Paris2012

I am at a total loss. I had my band completely unfilled before I went to Paris for my honeymoon in October bc I was getting severe gas pains and bloating to the point I would be crying and it takes alot for me to cry. Since then I have had several fills to get back on track and so in December I HAD to get back on track. I was tired all the time and just in bad moods all the time. I was tired of it. So I started working out and it took me a little bit to get motivated but I did. I am at the point now where I am on the border line of being 200 again. I was down to 150 after a year of getting the lap band. (I have had in since June of 2007). I started eating right and everything and also doing Insanity. Well I have been having issues with my heart. I have a monitor implanted in my chest to monitor my heart. Well now I am at my bottom. I have to have a procedure done on my heart so I won't be passing out or have my heart racing while I am just sitting down at 10:30 at night. But I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know where to start. My husband is my best friend. He tries to help me out but if someone tells me don't eat that I am going to eat it. I don't know how to get over that hump. I want to lose this weight and keep it off but with every corner there is a wall in my way. I try to work out then something else pops up with my health. I am in tears every day. I feel so unattractive that I won't let my husband touch me. I look at myself in the mirror and I hate the person staring back. I know it seems crazy and I am sure this is a little too much info for everyone but I need help and I can't lash at my husband anymore for trying to help me. I also have two girls and that is alot right there. I eat because I am bored and I am also an emotional eater. I asked my doctor today if I can do some of the Insanity workouts but not too many just to feel like I am doing something. I refuse to buy a size 16 in pants so I am fitting myself in my 14 pants with a squeazing cami. If anyone could help me out I would greatly appreciate it.

I have had my band in almost 5 years in June. I am filled to the brim. I have been having gas pains and numbness, tingling and pain in my left shoulder that goes up to my neck. It gets so bad that I'm in a ball and in tears. Yes the band has worked for me. I weighed 233 when I first got the band and I'm now 165. No I have not reached my goal although I was close 3 years ago but was diagnosed with cervical cancer. So I'm back on track and just not seeing the results anymore. I stopped going to the gym bc I'm doing Insanity (which I love by the way). My port hurts a lot when I'm doing some stretches. I just feel like I don't need this crutch anymore. But I just didn't know if I should keep it in or take it out. Has anyone had it removed and if so is there any ups and downs?

I was a mess. It got to a point that I would chew up food and spit it out just to taste what my children were eating. I was evil when I couldn't eat. Only fluids was very hard but its just a step to a better way of life. Good luck.

I was a mess. It got to a point that I would chew up food and spit it out just to taste what my children were eating. I was evil when I couldn't eat. Only fluids was very hard but its just a step to a better way of life. Good luck.

I was a mess. It got to a point that I would chew up food and spit it out just to taste what my children were eating. I was evil when I couldn't eat. Only fluids was very hard but its just a step to a better way of life. Good luck.

Hi, I am new, well not really new but I have only been on here once. I have had my lab band for almost five years. My first year was great I lost about 70 pounds.But things have happend and I am trying to get back on track. Thanks