I had the hardest time getting one of her kids to come and get her and take her home. Finally the youngest came and got her. I'll have to get up in the morning to go get her prescriptions and take them over. She's on antibiotics for her sore throat and instructions to eat even though she doesn't feel good. She's not to let her blood sugar drop like that again. That's what caused her stay at the hospital. I really wish her kids would step up and help out more but they won't. The oldest told me the other day that he really doesn't want to talk to her more than two times a month. The daughter only comes around when she needs something and you guys know what problems we have had with the youngest son. I'm home with my feet up for just a little bit. I'm going to go in and sit on the side of the tub and shave my legs. It's pool season now and by tomorrow afternoon I will be in my suit and if the water is warm enough, I will be in the pool. I am so looking forward to it. Angela, Years ago we rented a Motor Home and took my parents on a weeks vacation to Oconomowoc Wisconsin. For weeks my dad had studied the map and how to get there. My dad was one of the smartest men I have ever meet. Anyway, later in the day I finally talked my dad and my hubby into letting me drive this huge 32 foot rig. So I'm in the driver seat and I ask my dad for directions. I can see him sitting at the table in the kitchen and he reaches up and turns the light on, grabs his glasses and puts them on, picks up the map. Unfolds it and looks it over. He then tells me to go about 3 miles and take hwy ## for 4 miles till we get to the next city. He folds the map up, takes his glasses off and reaches up and turns the light off. I drive for about 2 1/2 miles and ask my dad what highway was I supposed to take. He reaches up and turns the light on, grabs his glasses and puts them on, unfolds the map and tells me to take hwy ##. So I do what he says and I drive for about 3 miles and then I ask him what the name of the town is that we will be coming up too. He reaches up and turns the light on...........You get the story. I was just busting up. My mom finally caught on to what I was doing. I had so much fun with him on that trip. Tracy, your little mini-me cracks me up. I love the pictures you post. But it probably is a good thing that she got her dads temper and demeanor. Kat, that was the best news and I let out a woot when I read your post. What a relief for all of you. I hope your dinner tonight was a joyous one. Now if I can just get a good nights sleep without 500 different things running thru my mind. I will try to post as soon as I can after my appointment. If I can't get home right away I will text Tracy and she can post for me. I do hope that I can get some vicodin from him. I'm tired of my ass hurting. I love saying that to my hubby, and then I ask him to kiss it and make it feel better. Did that just turn your stomachs????? I love you guys and thanks for helping me get thru this hurdle in my life. I know it will all turn out ok, it's just getting thru it. Hugs to all of you and I will say and extra prayer for all of you that God keeps you all safe.

So I do my Rant, go and get a bowl of Breyer's peanut butter cup ice cream and feeling pretty good. I may just make it thru this. Then the phone rings and the sister is at it again. Capital "B". and I mean that.

Hey guys. I'm going to try and repost but tone it down a little. I was just in a place that it hit me all wrong and I should not have tried to comment on it at the time. I am calmed down a little right now but I still have the same feelings. I take offense when people tell me what a good person I am and how they are amazed at how well I take care of my family. To me it is my Cross to bear. That is exactly how I look at it. That this is my punishment for being a not so kind person. Don't get me wrong, I'm not an evil person. I'm just not a very good Christian. But right now I am at my wits end with the older sis and the younger one is close to being there. I'm tired of being the one in charge and responsible. I want to be able to have my time and take care of myself right now. This health issue I have going is very nerve wracking to me and I'm doing my best to deal with it. But when I have both of them coming at me with their health problems and all the other crap they have going, I just want to yell at them to stop. Stop, do you not know how to call your own doctor? Do you not know how to do your own shopping? Laundry, insurance, cat box, dishes, meals, etc.... Maybe I would rather spend that 5 minutes I'm sitting in the car waiting on you to take you somewhere with my Hubby. Maybe I would like to go out to eat with my Hubby instead of leaving him to go do your laundry because you don't feel like going downstairs to the laundry room. I'm tired of hearing how much you hurt all the time when you do nothing but sit in a chair all day. You should try being my shoes for a day. Try feeling what it's like to carry and extra 200 pounds around on your bones and still doing all the things I do. I mow, I walk your dog, I grocery shop for you and on and on. So, yes I will be there when you need a ride home from the hospital, I will be there when you need someone to listen to you, I will just be there. But don't take advantage of me. Be respectful of my time and what little time I have to share with my Hubby. Don't act like I am your personnal care taker and boss me around. Because when you do that I will utter under my breath a few choice words and if you by chance hear it, don't be shocked. That is why I am not a nice person, a kind person or anything else. I can't seem to do things and just do them because it is the right thing to do. I do them and then have resent. I do, do and do and then look back and think, "Who's gonna Do for me". How selfish is that? Horrible. I know it and I'm working on it. Some day I will be at peace with it. Just not right now. Pet Peeve. I Hate, Hate, Hate when people do NOT say good bye when they hang up the phone. That is so totally rude and I Hate it. So if you start to hang up without saying it and I catch you, don't be suprised if you hear me call you a name. Maybe that will teach you next time to be more respectful. This is in no means directed at any of you here. I am just so very very glad that I have all of you and that you guys are more than willing to listen to me rant. Sometimes I need to let it out and I know poor Hubby is tired of listening to me. He never tells me that, I just feel bad that he gets the brunt of a lot of it. Tomorrow is my appointment with the 2 surgeons so you can imagine where my head is right now. An maybe that is why all of this is going on im my head. Just major stress. Now I'm going to apologize to all of you. I am truly sorry if I have said anything to offend any of you. I really am sorry. Dealing with Mentally handicapped people is very trying and I do a lot of tongue biting. So bear with me and I will try to be better in the future. Now it's off to fix lunch, change into our scrubs and head to the hospital. I'll check in later this evening.

Oh I'm so pissed. I wrote out a big huge post and it didn't go thru. I commented on a few things that were posted and I think God got even with me for what I had wrote. I'm to tired right now to redo it so i will do that in the morning. Maybe have a better frame of mind by then. Sweet dreams.