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Kat, I will keep Jarred in my prayers. That is horrible but I will keep good thoughts that all comes out ok. I guess you would just never think of a bird being the cause but it can happen. I remember we left Arkansas about 5am and with it being so dark you just don't see dead animals in the road. Hubby was so lucky that he kept his cool and didn't lose it. Those are the hazzards you never think of. Hubby wanted to go with me for my walk this morning. He might think twice about asking to go again, lol. We walked. And walked. And walked. I was feeling really good and energized. Finally made it home. I did a few things around the house and then laid down and waited for me nephew to come and pick me up. He was taking me over to get my sister and take her to have her blood drawn and to grocery shop. We got that all done and swung back by the house here and picked the hubby up. He drove us over to my sisters and dropped both of them off with the groceries. We headed home and I got his lunch for him and then I took off for another walk. Yup, this time I took doggie. We only walked for about 15 minutes. It's really hot out. Not humid but very warm. I'll go for one more walk this evening. Last night it hit me hard that I had let my eating get out of hand. I know that having major surgery that things can get away from you but I need to not let it get that way. I'm going to make a more concious effort to not snack. That's where my problem is. I think a handfull here and a handfull there doesn't add up. Wrong, it does. So I'm going to work on that. Thanks guys for standing with me on this. I need to be really hard on myself because I never want to gain back what I have lost already. I'm down 200 pounds and I'll slit my wrist before I let that creep back up. I hope you are all having a great day. Tracy, you about all packed again?? Poor thing but you are making the right move. I'll check in after my next walk.

Hey Guys. I'm going to use this fine Monday morning to kick myself in the ass and work on getting my life back undercontrol. Last night at dinner I was so amazed at how much food I ate and more surprised at the speed I ate it. And you would have thought that it would have ended there. Nope, we snacked while we were watching a movie and then I came out and snacked some more right before I went to bed. Horrible and I have no excuse for it. I'm sure alot of it has to do with what I have been thru in the last few weeks but I'm not looking for excuses right now. I'm looking to grab at it and get it undercontrol. So I'm going to start with getting my walking in and getting my water in. With those 2 I'm on a good start. The one thing I need to really do is to start to feel better about mself again. When I'm in a mental funk and not doing what a Good Bandster is supposed to do then it wears on me. I just wish I had better control of the forces that surround me, but since I don't then I'm going to take control of what I can. I know a good Bandster will follow the rules and that is where I'm going to go next. Go to my Doc's website and read the rules again. Starting over. You'd think as with as many times that I have started over that I would know them by heart. HUH. Fooled you. So here's to the new me. Move it, Move it, Move it.:scared2:

Wow, yesterday I never even turned my computer on. Not sure why. Tracy, you'll love having the pool. I used to be the first one in and hubby would sit and drink his coffee and count my laps. After I was done then it was free swim time. Just a few more weeks and we will be back to that routine. Yesterday I decided to go to the pool party. Hubby drove me over and I was going to get a ride home with my neighbor. Well, when we pulled up her toy-boys car was in the driveway and I should have told my hubby then to take me home. So I go in with him following me asking me questions about my operation. I was cordial but not rude. I just don't feel a connection with him like she does. I asked Deb where here van is and she tells me that Wes said it was ok for me to ride in his car. Not in my mind it's not. He has a car that seats 5 and there is already 5 of them. Not working out for me. So I told her to not worry about it that hubby will come and get me and I shoot him off a text to be back at 5pm to pick me up. Whitin an hour I was on the phone almost crying for him to come and get me. The toy-boy went ballistic and I actually got freightened. I couldn't hear all that he was saying but I do know it had to do with me. She finally dragged his ass out side and I could hear him actually beating on his chest and I heard her then say to him to shut up, that I was in the kitchen and could hear him talking about me. I was frantic at that point and was on the phone calling for anyone to come and get me. I should have just started walking home but hubby showed up in 5 minutes. OMG, he was furious and it took all my strength to keep hubby from turning around to go take this guy out. I don't know what triggered this out break by this kid but it took my neighbor a lot to calm him down. This all took place at a party for a 10 year old girl. If I had a daughter there I would have grabbed her and left. There was no call for his behavior. Now I wonder how he acts inside her house in front of the little girl. I am scared about him doing something and I don't know who to call about reporting him. I do know one things is for sure. I will not have anything to do with her as long as he is around. I still don't understand why a 19 year old boy is hanging around a 43 year old women. Something is just not right. So today hubby and I laying low today. Kind of like this last week. I feel better laying in bed than I do sitting in a chair. These staples come out Thursday and I think I will be better after that. There is some swelling in that area and it makes it hard to sit in a chair for very long. We thought we would have heard about the biopsy by now. I asked hubby if I had to take chemo and lost my hair, would he shave his head? I wish I had a picture of the look on his face. It was a combination of "Did you really need to ask me that and OMG, we are going to be a sight". He is too funny. I am so amazed at how protective he is of me. I feel this warm, comfortable, at ease, all is right with the world feeling when I am with him. Love it. Have a great day, enjoy your families and life. Hugs.

