you have all been very helpful, all of your advise i will take to heart, and yes, ditching the boyfriend and getting back into counseling should be at the very top. not much i can do about the family, maybe thats how it started i guess lol, but anyways, ill start researching on the subject more and talk to doctors around me, i wish you all the best of luck yourselves and hope that all your efforts bring you to a happier and better place. thank you again.