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Hey... here I m...@ a soccer game... Dh @ I went to the vet, the kids didn't want to go... had some time w him, then held him while the muscle relaxer kicked in, then left for the final shot... cried so much my eyes swelled shut... just feel stunned today, try to keep occupied w this & that. I m hoping that the rain gets here this eve & ds's game is cancelled tomorrow morn, & then I will just spend the day literally under the covers in bed. I need a day like that. If not, then we have to leave @ 6:30am for the game! Yikes. Thanks do much again for the moral support... you all r the best.

Mo.

Ok, home now. LOVE my hair this time, she did exactly what I said... last time must've been a fluke. Vet called. It's poop! How how how can it be poop?! I've been scooping poop every day or 2 from him. DH was no help at all, although I didn't think he would be. I'm crying and crying as I type this. Poor Mo. We have to put him down/to sleep whatever you say we all know what it means & it SUX!! Like any of us really need this in the tender emotional states that we're already in from this year so far. F%^K! F*(K! F@#K! So now the decision is... when? Do I go now and do it and when the kids come home tell them? Do I wait for them to come home, ask if they'd like to go to say goodbye to him? Do I bring him home for the weekend & then take him in on Monday? Do I bring him home & wait 'til he's in pain again and then do it? ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGH! DH actually said to me on the phone "What do you want me to do? I'm on a bike in the middle of Pennsylvania." Well, duh -- I want you to TALK to me and figure this out! My mom was coming up today anyway, to go to a concert @ my sister's school tonight, so I called her hysterical and she said to wait 'til she comes up, wait 'til the kids come home & ask them if they want to go, and then go & get it over with. I'm thinking that's a good idea. The thought of bringing him home for whatever period of time makes me sadder -- having him be all cute & playful & cuddly & looking @ us w/those big blue eyes and trusting us... only to take him back on Monday? I think I'd be a mess all weekend. & just going & doing it seems mean not to give them a chance to see him if they want to... they just left this a.m. w/out a second glance, as none of us realized where the day would go. Thank you thank you thank you for letting me vent here today!! I feel like I keep saying that to you all this year. Sorry. I'd love to have only fun, happy stuff to type about... maybe NEXT month? Hope springs eternal.

Ok, under the dryer while my hilites lighten... So, the vet said the lump is big... if it's poop again, they'd have to go through the whole routine of sedating him, enemas, etc like they did before. I said no, we can't keep putting him thru that every 3-4 months, especially when I'm spending almost $100 a month on meds + special food & fighting to give him the meds 3 x/ day. Then the vet said that it didn't feel like poop, that it felt more like a tumor. So this is bad news for Mo either way.& for me, having to make the decision. Dh is off biking somewhere. So... good thoughts, please. I m so worked up about all this, + I m sure the 4 hrs of sleep isn't helping. Ok, I m cooked. Time to remove the foil!

Left mo @ the vet for xrays... he didn't seem to concerned about his throat, but hr found a lump in his abdomen that he thinks might b cancer! M gettting my hair done as I type... Bbl.

M @ the vet... of course now he's acting fine... just like my kids when they were little... as soon as i'd make the app't, suddenly they'd feel better... ugh.

Well, I guess I spoke too soon. Or maybe this is just not my year. I was really hoping that w/April came a new start. Ack! Mo. Stupid, stupid cat! He's an indoor cat, who likes to try and sneak outside, mostly in the Spring & Fall. Well, now that he's feeling so spry, he tries all the time, and has gotten out a few times. Usually he just goes out the garage door and then walks around to the front, then sits on the porch by the front door waiting for us to see him through the sidelights and then let him in -- so adventurous, right? So last night when the boys got home from soccer, Mo got out, unbeknownst to anyone. Around 10pm when dh was going up to bed (he's riding in a 100-mile bike ride today, ugh!) he spies Mo outside, let's him in, checks him to make sure he doesn't have any ticks or bites or anything, he's fine. A few minutes later we hear this Gosh Awful SCREECH! It's like a really high-pitched kack (for lack of a better word). We fly into the kitchen to find Mo trying and trying to dislodge *some*thing from his throat... he's licking his lips, coughing, sneezing, and then making that sound. Even dd woke up & came down as she was scared by the sound. (DS sleeps like a rock.) He can breathe, and is walking around, isn't meow-ing, so I don't think he's in pain... just something is stuck in his throat -- the *other* end of the end I spent all my $ on this winter! So I stayed up with him 'til 1am... I was trying to think of what I could give him that might lube it up... I did butter & his medicine... didn't work. I tried massaging his throat/belly (I was thinking "kitty heimlich"). So finally we ended up curling up on the couch and he fell asleep. That's when I went up to bed, thinking all was well. Until 5am this morning when that screech pierces the silence of the house again! ARGH! So I leap out of bed & come downstairs, and he's still trying to get rid of whatever it is. Sooooo... guess who's going to the vet first thing this morning & guess who doesn't have time or money to deal with this... Mo, & me, in that order. Oh yeah -- good morning, Vi's!