Tracy, that complex looks wonderful. And it sounds like things are falling into place which means it was meant to be. Good Luck. Kat, I know what you are saying about Rick. I would be the same way. Knowing that I did all I could would be my goal. Hubby worked out in the yard today. I'm so jealous. But I was able to get a few walks in and some needed dusting. We are working on the laundry now. Next door neighbors 10 year old daughter is having a swimming party tomorrow over at her dads and has asked me to come. Not sure I'm up to the heat or not being able to lay down for awhile. I'm thinking about calling the Doc for a fill. I have eaten out of control this last week. Not that I'm hungry. Just that I know I can eat it. I haven't weighed myself since before the surgery and not sure I want to. Cookies and chips have been good frends of mine for a little while. At least get a little fill till my next surgery. Hope everyone is having a good weekend.

Morning girls. Hubby is at the gym and after he gets back I will go for my first walk today. It's gonna be rough, it's supposed to get hot and sticky today. Yuck.

Hugs, Kat.

Oh Tracy, I hate to hear that. I will keep my fingers crossed that all runs smoothly for you guys and you are right, don't worry about the kids. If they show up, that's what sleeping bags are for.

Oh Suzanne, that breaks my heart for you. I remember how excited you were and how this was going to be a great beginning for both of you. I hate that it didn't work out but it is time to cut lose before someone gets seriously hurt. I will keep Gia in my prayers that she will hopefully someday soon realizes that she needs to be responsible and that her actions do define her. Poor thing. Good Luck to you and I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Hi Irene. Miss you.

When was Kat supposed to be home? I get kinda worried when someone is away for too long.

Morning girls. It's supposed to be really beautiful here today, low humidity. Think I might have hubby get me out for a little bit besides my walks. Mostly stayed in bed yesterday in my jammies. Weird. I don't do that very often but I liked it. I love the pic of you two. It sounded like you had a good time and that more are too come. When we pass thru there this summer all 3 of us will get together. And Macy can take all the pics she wants.

My friend keeps begging me to take Zumba with her. She is in a class with about 6 other girls we used to work with. I've seen it on TV. I don't know. Worried about getting this big butt moving like that. I might hurt myself or someone else. And I have absolutely no rhythm. I have basically stayed in bed all day today. I woke up feeling good after a real good nights sleep. But just felt like staying in bed and letting hubby wait on me. Having a lazy day. LOL. Hi Jenn. What a nice treat that was for you. And how exciting to have someone that thinks about you and not what their needs are. Sounds like this might be a keeper.

It was the L3-L4 area on my lower spine. I wish I was going to have coffee with you guys. I don't drink it but I would pretend.

Hi guys. Not a very god day here today. No setbacks. Just everything catching up to me emotionally. Around noon things started to look up and get better. Here's the pics. The first is the first day I came home. The second is a few days later and you can see how the bruising has spread.

Morning. Kat, that is so sad. Tell your Mom I will keep her in my prayrs and her friend also. Be careful driving. Angela, I will post pics later today. We took some new ones because the bruise has spread. He really did some digging. Hubby and Sis are cracking me up. They are in a a rivalry over who can dress my wound the best. I told Hubby to let Sis do the morning and he can do the evening. I think it hurt his feelings. He just wants to make sure I heal correctly. I'm up 5 pounds but have been drinking like a horse. One of the meds they gave me, they warned me about it causing dry mouth. I'll take a water pill probably tomorrow and see. I did get to take a shower this morning and it felt really good. Just had to keep reminding myself to not turn my back to the faucet. But washed my hair and cleaned the other parts. LOL. I'll check in later. Have a great day.

Good Night Everyone. Hugs.

Stopping in for a quick check. Kat, I wonder if it was the money they were arguing about. But as long as you tried to find them, that is what counts. So glad you guys had a good time. And some day you will have to tell us about the beer and the bed. I called my boss about 15 minutes ago and she said that I had already called her. Told her I might need to switch from the vicodin to tequila. For some reason I couldn't remember if I had told her that I can't work for 6 weeks or not. I just wanted to make sure we were covered. She just laughed at me. Yesterday I started itching really bad so I took a benedryl and about 4 hours later I took another one. Last night when I went to bed I didn't take any pain meds because I was worried that I might be having a reaction to them. When I got up this morning I took another Benedryl. I waited for my sister to come up and I took her into my room and we checked myself over for hives. I also had her check the surgery site because I have an allergy to the tape they use and have to use the paper tape. She said everything looked good but moved the gauze down to give that area a rest. Her and hubby kinda got into it last night over doing the bandages right. I told her that he has it in his mind that it is his job to make sure that I heal correctly and that he wants to do a really good job and she said she understood, but that I should see how he over did it with the gauze and tape. Bless his heart for taking such good care of me. Today is Sis and BIL 17th anniv. So I told her I would go to DQ with her later to pick out a ice cream cake. It couldn't hurt anything. I have eaten like a pig all morning long. So far I have 3 of my 5 walks in. It's getting really hot outside so I will wait till later this evening before I take doggie for another walk. I reread my previous post and had to laugh. Gosh, could you tell I'm on meds????? Ok, kids are on there way back over here to swim. Without me. So I deserve a trip to DQ. I'll check in later.

Hey Homies. Thought I would check in real quick and let you guys know that I am doing excellent. Really, I really am. I am so amazed at how good I am doing and how well I feel. But the surgery site is still sore. The butt, hip and leg feel wonderful. I've been doing just what the Doc has ordered and laying low. A little while ago I went to the kitchen to get some more water and thought to myself that I could really get used to this. Others taking care of me. I feel like a princess. lol. Hubby took pics. Let me know if you want me to post it. Not sick looking but might make you a little squimish. The kids came over and have been in the pool for about 4 hours. Gonna send them home soon. I actually have spent most of the day laying in bed. Sitting is kinda hard. We have been watching that "Life" series that Oprah narrated. It's been really fun watching it. Doc did tell me no swimming or work for 6 weeks. I can handle the no work, but this no swimming is going to be really hard to do. back to bed. I'll try to check in tomoorw. If I don't it is only because it is uncomfortable to sit in a chair. Thanks again to you guys for caring so much for me. You guys are the greatest. Have a great weekend.

Hey guys, I'm home. Boy, that was to say the least, very interesting. I woke up in rcovery to the nurse in her outside voice tellin mg to wake up. I asked her where I was. She told me that I was in the recovery room. I than asked why I was there and once again she told me. I than asked if I had had surgery. She said "yes". I had surgery, where was I? They started giving me ice chips and telling me I needed to wakeup. "Where am I, I asked" I think I ended up asking 3 time. So finally they brought Hubby in to explain it too me. When we got to my room. that was when they told me that it wasn't a cyst but that it was a tumor. Doc said he was sure he got all of it but will send it to be byopsied. We will know in about a week what the result were. So about 1 1/2 hours later I was up and out of bed walking to the nurses desk. You should have seen the looks on their faces. They really surprised. I had baked a batch of cookies for them and I dropped them of. I walked 2 times yesterday evening. Today I am up to 4 walks. About 7pm, Doggie and my little sis and I will walk down to the corner. Everyday I walk 5 times and added a minute to each day. I can't begin to tell you how much better I feel. The pain and numdness are gone but it hurts at the surgery site. I just need to take it nice and easy. Sad part is that I can't go back to work for 6 week. That's not the really sad part, I can't swimm for 6 weeks. I'm mortified, holy crap. I'll be back later to tell you some more. I just want to let you guys know that the thoughts and prayers are deeply appritiatived. You guys are the best.