Good Thurs Morn, Vi's~~ Starting an extra-busy run of days today... so many spring activities w/the kids! DS has 4 soccer games tonight - Sun! + concerts, etc... whew! Can't wait 'til June & days of hanging out @ the pool! Will check in when I can! xo

I see you on here, SuzyT... how're things going? ((Laura)) How agonizing... you bring back some vivid mommy memories & feelings with your descriptions. It does get better.... eventually... promise! But those baby days sure can be gutwrenching!

Awww... poor 'lil guy!... poor Mom & Dad!

This is me to a T, Judy. Sigh. I'm hoping that my two upcoming short-term goals (WDW in 8 days, followed by the wedding just 11 days after I get back from WDW) will keep me honest & on track. So far, so good! Sorry to read that, Laura.

Chugging right along here today... just made a skinny cinnamon dolce latte in my PS S'bux mug! Ah... happy memories while I work...

Good Thurs morn, Vi's... Was Glee great or what?! Regular day on tap today... & that's all I can think of to say, so I'll go & come back when I think of something! :smile:

Whew! Whirlwind shopping trip w/dd... somehow managed to drop $100 (& saved $90) in under an hour! What a fashion plate! Tried on capris for WDW next weekend (9 days!!!)... rut roh! May have to buy a pair or two in a bigger size... waaaah! But talk about motivation! I was down 2lbs today... for a 2010 total of -12... I'm TRYING! The next time I want to stick something in my piehole, I'll think about those pants!!! Going to get settled in for Glee -- it's Madonna night!

Oooh, he's just a bit too late... Guess we know where Pam will be! :ohmy: I am just worried about having my DANCIN' SHOES ready... We'll have those bad boys kicked off by then! Bob'd better not step on my pedi'd toes! Went to the bank and then made myself stop @ the park & take a walk... lovely Spring day... I'm sure it was good for me, whether I wanted it to be or not! While ds is @ soccer practice tonight, dd & I are going to the mall... all of a sudden she has no clothes -- nothing fits! Argh, growth spurts!

If I log in, then it re-activates my account & page & I don't want to do that. & yes, I know that then I could simply de-activate it when I'm done, but then I'm on & off & on & off and they're sending me e-mails and... grrrrr! Stupid FaceCrack!

& that you taught Kindergarteners!

Good Morning... a slow start for once! Yes, Janie, you can and should be proud -- doing it once was hard, but twice is twice as hard, so you deserve to be twice as happy and twice as nice to yourself for achieving it!! Judy, enjoy your peaceful day! Is that Stephen King book good / worth lugging it around? Pam, how many more days in your school year? What are your summer plans? Just enjoying the new house? Laura, did I miss what happened w/Russ's parents? Haydee, lovin' the e-mails! Thanks for "consulting" w/us! I "less than three" all of you, too! :ohmy:

Yay janie! Haydee, I have that book but couldn't get into it.

Rickin' frickin' Facebook! Ya'll are killing me w/that thing! Argh!

Pam, I clicked the link & I need a username & password?

Hey from S'bux... m waiting for a friend... she's late... grrrrrr... I m so rushed today & don't have extra time. I am still fat & don't know what I m going to wear either. I don't think my happy pills r working as I m cranky/sad/annoyed a lot. Especially w/ myself. Sigh. Post a pic here, please! Will check back later... do

It's adorable! It looks *just* like Larry the Cucumber! Great job! Carson will love it! Can't wait to see his "cake face" pics!! Remember how Mo the cat used to be all stopped up and slow and sluggish and sleepy all the time? Well, now that he's more "regular", shall we say, and has lost some weight, he's the complete opposite! He's perky and playful and adventurous... which is great, except when he's gallomphing around the house and knocking over the bathroom trashcan and basically sounding like a herd of elephants @ 6:30am on a Sunday -- which is why I am up typing at this early hour on the only day of the week that I can sleep in (which, mind you, means just 7:30 or on a really lazy day 8, lol!). Crazy cat! Today is State Cup Soccer game #2... it's an all-day thing, as it is so far away... still in Md., just about as far away as it could be! We'll leave @ 12:30, game is @ 3, be home by 6:30-7ish. That's my day today! Everyone make it a good day, whatever you're doing!

Your day sounds idyllic, Pam! Not so much w/the "snaining", Judy. Love the pic, Laura! Happy bandiversary, Janie! Boring day here today... which is nice, but when I have little to do, I tend to fall asleep & then get nothing done! It doesn't happen often, but when it does...

Mmm that sounds yummy! Top it w the b&j's! Lol. Who can tell I m bored @ the barn?? :thumbup:)