Bye guys. I'll check in when I can. Make it a good day.

Terri, congrats on your date. But I think both of you are going to be big winners. Good Luck and keep us posted. Hi Jenn, miss you lots.

Laundry and phone calls. That's my evening. Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers. I truly appreciate them. Just need to get this done and back to my somewhat normal life. I'll check in real quick in the morning and then we are off to the hospital. Tracy, my sis will text you when I get out. I have my phone already preset for her to text people. Angela, hope your son is feeling better and that you guys get some sleep tonight. Hi Kat, miss you.

Headed next door. Order a pizza and watch a movie.

Just got home from the gym. I rode the bike for 2 miles and then did arm exercises. Would have loved to have gotten on the treadmill but that ain't happening for awhile. Now off to get housework started.

Angela, that is a very intriguing story and I would love to someday sit with you and have you tell me the whole thing. I'm thinking I would probably feel the same way. I would love to see and hear from them but I would be cautious also. Good luck and keep us posted. Yesterday I was on the phone with the hospital doing my pre-op when all of a sudden there was a screeeeeeech-pop. Hubby and I went to the door and sure enough, once again someone had been rear ended at the corner. We checked to make sure no one was seriously hurt and then went back to what we were doing. Well, my sister comes in and says that it looks like the car of a friend of my next door neighbors. Then she comes in and says that it is my next door neighbor sitting in the grass. So I slip my shoes on and head over the where she is at. By this time you can hear the sirens coming and she is complaining of her back being really sore and you can see a huge bruise on her arm swelling up. Wes was driving and he appeared to be ok but Deb took the brunt of it. They load her up into the ambulance and I turn around to head home and my cousin is standing there. I ask what she is doing and she said that her son Joey was the driver of the car that hit them. I didn't even check on the 2 boys because they were up and moving around and on the phone so I didn't even recognize that it was him. They both didn't have their seatbelts on but Joey was hit in the face by the airbag. As far as I know they were not taken to the hospital. I'll call his Mom today to check on the boys. Looks like both cars are going to be totaled. So I went into the garage and got water bottles for everyone and made sure they were ok and then headed to the hospital. We were there for about 4 hours when they finally released Deb. We went to the pharmacy to get her meds and some ice cream and I brought her home. The toy-boy is also going to be sore but thank God everyone will be ok. I'll go get her some lunch today and then her 10 year old daughter will be home this evening. I'll either go get dinner for them or fix them something. Poor thing is going to be sore for a week. Yesterday I had really worked myself up into a frenzy about having this stress test done. They were doing it by chemical and I had heard that it was going to be awful. They had told me the other day that they had new drugs and that it wasn't as bad as it used to have been. That still didn't ease my mind any. But as it turned out, it really wasn't that bad. I kinda thought that it was a little better than being on the treadmill. So they put the drug in and start looking at the monitor when the nurse calls out for the Doc to come in the room. Everyone is worried and asking me how I was feeling. She said my heart is shooting out some unusual fibs. She asked if I could feel it and I really could, weird feeling. Anyway the Doc comes running in and takes a look and said that it was my heart reacting to the meds. Sure enough they watched it and it settled down. All was good after that. We finished the test and he came back in and reviewed all of it. He turned and said that I was a go for surgery. He said he was going to call the head Doc but as far as he was concerned he didn't see any problems. Said the chambers looked good and so did the valves. I asked him about the cyst on the heart and he said it was something that they were not worried about and that they most likely will leave it alone. So that was big sigh of relief for both of us. We took off and headed to a late lunch at our favorite mexican restaurant. Now I have a day ahead of me of once again getting ready for surgery. I'll be busy all day. Tracy, please follow up with your Doc about your heart. I really hated all that I have been thru in the last 2 weeks but and son relieved that I did all of it. And none of it hurt. Just a little time consuming. For yours and Franks peace of mind you need to be checked out. Everyone have a great day and I will check in later.

ahhhh, Bunco nights. I love those. Ok, I'm drunk while typing this so I will log on later to give you all the details. But the Surgery is a go. Whew. And now 2 margaritas later I'm ready for bed. But I'll let you know about the test later. Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers, you guys are the best.